All This Pain

All this pain

Stirring in me

People everywhere

Feeling So Empty

Joy please find me

Wide awake

New day’s sun

through this window

Barely touching me

laying here in misery

Trying not to move

Somber mood

everything is ok

What I’ve learned to say

Tired of talking

Been thinking

Yeah I know what’s wrong

Love got me blinded

Can’t you see, It’s me

All this pain

Stirring in me

People everywhere

Feeling So Empty

Joy please find me

Phone vibrating

Been turned the ringer off

Know who it is

know what they want

Ain’t even worth the effort

To pick up the phone

just want to be alone

Everyone think they can fix me

But I know they can’t fix it

Cause I’m that one

That fix their shit

Counting out each day

That I’ve felt this way

Deepened hopeless mood

Yeah been kinda rude

Just not in the mood

All this pain

Stirring in me

People everywhere

Feeling So Empty

Joy please find me

Knocks at my door

Yelling who is it

Delivery especially for me

Probably another bill

Too many to count

To know for sure

Special box for me

Opened with energy

Just a note for me

Tears for my eyeS

Old notes from

My Father

Miss him everyday

Since he past

Reading the proudness

Giving me hopefulness

All this pain

Stirring in me

People everywhere

Feeling So Empty

Joy please find me

Need my ladder out

Climbing out of here

Breaking down

Walls of emotion

Initiating devotion

New plan developing

Open up this window

Fresh air welcoming

Getting new point of view

Pain in the rear view

Eyes focused on the future

Wounds finally closing

faith is a suture

Optimistically looking

The joy life caused me

Strength resurrected within me

All this pain

It is me

All this joy

It is me

All this pain

All this joy

This pain

This joy