Sy Bryant

Category: LoveIs

  • Here, here NOW

    Why, Why must it, why, must it be this way. I m too old to play this game. You know my name. You can feel it when you scream it. But still not together, it’s hot as hell yet I still want us to be physically bonded together.

    Now, right now, now, please feel this. This frequency can you feel it. I pushing out Giga Hertz so hard that it hurts. I need you to feel this thought. Can’t you feel it, and believe it, why aren’t you here to see it. From my vortex, the complexity of this power, I need you here, at this hour.

    Here, here now, here, waiting, anticipating, dreaming, believing, feeling, wishing, praying, reaching, longing, starving, wanting, loving, missing, needing for you, right here, here now.

    Copyright 2018 Sy Bryant. All rights reserved

  • Perfect Choice

    It’s Something, it’s that connection

    Leading me to reflection

    Remembering every innocuous interaction

    Even without happy ending satisfaction.

    Without you, the apocalypse of fears

    In the silence of lonely night’s tears

    Excitement at thought that you’re near

    I’m Begging, I’m pleading for the rest of your years

    Subtle glance at your silhouette

    Plotting deeply to get you wet

    Intensely loving into a sweat

    Your deepest needs, I’ll never forget

    It’s something, it’s your voice

    Speaking this soliloquy until you are moist

    Your gentle Honesty leads me to rejoice

    It’s just that you are the perfect choice.

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  • P.A.I.N.

    Gentle talk coming my way, what you doing? how’s your day? Gently turned deep. REAL DEEP. REAL QUICK. Constant reminder of reality.  Heart hurting. Mind gone. Anticipating the normal ol song.

    Peace, where can I find you.
    Pain, want no parts of you.
    I, just didn’t know it was real
    Now, it’s gone, I hate how it feels.

    Trying to think this through, living for today is what I thought I was suppose to do.  Now I’m confused. Wanted to believe in what we could do. No disrespect. Always the hurting truth.  Heart is inside out, what to do.

    Peace, where can I find you.
    Pain, want no parts of you.
    I, just didn’t know it was real
    Now, it’s gone, I hate how it feels.

    I felt free.  Happily wrote poetry.  Haven’t done a real smile since the last century.  Now its all gone. What’s wrong? Tears come down. Living in the now, I can’t do you.  Pain too intense, can barely breath. Voice goes silent, Just wish I could sleep.

    Peace, where can I find you.
    Pain, want no parts of you.
    I, just didn’t know it was real
    Now, it’s gone, I hate how it feels.

    My hands so dirty can’t even hug you.  Burden so heavy hard to love you. Hard to know my life fits into a week, now that I’m open I feel so weak.  Pain, my old friend. Sad that your back again. But at least I know you, and we know how to be together forever.

    Peace, where can I find you.
    Pain, want no parts of you.
    I, just didn’t know it was real
    Now, it’s gone, I hate how it feels.

    Copyright 2018 Sy Bryant. All rights reserved

  • Tear

    Tear haven’t seen you in years, we agreed we are better apart. You claim to refresh my soul, but all I feel is the pain you start. You know me well I lost control again feel like I’m in a spell once again.

    This tear, filled with fear
    , sign of my pain
    , tears me up
    This tear, could it be in vain?

    Thought this was true. The true truth is more than I can pursue. Just cause I hit pause, may mean this feeling is lost. Lost in emotion out of control, seeing my whole life from a different soul. She knew me, before I spoke a word. All that’s left is this tear from my soul.

    This tear, filled with fear
    , sign of my pain
    , tears me up
    This tear, could it be in vain?

    Is it Sine or Cosine or some new flow , the frequency is hard to control. Where is this going? What will we do? if this was a different week, would I pursue? Is this the future or a hidden fantasy? Why do these tears always blind me?

    This tear, filled with fear
    , sign of my pain
    , tears me up
    This tear, could it be in vain?

    Copyright 2018 Sy Bryant. All rights reserved

  • Don’t Push me away

    Arguments aint nothing new, just strange between me and you

    To disagree given our energy feel like my life is so empty.

    Ain’t nothing changed, you still right here,

    Just don’t want this to grow between us.

     

    Don’t push me away

    I’m staying right here

    Don’t push me away

    I ain’t going nowhere

    I’m Here to stay

     

    Just because I am not there don’t mean I’m not there

    Physical don’t mean shit if the mental ain’t there

    We running through time, wondering if there is a stop

    But we gotta run together, together, together, just can’t stop

     

    Don’t push me away

    I’m staying right here

    Don’t push me away

    I ain’t going nowhere

    I’m Here to stay

     

    You keep saying I aint here, like you don’t want me to be here

    Im confused, not knowing if you going, if you staying,

    Thinking bout things yet to be, distracting us from being today.

    Here we are once again not agreeing, don’t run don’t leave lets just be.

     

    Don’t push me away

    I’m staying right here

    Don’t push me away

    I ain’t going nowhere

    I’m Here to stay

     

    Copyright 2018 Sy Bryant. All rights reserved

  • The Plot

    Anticipating the opening of this plot

    Stage left entering in that laced dress

    Innocently walking fingers to the spot

    That lingerie providing easy access to caress

    The next scene feeling euphoric about this thing

    In the openness of the night’s breeze

    Knowing that everyone can see everything

    Penetrating into the essence of this tease

    Acting out the intimacy of the flirtation

    Texting to sexting to moaning to boning

    Feeling pressure build with your masturbation

    The taste of that wetness I’m owning.

    Closing this play, time displaced

    Nothing matters but that mutual climax

    Strengthen the pace to reach that place

    Almost at the top arching that back

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  • Chance Encounter

    Slowly moving, it’s the gentle groove, it’s soothing
    Walking past everything in life,
    Then Straight in my path, jawn with hella ass,
    Sundress lightly flowing, revealing wind bout to sin

    Trying to connect with her eyes, will she see my lies,
    eyes connect, smiles exchanged, what’s next
    Too old for game. I just need to know your name.
    I need to know, where we about to go.

    Conversation for hours, why was I even here
    Can’t remember shit, cause my focus is right here
    As we vibing, we getting hungry, Thinking on the fly
    Cause I don’t want to lose her.

    We talk, a slow walk, more talk,
    Asian foods, was making a mess, not rude
    Wiping sauce off her lips, she didn’t even flinch
    Knew right then, this was a win.

    Talking with this stranger, not wanting to end,
    Now its dawn, I need to know when, when can I
    See her, when can I touch her, can she even imagine I love her.
    Just a chance encounter.

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  • I wonder

    I wonder what it would be like

    Seeing your shimmering gaze with the moons light

    Dress slowly caressing the cleavage of your breast

    As you blindly stare to the horizons last light

    Small waves massaging your ankles bracelet

     

    I wonder what it would be like

    Feeling the warmth of your hand in mine

    Being that person on your mind

    That fragrance driving my inhibition

    Hearing the details of your day unwind

     

    I wonder what it would be like

    Squeezing bodies into a calm state

    Exhaling life’s great debate

    Lips pressing against soften cheek

    This moment in time feeling you’re mine

     

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  • Anything I want

     

    Tongues are slick.   They can tell the truth or start on that bullshit.  Letting shit slip, being’s outward inner voice.  But the choice and placement of a word  can make a whole world heard.   Now you in the shit  cause that tongue promised me anything I want.

    Eyes are mirrors.  Only showing a limited view of shit you already seen.  Then comes this unknown thang inspiring to my ears, writing my words I’m struggling to hear.  I need to see that thing that got my head fucked up.  Now you know you gotta give it up cause I can have anything I want.

    Ears are cruel.  Selectively receiving things that selfishly make everything cool.   You know the shit you say ain’t right. Like that shit you said the other night.  Teasing me with soliloquies acting like you right up the street.   But if you was about that shit.  Bout that life.  You would be here RIGHT now giving me anything I want.

    Skin is the tool.   Making my mind understand what my heart does feel. The swing of emotion, swaying away from devotion.  Yet every morning and every night them fingers still be texting.  But it’s like you afraid of this shit right here, and I can’t understand what’s real. Cause you PROMISED me anything I want.

     

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  • the night

    Slowly sounds are silenced

    The birds song ends

    Motors sound further away

    Gently blown leaves rustle

    The darkness subdues the night

    Stars mapping the sky

    How does my star shine

    Contemplating the ending day

    Sighing regrets

    Thoughts consume the night

    The thinnest line of a new day

    Energy piercing the sky

    The bird song begins

    Sound replenishes the sky

    Goodbye to the night

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  • Breathe

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    Inhaling from the inside out

    Longing refreshment

    Chilled air warmed soul

    Deeply deeply breathe

    Life’s curious ways

    Anxiety driven passion

    Exhale relaxing satisfaction

    Deeply deeply breathe

    Winding to conclusion

    Slower repetition

    Subtle warmness

    Deeply deeply breathe

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  • *th Floor

    Thinking back to that continental day
    Easy evening, I was lobster Mac n Cheesin
    Celebrating being brown with success
    Only thing bonding these strangers
    Embroidering this newness
    On that the 4th floor

    Random connections, 19th floor
    Knew what I was looking for
    Vividly remembering spectator warnings
    Not understanding given what I was feeling
    Struck through intelligence
    Loving this passionate conversationalist

    Entering and exiting in the lobby
    What you doing here, same as you
    Chance to relate in an unfamiliar place
    Coordinated elevator on the 9th floor
    Breaking bread, wall down, safety
    Constantly translating input to truth

    Uniquely critiquing the source on the 17th floor
    Unsatisfied with the ending result
    Unraveling past discretions
    Unbreakable confidant
    Unselfishly providing dreams
    Unabated proving Gods mercy

     

     

    Copyright 2018 Sy Bryant. All rights reserved

  • Don’t Push me away

    Arguments aint nothing new, just strange between me and you
    To disagree given our energy feel like my life is so empty.
    Ain’t nothing changed, you still right here,
    Just don’t want this to grow between us.

    Don’t push me away
    I’m staying right here
    Don’t push me away
    I ain’t going nowhere
    I’m Here to stay

    Just because I am not there don’t mean I’m not there
    Physical don’t mean shit if the mental ain’t there
    We running through time, wondering if there is a stop
    But we gotta run together, together, together, just can’t stop

    Don’t push me away
    I’m staying right here
    Don’t push me away
    I ain’t going nowhere
    I’m Here to stay

    You keep saying I aint here, like you don’t want me to be here
    Im confused, not knowing if you going, if you staying,
    Thinking bout things yet to be, distracting us from being today.
    Here we are once again not agreeing, don’t run don’t leave lets just be.

    Don’t push me away
    I’m staying right here
    Don’t push me away
    I ain’t going nowhere
    I’m Here to stay

     

    Copyright 2018 Sy Bryant. All rights reserved

  • The Perfect Choice

     

    It’s Something, it’s that connection
    Leading me to reflection
    Remembering every innocuous interaction
    Even without happy ending satisfaction.

    Without you, the apocalypse of fears
    In the silence of lonely night’s tears
    Excitement at thought that you’re near
    I’m Begging, I’m pleading for the rest of your years

    Subtle glance at your silhouette
    Plotting deeply to get you wet
    Intensely loving into a sweat
    Your deepest needs, I’ll never forget

    It’s something, it’s your voice
    Speaking this soliloquy until you are moist
    Your gentle Honesty leads me to rejoice
    It’s just that you are the perfect choice.

     

    Copyright 2018 Sy Bryant. All rights reserved

  • P.A.I.N.

    Gentle talk coming my way, what you doing? how’s your day? Gently turned deep. REAL DEEP. REAL QUICK. Constant reminder of reality.  Heart hurting. Mind gone. Anticipating the normal ol song.

    Peace, where can I find you.

    Pain, want no parts of you.

    I, just didn’t know it was real

    Now, it’s gone, I hate how it feels.

    Trying to think this through, living for today is what I thought I was suppose to do.  Now I’m confused. Wanted to believe in what we could do. No disrespect. Always the hurting truth.  Heart is inside out, what to do.

    Peace, where can I find you.

    Pain, want no parts of you.

    I, just didn’t know it was real

    Now, it’s gone, I hate how it feels.

    I felt free.  Happily wrote poetry.  Haven’t done a real smile since the last century.  Now its all gone. What’s wrong? Tears come down. Living in the now, I can’t do you.  Pain too intense, can barely breath. Voice goes silent, Just wish I could sleep.

    Peace, where can I find you.

    Pain, want no parts of you.

    I, just didn’t know it was real

    Now, it’s gone, I hate how it feels.

    My hands so dirty can’t even hug you.  Burden so heavy hard to love you. Hard to know my life fits into a week, now that I’m open I feel so weak.  Pain, my old friend. Sad that your back again. But at least I know you, and we know how to be together forever.

    Peace, where can I find you.

    Pain, want no parts of you.

    I, just didn’t know it was real

    Now, it’s gone, I hate how it feels.

     

    Copyright 2018 Sy Bryant. All rights reserved

  • Silent Night

    Deep into the solitude of the dark night

    Listening intently to the silence of thought

    Lost dreams resurrect reminiscence of light

    Looking clearly into the darkness

    Hoping for a day that will never be, hoping to be free

    The reminder of constant pain is relentless

    Heart beat’s deafening sound in the abyss

    Praying for solitude, wishing for peace.

    Silent night, if there was just one kiss.

  • JELLY

     

    Just then I thought my life had changed. I mean it was there, everything, I could hear it in her voice. I could see myself intertwined in the stories of her past.  It was meant to be, wasn’t it?

    Everyone has that one.  That one that brings energy to your spirit.  That one that makes you smile with just a “hey” in the tone that goes straight to the dome.  It was there. I knew it. Right in front of me.  It was meant to be, wasn’t it?

    Living without her won’t be an issue. It would be a tragedy, can’t you see.  When your energies and frequencies naturally operate collaboratively.  But it’s all a fantasy, because I’m not able to see her reality.  It was meant to be, wasn’t it?

    Loving differently is a strange thing.  Cause you somewhere get trapped by your past, although it never last, it’s your foundation and can absorb your motivation, until you are just existing in thirst. It was meant to be, wasn’t it?

    Yall know what I mean when you enter the scene.  It feels like de ja vu, is someone tricking you?  Is this too perfect to be true? What the fuck can I do? I need that commitment to make it intimate, then I would really know… if it was meant to be.

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  • Use To

    Use to see you with pride

    Now you have

    something to hide

    just doesn’t feel real

    Not sure how to feel

    Lost in this hesitation

    Deep in this contemplation….

    Social media tormenting me

    All these images

    Taking hold on me

    Just casual pictures

    No where near offensive

    But just as decisive

    It’s just that feeling I feel

    Use to believe in you

    Use to really love you

    Use to believe in you

    Do anything for you

    Use to

    Use to

    Use to love you

    Know it is time

    Keep reminding myself

    Need to let go

    Keep telling myself

    Our last goodbye

    Losing my mind

    Yet I stay thinking

    You stay on my mind

    Having conversations with you

    Like you really here

    Can’t be drugs

    I stay clear

    Is it psychosis that got me fucked up

    Staring into thin air

    Like it’s something there

    All I really know

    Is you ain’t here

    Use to believe in you

    Use to really love you

    Use to believe in you

    Do anything for you

    Use to

    Use to

    Use to love you

    Why me

    Why you

    Use to believe in you

    Use to need you

    Use to want you

    Use to

    Use to love you

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  • alone for so long

    Surrounded by breathing things and 100 things to do. everything strange, no one is real. In my own space, thoughts here, serene emptiness.
    Alone for So long.

    Spinning endlessly around this sun, thinking about the first day I saw my son. Planting new seeds with old pain each generation still ends in death.
    Alone for So long.

    Systemically enslaved. Mentally starving for the potential I so eloquently locked away. Wanting that Cosby Show life, deep rooted emotional pain.
    Alone for So long.

    Socially inept. Leading or a shadow stuck between. No interest in just being seen. I don’t know society. Don’t know people. I know alone.
    Alone for So long.

  • I ♥️ that

    That word …
    That tone….
    That answer…
    That phrase…
    I ❤️that.

    Your spirit…
    Your smile…
    Your laugh…
    Your style…
    I ❤️that.

    Our talks…
    Our connection…
    Our expression…
    Our reflections…
    I❤️that

  • Gone


    First it was a few hours… Gone
    Then a few days…. Gone
    Now can’t remember the last time I called your name.
    First it was a few missed calls…. Gone
    Then a few messages lost … Gone
    Can’t believe you are gone… feeling so alone

    Chance after chance you gave me
    I know I took it for granted
    Silly laughs when you caught me
    Didn’t even panic
    Knew that you loved me
    more than you loved yourself
    I could say, do anything
    And never worried about anyone else
    But now, I can’t find you
    Now, don’t know what to do
    I need to talk to you?

    First it was a few hours… Gone
    Then a few days…. Gone
    Now can’t remember the last time I called your name.
    First it was a few missed calls…. Gone
    Then a few messages lost … Gone
    Can’t believe you are gone… feeling so alone

    That look on your face was priceless,
    not in a good way
    You were tired of being tired
    You looked at me so differently
    For the very first time you looked free
    No longer was I the love in your eyes
    Trying to explain my case
    Disbelief in my cries
    Are you even listening to a word I say
    This same speech worked before
    But now it feels like lost you

    First it was a few hours… Gone
    Then a few days…. Gone
    Now can’t remember the last time I called your name.
    First it was a few missed calls…. Gone
    Then a few messages lost … Gone
    Can’t believe you are gone… feeling so alone

    I’m trying….
    I’m crying…
    Just want to remind you,
    About the beautiful mornings
    Those long nights
    The power of me and you
    Don’t leave, please, please
    I finally understand
    Without you I’m just a shadow of a man
    What can I do, to please you?
    Need you to know how much I love you

    First it was a few hours… Gone
    Then a few days…. Gone
    Now can’t remember the last time I called your name.
    First it was a few missed calls…. Gone
    Then a few messages lost … Gone
    Can’t believe you are gone… feeling so alone

    Calling your momma house
    Your grandmom too
    Nobody is helping me tryna find you
    Waiting at your townhouse
    All day at your job
    Now I’m filled with so many doubts
    Afraid to lose you
    Trying to do anything
    Just to see you
    Please answer that ring
    Sweet baby I miss you

    First it was a few hours… Gone
    Then a few days…. Gone
    Now can’t remember the last time I called your name.
    First it was a few missed calls…. Gone
    Then a few messages lost … Gone
    Can’t believe you are gone… feeling so alone

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