Tag: mentalhealth
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Death comes inevitably
And I’m running around
Crazily into the mystery
Pretending I can make
Something more of me
As if I can change
My family’s legacy
And I’m watching
Life on this earth
Embedded in her hearth
Struggling to see clearly
Looking through mirrors
Cannot even see me
And I’m just moving
So slowly That the world
It’s just spinning around me
Barely keeping up
Losing minutes
Lost time for me
And I’m thinking
Maybe this life
It ain’t for me
But I don’t need
To do a damn thing
Cause death comes inevitably
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Desperate attention
Yearning solitude
Pursuing anyone
Irrelevant person
Desperate attention
Selfish attitude
Invaded peace
Limited proximity
Desperate attention
Affiliated quiet
Grappling affection
Irresponsibly loving
Desperate attention
Sheltered anxiety
Intimate desires
Instantly gratified
Desperate attention
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Peace God
Peace God
I’m not trying to interrupt
Just sharing some insight
Hopefully we can reconcile
Grant me just a while
If we both get this right
They’ll be less for us to disrupt
Reconciliation of God
Peace God
We are not the true enemy
This was all contrived intentionally
If you could spare me a minute
I can share why we are even in it
As long as we battle relentlessly
We can never be free
Understanding of God
Peace God
Slurs and innuendos aren’t the way
We were created purposely
Without any fear or disarray
But we’ve lost our way
It was really done subtly
We couldn’t keep the intruders at bay
Salvation of God
Peace God
They don’t deserve what you are saying
Surely they don’t warrant your reactions
I absolutely understand your perspective
But mirroring what we see is counterproductive
What we need is better actions
Laying proof without a shred of blaming
Mercy of God
Peace God
Let me approach you head on
I don’t need you imaging something is wrong
I embrace you because I love you
Not Every person is out to get you
We both tired of the same song
This is the beginning of a new dawn
Vengeance of God
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Power
POWER
Just surging through
That’s me
Reaching back to you
Let me calm you
I know this pain
Hate it around you
POWER
In every word you speak
Let it flow out
Smooth and honestly
The truth was born in you
When I see you
I know it’s true
POWER
Believe in it
This emotion
Just accept it
Let go of every worry
Faithfully
Just feel me
POWER
It lives in you
Please let it out
Let it shine through
Let me be there
Sitting right with you
I love you
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Excited For You
There is no feeling greater
Being in your corner
Whether the day is sunny
Or the weather is devastating
something special in this
Just trying to be there for you
If you need it, listening to you
During the storm, shelter for you
Anything I can do
Cause I’m excited for you
You telling me your dreams
I see them as reality
You sharing your thoughts
I already bought you everything
You low on energy
I’m picking you up for the get up
You feeling anxious
I’m loving you with patience
You just relaxing
I’m out of your way
Baby enjoy your day
Excited for you
Excited for you
Just to be there
Excited for you
Seeing your success
Excited for you
Whatever you need
I got you
Excited for you
Sitting here waiting for you
It’s your first interview
Dress to the Ts, shoes too
Gliding down the steps
It’s pure elegance
Cautiously optimistic
I believing you are ballistic
Everything prepared
Dressed for success
Nothing left
But to master this day.
The day is done
And I’m smiling brightly
Do you know
How proud you made me
Life giving you
The insurmountable
With all that God has giving you
You are more than able
Life flashing through
Day by day
Pushing each other along the way
Living vicariously through you
I’m So proud of the things you do
Living, loving, dreaming about you
I’m so excited for you.
Excited for you
Just to be there
Excited for you
Seeing your success
Excited for you
Whatever you need
I got you
Excited for you
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Days Long Gone
Time gone.
And every time
the past comes to the present,
I can feel the present
being wasted again.
That past is cemented
in the deep caravans
of the earths core.
There is nothing
that can be done
with days long gone.
Time alone.
In the midst of time
it stands alone.
Unstoppable.
Unforgiving.
I just need a single moment
to allow the past pain to heal.
But you push me forward
as if my pain is irrelevant.
There is nothing
that can be done
with days long gone.
Time free.
Never once paid for you,
but you are constantly in my life.
Each day
I become more indebted
yet I never even asked for you.
I need freedom.
You’ve held me too long.
There is nothing
that can be done
with days long gone.
Time bound.
I cannot find peace.
You hold me so tightly
I cannot see my next step.
And I struggle
to even believe.
Why do you command
my life
so strongly.
Why cannot I
just be I.
There is nothing
that can be done
with days long gone.
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Letting Go
So long a part of me, that now I find energy from misery.
It’s a daily affirmation making and checking the gates and walls keeping that hidden pain hidden.
Muscle memory is stronger, I can fight not much longer.
People impressed at the rudimentary shit I do cause they don’t know I’m never letting go.
Brick and mortar use to be torture as I had to modify techniques to remain unique,
so common enemies could go right past without a thought of the hidden vulture.
Death constantly looming,
watching my moves wondering why I spent so many hours protecting mental heirlooms.
Death didn’t know I’m never letting go.
People keep mentioning this place that’s free.
Speaking of earth like it’s really heaven if I could only see.
Each day that triumph and disaster I see completely changing destinies.
Wondering where is their fortress,
where is their shield how can they exist not knowing how to manage life’s unexpected tendencies.
What would they be if they really knew that I’m never letting go.
The past is the only teacher we have.
There is an illusion that there is good and bad.
The response to that which is gone is the changing fad.
A culture of social dictatorship enforcing how you must feel and what you must do.
But what if, the answer is just in you.
Picking and choosing what to include and exclude is not the solution, the mastery of managing the response is the revolution.
Letting Go.
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Sigh For A Smile
Sigh for a smile
Remembering when I
Would sigh out of frustration
As an emotional release
Opening the valve
Releasing it all
Emptying my cup
Vulnerabilities and all
Sigh for a smile
Recognizing every trouble
Each and every trial I’ve been through
The tribulations that weakened me
Somehow ended up
Strengthened me
Lavishing in all of it
Because I am all of it
Sigh for a smile
Remembering the many days
When I thought
There was no other way
Holding onto the past
Cause the present
Wasn’t what I planned
Now I see the real plan
Sigh for a smile
when I lay my head
Down to sleep
Everything I am
Is what you expected of me
Never relinquish peace
Or serenity
That alignment to destiny
Sigh for a smile
Shaking my head
In the amount of disbelief
Remembering those that fell
Acknowledging those enslaved
Calling out to the lost
And it’s just by chance
I am not the same
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Just Ride
Ride….. As far as possible.
There is no time or speed quest.
Just a feeling of emptiness.
Striving to have a mind clear of any premeditated thought.
Focused on spiritual oneness , aligning the mind to push the body past what it was taught.
Ride…..Far away.
Up a hill I know I cannot climb.
Chasing down the speeders staying right on their line.
Reaching eagerly for that point of exhaustion.
Pushing relentlessly until there is nothing left but the will to say hold on.
Ride…. Far into.
Into that bliss of nothingness where no one exist.
Just having hydrating liquids as my only salvation.
Feeling that physical pain.
Muscles tightening. All the while I get stronger and stronger.
There is nothing close to the spiritual awakening than challenging yourself beyond your own beliefs.
Ride …. Ride out of.
Out of the limits of world.
Into this community of individuals seeking the same euphoria of oneness with nothingness.
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Kept Thinking
Kept thinking
I could escape my past
Find a way to end the wrath
I thought the longer I lived
The more happiness I would have
And old painful things
Would fall away at last
Wanted to believe in pure things
That not everyone is an enemy
But had too many trusted faces
That I can no longer tell
Who is who
In the fell clutch if circumstance
No longer willing to take a chance
Kept thinking
Loss is only temporary
And eventually it is replaced
In some type of way
Replenishing what was missing
When protection is lost
A different person emerges
Wanted to believe in pure things
That this evil festering is temporary
Now we are so intertwined
I smile so you believe I’m fine
Ruthlessly divert conversations
Protecting everything left in me
Barely holding the vengeance within
Kept thinking
If I had that day again
If my God created protector
Was just there
But he never showed up
And never will again
Crushed into oblivion
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Darkness Will Shine
The bottomless pit
That envy
Consuming mortality
Focused externally
Believing
I’m not who I claim to be
Claiming another’s destiny
Plotting over time
Darkness will shine
Expecting insanity
Repeatedly executing
Repetitiously anticipation
As if a different outcome
Will finally come
Unchanged methodology
The answer, unequivocally
Cannot be me
Darkness will shine
Preparation for abundance
Creating repositories
Futuristic inventories
Organized scheming
Suit and tie conspiracies
Eliminated electronic trails
Buried evidence
Resurrected above the skyline
Darkness will shine
Deeply contemplating this
Post mortuary visits
Explaining all the details
Limitations of statutes
Impermeable to virtues
Accepting final peace
Disclosing missed mistakes
You never knew it was me
Darkness will shine
Sy Bryant 