Every day is a blessing and a curse
I remember every single thing
Literally like it was yesterday
Details and feelings
Visions and meaning
If you asked me
Very specifically
What I wore yesterday
I couldn’t answer you
Because everything of the past
Is not within my view
But I remember when
I felt every smile
I felt every annoyance
I felt every pain
I remember when
Every experience is a triumph and a disaster
It isn’t really clear what I’m after
The earth showing me the same thing
Day after day spinning in the same axis
Weather changes but everything is the same
Reliving life repeatedly
Wondering when that change
That new life
When will it happen for me
But I remember when
When every adult told me
Anything I wanted could be mine
I felt every pride
I felt every faith
I felt every deceit
I remember when
Every thought is life and death
Anticipating every possibility
Analyzing imagined life
As if life was actually occurring for me
Providing the illusion of ease
It’s more like I’ve already prepared
As if every option was possible
Already determined every next step
But I remember when
Life has more beauty
When defense wasn’t the best offense
Life used to be something to me
I felt every deadly sin
I felt every eternity
I felt every circumstance
I remember when
Every being is Life and Death
One assumes the other
Until one consumes the other
Regardless of magic
Irrespective of prayer or hope
The fate we all reach is equivalent
I remember when
Everything we wanted to believe
It all had to be permanent
Even when our own existence
It is just but a dream
The next generation was the truth
I felt every doubt
I felt every love
I felt God
I remember when