What Am I Doing Here?

What am I doing here?
What have I done
All the blessings
Given to me
Yet I still long for one
That peace of serenity
That prayer of Jabez
Bring me home at last

What am I doing here?
What will become
Decisions that should have been made
I ignored them with ignorance
Choices I should have made
Took for granite they would always be there
Yet here I am
Wondering where I am

What am I doing here?
What is yet to be
When I look up into the sky
I do not see what I’m meant to see
All I see is a reflection of me
Every doubt and sacrifice
Feeling the weight of it on me
Questioning was I meant to be

What am I doing here?
Was this life even meant for me
Looking around
Realizing that no one is around
Moving through the shadow’s protections
Supporting unreciprocated emotions
Truths rarely spoken honestly
World full of people, yet it is just me