Not sure what to do with this emotion
Wallo reminded me about expectation
Here I am doing what I tell ME not to
Thinking how’d I get to a place where it got to
Feeling so unappreciative in all this
Just that deep pondering that I miss
Accepting envy from the TV
Creating unrealistic moments of fantasy
Mind repetitively reminding me
All this was initiated by me
Afraid to contemplate the true meaning
Knowing the outcome is demeaning
Avoiding every truth I see
Instead of managing what could be
Trying to ignore everything that could be
Just trying to reach a state of peace
If I could just stop thinking of the increase
Know it ain’t right but I need to release
The future is too far to be seen
Focused on the past in what It should be
Missing out on every present opportunity
Then expecting peace when I’m sleepy
The impossible creation of these dreams
Closer than what it seems
Sy Bryant 