Sy Bryant

Tag: marriage

  • Frequency

    Frequency

    All it takes is a second

    And were disconnected

    That energy just stops

    Everything on mute

    First I thought it was me

    What happened to that frequency?

    Tryna not be affected

    Just know we’re disconnected

    Looking at you like a shell

    Physically you are there

    Mentally just cannot see

    Did we lose that frequency?

    Looking in the mirror

    Trying to find the change in me

    Something I’m missing

    Stuck in this misery

    Lost in shear futility

    I cannot feel our frequency.

    Pronounced as radar

    Sunshine or stormy weather

    Always reconcile with each other

    Discontent planted in fertile hearts

    Nothing left but the agony

    Missing our frequency.

  • Lovely Days with You

    Lovely Days with You

    I don’t know how to express to you.

    How powerful I feel with you.  

    Some days I just need you close.

    You are everything that is beautiful. 

    Without that beauty.

    This world is no fucking dark. 

    Sometimes I need to focus on love.

    Versus objectives and deliverables. 

    I only have lovely days with you. 

    Just in case you didn’t know, I Love You.

    Just in case I haven’t said it, I Thank You.

    I remember every tear I caused.

    From when I asked you that first question.

    You said yes with a tear.

    From when I asked for forgiveness.

    You said yes with a tear. 

    Each day since I focus on you

    I only have lovely days with you.

    I intentionally avoid every moment.

    Any opportunity to take you for granted.

    Even in the midst of the world.

    You are the heart of the world.

    Breathing every bit of energy.

    Filling my entire soul completely.

    Thought about a moment without you.

    Lost every perspective without you.

    I only have lovely days with you.

    Need your spirit close to me.

    Even if I cannot see you. 

    I can somehow sense you.

    This connection created in a Godly way

    Strengthen in seeds we nurture every day.

    Keeping faith on the worst days.

    Celebrating the best days.

    If only one wish could come true.

    I only have lovely days with you.

  • Begging For Forgiveness

    Begging For Forgiveness

    It wasn’t until that day I knew

    I fucked up

    And the world reminded me

    Momentarily

    Paralyzed in hysteria

    Seeing my baby girl

    I needed to atone

    For every single thing

    I did wrong

    Begging for forgiveness.

    It wasn’t until I recognized

    Every foul word

    And even pleasant words

    I would use them without meaning

    Just to temporarily

    Create a scenario

    I always pretended

    It was for a meaning

    But mirrors only tell the truth

    Begging for forgiveness.

    It wasn’t until I looked

    Into my own eyes

    Yet I stood there surprised

    Raised harshly so lovingly

    Three women formed me

    Although there was testosterone

    Those genes never formed

    Not a single positive thought

    Only doing what I was taught

    Begging for forgiveness.

    It wasn’t until I heard

    Don’t worry about it

    It was ok

    That I knew it wasn’t ok

    Not a single one of them forgot

    Each loving word

    The illusion I created from nothingness

    I was that knight in amour

    That African prince

    Begging for forgiveness.

    It wasn’t until I remembered

    The sins of the past will last

    My seeds will be perpetuators and victims

    From the previous seeds I planted

    Yet I don’t know for certainty

    If they have other siblings

    Although I never tried to disappear

    Before that time of the month

    Indicating everything was clear

    Begging for forgiveness.

    It wasn’t until the world stood still

    And I held my baby girl

    I wanted so much to smile

    Looking at what was mine

    But I had to cry

    Knowing what was mine

    Each pain I caused

    I pray your vengeance on me

    Not this precious baby I see

    Begging for forgiveness.

  • Spoiled

    Spoiled

    Feeling the pressure

    Wanting something differently

    That is what you are claiming

    But you knew me from the beginning

    Remember when

    Every day had time for me

    Every meal, you would always offer me

    Every night, filled with peace and love

    Everything I wanted

    Nothing was off limits

    You created this monster

    This being

    This inner sensation of expectation

    Yeah I’m spoiled

    But you set this expectation

    The Expectation

    It is like it always was

    You know you ask for things

    I purposely forget those things

    You constantly trying to replace

    That hierarchy that exist between us

    You suggesting it’s your turn

    As if you invested and invested

    Now you are trying to claim the ROI

    But I have to let you know

    That’s not how this is going to go

    Just because you spoil me

    That has nothing to do with

    How I treat you

    I treat you

    Like I always have

    You come to me when you need a laugh

    You come to me when you need an ear

    You come to me when you fear

    You come to me when the world is over

    You come to me just to make me move over

    You come to me just for a hi

    You come to me just because

    You come to me when you need a hug

    I thought it was all you needed

    I don’t want what you need

    But apparently you want to be spoiled like me

  • Sometimes

    Sometimes

    Sometimes

    Just sitting here

    Just writing it all out

    All the things I should say

    Everything that I was suppose to say

    Just end up here

    Right here

    Just to get it out

    Sometimes

    Emotion captures

    Frustration turns into anger

    Anger gets trapped into complacency

    And just in that moment

    Losing all my sanity

    Differences eluding me

    So I am stuck being me

    Sometimes

    Reminiscing about this

    Missing something dismissed

    Wondering about uncertainty’s privilege

    Stipulation of inevitable changes

    Waiting for the next evolution

    Rotation of the earth

    Endless revolutions

    Sometimes

    The stars see me

    Looking a bit desperately

    Endlessly striving toward possibilities

    Lingering in this crazy mystery

    Lord please bless me

    Trying so hard

    Please hear me

  • Just ain’t right

    Just ain’t right

    Coming in late at night

    Something

    Just doesn’t feel right

    Gut telling me

    There’s something

    I don’t wanna know

    Asking you random questions

    Hoping you come real slow

    Nothing is wrong

    Yeah, I heard what you said

    But this feeling

    Stays inside my head

    Suspiciously I stare at you

    Now you frustrated

    You looking different

    Can’t recognize that scent

    Something just ain’t right

    The way you coming home

    Each and every night

    Something just ain’t right

    You can’t even look at me

    What is it you expect of me

    Tryna have this conversation with you

    You avoiding every question

    What did I do to you

    Your avoidance is worrying

    Got me thinking

    That something is missing

    Missing something obvious

    Because your answers are dubious

    What should I expect

    When I feel the neglect

    You losing my respect

    Now you slowly

    Looking uneasy

    What is it

    Oh, now you feel me

    Feel me, leaving

    Something just ain’t right

    They way you coming home

    Each and every night

    Something just ain’t right

    You can even look at me

    What is it you expect of me

    Listen to me

    Loud and clearly

    Never repeating this

    So I hope you hear

    I know you

    Like I know me

    And I know this feeling

    When I’m uneasy

    Whether you admit it or not

    I know you doing something

    That just ain’t right

    Don’t care if you don’t come clean

    My conscience ain’t feeling a thing

    So keep the lie to yourself

    And let me be by myself

    Don’t need anyone else

    Something just ain’t right

    They way you coming home

    Each and every night

    Something just ain’t right

    You can even look at me

    What is it you expect of me

  • Should Be Sleeping

    Should Be Sleeping

    I should be sleeping

    But my mind won’t rest

    Keep replaying today

    Our conversation from today

    Wondering how you feeling

    How are you dealing

    Cause some days

    My heart hurts

    When I know

    The whole day will pass

    And I won’t see that ass

    I should be sleeping

    But I still have stuff on my mind

    Need to get this out

    Truth please set me free

    Please allow her to see

    That I’m in love

    With her love

    Loving that love

    That she gives relentlessly

    Without judgement

    Without cruelty

    Purely love

    Sweet destiny

    I should be sleeping

    But I need you to listen

    I would give it all up

    Every day

    The most joyous day

    The happiest week

    The longest night

    Milestone after milestone

    I would give it all up

    For a chance to rewind time

    To tell you this from the beginning

    To tell you you are the shit

    And I fucked Up

    And missed it.

    I should be sleeping

    But I’m here trying to live

    But it’s different when

    You have to fight to live

    When you ain’t enjoying life

    You are just a part of life

    Incomplete, unfocused

    Transverse time as if there is time

    Awaiting the end, because the past passed

    Seeing that parallel timeline

    Plotting intricate plots

    Plotting to jump to that line

    That line where we are together

    Talking shit

    Blending shit

    Rolling shit

    Smoking shit

  • I Know That

    I Know That

    I know that I know you

    This cannot be the first time

    Like our souls, our souls

    They’ve always been intertwined

    Your presence creates euphoria

    And I need more of ya

    Whatever happened last lifetime

    Has nothing to do with this time

    And now that I found you again

    You will always be mine.

    I know that I know you

    There is nothing strange between us

    So we can talk like there’s no space between us

    As we reflecting on each other’s energy

    All around us nothing but envy

    And they wondering

    How long we known each other

    How long we been together

    But we are beyond the concept of time

    Our mental interwoven as if we are time

    I know that I know you

    Close your eyes so your soul can see mine

    So we can communicate on a different realm

    Please don’t feel overwhelmed

    It’s just that cosmic energy

    That euphoric energy

    That constantly magnetizes my soul to yours

    If nothing else please believe I am yours

    And only collectively can we achieve serenity

    Ignoring everything that dissipates our energy

    I know that I know you

    Generationally negativity pulls us apart

    Everlastingly our love restarts

    And somehow I am drawn to you

    Even if I never know your name

    I know that I know you

    And I can feed off your every thought

    Randomly conceiving of weird innuendos

    And I’m all in cause I had the same thought

    No matter what, keeping everything about you

  • Can I Get To Know You?

    Can I Get To Know You?

    Can I get to know ya

    Wanna know what’s real with ya

    Cause it has to be something

    That I’m missin with ya

    Its like every once in a while

    Everything calms down

    Like I’m in the eye of the storm

    And I asking myself what’s wrong

    What is going on in this place

    Never seen such a calm space

    Can I get to know ya

    Can I get to know ya

    Cause Its obvious I don’t know ya

    I know I been in your presence

    Cannot even count the times

    But you got my face wound up

    Should I be shocked or surprised

    My pessimism cannot appreciate this

    Optimistically I’ve been waiting for this

    Looking skeptically, not sure what to do

    Should I sit directly next to you

    Can I get to know ya

    Can I get to know ya

    I must need a refresher course

    Cause when I see ya

    I don’t know the course

    Is it rough and rigid

    Memorized your digits

    Bewildered by this change

    When someone asked

    I didn’t even know my own name

    If I had one wish in this world

    Can I get to know ya

    Can I get to know ya

    Need to avoid those sore spots

    When you making dinner

    I’m cleaning the pots

    If you sweep

    Then I’ll vacuum

    Taking the trash out

    You ain’t got to ask me

    Filling every void that I can

    I’ll show you all that I am

    Can I get to know ya