
Never understood anything you did
There are times I wanted to understand
The education that you gave
Conquering the body and emotion
With fierce devotion
Never heard a word of love
Just a Hey periodically
Never a call or even a visit
Just now
Trying to figure out what I was missing
Definitely remember
The few interactions
Weighed heavy enough
Never wanted to get any closer
Extremely comfortable with closure
Driving 80 miles per hour
Sharp curves
Gliding graciously
Because no point in driving
If you are doing it soberly
Fairly ambiguous about many things
There was so many times
That your name didn’t mean a thing
Just a joke of sorts
As the pipe was lit
All I really recall was that first hit
It didn’t sting, it burned, lash of that belt
Because of the effort you gave
Just another bit of abuse
From a man that knew me from the very beginning
Even when I knew
You were leaving the earth
There was nothing left to experience
Nothing new for us to review
Just heard about it in passing
Do not remember sheading a tear
Ashes stored in a closet, like trash on a shelf
Knowing that you would no longer be here
It was in that moment that I truly learned
The value of life on this earth