Sitting here thinking bout the past,
I’m always surprised
I was able to make it last.
It ain’t an anchor
But a lot of lessons learned,
Now I’m just tryna
Heed my own words.

Just never knew I’d end up here.
Filled with all kinds of shit
I don’t wanna hear.
Thinking of the present future
With the past right here.
If only you knew,
If only I could bear.

Walking this street
With the rain falling.
Screaming out loud
And it’s God I’m calling.
I need to understand
Why I’m being punished.
Who did I hurt?
What did I do?
Feeling like I’m finished.

Just never knew
I’d end up here.
Filled with all kinds of shit
I don’t wanna hear.
Thinking of the present future
With the past right here.
If only you knew,
If only I could bear.

Think I’m scared
To know the truth.
What would be revealed
If I knew the truth.
Contemplating shit
That ain’t even real.
Caught up in past decisions
Like it’s my final deal.
What am I suppose to do?

Just never knew I’d end up here.
Filled with all kinds of shit
I don’t wanna hear.
Thinking of the present future
with the past right here.
If only you knew,
If only I could bear.