Experiencing things Differently

As if different choices were made

Imaging the differences as reality

Now I’m stuck on this fantasy

What if’s.  And If that’s….

None of it means a thing

In reality it’s not better or worse

It’s just a different path to the same thing

Going deep into the emotion of different things

Plotting out new courses with a different ring

The difference of this emotion is only

That I’m trying to make it different

Like trying to only carve out the best

Like this fantasy wont let me rest

Repeating my past with different decisions

Precisely laid out like an incision

It’s just a different way but the same pain

Looking at money differently

Don’t need different banks to exchange pennies

I am the hedge fund, creating wealth differently

Money watching money make money

Different life sure to be

That different life, different expenses surely

And in an instant still broke as could be

But at least I made the money differently

Pain is soothed by different thoughts

As if I weren’t in control the first time around

The different things I would have done

If and only if I knew what I know now

Same intelligence doesn’t lead to a different result

This is the life I have, I could start living or be lost

Focusing on where I am

versus where I thought I should be

The only difference, is the difference I am imagining.