Sy Bryant

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  • Perspective

    Perspective

    Confined in frustration

    Institutionalized in speculation

    Blinded justice

    It’s not just us

    Ingrained in the earth

    Lost at birth

    Intentionally marginalized

    Don’t be surprised

    Accepting the fact

    Disarray is packed

    Shocked to attacked

    Frustrating circumstances

    Void of chances

    Rolling dice after dice

    Avoiding random advice

    Controlled by every vice

    Digging into every chasm

    Longing for every spasm

    Anything to feel a feeling

    Long past my last cause

    Cause death seems appealing

    I’ll never reach that glass ceiling

    Circumventing regulation

    Doing anything out of desperation

    Grinding through exhilaration

    Maintaining this station

    Pretending every dream comes true

    As if every prayer is for you

    The dramatic scene is serene

    Looking and looking, looking so mean

    It’s the reality of what it seems

    Knowing that you know

    But what does it mean

    Rejecting the endless fantasy

    Avoiding life loans

    Loving instead of dreaming

    Doing over sleeping

    Driving into the mystery

    Seeking each void of humanity

    Building an infinite memory

    Ending each regret

    Taking every bet

    Leaving nothing to be desired

    Fueling this fire

  • Still

    Still

    Still here

    Thinking bout you

    Can’t even feel

    That connection with you

    We were bonding

    So I thought

    Now we are wandering

    Thinking…..

    Don’t fully accept

    Why you left

    But learned from the past

    Don’t hold on too long

    More you hold on

    Sooner and longer they’ll be gone

    So I’m here

    Thinking bout you

    Thinking…

    When you’re ready

    Still here

    Same number

    Still here

    Same DM

    didn’t go anywhere

    Still here, still here

    Grateful for the time

    Smiling when I think

    About fast food lines

    Chit chat, eat a snack

    Things feel different

    I don’t know

    What am I missing

    Friendship indeed

    Praying…..

    One day

    You’ll need me again

    I’ll be right there

    Attentively listening

    Doing anything I can do

    Cause I’m at my best

    When I’m with you

    Heart pounding

    Getting louder

    Just heard your ring

    It’s that power

    Praying….

    When you’re ready

    Still here

    Same number

    Still here

    Same DM

    didn’t go anywhere

    Still here, still here

  • I don’t want to be here

    I don’t want to be here

    I don’t want to be here

    I don’t want to be anywhere

    Anywhere that is required Of me

    It never lets me just be me

    Let me exist in the shadow

    Periodically wanting me to interject

    As if I’ve always been here

    I don’t want to be here

    Don’t want any sense of responsibility

    Don’t want any bill to call upon me

    Don’t want to be dependent upon

    Just want to breathe every day until the sun is gone

    Just want to breathe every day under moonlight

    Seeing waves caress my blight

    I don’t want to be here

    Where people say hello before my name

    Where there’s an expectation that I do the same

    Where everyday is not really for me

    Cause someone somewhere needs me

    Wanting me to do what they wouldn’t do for me

    I don’t want to be here

    Staring in the air mindlessly

    But always on call in a minute

    Waiting a call, text some type of message

    When my cycle of existence

    Is based on someone else’s persistence

  • Working

    Working

    Working

    Grinding

    Pleading

    Believing

    Completing

    Nothing

    Pleasing

    Agreeing

    Working

    Building

    Driving

    Striving

    Growing

    Knowing

    Cooking

    Showing

    Working

    Loving

    Kissing

    Hugging

    Supporting

    Speaking

    Glowing

    Uplifting

    Working

    Creating

    Devastating

    Bleeding

    Healing

    Smiling

    Frowning

    Teasing

    Clowning

  • Pain And Me

    Pain And Me

    Pain is eating me

    Like it’s feeding me

    Becoming my only source

    Calling it my energy

    Absorbing it

    Like I am a part of it

    I am what I am

    Pain is what it is

    We are my mom’s only kids

    Been riding it out

    Shout it out

    In the midst of misery

    It’s just pain and me

    There ain’t nothing real

    It’s just how I feel

    Between paper lines

    Writing out each thought of mine

    Hoping with expectation

    One day there’ll be a celebration

    The real issue

    So close to desperation

    Mind and body

    Total separation

    Slowly and surely everything

    That’s happening

    It’s just pain and me

    What does it mean

    When you look to stars

    Nothing to be seen

    No inspiration to gleam

    Can’t see past the hand in front of you

    Can’t get past

    The first two steps

    All you can do is that 1-2, 1-2

    Accepting that this life in me

    Breeds every misery

    Incubating something new

    Reminding me about me

    It’s just pain and me

    How does it feel

    When the sun has no appeal

    The moon’s light ain’t never right

    Deeply inhaling but

    Never getting fresh air

    Taste buds ain’t tasting

    Smelling something stale

    Skin feeling itchy and pale

    Closing down internally

    To every external stimulus

    The greed in me longing for peace

    Yet reality only sees me

    It’s just pain and me

  • Light My Life

    Light My Life

    Can I just say

    Sitting here

    With my head hung low

    In a crazy mood

    Feeling my hearts echo

    Times like this

    Really thinking

    Was I ever happy

    Is there a smile for me?

    darkest day

    What could I do

    World pressing me

    Tryna see it through

    Forcing my imagination

    For brighter days

    Struggling to feel

    Human again

    New alert

    On the phone

    Smile from you

    “How are you?”

    You light my life

    First ray of sunshine

    You light my life

    Every time I see you

    You light my life

    Light my life

    Everything in life

    You light my life

    Making up things

    Anything to talk

    That energy

    Grows on me

    Indestructible feeling

    When we meet

    Those endorphins

    High on life

    Steady and ready

    Accomplish anything

    Just from your touch

    Casually imagining

    If it were done intentionally

    How would it feel

    For Yin to Yang

    Diving deep into

    This Love sick thing

    Atomically cannot stop

    Until we reach the end

    Finally found

    My best friend

    You light my life

    First ray of sunshine

    You light my life

    Every time I see you

    You light my life

    Light my life

    Everything in life

    You light my life

  • Final Goodbye

    Final Goodbye

    This is my last time

    Saying that final goodbye

    Let God wipe the tear from my eye

    This is my last time

    Never will I feel this way

    Nothing else to say

    Never been like this before

    Thought I wanted something more and more

    Now things are crazy

    I don’t even exist

    Just a shadow of me

    Walking through the door

    Not a care in this world

    Thinking I’m not alone

    That’s the biggest curse

    Wanting to believe it must be me

    Why else does guilt keep grabbing me

    The more and More I push

    The more and more I realize

    And I still act surprised

    When I finally see

    And ain’t a us, just a me

    This is my last time

    Saying that final goodbye

    Let God wipe the tear from my eye

    This is my last time

    Never will I feel this way

    Nothing else to say

    Leaving phones unanswered

    Have no desire to speak

    Becomes more and more difficult

    Pretending I’m weak

    As the wind blows

    I can feel every bit of the past

    Just never imagined that pain would last

    As the river flows

    Everything is washed away

    Nothing else to even do

    Just awaiting judgement day

    Have no expectations of open gates

    The subtlety of each and every crime

    Beyond what they eye could see

    But God always saw me

    That wrath will be upon me

    This is my last time

    Saying that final goodbye

    Let God wipe the tear from my eye

    This is my last time

    Never will I feel this way

    Nothing else to say

    Watching out for anything new

    Happiness is just a myth

    Just hard to be so serious

    Holding onto this pain

    It just reminds me of things

    Not sure how I get through

    Every 24th hour

    Just brings me compounded pain

    If I could really smile

    Wonder what that would be like

    Really laughing out of joy not spite

    Really seeing something new

    Having that anxiety of love anew

    Something always happens

    Manifested lies and behavior

    Just Tired of being my own savior

    This is my last time

    Saying that final goodbye

    Let God wipe the tear from my eye

    This is my last time

    Never will I feel this way

    Nothing else to say

  • I’ll Be Ready

    I’ll Be Ready

    Last time I saw you

    Was the first time

    I ever saw you

    didn’t even meet you

    Just glad

    I had the chance to see you

    And ever since that day

    Been hoping

    You come my way

    Next time

    I promise you

    I will be ready

    Just a chase encounter

    Waiting on the counter

    You talking to them

    But you looking at me

    Sweetie……..

    Just tell me what you see

    You looking deep into me

    And I am hoping slightly

    That we will have chance

    Maybe even a slow dance

    How’s that mocha latte

    That look on your face

    When you took that taste

    Hope I can give that to you

    Damn I so wish

    That I knew you

    Last time I saw you

    Was the first time

    I ever saw you

    didn’t even meet you

    Just glad

    I had the chance to see you

    And ever since that day

    Been hoping

    You come my way

    Next time

    I promise you

    I will be ready

    Slowly you walk away

    Accidently bump me

    Gotta be honest

    I was checking my pockets

    Thinking you wasn’t honest

    Your friend was talking to you

    While you was looking at me

    I wish you knew

    That I am so friendly

    You could have just said

    A quick hi to me

    Played it off subtly

    So your co-worker would think

    You already knew me

    Now that time has past

    Not even sure the memory will last

    But I know one thing for certain

    And two things for sure

    If I ever see you again

    I will never leave you again

    Last time I saw you

    Was the first time

    I ever saw you

    Next time

    I promise you

    I will be ready

    I will be ready

    I will be ready

    I promise you

    If I ever see you again

    I promise you

    I will be ready

    I will be ready

  • You was right…

    You was right…

    I was using you
    Creating fantasy
    Trying to get through life
    Never asked if it was ok with you
    Pinged you
    Intent to make you feel good
    Just to make me feel good for helping you
    You was right

    I am focused on me
    Self abnegation fills me
    And I have no intent
    On anything less
    Must confess
    Sacrificed so much self
    Have no interest in anyone else
    You was right

    I do pass on
    What God passing through me
    That’s the full extent
    That’s all it will be
    Never met someone
    That was there for me
    Purely a lie
    You was right

    People that reach out to me
    I don’t reach back
    It’s like I’m looking
    Seeking something
    Not intended for me
    Instead of passing all God’s word
    Have to start keeping some for myself
    You was right

  • H.O.P.E.

    I still remember you from childhood days
    That constant feeling you gave on Xmas days
    Anxiety deafening every move that was made
    That hope, that constant hope you made.

    You are always there in the strangest way
    Regardless of how I feel, showed me the way
    When you’re not around I struggle to make sense
    Ambivalent traversing life like a 6th sense

    Closed my eyes and see you there with pride
    In the midst of the pain striving for that pride
    The future of this abyss leaves me yearning peace
    Transverse this void no short cut to this peace

    Yet, I’m still here, energy drained, still need more
    Striving again to see you once more
    I miss you, that newness, that hope
    That anticipation, and realization, I need that hope

    Copyright 2018 Sy Bryant. All rights reserved

  • When you young

    When you young you think pretty is enough
    Pretty don’t mean that attitude ain’t fierce
    Pretty don’t mean she know how to care
    Pretty don’t mean trouble ain’t ahead
    Now that I old pretty ain’t shit.

    When you young you think cash is enough
    Cash don’t stop not one problem
    Cash get taxed and you got even less
    Cash slips easily with every breath you breathe
    Now that I old cash ain’t shit.

    When you young you think booty is enough
    Booty don’t mean she be there when it’s rough
    Booty only temporary until you bust
    Booty right there, but booty in control
    Now that I’m old booty ain’t shit.
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  • All Night

    The sun is setting
    head sweating
    heart banging so loudly
    Manhood standing proudly…

    Thinking about it all night
    Knowing I’ll be here all night
    Until that sun come up again
    Bout to commit some sin tonight.

    Waiting patiently with anticipation
    Watching you walk in, sophistication
    Sitting here plotting and scheming
    Something so real it got me dreaming

    Thinking about it all night
    Knowing I’ll be here all night
    Until that sun come up again
    Bout to commit some sin tonight.

    Opening up about everything
    Past thoughts, evil deeds, everything
    Nose wide open, believing in this thing
    Nothing left but the sexing thing

    Thinking about it all night
    Knowing I’ll be here all night
    Until that sun come up again
    Bout to commit some sin tonight.

    Ready for you all night….
    We can walk, we can talk, we can tease, all night
    Ain’t nothing more important than you tonight
    This will be like a forever OMG tonight.

    All night.
    Need you all night.
    All night.
    Just me and you tonight.
    All night.
    I need to hold you tight.
    All night.
    Deep inside till the morning light.
    All night….tonight.
    All night… tomorrow night.
    All night… every night.

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  • Open

    Open,
    Smelling flowers I cannot see
    Believing in unfathomable things
    Achieving beyond my dreams

    Open,
    Fault’s unique abilities
    Failure’s new opportunities
    Fall’s strengthening necessity

    Open,
    Hugging tightly
    Bonding gently
    Loving blindly

     

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  • Feeling It

    No matter what, Love is Love
    And love don’t end.
    That foundation
    Created longstanding opportunity
    For a longstanding unity
    Feeling it.

    No matter what, ride or die
    And ride for life
    If hands start to fly or bullets are freed
    Count on me
    Feeling it.

    No matter what, we straight
    Arguments ain’t shit.
    Building an empire of leaders
    If need be everyone else will be bleeders
    It ain’t shit to us
    Feeling it.

     

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  • Remember When

    Created smiles when coming on the scene
    Overly confident in my own presence it seems
    Egotistical mind made me a king before my time
    Never imagined a day without love
    Remember When love was true love

    Distant touch just out of reach
    Accustomed to being the center of attention
    I was so spoiled from getting that attention
    Did I mention I thought I was the shit
    Remember when I was in the shit.

    Making bad mistakes. Lies on top of lies.
    As a young man always told to deny, deny, deny.
    Humility my enemy because it makes it reality
    I’m not all I thought I could be
    Remember when, it was simple, just you and me

     

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  • Instinctively

    Don’t need a deep explanation,
    Long winded stories don’t aid the cause,
    Don’t waste moments with endless metaphors on phone calls,
    Don’t say a thing,
    I know you…Instinctively

    Bonded, through an intangible past,
    Slowly exhale, eyes gently closing, just to let it last
    Subtly unfolding deep rooted history
    Don’t move a muscle,
    I feel you…Instinctively

    Thoughts racing through this day,
    Trying to mend my cape and be on my way,
    Yet I know, know sincerely, I cannot solve this mystery
    Please believe me, this too shall pass,
    I love you… instinctively

     

    Copyright 2018 Sy Bryant. All rights reserved

  • Win baby WIN

    Shit on my mind, got me buzzed, but not fucked up
    All these past feelings from past decisions got me messed up
    No matter how close to the present I am
    The past won’t let me pass so here I am

    Swear to God, I can hear my heart beating in this crowded place
    Crazy shit is I’m surrounded by people and still in a lonely place
    Trying to manifest a new way from a simple thought
    All this education and opportunity was my escape or so I thought

    Watching the sunshine right in front of my eyes from a cloudy view
    Then I realize the sun is really shedding light on the shit for plain view
    And I’m contemplating and relating and motivating myself
    I can see the future through the past, I convince myself

    Tomorrow is tick tocking, just a few hours away
    All I’m doing is waiting, just wasting away
    Was this the grand plan, was this how I’m suppose to win
    Fuck this shit, need to break camp.. And win baby win.
    Copyright 2018 Sy Bryant. All rights reserved

  • Days long gone

    Time gone.
    And every time the past comes to the present,
    I can feel the present being wasted again.
    That past is cemented in the deep caravans of the earths core.
    There is nothing that can be done with days long gone.

    Time alone.
    In the midst of time it stands alone.
    Unstoppable. Unforgiving.
    I just need a single moment to allow the past pain to heal.
    But you push me forward as if my pain is irrelevant.
    There is nothing that can be done with days long gone.

    Time free.
    Never once paid for you, but you are constantly in my life.
    Each day I become more indebted yet I never even asked for you.
    I need freedom. You’ve held me too long.
    There is nothing that can be done with days long gone.

    Time bound.
    I cannot find peace.
    You hold me so tightly I cannot see my next step.
    And I struggle to even believe.
    Why do you command my life so strongly.
    Why cannot I just be I.
    There is nothing that can be done with days long gone.

     

    Copyright 2018 Sy Bryant. All rights reserved

  • M.O.R.E_

    There is more, much more… but I only see the preview. And I can never tell what this is about. Is this already the main scene, or am I suppose to make a conclusion based on these illusions. I need more.

    There is more, much more… but it feels like I’m picking cotton, getting ripped up for the smallest bit of softness. There are so many questions that I’m left in. I don’t know what to ask for. I need more.

    There is more, much more…but when I think about what it means to want more, makes me wonder why I have that feeling, why I prayed for this, and what will it mean in the grand scheme. I need more.

    There is more, much more… but I cannot even imagine that which I’m longing for. Like a psychotic episode truth be told, I’m losing my sanity just to find out what’s best for me. I need more.

     

    Copyright 2018 Sy Bryant. All rights reserved

  • Tear

    Tear haven’t seen you in years, we agreed we are better apart. You claim to refresh my soul, but all I feel is the pain you start. You know me well I lost control again feel like I’m in a spell once again.

    This tear, filled with fear
    , sign of my pain
    , tears me up
    This tear, could it be in vain?

    Thought this was true. The true truth is more than I can pursue. Just cause I hit pause, may mean this feeling is lost. Lost in emotion out of control, seeing my whole life from a different soul. She knew me, before I spoke a word. All that’s left is this tear from my soul.

    This tear, filled with fear
    , sign of my pain
    , tears me up
    This tear, could it be in vain?

    Is it Sine or Cosine or some new flow , the frequency is hard to control. Where is this going? What will we do? if this was a different week, would I pursue? Is this the future or a hidden fantasy? Why do these tears always blind me?

    This tear, filled with fear
    , sign of my pain
    , tears me up
    This tear, could it be in vain?

    Copyright 2018 Sy Bryant. All rights reserved

  • Don’t Push me away

    Arguments aint nothing new, just strange between me and you

    To disagree given our energy feel like my life is so empty.

    Ain’t nothing changed, you still right here,

    Just don’t want this to grow between us.

     

    Don’t push me away

    I’m staying right here

    Don’t push me away

    I ain’t going nowhere

    I’m Here to stay

     

    Just because I am not there don’t mean I’m not there

    Physical don’t mean shit if the mental ain’t there

    We running through time, wondering if there is a stop

    But we gotta run together, together, together, just can’t stop

     

    Don’t push me away

    I’m staying right here

    Don’t push me away

    I ain’t going nowhere

    I’m Here to stay

     

    You keep saying I aint here, like you don’t want me to be here

    Im confused, not knowing if you going, if you staying,

    Thinking bout things yet to be, distracting us from being today.

    Here we are once again not agreeing, don’t run don’t leave lets just be.

     

    Don’t push me away

    I’m staying right here

    Don’t push me away

    I ain’t going nowhere

    I’m Here to stay

     

    Copyright 2018 Sy Bryant. All rights reserved

  • the night

    Slowly sounds are silenced

    The birds song ends

    Motors sound further away

    Gently blown leaves rustle

    The darkness subdues the night

    Stars mapping the sky

    How does my star shine

    Contemplating the ending day

    Sighing regrets

    Thoughts consume the night

    The thinnest line of a new day

    Energy piercing the sky

    The bird song begins

    Sound replenishes the sky

    Goodbye to the night

    Copyright 2018 Sy Bryant. All rights reserved

  • Breathe

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    Inhaling from the inside out

    Longing refreshment

    Chilled air warmed soul

    Deeply deeply breathe

    Life’s curious ways

    Anxiety driven passion

    Exhale relaxing satisfaction

    Deeply deeply breathe

    Winding to conclusion

    Slower repetition

    Subtle warmness

    Deeply deeply breathe

    Copyright 2018 Sy Bryant. All rights reserved