This is my last time

Saying that final goodbye

Let God wipe the tear from my eye

This is my last time

Never will I feel this way

Nothing else to say

Never been like this before

Thought I wanted something more and more

Now things are crazy

I don’t even exist

Just a shadow of me

Walking through the door

Not a care in this world

Thinking I’m not alone

That’s the biggest curse

Wanting to believe it must be me

Why else does guilt keep grabbing me

The more and More I push

The more and more I realize

And I still act surprised

When I finally see

And ain’t a us, just a me

This is my last time

Saying that final goodbye

Let God wipe the tear from my eye

This is my last time

Never will I feel this way

Nothing else to say

Leaving phones unanswered

Have no desire to speak

Becomes more and more difficult

Pretending I’m weak

As the wind blows

I can feel every bit of the past

Just never imagined that pain would last

As the river flows

Everything is washed away

Nothing else to even do

Just awaiting judgement day

Have no expectations of open gates

The subtlety of each and every crime

Beyond what they eye could see

But God always saw me

That wrath will be upon me

This is my last time

Saying that final goodbye

Let God wipe the tear from my eye

This is my last time

Never will I feel this way

Nothing else to say

Watching out for anything new

Happiness is just a myth

Just hard to be so serious

Holding onto this pain

It just reminds me of things

Not sure how I get through

Every 24th hour

Just brings me compounded pain

If I could really smile

Wonder what that would be like

Really laughing out of joy not spite

Really seeing something new

Having that anxiety of love anew

Something always happens

Manifested lies and behavior

Just Tired of being my own savior

This is my last time

Saying that final goodbye

Let God wipe the tear from my eye

This is my last time

Never will I feel this way

Nothing else to say