Sy Bryant

Tag: commitment

  • I could Miss You

    I could Miss You

    I could miss you

    But I don’t

    Spent too many days

    Learning bout your ways

    And at the end of the day

    It didn’t even matter

    It was all just chatter

    What really hurt

    Is that my heart

    Didn’t even matter

    Listening to this same ol song

    You still asking me what is wrong

    The same thing that was wrong

    The very last time

    And I keep saying

    This will be the very last time

    But you already know

    That it’s not

    I guess that’s why

    There’s no thickness

    To this plot

    No matter what you do

    You know I’ll always

    Be right here for you

    But what you fail to see

    Is that each and every time

    You brought me to my knees

    You showed me

    You ain’t what I need

    You created an opportunity

    For me to see what I need

    So I’ll be here

    But only for them

    Cause that one calling out next

    They got me next

    And they are really into me

    Not just exaggerations in a text

    I could miss you

    But I don’t

    Spent too many days

    Learning bout your ways

    And at the end of the day

    It didn’t even matter

    It was all just chatter

    What really hurt

    Is that my heart

    Didn’t even matter

    My heart use to sink

    Remembering

    When I use to think

    This was something forever

    Knew in my heart

    This was meant to be forever

    Now when I sigh

    I cannot give you a reply

    There’s nothing to say

    I can bullshit if you need it

    Ok, how was your day

    You showed me over and over

    That if you was driving

    I would be

    Run right over

    Got strangers calling the spot

    I’m clean as a whistle

    So why it feel so hot

    Like do you have any love for me

    Do you even know what I need?

    Do you have any empathy?

    Of what it feels like

    When the one you love

    Never gives you love

    Cause love don’t feel like this

    Love don’t feel like this

    It don’t feel like this

    I’m so tired of this

    I could miss you

    But I don’t

    Spent too many days

    Learning bout your ways

    And at the end of the day

    It didn’t even matter

    It was all just chatter

    What really hurt

    Is that my heart

    Didn’t even matter

  • Boom

    Boom

    So close to lighting up

    Every time a request come up

    Cause when I

    Request something of you

    Rejection, pacification its how we do

    Yet if it ain’t for me

    You quickly have words for me

    Priorities set real clear

    Plan to me

    Pain so near

    At my last strike

    You don’t even know

    How I’m doing

    Never ask, nor care

    Dissolving away

    With no fear

    At least you have

    Someone that cares

    Me, I here

    But ain’t no one else here

    Fuse is getting real short

    Already lit

    And I’m seeing it

    Just dwindle away

    So quickly

    Like a brick wall

    Just hit me

    Into a reactive state

    Catalyst ain’t too late

    Sparking me into reality

    Timer ticking away

    Feel it slipping away

    All my conscience that’s controlling me

    Fading away into the natural me

    Purely evil with selfish intent

    Primal instinct is what I meant

    Evil ego won’t let it go

    Revenge is needed

    For me to let it go

    Forgiveness is ignorance

  • Love Matters

    Love Matters

    Love matters

    On my selfish shit

    Saying insensitive things

    Telling me about your day

    I’m telling you how it impacts me

    Hear you getting frustrated

    I cannot understand

    Now you all silent

    Give me another chance

    Let me listen to what you have to say

    Texting you, constantly, no response

    Calling you, voicemail, don’t hear a thing

    See you’re online, your status got that green thing

    It’s been like 24 hours since we talked

    First time it’s been so long

    Since we first met

    Not sure what to do next

    Hoping in the car need to find you

    Need to figure out what’s going on

    You responding like this is the finale

    Those words entered me

    Constricted my heart

    So much pain… hating myself intensely

    Love matters

    Days and days feel like that past me

    But you told me

    You needed silence

    I could barely speak

    Words lost in this mood

    Couldn’t work

    Couldn’t move

    Then out of nowhere

    Got that text

    You still mad at me

    Feeling some type of way

    But you still accepted

    My love is here to stay

    I am here

    Right here for you

    Don’t you know

    Whether it’s a second

    Or a lifetime

    I love you

    Love matters

  • Can You Love?

    Can You Love?

    Can you love the same song

    Even if you heard it

    A million times

    Could you hear it a million more

    Could you still smile

    At the best part

    Could feel it in your heart

    Can you love without end

    Every memory with a meaning

    Holding it tightly

    In the midst of the everything

    Knowing in the end

    Love will always win

    From start to finish and over again

    Can you love in the darkest of night

    Alone on a lonely night

    Far from a warm embrace

    Nowhere near love

    Nothing in its place

    Heaviest of hearts

    Desperate of hope

    Can you love every day

    Regardless of reality

    Can you believe in this fantasy

    Holding onto every possibility

    Can you see every potential

    Will you grant every opportunity

    For me to love continually

  • Power

    Power

    POWER

    Just surging through

    That’s me

    Reaching back to you

    Let me calm you

    I know this pain

    Hate it around you

    POWER

    In every word you speak

    Let it flow out

    Smooth and honestly

    The truth was born in you

    When I see you

    I know it’s true

    POWER

    Believe in it

    This emotion

    Just accept it

    Let go of every worry

    Faithfully

    Just feel me

    POWER

    It lives in you

    Please let it out

    Let it shine through

    Let me be there

    Sitting right with you

    I love you

  • Excited For You

    Excited For You

    There is no feeling greater

    Being in your corner

    Whether the day is sunny

    Or the weather is devastating

    something special in this

    Just trying to be there for you

    If you need it, listening to you

    During the storm, shelter for you

    Anything I can do

    Cause I’m excited for you

    You telling me your dreams

    I see them as reality

    You sharing your thoughts

    I already bought you everything

    You low on energy

    I’m picking you up for the get up

    You feeling anxious

    I’m loving you with patience

    You just relaxing

    I’m out of your way

    Baby enjoy your day

    Excited for you

    Excited for you

    Just to be there

    Excited for you

    Seeing your success

    Excited for you

    Whatever you need

    I got you

    Excited for you

    Sitting here waiting for you

    It’s your first interview

    Dress to the Ts, shoes too

    Gliding down the steps

    It’s pure elegance

    Cautiously optimistic

    I believing you are ballistic

    Everything prepared

    Dressed for success

    Nothing left

    But to master this day.

    The day is done

    And I’m smiling brightly

    Do you know

    How proud you made me

    Life giving you

    The insurmountable

    With all that God has giving you

    You are more than able

    Life flashing through

    Day by day

    Pushing each other along the way

    Living vicariously through you

    I’m So proud of the things you do

    Living, loving, dreaming about you

    I’m so excited for you.

    Excited for you

    Just to be there

    Excited for you

    Seeing your success

    Excited for you

    Whatever you need

    I got you

    Excited for you

  • Filling Voids

    Filling Voids

    Filling voids. Feeling voids. Not trying to make you annoyed. Wanna make you feel complete.  Need to make sure when you leave the house you got shined shoes on your feet.  You are everything I need to make life work.  But I still can see through your hurt.  So I’m here, right now, to let you know, you ain’t alone no more….

    I feel your void, and I’m here.

    I’ll fill that void, when ya near

    Don’t you worry… no, don’t do that anymore

    I’ll be here for you forever more.

    Filling time. Feeling time. Its just ticking away.  It just ticks through everyday.  Each day I feel closer, but the distance the same.  Sometimes my heart feels the pain.  Time doesn’t feel like it’s on my side, cause it has never put you by my side.  So I’m here right now to let you know, you ain’t gotta worry no more…

    I feel your void, and I’m here.

    I’ll fill that void, when ya near

    Don’t you worry… no, don’t do that anymore

    I’ll be here for you forever more.

    Filling space.  Feeling space.  Walking around my new place.  Tryna tell you something right, I’m blessed, but I’m hurt cause I know I won’t see you tonight.  Everything is right in its place, but I need you to come share this place.  My heart is open, babe can’t you feel me… I want you right here next to me. So I’m here right now to let you know, you ain’t alone….

    I feel your void, and I’m here.

    I’ll fill that void, when ya near

    Don’t you worry… no, don’t do that anymore

    I’ll be here for you forever more.

    Filling this.  Feeling this.  Let me let your feel this. I’m telling you, you about to be shook. Brazen coco I can get you hooked.  You hesitating, but I’m ready.  Seeing you in that purple teddy.  We are made for this.  Don’t be scared of this.  This is that love that you’ve thought about. Let me fill every void, until you feel this void.

  • Begging For Forgiveness

    Begging For Forgiveness

    It wasn’t until that day I knew

    I fucked up

    And the world reminded me

    Momentarily

    Paralyzed in hysteria

    Seeing my baby girl

    I needed to atone

    For every single thing

    I did wrong

    Begging for forgiveness.

    It wasn’t until I recognized

    Every foul word

    And even pleasant words

    I would use them without meaning

    Just to temporarily

    Create a scenario

    I always pretended

    It was for a meaning

    But mirrors only tell the truth

    Begging for forgiveness.

    It wasn’t until I looked

    Into my own eyes

    Yet I stood there surprised

    Raised harshly so lovingly

    Three women formed me

    Although there was testosterone

    Those genes never formed

    Not a single positive thought

    Only doing what I was taught

    Begging for forgiveness.

    It wasn’t until I heard

    Don’t worry about it

    It was ok

    That I knew it wasn’t ok

    Not a single one of them forgot

    Each loving word

    The illusion I created from nothingness

    I was that knight in amour

    That African prince

    Begging for forgiveness.

    It wasn’t until I remembered

    The sins of the past will last

    My seeds will be perpetuators and victims

    From the previous seeds I planted

    Yet I don’t know for certainty

    If they have other siblings

    Although I never tried to disappear

    Before that time of the month

    Indicating everything was clear

    Begging for forgiveness.

    It wasn’t until the world stood still

    And I held my baby girl

    I wanted so much to smile

    Looking at what was mine

    But I had to cry

    Knowing what was mine

    Each pain I caused

    I pray your vengeance on me

    Not this precious baby I see

    Begging for forgiveness.

  • Sometimes

    Sometimes

    Sometimes

    Just sitting here

    Just writing it all out

    All the things I should say

    Everything that I was suppose to say

    Just end up here

    Right here

    Just to get it out

    Sometimes

    Emotion captures

    Frustration turns into anger

    Anger gets trapped into complacency

    And just in that moment

    Losing all my sanity

    Differences eluding me

    So I am stuck being me

    Sometimes

    Reminiscing about this

    Missing something dismissed

    Wondering about uncertainty’s privilege

    Stipulation of inevitable changes

    Waiting for the next evolution

    Rotation of the earth

    Endless revolutions

    Sometimes

    The stars see me

    Looking a bit desperately

    Endlessly striving toward possibilities

    Lingering in this crazy mystery

    Lord please bless me

    Trying so hard

    Please hear me

  • I Know That

    I Know That

    I know that I know you

    This cannot be the first time

    Like our souls, our souls

    They’ve always been intertwined

    Your presence creates euphoria

    And I need more of ya

    Whatever happened last lifetime

    Has nothing to do with this time

    And now that I found you again

    You will always be mine.

    I know that I know you

    There is nothing strange between us

    So we can talk like there’s no space between us

    As we reflecting on each other’s energy

    All around us nothing but envy

    And they wondering

    How long we known each other

    How long we been together

    But we are beyond the concept of time

    Our mental interwoven as if we are time

    I know that I know you

    Close your eyes so your soul can see mine

    So we can communicate on a different realm

    Please don’t feel overwhelmed

    It’s just that cosmic energy

    That euphoric energy

    That constantly magnetizes my soul to yours

    If nothing else please believe I am yours

    And only collectively can we achieve serenity

    Ignoring everything that dissipates our energy

    I know that I know you

    Generationally negativity pulls us apart

    Everlastingly our love restarts

    And somehow I am drawn to you

    Even if I never know your name

    I know that I know you

    And I can feed off your every thought

    Randomly conceiving of weird innuendos

    And I’m all in cause I had the same thought

    No matter what, keeping everything about you