I still remember you from childhood days
That constant feeling you gave on Xmas days
Anxiety deafening every move that was made
That hope, that constant hope you made.
You are always there in the strangest way
Regardless of how I feel, showed me the way
When you’re not around I struggle to make sense
Ambivalent traversing life like a 6th sense
Closed my eyes and see you there with pride
In the midst of the pain striving for that pride
The future of this abyss leaves me yearning peace
Transverse this void no short cut to this peace
Yet, I’m still here, energy drained, still need more
Striving again to see you once more
I miss you, that newness, that hope
That anticipation, and realization, I need that hope