Sy Bryant

Tag: relationships

  • The Night

    The Night

    The night is my worst enemy,

    with its shadows of mystery

    trying to get me. 

    The darkness knows all that I am,

    seeing me strong and weak,

    always in constant watch

    tempting me

    with that wicked energy. 

    The night is the only way to the sun. 

    Yet hides the way

    for patience sake,

    nothing more could be done. 

    Waiting to wait. 

    Anticipating

    the suns rays,

    hoping light

    will show a new way

    away from this dark retreat.

    The night and me

    have nothing but contempt.

    We know each other’s moves,

    yet we never go further

    than distant associates.  

    A head nod is all that’s exchanged,

    as night hints it’s time

    for you to get out the way.

    The night stills the world. 

    To rest. 

    To become new. 

    The night moves suns shadows and focus

    causing me to lose focus. 

    The night

    The tranquility of the unseen,

    nothing is visible in its serene. 

  • I could Miss You

    I could Miss You

    I could miss you

    But I don’t

    Spent too many days

    Learning bout your ways

    And at the end of the day

    It didn’t even matter

    It was all just chatter

    What really hurt

    Is that my heart

    Didn’t even matter

    Listening to this same ol song

    You still asking me what is wrong

    The same thing that was wrong

    The very last time

    And I keep saying

    This will be the very last time

    But you already know

    That it’s not

    I guess that’s why

    There’s no thickness

    To this plot

    No matter what you do

    You know I’ll always

    Be right here for you

    But what you fail to see

    Is that each and every time

    You brought me to my knees

    You showed me

    You ain’t what I need

    You created an opportunity

    For me to see what I need

    So I’ll be here

    But only for them

    Cause that one calling out next

    They got me next

    And they are really into me

    Not just exaggerations in a text

    I could miss you

    But I don’t

    Spent too many days

    Learning bout your ways

    And at the end of the day

    It didn’t even matter

    It was all just chatter

    What really hurt

    Is that my heart

    Didn’t even matter

    My heart use to sink

    Remembering

    When I use to think

    This was something forever

    Knew in my heart

    This was meant to be forever

    Now when I sigh

    I cannot give you a reply

    There’s nothing to say

    I can bullshit if you need it

    Ok, how was your day

    You showed me over and over

    That if you was driving

    I would be

    Run right over

    Got strangers calling the spot

    I’m clean as a whistle

    So why it feel so hot

    Like do you have any love for me

    Do you even know what I need?

    Do you have any empathy?

    Of what it feels like

    When the one you love

    Never gives you love

    Cause love don’t feel like this

    Love don’t feel like this

    It don’t feel like this

    I’m so tired of this

    I could miss you

    But I don’t

    Spent too many days

    Learning bout your ways

    And at the end of the day

    It didn’t even matter

    It was all just chatter

    What really hurt

    Is that my heart

    Didn’t even matter

  • Boom

    Boom

    So close to lighting up

    Every time a request come up

    Cause when I

    Request something of you

    Rejection, pacification its how we do

    Yet if it ain’t for me

    You quickly have words for me

    Priorities set real clear

    Plan to me

    Pain so near

    At my last strike

    You don’t even know

    How I’m doing

    Never ask, nor care

    Dissolving away

    With no fear

    At least you have

    Someone that cares

    Me, I here

    But ain’t no one else here

    Fuse is getting real short

    Already lit

    And I’m seeing it

    Just dwindle away

    So quickly

    Like a brick wall

    Just hit me

    Into a reactive state

    Catalyst ain’t too late

    Sparking me into reality

    Timer ticking away

    Feel it slipping away

    All my conscience that’s controlling me

    Fading away into the natural me

    Purely evil with selfish intent

    Primal instinct is what I meant

    Evil ego won’t let it go

    Revenge is needed

    For me to let it go

    Forgiveness is ignorance

  • Eventuality

    Eventuality

    Seeing you lying there

    Unwilling to accept reality

    Life wasn’t intended to be fair

    Endless cycle of the Earth’s core

    Shuffling us endlessly

    We all have one common

    Eventuality

    Hearing youth refer casually

    Lack of Mr. , lack of Sir

    First name commonality

    Exiting life so freely

    Narcotics and alcohol

    Compounded routinely

    Eventuality

    The latest story

    Heard it so clearly

    Confronted on the block

    Using loaned narcotics

    Avoiding the crack commandments

    Outcome predetermined

    Eventuality

    Owing large revenue

    Nothing in hand

    Nothing else to do

    Archaic methods applied

    Upon the torso and head

    Ignoring whats next

    Eventuality

    Sobering moment

    Knowing consent was given

    No more life within

    Holding to every promise lost

    Grasping laugh of the past

    Accepting reality

    Eventuality

    Recalling instances

    When laughter filled me

    Fueled off of your very energy

    Cannot fathom what led you astray

    Thought the love was sincere

    If it was, you would still be here

    Eventuality

  • Demons

    Demons

    Got so many demons

    Of shit

    About people leaving

    And shit

    When people stay around

    I’m out the shit

    Only thing I’m use to

    Is being alone

    So when the house is full

    It don’t feel like home

    Feeling alone

    just being me

    People in my life

    Stay reaching out

    And if I knew they’d stay

    I would reach on out

    Reality different for me

    Keeping distance

    Plain as you can see

    Treat everyone

    Based on the torture of the past

    It’s how I’m built

    This wall will last

    Got me before

    Ain’t happening no more

  • Love Blinded Me

    Sitting here and I’m reflecting

    The days and nights I was dreading

    The anticipation of pain

    More than that physical pain

    Keeping hope where none remains

    Wanting life, like I imagined it to be

    Yet here I am

    Longing that fantasy

    Love blinded me

    Recalling days of the past

    Using hindsight’s glasses

    What I thought I saw

    Wasn’t reality at all

    That jumbled confusion

    My pain, my illusion

    it’s like waking up

    Not Knowing who you are

    It’s like the blindfold is gone

    Not knowing how this will work

    Have to admit my uncertainty

    Seeing you for the first time

    Love blinded me

    Those future plans

    Was never gonna come true

    Made with someone I never knew

    Elaborate strategies, strange feelings

    Our relationship never grew

    Now I see, too late to see

    This sea of misery

    So I persevere through excuses

    Continue to rationalize nothingness

    Paralyzed by embarrassment

    Not willing to accept my own role

    In this misguided fantasy

    Instead of accepting it

    I blame love instead

    Love blinded me

  • Frequency

    Frequency

    All it takes is a second

    And were disconnected

    That energy just stops

    Everything on mute

    First I thought it was me

    What happened to that frequency?

    Tryna not be affected

    Just know we’re disconnected

    Looking at you like a shell

    Physically you are there

    Mentally just cannot see

    Did we lose that frequency?

    Looking in the mirror

    Trying to find the change in me

    Something I’m missing

    Stuck in this misery

    Lost in shear futility

    I cannot feel our frequency.

    Pronounced as radar

    Sunshine or stormy weather

    Always reconcile with each other

    Discontent planted in fertile hearts

    Nothing left but the agony

    Missing our frequency.

  • Love Is a Verb

    Love Is a Verb

    Love is a verb

    An action word

    It don’t gotta be physical

    For it to be real

    If I could

    Wash away every memory

    All that pain you feel

    Wishing I was wizard

    Just cast a spell

    Speak something new

    Into this existence

    Just so you knew

    This love is persistent

    Love is a verb

    An action word

    It don’t gotta be about intimacy

    We Don’t gotta lie

    Just enjoying company

    Feeding this desire

    But we connected

    Constantly building

    Feeling your words

    Inspires me

    Just from being in your proximity

    Just invigorates me

    Energized by your energy

    Love is a verb

    An action word

    So I read every word

    Digest it instantly

    Transcribe it

    Do anything respectfully

    Encouraging you

    Believing in you

    Admiring your smile

    Even with the things

    You are trying to achieve

    If I could write you a letter

    It would start I love you

    Love is a verb

    An action word

    Sending you emojis

    Reminding you

    As simply as possible

    You are not alone

    Tell me whatever

    Lips stay sealed

    Listening to everything

    Whatever it is

    That you need to say

    And even if you can’t say it

    Let that silence lead the way

    Love is a verb

    An action word

    Seeing the future

    Already seen it hundreds of times

    Even still when it materializes

    I’m the first in line

    Just the pride I’ll have

    That smile you’ll have

    Sitting in that TV studio

    Endlessly promoting things

    Seeing the best in you

    On Display

    Loving You

  • These Songs

    These Songs

    Listen

    No I feel them

    Can remember them

    More than anything I’ve ever seen

    Hear this thing in my dreams

    Somehow speak for me

    In some way they feel me

    These songs

    It’s on or off

    They muse me

    Even bring me from my own despair

    Remind me that I am the creator

    Creating this thought I’m holding on to

    Creating this feeling about you

    Creating this pain when I’m around you

    Powerful harmony

    These songs

    The original high

    Powerful enough to lead soldiers to die

    Soothing enough ease a baby’s cry

    Proportionally voices increase strength

    Harmoniously instruments increase potency

    But that lone sound,

    that touches me

    Wake from death

    Create new life

    These songs

    Classically

    I get jazzed up

    Silently the blues comfort me

    The rhythm & blues can’t Pop me

    But The rhythm & poetry rock me

    Only feel one country

    But that feeling of the religious and folk

    It somehow was electronic

    Whether vocal or instrumental

    these songs.

  • You Left Me Dad

    You Left Me Dad

    YOU LEFT ME DAD.

    As an toddler you never gave me a chance to say Da-Da, but I said Ma-Ma.

    You never were there when I fell to tell me  that I don’t need to cry, but mom was.

    I realize man is opposite woman, but is mother the opposite of father?

    Everything mom does, dad does not?

    Every day my mom was there to give love, my dad was not.

    WHERE WERE YOU………..?

    Now I am a man, a father.

    I’m making money and you’re not.

    Now you need me, but I no longer need you.

    You lost your life and mine has just began.

    You are now asking for my love.

    My reply is “No”.

    I’m the bastard, but you’re going to be treated like one.

  • What’s Left of Me?

    What’s Left of Me?

    Disappointed in resentment

    Unforeseen fulfillment

    Understanding the resilience

    Unequivocally connected to resistance

    Progressing through darkness

    Trudging past the loneliness

    Creeping around uncertainty

    What’s left of me?

    Envisioning upward awakenings

    Aggravated into unfamiliar feelings

    Resurrection of derivative viewings

    Starting to think something new

    Initiating a different point of view

    Second guessing it’s you

    Unraveling this mystery

    What’s left of me?

    Invoking this opening scene

    Believing in the unknown things

    Prayerfully accepting the unseen

    Earth shaking the life outta me

    Waves changing how I breathe

    Thrust of windfall controlling my fall

    Appreciation for something I can see

    What’s left for me?

    Sun shinning 360

    World spinning feverishly

    If I could get off

    Where would I be

    Fear got a hold of me

    Devastated remembering the past

    Shattered in how long it’ll last

    Lost in life definitely

    What’s left for me?

  • Everything About You

    Everything About You

    Intently listening

    Your voice so soothing

    Swear to god it moves me

    Got to admit

    It improves me

    You bent over

    I could see that thong

    Through your dress

    I was done

    Fuck the conversations

    Where is the reconciliation

    Telling me what you need

    Let me be clear

    I’m everything you described

    To the last word

    The whole damn year

    It’s just a matter of time

    Before it’s real

    Just be patient

    So we can make this real

    Thoughts become real

    You glad we’re friends

    I hear that

    Me happy In this friend zone

    Picture that

    I am absolutely friendly

    But I can no longer pretend

    That we are just friends

    I love you

    Can’t understand

    Can’t you feel this

    Everything about you

    Get closer to you

    Plotting to get you

    Gotta Have you

    Cause I love you

    I love you

  • Filling Voids

    Filling Voids

    Filling voids. Feeling voids. Not trying to make you annoyed. Wanna make you feel complete.  Need to make sure when you leave the house you got shined shoes on your feet.  You are everything I need to make life work.  But I still can see through your hurt.  So I’m here, right now, to let you know, you ain’t alone no more….

    I feel your void, and I’m here.

    I’ll fill that void, when ya near

    Don’t you worry… no, don’t do that anymore

    I’ll be here for you forever more.

    Filling time. Feeling time. Its just ticking away.  It just ticks through everyday.  Each day I feel closer, but the distance the same.  Sometimes my heart feels the pain.  Time doesn’t feel like it’s on my side, cause it has never put you by my side.  So I’m here right now to let you know, you ain’t gotta worry no more…

    I feel your void, and I’m here.

    I’ll fill that void, when ya near

    Don’t you worry… no, don’t do that anymore

    I’ll be here for you forever more.

    Filling space.  Feeling space.  Walking around my new place.  Tryna tell you something right, I’m blessed, but I’m hurt cause I know I won’t see you tonight.  Everything is right in its place, but I need you to come share this place.  My heart is open, babe can’t you feel me… I want you right here next to me. So I’m here right now to let you know, you ain’t alone….

    I feel your void, and I’m here.

    I’ll fill that void, when ya near

    Don’t you worry… no, don’t do that anymore

    I’ll be here for you forever more.

    Filling this.  Feeling this.  Let me let your feel this. I’m telling you, you about to be shook. Brazen coco I can get you hooked.  You hesitating, but I’m ready.  Seeing you in that purple teddy.  We are made for this.  Don’t be scared of this.  This is that love that you’ve thought about. Let me fill every void, until you feel this void.

  • Need To Be Free

    Need To Be Free

    Too much transgressed, for things to be the same

    I feel this pit of emotion when someone brings up your name.   There was a time when that thin line was never close to hate…. Now the strife consumes my life.  I need to be free

    Loves initiation blinded me to everything that was real. Dealing in future memories of things never meant to be.  Always unclear why the present was never aligned. All those plans we discussed, the dreams we outlined … now the days of ol are just old.  I need to be free

    Each time we go around the sun, we are never the same. Hundreds of days just being a slave to the winds of change.  Seeing things through so many lenses, it’s never clear, too many distractions and fake heirs. I need to be free.

    After the long haul.  The enduring tick of time has me beat.  The everlasting tock has me on my knees, praying for salvation from unrealistic realities of the nothing that will ever be.   I need to be free.