I need this
Periodically I second guess me
Getting confused within reality
It is not always clear what I feel
Humanity locked into my own fantasy
I would tell you I was real
But I don’t know me in reality
Finding too much pleasure in dreams
Consciously I live subconsciously
Where nothing in this world
Could have control over me
But regardless of how desperately I move
There has always been thoughts of you
The challenge is knowing and believing
That you have those thoughts too….
I need this
Just to know for sure
That you love me for sure
That all those thoughts are not random
I want to know the what ifs
And the if I knew then what I know now
I want to believe you think of me
This is crazy to think
If I were my own friend
What advice would I give
Knowing the exact circumstances
We both know who’s at home
Yet in a moments notice
We are both ready to roam
Knowledge is not power
It is a vain understanding
Because I powerfully love you
Yet I never take action
Afraid of the outcome
Afraid I would lose you….
I need this
If you do this one thing
Every time you have a thought of me
Write it down in detail
What you are thinking
The time of day
Is it a week day or the weekend
I can guarantee if I do the same thing
Then we compare notes after 7 days
We will both see the same thing
Because I am intertwined with you
Connected to you
Aligned into the spiritual realm
As if we are from the same womb
Without your sincerity I am lost
Walking the earth aimlessly
Dreaming of a time
When I wished you were mine
Preventing my ego from letting you go
There is nothing more real
Than when you say my whole name
I lose sight of every objective
Melting in your perspective
Thanking you every breath I have left….
I need this
If I cannot have you directly
Fuck it, let it be me indirectly
Be an eternal side jawn
I don’t care what you do while I’m gone
You could be with whoever all day long
Just make sure that shit is clean
Looking mean
Feed me that sweet brown honey
As soon as I get home
All we need to do is keep this going
Always making sure it is right
I will never leave you angry
Every word I give you will be the truth
Never even signs of jealously
Not wasting a single emotion unnecessarily
All the energy I have
Being used to make it last
Filling your pleasure senses
Pushing you to your physical limit
I want you dreaming about this shit
Waking up in the middle about this night
Thanking God we did this shit