Sitting here and I’m reflecting
The days and nights I was dreading
The anticipation of pain
More than that physical pain
Keeping hope where none remains
Wanting life, like I imagined it to be
Yet here I am
Longing that fantasy
Love blinded me
Recalling days of the past
Using hindsight’s glasses
What I thought I saw
Wasn’t reality at all
That jumbled confusion
My pain, my illusion
it’s like waking up
Not Knowing who you are
It’s like the blindfold is gone
Not knowing how this will work
Have to admit my uncertainty
Seeing you for the first time
Love blinded me
Those future plans
Was never gonna come true
Made with someone I never knew
Elaborate strategies, strange feelings
Our relationship never grew
Now I see, too late to see
This sea of misery
So I persevere through excuses
Continue to rationalize nothingness
Paralyzed by embarrassment
Not willing to accept my own role
In this misguided fantasy
Instead of accepting it
I blame love instead
Love blinded me