Sitting here thinking bout the past,
I’m always surprised I was able to make last.
It ain’t an anchor but a lot of lessons learned,
now I’m just tryna heed my own words.
Just never knew I’d end up here.
Filled with all kinds of shit I don’t wanna hear.
Thinking of the present future with the past right here.
If only you knew,
if only I could bare.
Walking this street with the rain falling.
Screaming out loud and it’s God I’m calling.
I need to understand why I’m being punished.
Who did I hurt?
What did I do?
Feeling like I’m finished.
Just never knew I’d end up here.
Filled with all kinds of shit I don’t wanna hear.
Thinking of the present future with the past right here.
If only you knew,
if only I could bare.
Think I’m scared to know the truth.
What would be revealed if I knew the truth.
Contemplating shit that ain’t real.
Caught up in past decisions like it’s my final deal.
What now am I suppose to do?
Just never knew I’d end up here.
Filled with all kinds of shit I don’t wanna hear.
Thinking of the present future with the past right here.
If only you knew,
if only I could bare.