Inhaling from the inside out
Longing refreshment
Chilled air warmed soul
Deeply deeply breathe
Life’s curious ways
Anxiety driven passion
Exhale relaxing satisfaction
Deeply deeply breathe
Winding to conclusion
Slower repetition
Subtle warmness
Deeply deeply breathe
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Thinking back to that continental day
Easy evening, I was lobster Mac n Cheesin
Celebrating being brown with success
Only thing bonding these strangers
Embroidering this newness
On that the 4th floor
Random connections, 19th floor
Knew what I was looking for
Vividly remembering spectator warnings
Not understanding given what I was feeling
Struck through intelligence
Loving this passionate conversationalist
Entering and exiting in the lobby
What you doing here, same as you
Chance to relate in an unfamiliar place
Coordinated elevator on the 9th floor
Breaking bread, wall down, safety
Constantly translating input to truth
Uniquely critiquing the source on the 17th floor
Unsatisfied with the ending result
Unraveling past discretions
Unbreakable confidant
Unselfishly providing dreams
Unabated proving Gods mercy
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Arguments aint nothing new, just strange between me and you
To disagree given our energy feel like my life is so empty.
Ain’t nothing changed, you still right here,
Just don’t want this to grow between us.
Don’t push me away
I’m staying right here
Don’t push me away
I ain’t going nowhere
I’m Here to stay
Just because I am not there don’t mean I’m not there
Physical don’t mean shit if the mental ain’t there
We running through time, wondering if there is a stop
But we gotta run together, together, together, just can’t stop
Don’t push me away
I’m staying right here
Don’t push me away
I ain’t going nowhere
I’m Here to stay
You keep saying I aint here, like you don’t want me to be here
Im confused, not knowing if you going, if you staying,
Thinking bout things yet to be, distracting us from being today.
Here we are once again not agreeing, don’t run don’t leave lets just be.
Don’t push me away
I’m staying right here
Don’t push me away
I ain’t going nowhere
I’m Here to stay
It’s Something, it’s that connection
Leading me to reflection
Remembering every innocuous interaction
Even without happy ending satisfaction.
Without you, the apocalypse of fears
In the silence of lonely night’s tears
Excitement at thought that you’re near
I’m Begging, I’m pleading for the rest of your years
Subtle glance at your silhouette
Plotting deeply to get you wet
Intensely loving into a sweat
Your deepest needs, I’ll never forget
It’s something, it’s your voice
Speaking this soliloquy until you are moist
Your gentle Honesty leads me to rejoice
It’s just that you are the perfect choice.
Gentle talk coming my way, what you doing? how’s your day? Gently turned deep. REAL DEEP. REAL QUICK. Constant reminder of reality. Heart hurting. Mind gone. Anticipating the normal ol song.
Peace, where can I find you.
Pain, want no parts of you.
I, just didn’t know it was real
Now, it’s gone, I hate how it feels.
Trying to think this through, living for today is what I thought I was suppose to do. Now I’m confused. Wanted to believe in what we could do. No disrespect. Always the hurting truth. Heart is inside out, what to do.
Peace, where can I find you.
Pain, want no parts of you.
I, just didn’t know it was real
Now, it’s gone, I hate how it feels.
I felt free. Happily wrote poetry. Haven’t done a real smile since the last century. Now its all gone. What’s wrong? Tears come down. Living in the now, I can’t do you. Pain too intense, can barely breath. Voice goes silent, Just wish I could sleep.
Peace, where can I find you.
Pain, want no parts of you.
I, just didn’t know it was real
Now, it’s gone, I hate how it feels.
My hands so dirty can’t even hug you. Burden so heavy hard to love you. Hard to know my life fits into a week, now that I’m open I feel so weak. Pain, my old friend. Sad that your back again. But at least I know you, and we know how to be together forever.
Peace, where can I find you.
Pain, want no parts of you.
I, just didn’t know it was real
Now, it’s gone, I hate how it feels.
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Deep into the solitude of the dark night
Listening intently to the silence of thought
Lost dreams resurrect reminiscence of light
Looking clearly into the darkness
Hoping for a day that will never be, hoping to be free
The reminder of constant pain is relentless
Heart beat’s deafening sound in the abyss
Praying for solitude, wishing for peace.
Silent night, if there was just one kiss.
Just then I thought my life had changed. I mean it was there, everything, I could hear it in her voice. I could see myself intertwined in the stories of her past. It was meant to be, wasn’t it?
Everyone has that one. That one that brings energy to your spirit. That one that makes you smile with just a “hey” in the tone that goes straight to the dome. It was there. I knew it. Right in front of me. It was meant to be, wasn’t it?
Living without her won’t be an issue. It would be a tragedy, can’t you see. When your energies and frequencies naturally operate collaboratively. But it’s all a fantasy, because I’m not able to see her reality. It was meant to be, wasn’t it?
Loving differently is a strange thing. Cause you somewhere get trapped by your past, although it never last, it’s your foundation and can absorb your motivation, until you are just existing in thirst. It was meant to be, wasn’t it?
Yall know what I mean when you enter the scene. It feels like de ja vu, is someone tricking you? Is this too perfect to be true? What the fuck can I do? I need that commitment to make it intimate, then I would really know… if it was meant to be.
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Use to see you with pride
Now you have
something to hide
just doesn’t feel real
Not sure how to feel
Lost in this hesitation
Deep in this contemplation….
Social media tormenting me
All these images
Taking hold on me
Just casual pictures
No where near offensive
But just as decisive
It’s just that feeling I feel
Use to believe in you
Use to really love you
Use to believe in you
Do anything for you
Use to
Use to
Use to love you
Know it is time
Keep reminding myself
Need to let go
Keep telling myself
Our last goodbye
Losing my mind
Yet I stay thinking
You stay on my mind
Having conversations with you
Like you really here
Can’t be drugs
I stay clear
Is it psychosis that got me fucked up
Staring into thin air
Like it’s something there
All I really know
Is you ain’t here
Use to believe in you
Use to really love you
Use to believe in you
Do anything for you
Use to
Use to
Use to love you
Why me
Why you
Use to believe in you
Use to need you
Use to want you
Use to
Use to love you
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Surrounded by breathing things and 100 things to do. everything strange, no one is real. In my own space, thoughts here, serene emptiness.
Alone for So long.
Spinning endlessly around this sun, thinking about the first day I saw my son. Planting new seeds with old pain each generation still ends in death.
Alone for So long.
Systemically enslaved. Mentally starving for the potential I so eloquently locked away. Wanting that Cosby Show life, deep rooted emotional pain.
Alone for So long.
Socially inept. Leading or a shadow stuck between. No interest in just being seen. I don’t know society. Don’t know people. I know alone.
Alone for So long.
That word …
That tone….
That answer…
That phrase…
I ❤️that.
Your spirit…
Your smile…
Your laugh…
Your style…
I ❤️that.
Our talks…
Our connection…
Our expression…
Our reflections…
I❤️that
First it was a few hours… Gone
Then a few days…. Gone
Now can’t remember the last time I called your name.
First it was a few missed calls…. Gone
Then a few messages lost … Gone
Can’t believe you are gone… feeling so alone
Chance after chance you gave me
I know I took it for granted
Silly laughs when you caught me
Didn’t even panic
Knew that you loved me
more than you loved yourself
I could say, do anything
And never worried about anyone else
But now, I can’t find you
Now, don’t know what to do
I need to talk to you?
First it was a few hours… Gone
Then a few days…. Gone
Now can’t remember the last time I called your name.
First it was a few missed calls…. Gone
Then a few messages lost … Gone
Can’t believe you are gone… feeling so alone
That look on your face was priceless,
not in a good way
You were tired of being tired
You looked at me so differently
For the very first time you looked free
No longer was I the love in your eyes
Trying to explain my case
Disbelief in my cries
Are you even listening to a word I say
This same speech worked before
But now it feels like lost you
First it was a few hours… Gone
Then a few days…. Gone
Now can’t remember the last time I called your name.
First it was a few missed calls…. Gone
Then a few messages lost … Gone
Can’t believe you are gone… feeling so alone
I’m trying….
I’m crying…
Just want to remind you,
About the beautiful mornings
Those long nights
The power of me and you
Don’t leave, please, please
I finally understand
Without you I’m just a shadow of a man
What can I do, to please you?
Need you to know how much I love you
First it was a few hours… Gone
Then a few days…. Gone
Now can’t remember the last time I called your name.
First it was a few missed calls…. Gone
Then a few messages lost … Gone
Can’t believe you are gone… feeling so alone
Calling your momma house
Your grandmom too
Nobody is helping me tryna find you
Waiting at your townhouse
All day at your job
Now I’m filled with so many doubts
Afraid to lose you
Trying to do anything
Just to see you
Please answer that ring
Sweet baby I miss you
First it was a few hours… Gone
Then a few days…. Gone
Now can’t remember the last time I called your name.
First it was a few missed calls…. Gone
Then a few messages lost … Gone
Can’t believe you are gone… feeling so alone
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