
It’s hard not to self reflect
Based on where I am today
Deepened into curiosity
Of each choice that I made
Trying to alleviate myself
The doubt and pain
Consistently leveraged
To bury myself
Self reflection
More than a mirror will ever show
Rewinding for a moment
Specific situations
Even a few examinations
Trying to fathom the impossible
That I rewrite history
Curse of an unconquerable soul
Reflecting on my past self
Circumventing each time
I did the right thing
In the right time
Because I negatively
Don’t want to be me
So I constantly re-evaluate
How I came to be
Perpetrating my own reflection
Applying filters readily
Unknowingly maintaining
That morbid view of reality
Neglecting the higher calling
Of why I am the way I am
Ungrateful in my own satisfaction
Just a passenger in the inception
Reflection retrospectively
The numerous assurance
I offered in individuals pursuits
Believing they are happy,
Enjoying every bit of life and liberty
Cause those fantasies ain’t for me
Created realistic fantasies
That conspired and paralyzed me