Forgiveness?
I heard about you
People stay talking about you
Telling me I need to meet you
Somehow I need to get to know you
They kept saying I need some time with you
Telling me how nice you are
Speaking as if we ever met
The world would be so different
The crazy part
They never tell me how you look
Only describing emotion intelligent things
As if those things have meaning
Expecting me to show a sign of softness
Forgiveness?
Forgiveness?
Let me tell you like this
I know how to treat people
And if you want to be
One of those people
Just know
I will tell you
Like I told them
Everything is everything
We can even pretend to be friends
But if you dare cross me in anyway
You better watch for what’s coming your way
I will cut you off with the quickness
Forgiveness?
Forgiveness?
You keep asking me these questions
Knowing you really don’t want to know the answer
I know I’m alone, but that doesn’t mean I’m lonely
It is absolutely intentional
Based on how people treat me
I know every time I see you
You looking at me because I’m solo
But at least if I am the only one here
I will already know
How everything is about to go
I’m telling you I am good
From sun up to sun down
I do not need you in my business
Forgiveness?
Forgiveness?
When the night becomes clear
That is the part that is anchored in fear
Would I be as strong as I claim to be
If everyone that did anything
I allowed to continually hurt me
How am I missing out on life?
You know how this thing go
You meet them
You trust them
They take you for granted
They take your last bit of trust
Now they look real different
That is why I am suspicious.
Forgiveness.
Forgiveness.
I get what you saying
Because I have yet to let go
From each and every hurt and pain
Right now
That is all I know
I know how to be hurt
I know how to manage pain
And now, somehow
I am creating the exact scenario
That I claim to be letting go
I am my worst enemy
Counting nights minutes
Forgiveness.
Forgiveness
I see you
I remember I saw you a while back
When I turned away
When they stabbed me in the back
I walked right past you
I just didn’t know it was you
I just thought as long as I keep this wall up
I would always be strong enough
Now this same wall grown so tall
I cannot see anything
Not a single joy or smile
Please accept my apology
Please forgive me.