Sy Bryant

Tag: blackpoem

  • Forgiveness

    Forgiveness

    Forgiveness?

    I heard about you

    People stay talking about you

    Telling me I need to meet you

    Somehow I need to get to know you

    They kept saying I need some time with you

    Telling me how nice you are

    Speaking as if we ever met

    The world would be so different

    The crazy part

    They never tell me how you look

    Only describing emotion intelligent things

    As if those things have meaning

    Expecting me to show a sign of softness

    Forgiveness?

    Forgiveness?

    Let me tell you like this

    I know how to treat people

    And if you want to be

    One of those people

    Just know

    I will tell you

    Like I told them

    Everything is everything

    We can even pretend to be friends

    But if you dare cross me in anyway

    You better watch for what’s coming your way

    I will cut you off with the quickness

    Forgiveness?

    Forgiveness?

    You keep asking me these questions

    Knowing you really don’t want to know the answer

    I know I’m alone, but that doesn’t mean I’m lonely

    It is absolutely intentional

    Based on how people treat me

    I know every time I see you

    You looking at me because I’m solo

    But at least if I am the only one here

    I will already know

    How everything is about to go

    I’m telling you I am good

    From sun up to sun down

    I do not need you in my business

    Forgiveness?

    Forgiveness?

    When the night becomes clear

    That is the part that is anchored in fear

    Would I be as strong as I claim to be

    If everyone that did anything

    I allowed to continually hurt me

    How am I missing out on life?

    You know how this thing go

    You meet them

    You trust them

    They take you for granted

    They take your last bit of trust

    Now they look real different

    That is why I am suspicious.

    Forgiveness.

    Forgiveness.

    I get what you saying

    Because I have yet to let go

    From each and every hurt and pain

    Right now

    That is all I know

    I know how to be hurt

    I know how to manage pain

    And now, somehow

    I am creating the exact scenario

    That I claim to be letting go

    I am my worst enemy

    Counting nights minutes

    Forgiveness.

    Forgiveness

    I see you

    I remember I saw you a while back

    When I turned away

    When they stabbed me in the back

    I walked right past you

    I just didn’t know it was you

    I just thought as long as I keep this wall up

    I would always be strong enough

    Now this same wall grown so tall

    I cannot see anything

    Not a single joy or smile

    Please accept my apology

    Please forgive me.

  • Got Me Loving You

    Got Me Loving You

    It ain’t your brown eyes

    Looking deep into mine

    No that doesn’t draw me near

    Your skin tone

    Kissed by summers rays

    Doesn’t bring me any closer to you

    Something indescribable about you

    Got me loving you

    It Ain’t your fragrance

    That perfume fills the room

    Making me only think of you

    Not the way you move

    Everyone getting on your groove

    Trying to figure it out

    Even when I’m not with you

    Got me loving you

    It Ain’t your expertise

    Of everything within your reach

    Your command of people

    Has them follow you endlessly

    Not even your elegance

    Upon your entrance

    Everyone needing to see you

    Got me loving you

    It Ain’t your presence

    Desirable essence

    That savior faire

    Everyone knows you here

    Not anything I can tell you

    No matter what it is

    Just know one thing is true

    Got me loving you 

  • Praying

    Praying

    Prayed for rain,

    Now I’m standing in mud

    Really thought I knew what I wanted.

    It was dry and barren.

    Thought I just needed to be caring. 

    Confidently I knew the way

    Now that rain drained my day.

    Praying, for what I want

    Praying, for what I need

    Is praying the answer,

    Or should I just wait patiently?

    Prayed for strength,

    Now I’ve lost my compassion

    Really thought if I could just be stronger,

    I could make it last much longer.

    Tears.

    Heartache. 

    Now it’s gone, but so too is the passion.

    Now I can’t feel anything, just the weight of this strength.

    Praying, for what I want.

    Praying, for what I need.

    Is praying the answer,

    Or should I just wait patiently?

    Prayed and prayed, but I’m still in need. 

    Got every single thing that I’ve prayed for, yet I’m empty. 

    Learn to accept and manage, instead praying for that greener grass.

    It’s all just an illusion, and this too shall pass.

    Praying, for what I want.

    Praying, for what I need.

    Is praying the answer,

    Or should I just wait patiently?

  • Just ain’t right

    Just ain’t right

    Coming in late at night

    Something

    Just doesn’t feel right

    Gut telling me

    There’s something

    I don’t wanna know

    Asking you random questions

    Hoping you come real slow

    Nothing is wrong

    Yeah, I heard what you said

    But this feeling

    Stays inside my head

    Suspiciously I stare at you

    Now you frustrated

    You looking different

    Can’t recognize that scent

    Something just ain’t right

    The way you coming home

    Each and every night

    Something just ain’t right

    You can’t even look at me

    What is it you expect of me

    Tryna have this conversation with you

    You avoiding every question

    What did I do to you

    Your avoidance is worrying

    Got me thinking

    That something is missing

    Missing something obvious

    Because your answers are dubious

    What should I expect

    When I feel the neglect

    You losing my respect

    Now you slowly

    Looking uneasy

    What is it

    Oh, now you feel me

    Feel me, leaving

    Something just ain’t right

    They way you coming home

    Each and every night

    Something just ain’t right

    You can even look at me

    What is it you expect of me

    Listen to me

    Loud and clearly

    Never repeating this

    So I hope you hear

    I know you

    Like I know me

    And I know this feeling

    When I’m uneasy

    Whether you admit it or not

    I know you doing something

    That just ain’t right

    Don’t care if you don’t come clean

    My conscience ain’t feeling a thing

    So keep the lie to yourself

    And let me be by myself

    Don’t need anyone else

    Something just ain’t right

    They way you coming home

    Each and every night

    Something just ain’t right

    You can even look at me

    What is it you expect of me

  • Should Be Sleeping

    Should Be Sleeping

    I should be sleeping

    But my mind won’t rest

    Keep replaying today

    Our conversation from today

    Wondering how you feeling

    How are you dealing

    Cause some days

    My heart hurts

    When I know

    The whole day will pass

    And I won’t see that ass

    I should be sleeping

    But I still have stuff on my mind

    Need to get this out

    Truth please set me free

    Please allow her to see

    That I’m in love

    With her love

    Loving that love

    That she gives relentlessly

    Without judgement

    Without cruelty

    Purely love

    Sweet destiny

    I should be sleeping

    But I need you to listen

    I would give it all up

    Every day

    The most joyous day

    The happiest week

    The longest night

    Milestone after milestone

    I would give it all up

    For a chance to rewind time

    To tell you this from the beginning

    To tell you you are the shit

    And I fucked Up

    And missed it.

    I should be sleeping

    But I’m here trying to live

    But it’s different when

    You have to fight to live

    When you ain’t enjoying life

    You are just a part of life

    Incomplete, unfocused

    Transverse time as if there is time

    Awaiting the end, because the past passed

    Seeing that parallel timeline

    Plotting intricate plots

    Plotting to jump to that line

    That line where we are together

    Talking shit

    Blending shit

    Rolling shit

    Smoking shit

  • Democracy

    Democracy

    Within its thrills of DEMOCRACY

    I think I see more than what

    I’m supposed to see

    Things are fair and just

    Because that’s what you’re meant to see

    But in the midst of the struggle

    Poor will fight poor

    To maintain the wealthy

    The wealthy elite

    That’s who the stars represent

    The stripes for everyone else’s

    Pain and punishment

    It’s gotten so irate

    That the Lords and the Saxons

    Argue about unending debates

    Gross neglect is DEMOCRACY’S fate

    You just have to stop and think

    What’s the purpose of this DEMOCRACY

    For all the times that it existed

    Mass murders were a common existence

    King’s fought side by side with their armies

    No one was above peace and harmony

    Then realization manifested into reality

    An elitist dying from war would never be reality

    War has always existed

    It is a animalistic condition

    To have everything you can possible hold

    No one wants to really share

    Until they are past tense and old

    So we continue propagating this myth

    That we are free

    And it’s due to DEMOCRACY

  • The Future

    The Future

    I can see into the future

    There are no mics to drop

    Nothing spectacular to convey

    The first lesson you shall learn

    You will not see everyday

    I can see into the future

    Disasters are really triumphs

    They bring life out of death

    Emphasizing what is left

    Yet we only see the theft

    I can see into the future

    The earth spinning on its axis

    Multitude avoiding taxes

    Ignoring the humanity of community

    While wondering, is it me?

    I can see into the future

    The dawn of each day

    With every setting sun

    Someone leaves this place

    Before their work has begun

    I can see into the future

    Dare not share this thought

    Freedom is not free

    Created from destruction

    Ignored in selfish possibility

    I can see into the future

    The caste is set in stone

    Reminisce of illegitimate wealth

    Creating limitations

    That only apply to someone else

    I can see into the future

    The image of Heaven stands

    The North Star of every land

    Keeping mischievous beings in check

    Preventing the evolution of what’s next

  • Been Asking

    Been Asking

    Been asking God for you

    Never knew it was you

    Didn’t know I already knew you

    Everything I needed

    Right in front of me

    It was all in you

    Been asking for this

    Someone to share every detail with

    Without grades or judgement

    Spiritually recognized

    Holding on for dear life

    Realizing the anointed life

    Been asking God for you

    Someone that cares

    For what I’m going through

    So long been alone for so long

    Didn’t realize when I was with you

    You were the one to confide to

    Been asking for this

    This ain’t even physical

    Feeling your words, it’s emotional

    Finding the next step is challenging

    Digging into ever crate I can find

    Can’t keep you off my mind

    Been asking God for you

    And I’m so thankful

    That God already has you

    Already breathing in you

    Cause my mind would be different

    If your calling wasn’t heaven sent

  • I don’t know what to do

    I don’t know what to do

    I don’t know what to do

    Everything was happening

    And the happenings

    That just kept happening

    And no one knew what to do

    They thought isolation

    Would somehow help us

    And now I’m left wondering

    Because you are not here

    Instead of staying away

    Thinking I was keeping you safe

    Should I have stayed closer

    To keep you safe

    Now there is nothing left

    Just those memories

    cherishing every moment

    That we had

    Trying my hardest

    Yet I’m still sad.

    I don’t know what to do

    It all happened so fast

    We just spoke last week

    You were a little tired

    But you could still speak

    Then calls were unanswered

    There were no more social media post

    It felt like the world went silent

    Calling around to everyone

    Yet no one heard from you

    The nurse said it wasn’t going well

    There was this eery feeling

    Wondering without information

    Stuck second guessing

    Each piece of sporadic information

    The ventilator was working well

    That’s what we were told

    Nothing to worry about

    Everything would be O.K.

    You weren’t that old

    I don’t know what to do

    The hospital called

    We still cannot see you

    Not even to say our final goodbye

    I pray to God that this isn’t true

    What prayer do I need to pray

    What else can I possibly do

    There is so much life left

    Cannot fathom it’ll be without you

    I’m lost in this moment

    Begging for another moment

    Heart levied with anguish

    Not knowing what to do next

    Everyone is calling everyone else

    How do we move forward

    Recognizing there will be no closure

    The tears flowed swiftly

    Lost every sense of composer

    When they finally told me

    Your life was over

    I don’t know what to do

    Standing here in the open air

    Finding comfort in memories

    Sharing tears openly

    Writing your name clearly

    Speaking your name loudly

    Celebrating every day

    As if you are still here with me

    Closing my eyes

    Just for a moment of peace

    Forever more

    I will eternally say your name

    Smiling momentarily

    Believing holistically

    There is life after this world

    We will be reunited eventually

    Holding each day from now til then

    Burying your earthly shell

    Hoping that somehow

    You will live through me

  • Happy Birthday Wifey

    Happy Birthday Wifey

    Love you Dearly

    Screaming your name,

    Can you hear me?

    Right in front of your face,

    Can you see me?

    Have to do something,

    And do it quickly

    Hope you feel me, 

    Cause I love you dearly

    Every time I see you

    Feels like the first time

    Anxiety, excitement, every time

    Looking into your brown eyes

    Captivated by your intelligence

    Talking about our kids

    Like we got so many

    Loving the stories

    There are so many

    The sacrificing parents that we are

    Screaming your name,

    Can you hear me?

    Right in front of your face,

    Can you see me?

    Have to do something,

    And do it quickly

    Hope you feel me, 

    Cause I love you dearly

    No day is promised

    So putting it on the line

    I want to be all you need, all the time

    I love you unconditionally

    Don’t care where you been

    Making myself your best friend

    Shoulder to cry on, to lean on too

    The world is just purer with me and you

    Loving each day because I see you

    Intentionally making memories of you

    What do you need?

    What can I provide?

    Being yours is my pride

    Screaming your name,

    Can you hear me?

    Right in front of your face,

    Can you see me?

    Have to do something,

    And do it quickly

    Hope you feel me, 

    Cause I love you dearly

    Ride Wit You

    Today was one of those days

    When I realized I how I felt

    Being there at this phase

    Seeing your face, heartfelt

    Up till this point it’s been a maze

    Managing what was being dealt

    But today just got to ride wit you

    I’m seeing every point of view

    Thinking about all you been through

    Looking to shaded eyes in the rear view

    Realizing I didn’t have a clue

    Wondering how to get a better view

    At some point today our Love grew

    And I was happy just to ride wit you

    Awkwardly feeling, I’m catching feelings

    Together, friendship tough as leather

     Some days I’m loving you to the ceiling

    It’s those little attributes, touch of a feather

    Reliving all of our dealings

    Faith to endure all sort of weather

    Still here to ride wit you.

    The ending day, the worst part

    Knowing, I don’t know, when I’ll ride with you

    And when I’m near you I can feel my heart

    Eyes closed wishing, whispering I love you

    Wondering the difference if life had a restart

    Sacrificing everything just from a text from you

    I’m down to ride wit you

    Excited For You

    There is no feeling greater

    Being in your corner

    Whether the day is sunny

    Or the weather is devastating

    Something special in this

    Just trying to be there for you

    If you need it, listening to you

    During the storm, shelter for you

    Anything I can do

    Cause I’m excited for you

    You telling me your dreams

    I see them as reality

    You sharing your thoughts

    I already got you everything

    You low on energy

    I’m picking you up for the get up

    You feeling anxious

    I’m loving you with patience

    You just relaxing

    I’m out of your way

    Baby enjoy your day

    Excited for you

    Just to be there

    Seeing your success

    Whatever you need

    I got you

    Excited for you

    Sitting here waiting for you

    It’s one of those interviews

    Dress to the Ts, shoes too

    Gliding down the steps

    It’s pure elegance

    Cautiously optimistic

    I believing you are ballistic

    Everything prepared

    Dressed for success

    Nothing left

    But to master this day.

    The day is done

    And I’m smiling brightly

    Do you know

    How proud you made me

    Life giving you

    The insurmountable

    With all that God has giving you

    You are more than able

    Life flashing through

    Day by day

    Pushing each other along the way

    Living vicariously through you

    I’m So proud of the things you do

    Living, loving, dreaming about you

    I’m so excited for you.

    Excited for you

    Just to be there

    Seeing your success

    Whatever you need

    I got you

    Excited for you

  • Final Time To Say Farewell

    Final Time To Say Farewell

    Final time to say farewell

    Now I’m supposed to pretend

    That all is well

    Remembering that exact building

    Been there a few times

    Never once for a reason

    That didn’t leave a tear inside

    Final time to say farewell

    Now I’m supposed to believe

    You are in this heavenly place

    And I’ll never see you again

    Until I meet my own fate

    But I’ve done so many wrong things

    It’s just too late

    Final time to say farewell

    Recognizing you cannot see me

    There’s no breath left

    Ignoring the depths of eternity

    Knowing you cannot feel me

    Praying you knew

    Everything you are to me

    Final time to say farewell

    As if you won’t forever exist

    I swear to you

    I will always remember you

    Something this world will never take away

    Digesting your words

    Just seeing your face

    Final time to say farewell

    Wishing I said what needed to be said

    Hoping life won’t end where you lay

    Believing tomorrow brings a new day

    Wanting to know you can REST

    Needing something to believe IN

    Praying for your eternal PEACE

  • That Poetry

    That Poetry

    I am not a poet

    I am a lover

    Everything about anything

    It is all about love for me

    Instantaneously

    I will release it

    Given it away freely

    As if

    We spent every day freely

    As if

    Nothing else existed

    Besides your voice

    That poetry

    I am not real

    I am imagined

    Something about everything

    Love evolves within me

    Spontaneously

    You are always there

    Remember the summer scene

    As if

    Every car ride was serene

    As if

    We were an eternity

    Feeling your voice

    That poetry

    I am not that

    I am a belief

    Holding onto anatomical dreams

    Using future titles to speak life

    Sporadically

    I am my worse enemy

    Created obstacles

    As if

    I couldn’t handle the certainty

    As if

    Destiny was avoidable

    Hearing that love

    That poetry

  • Divine Sanity

    Divine Sanity

    Just met you

    Traveling through the universe

    Kept thinking I missed you already

    Whole life a curse

    Woke up anew

    Just felt you

    Never laid one eye on you

    Yet I know you’re there

    Patiently I wait to meet you

    Open our minds

    To new hearts

    Our new life starts

    Releasing past guilt

    Atonement for legacy’s will

    Mastering the path ahead

    Shackled discarded limbs

    Sun’s release of energy

    Past now dead

    Cold heart becoming warm

    Anticipating end of the storm

    The smile upon my face

    The acceptance of grace

    Knowing the destiny

    Divine sanity

  • That Piece

    That Piece

    Calling a name I don’t know

    To do some things I’ve never seen

    Going to go places I’ve never been

    Just to see your face

    Be present in your space

    That piece of serenity

    Calling this peace into existence

    Not even sure what I am missing

    Persevering through every obstacle

    The world is simple and cruel

    Masked by this innocence

    That piece of persistence

    Calling and screaming to be heard

    Fantasy controlling reality

    Nothing decent within me

    Aggressively deceitfully being me

    Subtly orchestrating inevitably

    That piece of hypocrisy

    Calling for assistance

    Realizing I cannot handle this

    Monumentally too much for me

    Devastated no one responded to me

    The realization of independence

    That piece of creative license