Sy Bryant

Tag: relationship

  • Give You My Heart

    Give You My Heart

    If I could give you my heart

    Not the four letters of a valentine

    Or the fake sensation created over time

    Deeply connected into the universe

    Consecutively built from nothingness

    Unselfishly living as the precedent.

    If I could give you my heart

    Irrelevant of your feelings in its essence

    Combined with unbridled energy

    Giving you everything from me

    Imposing a confidence I can only feel

    Creating a difference the ideal

    If I could give you my heart

    Each morning would be new

    Embracing every beauty within you

    Unshackled opportunity in view

    Driving constantly, the break through

    Shining in the darkest purview

    If I could give you my heart

    You’d feel every meaning of everything

    Arms outstretched nothing missing

    Elevating past idol levels

    Gravitating into every joy

    Transcending very sorrow

  • That Voice

    That Voice

    It does something to me

    When you receptive to that thing

    When you really feeling me

    When you make me feel like the king

    When we all alone, just you and me

    When I feel your warmth on everything

    That voice gives me energy

    It’s like my mind stay day dreaming

    When I see you, I’m blessed

    When I know you close, i’m beaming

    When I am without you, I’m stressed

    When I see you back, I’m gleaming

    When I love you, I’m possessed

    That voice got me scheming

    It got me plotting on the low

    Where you at, I need to know

    Where can I meet you, tryna flow

    Where we hooking up, I’m tryna go

    Where will we be in 16 more years, can we grow

    Where will our skin meet, got the aloe

    That voice got me, tryna be that bul

    Perplexed your confidence

    Feeling your science

    Straight up compliance

    No more speech defiance

    Me and you is that reliance

    That voice got me holding you down with prominence

  • Love Blinded Me

    Sitting here and I’m reflecting

    The days and nights I was dreading

    The anticipation of pain

    More than that physical pain

    Keeping hope where none remains

    Wanting life, like I imagined it to be

    Yet here I am

    Longing that fantasy

    Love blinded me

    Recalling days of the past

    Using hindsight’s glasses

    What I thought I saw

    Wasn’t reality at all

    That jumbled confusion

    My pain, my illusion

    it’s like waking up

    Not Knowing who you are

    It’s like the blindfold is gone

    Not knowing how this will work

    Have to admit my uncertainty

    Seeing you for the first time

    Love blinded me

    Those future plans

    Was never gonna come true

    Made with someone I never knew

    Elaborate strategies, strange feelings

    Our relationship never grew

    Now I see, too late to see

    This sea of misery

    So I persevere through excuses

    Continue to rationalize nothingness

    Paralyzed by embarrassment

    Not willing to accept my own role

    In this misguided fantasy

    Instead of accepting it

    I blame love instead

    Love blinded me

  • Can You Love?

    Can You Love?

    Can you love the same song

    Even if you heard it

    A million times

    Could you hear it a million more

    Could you still smile

    At the best part

    Could feel it in your heart

    Can you love without end

    Every memory with a meaning

    Holding it tightly

    In the midst of the everything

    Knowing in the end

    Love will always win

    From start to finish and over again

    Can you love in the darkest of night

    Alone on a lonely night

    Far from a warm embrace

    Nowhere near love

    Nothing in its place

    Heaviest of hearts

    Desperate of hope

    Can you love every day

    Regardless of reality

    Can you believe in this fantasy

    Holding onto every possibility

    Can you see every potential

    Will you grant every opportunity

    For me to love continually

  • When Pens Speak

    When Pens Speak

    I lost you

    I mean I lost me

    What I am trying to say

    Is there are times

    When I can barely speak

    When the world is yelling

    There are people demanding

    My only respite

    When Pens Speak

    When Pens Speak

    No thought is hidden

    Emptying my mind

    Every drop of ink sublime

    Even when I artificial create beauty

    And I am left typing

    Every word holding onto me

    Loosen me to be at peace

    It’s like I lose track of time

    Because there is something I cannot describe

    But if you let me just try

    I am holding this plastic cylinder

    Just one thumb pressing down

    And I am immediately transcended

    And now I am trying to articulate words

    Some that I barely know

    But it helps with the flow

    When Pens Speak

    When Pens Speak

    Its always an easy evening

    Even if I am out of every bit of energy

    The alarm doesn’t need to call upon me

    It is that law of attraction that brings me in

    I know my pen is not enough

    I become a fiend for that energy

    To hear those words that can only be spoken

    Reading it would not do it justice

    When Pens Speak

  • Me

    Me

    Deleted every picture

    All those text messages

    Not a single post is left

    Every single sign of evidence

    Got rid of it all

    Final phone call

    The way it’s meant to be

    Nothing else in this for me.

    Don’t want no proof of this

    Nothing else will exist

    The future now written

    Every lesson forgotten

    Slowly came to realize

    Better off in disguise

    Life is full of deceit

    You showed them all to me

    Letting it go

    Like it never happened

    Slowly consumed

    Just what I imagined

    Creating a fake world

    I need to get through this

    Have to get through this

    Cause there’s nothing left for me

    Gave you everything that I had

    Every single tear I had left

    Walking away happy

    Cause I gave all I had left

    Time for something new

    Relaxing calm of a new day

    Proportionality spending time on me

    All I have left is me

  • Power

    Power

    POWER

    Just surging through

    That’s me

    Reaching back to you

    Let me calm you

    I know this pain

    Hate it around you

    POWER

    In every word you speak

    Let it flow out

    Smooth and honestly

    The truth was born in you

    When I see you

    I know it’s true

    POWER

    Believe in it

    This emotion

    Just accept it

    Let go of every worry

    Faithfully

    Just feel me

    POWER

    It lives in you

    Please let it out

    Let it shine through

    Let me be there

    Sitting right with you

    I love you

  • Saying Things

    Saying Things

    Saying things that I do not mean

    Cause I’m just tryna be mean

    Speaking out relentlessly

    If nothing else, helps me to be seen

    Saying things just to say it

    It’s the easiest way to get out of it

    Talking endlessly about nothingness

    Reflection of each part of my pettiness

    Saying things out of frustration

    Thinking about it causing hesitation

    Not saying what’s really real

    Just saying how I think I feel

    Saying things in the moment

    Hoping please pardons my movements

    Knowing that things are suspicious

    Remaining just as ambitious

    Saying things so randomly

    Almost got me caught cir·cum·spec·tive·ly

    The impossibility evolved effortlessly

    Recognizing life changes constantly

    Saying things out of place

    Lost in time and space

    Thought way too deeply about this life

    Accepting I’m not really about this life

  • Living Today

    Living Today

    Ever felt like everything you believed was a lie

    It’s like you realize in hindsight

    Nothing was real, not even reality.

    Now the reality that you see ain’t what you expected it to be.

    Ever thought what if I changed that one decision in my life.

    It’s like you associate your entire existence to one moment in time.

    But that time is long gone and so now all you try to do is hold on. 

    Ever believed there is something better in this world.

    Something inspiring, something serene,  something that makes this insane world livable.

    Something to wake up for.   There just has to be more.

    Ever thought about the future.  And realized everything in your future doesn’t exist in your present.   Ever realize that you just created another fantasy instead of living today.

  • Excited For You

    Excited For You

    There is no feeling greater

    Being in your corner

    Whether the day is sunny

    Or the weather is devastating

    something special in this

    Just trying to be there for you

    If you need it, listening to you

    During the storm, shelter for you

    Anything I can do

    Cause I’m excited for you

    You telling me your dreams

    I see them as reality

    You sharing your thoughts

    I already bought you everything

    You low on energy

    I’m picking you up for the get up

    You feeling anxious

    I’m loving you with patience

    You just relaxing

    I’m out of your way

    Baby enjoy your day

    Excited for you

    Excited for you

    Just to be there

    Excited for you

    Seeing your success

    Excited for you

    Whatever you need

    I got you

    Excited for you

    Sitting here waiting for you

    It’s your first interview

    Dress to the Ts, shoes too

    Gliding down the steps

    It’s pure elegance

    Cautiously optimistic

    I believing you are ballistic

    Everything prepared

    Dressed for success

    Nothing left

    But to master this day.

    The day is done

    And I’m smiling brightly

    Do you know

    How proud you made me

    Life giving you

    The insurmountable

    With all that God has giving you

    You are more than able

    Life flashing through

    Day by day

    Pushing each other along the way

    Living vicariously through you

    I’m So proud of the things you do

    Living, loving, dreaming about you

    I’m so excited for you.

    Excited for you

    Just to be there

    Excited for you

    Seeing your success

    Excited for you

    Whatever you need

    I got you

    Excited for you

  • You Set My

    You Set My

    You set my priorities

    With just a desire

    Planted in me

    Unquenchable fire

    Fueling it intensely

    As if nothing else matters

    As if I don’t have work to do

    As if I don’t need to eat

    As if I don’t need to sleep

    It’s just to please you

    Even if it only brings you

    A single smile a day

    I’d do it every day

    You set my path

    There is this deep longing

    Filling this deep need

    To remain connected

    Mutual belonging

    To a common thread

    Interwoven into strength

    Able to outlast the strongest steel

    Only break is the exhale

    Then back at it

    Like I hit the bricks

    Never going back

    It’s all for this

    You set my emotion

    Equally responsive

    Sensitive to each fluctuation

    Bonded into subtle manipulation

    Flexing repeatedly

    Into a serene divinity

    Happy and ecstatic

    Sad and mad

    Comfortable and relaxed

    Amplifying everything you feel

    It’s as if it is my own

    As if you are home

    So glad to be home

  • Without You

    Without You

    These voices keep telling me

    That I need to believe

    In something differently

    But I don’t know what to do

    These voices keep telling me

    That I need to believe

    In something differently

    But I don’t know what to do

    Without you

    This highway so lonely

    Vehicles flying right by me

    Concentration lost me

    Gentle rain consumes me

    Guided blindly

    Expecting something new

    The answer so subtly

    Yet I know what to do

    Refusing to leave you

    These voices keep telling me

    That I need to believe

    In something differently

    But I don’t know what to do

    These voices keep telling me

    That I need to believe

    In something differently

    But I don’t know what to do

    Without you

    Slowly exiting the freeway

    Don’t know which way

    I should even go

    Mind so convoluted

    It’s what I’ve concluded

    Green light blaring

    Just not caring

    Foot stuck on this brake

    No more I can take

    These voices keep telling me

    that I need to believe

    In something differently

    But I don’t know what to do

    These voices keep telling me

    That I need to believe

    In something differently

    But I don’t know what to do

    Without you

    Finally seeing something

    That’s looking kinda familiar

    This place we use to go

    Enjoying early evenings

    Slow music flow

    For some reason

    Landed on me real slow

    How long it’s been

    Now we damn near at an end

    These voices keep telling me

    That I need to believe

    In something differently

    But I don’t know what to do

    These voices keep telling me

    That I need to believe

    In something differently

    But I don’t know what to do

    Without you

  • Can I get Some Credit

    Can I get Some Credit

    I mean

    Look at all I have done

    You stay on my ass

    But won’t let me pass

    And I am wondering

    What is it?

    What is it that you don’t like?

    Every time I do anything

    You scrunching up your face

    Like I made a mistake

    Just give me that credit

    That shit I deserve

    I don’t need another word

    I mean

    I see the shit you do

    And I’m looking at it

    Like, is that the best you can do

    Maybe that’s why

    You still in my business

    Looking at what I’m doing

    Instead of handling you business

    What keeps you staring at me?

    I would give you credit

    If I could

    But your shit looks awful

    Doubt if I ever would

    I mean

    Is it jealousy

    Do you have a burning desire

    To be able to do

    All the things that I can do

    Is it that deadly sin

    Thinking if you destroy me

    You would be able to replace me

    You are nothing like me

    You standing there claiming

    If you just had more time

    I’m not wasted a dime of credit

    You ain’t shit, I said it.

    I mean

    There are six more sins you could pursue

    You keep on that pride shit

    Mentally I’m aligned with charity

    But you are beyond help

    All of that gluttony

    If you just had the courage

    To humbly have a bit of faith

    Maybe it would be possible

    For that greed dwelling inside you

    Maybe it could find a different place

    I will give you credit for one thing

    You are not anything I want to be

  • Lovely Days with You

    Lovely Days with You

    I don’t know how to express to you.

    How powerful I feel with you.  

    Some days I just need you close.

    You are everything that is beautiful. 

    Without that beauty.

    This world is no fucking dark. 

    Sometimes I need to focus on love.

    Versus objectives and deliverables. 

    I only have lovely days with you. 

    Just in case you didn’t know, I Love You.

    Just in case I haven’t said it, I Thank You.

    I remember every tear I caused.

    From when I asked you that first question.

    You said yes with a tear.

    From when I asked for forgiveness.

    You said yes with a tear. 

    Each day since I focus on you

    I only have lovely days with you.

    I intentionally avoid every moment.

    Any opportunity to take you for granted.

    Even in the midst of the world.

    You are the heart of the world.

    Breathing every bit of energy.

    Filling my entire soul completely.

    Thought about a moment without you.

    Lost every perspective without you.

    I only have lovely days with you.

    Need your spirit close to me.

    Even if I cannot see you. 

    I can somehow sense you.

    This connection created in a Godly way

    Strengthen in seeds we nurture every day.

    Keeping faith on the worst days.

    Celebrating the best days.

    If only one wish could come true.

    I only have lovely days with you.

  • Begging For Forgiveness

    Begging For Forgiveness

    It wasn’t until that day I knew

    I fucked up

    And the world reminded me

    Momentarily

    Paralyzed in hysteria

    Seeing my baby girl

    I needed to atone

    For every single thing

    I did wrong

    Begging for forgiveness.

    It wasn’t until I recognized

    Every foul word

    And even pleasant words

    I would use them without meaning

    Just to temporarily

    Create a scenario

    I always pretended

    It was for a meaning

    But mirrors only tell the truth

    Begging for forgiveness.

    It wasn’t until I looked

    Into my own eyes

    Yet I stood there surprised

    Raised harshly so lovingly

    Three women formed me

    Although there was testosterone

    Those genes never formed

    Not a single positive thought

    Only doing what I was taught

    Begging for forgiveness.

    It wasn’t until I heard

    Don’t worry about it

    It was ok

    That I knew it wasn’t ok

    Not a single one of them forgot

    Each loving word

    The illusion I created from nothingness

    I was that knight in amour

    That African prince

    Begging for forgiveness.

    It wasn’t until I remembered

    The sins of the past will last

    My seeds will be perpetuators and victims

    From the previous seeds I planted

    Yet I don’t know for certainty

    If they have other siblings

    Although I never tried to disappear

    Before that time of the month

    Indicating everything was clear

    Begging for forgiveness.

    It wasn’t until the world stood still

    And I held my baby girl

    I wanted so much to smile

    Looking at what was mine

    But I had to cry

    Knowing what was mine

    Each pain I caused

    I pray your vengeance on me

    Not this precious baby I see

    Begging for forgiveness.

  • Just ain’t right

    Just ain’t right

    Coming in late at night

    Something

    Just doesn’t feel right

    Gut telling me

    There’s something

    I don’t wanna know

    Asking you random questions

    Hoping you come real slow

    Nothing is wrong

    Yeah, I heard what you said

    But this feeling

    Stays inside my head

    Suspiciously I stare at you

    Now you frustrated

    You looking different

    Can’t recognize that scent

    Something just ain’t right

    The way you coming home

    Each and every night

    Something just ain’t right

    You can’t even look at me

    What is it you expect of me

    Tryna have this conversation with you

    You avoiding every question

    What did I do to you

    Your avoidance is worrying

    Got me thinking

    That something is missing

    Missing something obvious

    Because your answers are dubious

    What should I expect

    When I feel the neglect

    You losing my respect

    Now you slowly

    Looking uneasy

    What is it

    Oh, now you feel me

    Feel me, leaving

    Something just ain’t right

    They way you coming home

    Each and every night

    Something just ain’t right

    You can even look at me

    What is it you expect of me

    Listen to me

    Loud and clearly

    Never repeating this

    So I hope you hear

    I know you

    Like I know me

    And I know this feeling

    When I’m uneasy

    Whether you admit it or not

    I know you doing something

    That just ain’t right

    Don’t care if you don’t come clean

    My conscience ain’t feeling a thing

    So keep the lie to yourself

    And let me be by myself

    Don’t need anyone else

    Something just ain’t right

    They way you coming home

    Each and every night

    Something just ain’t right

    You can even look at me

    What is it you expect of me