Kept thinking
I could escape my past
Find a way to end the wrath
I thought the longer I lived
The more happiness I would have
And old painful things
Would fall away at last
Wanted to believe in pure things
That not everyone is an enemy
But had too many trusted faces
That I can no longer tell
Who is who
In the fell clutch if circumstance
No longer willing to take a chance
Kept thinking
Loss is only temporary
And eventually it is replaced
In some type of way
Replenishing what was missing
When protection is lost
A different person emerges
Wanted to believe in pure things
That this evil festering is temporary
Now we are so intertwined
I smile so you believe I’m fine
Ruthlessly divert conversations
Protecting everything left in me
Barely holding the vengeance within
Kept thinking
If I had that day again
If my God created protector
Was just there
But he never showed up
And never will again
Crushed into oblivion
Sy Bryant 