This is my last time
Saying that final goodbye
Let God wipe the tear from my eye
This is my last time
Never will I feel this way
Nothing else to say
Never been like this before
Thought I wanted something more and more
Now things are crazy
I don’t even exist
Just a shadow of me
Walking through the door
Not a care in this world
Thinking I’m not alone
That’s the biggest curse
Wanting to believe it must be me
Why else does guilt keep grabbing me
The more and More I push
The more and more I realize
And I still act surprised
When I finally see
And ain’t a us, just a me
This is my last time
Saying that final goodbye
Let God wipe the tear from my eye
This is my last time
Never will I feel this way
Nothing else to say
Leaving phones unanswered
Have no desire to speak
Becomes more and more difficult
Pretending I’m weak
As the wind blows
I can feel every bit of the past
Just never imagined that pain would last
As the river flows
Everything is washed away
Nothing else to even do
Just awaiting judgement day
Have no expectations of open gates
The subtlety of each and every crime
Beyond what they eye could see
But God always saw me
That wrath will be upon me
This is my last time
Saying that final goodbye
Let God wipe the tear from my eye
This is my last time
Never will I feel this way
Nothing else to say
Watching out for anything new
Happiness is just a myth
Just hard to be so serious
Holding onto this pain
It just reminds me of things
Not sure how I get through
Every 24th hour
Just brings me compounded pain
If I could really smile
Wonder what that would be like
Really laughing out of joy not spite
Really seeing something new
Having that anxiety of love anew
Something always happens
Manifested lies and behavior
Just Tired of being my own savior
This is my last time
Saying that final goodbye
Let God wipe the tear from my eye
This is my last time
Never will I feel this way
Nothing else to say