I Am Him….

I am humble

Closing my eyes

Just for a second

Enjoying this spirit of gratitude

That same feeling you get infrequently

That mood celebrating a victory

But what if

You had the authority and power

To invoke that spirit perfectly

No need to wait on children’s success

Ignore temporary social accolades

Pause in your tracks

Decide to feel ecstatic

If you ain’t smiling

You ain’t there yet….

I am tired

Way past sleepy

Had so much on my mind

Needed to burn all of my energy

If you were feeling better

I would have called

Even sent a long ass text

Too dangerous to send a letter

Normally I can last

Next time comes when it comes

This time

I’m struggling….

I am patient

That’s all I can tell myself

Seems ridiculous

That we are so far apart

Knowing intuitively

That my entire world is at peace

Whenever I see you once a week

Yet here I am

Emptying out my soul

Everyone is here

But I feel so alone….

I am hungry

I don’t know what I want to eat

But I need something

Spoiled is the best word I have

Used to the spots we visit

Getting out of my routine

Wanting more than I have

The reality

Life will provide what I need

I am tired of being patient

Too hungry to leave….

I am him

Only real difference

There’s a lot less hair

But everything else

It’s still there

Matured a lot since back then

Learned so many lessons

Now I am just sharing

Staying in gratitude

Moving through life

The main purpose is peace

When I see cloudy skies

I am humble enough to go inside

I am tired enough to rest

I am patient enough to be blessed

I am hungry enough to be fed

I am him