Tag: LoveIs

  • Love Will Never Be

    Love Will Never Be

    You living for you

    I’m living for us

    You claiming

    There is no trust

    Until you becomes we

    This Love will never be

    Learning to be grateful

    For everything we had

    Cause what we have

    Has become fearful

    Pins and needles

    Our everyday

    No one ever saying

    What they need to say

    Nothing I can do

    I’m watching us

    I’m watching you

    Always on the go

    Never want to be home

    Wondering what’s wrong

    Saying nothing, no longer works for me

    Now it all just hurts to me

    You living for you

    I’m living for us

    You claiming

    There is no trust

    Until you becomes we

    This Love will never be

    See you coming and going

    No Love is flowing

    Lost in the transmission

    Watching you on your mission

    Our family missing

    Call it transition

    Anticipating something different

    This ain’t love this is paying rent

    Going through the motions

    That would be an exaggeration

    Cannot even see anything

    That you are doing

    You just leave me here assuming

    So I create my own reality

    In reality its just me

  • I Got Dreams

    I Got Dreams

    I got dreams of waking up with you

    Reminded of our love when I see your picture

    Everyone asking what’s wrong

    Everything is perfect

    But only cause I’m right next to you

    And whenever we marinate

    After a beautiful date

    It’s like this euphoria comes over me

    And it’s only you that I can see

    I got dreams of living life with you

    As we steadily encourage each other

    It is simply hard to explain

    The feeling that I feel

    Even when a stranger calls your name

    This is just how it is

    And how I hope it will always be

    When I open my eyes and get to see

    All that beautiful magic just for me

    I got dreams of raising seeds with you

    Constantly praying for them

    And won’t ever lower the love I got for them

    Nurturing with a harsh word

    Or building with a deep embrace

    Everything they need I stand in this space

    Helping them identify their dreams

    Watching the stars rise is all I need

    The thought brings a tear to my eye

    I got dreams of steadily maturing with you

    I know I ain’t perfect but I’ll always be with you

    I know I have fallacies but I still believe

    Believing in every single ideology

    Every single ideology that strengthens your destiny

    Your destiny that I am just a small piece of

    A small piece of happiness but I know

    I know I can be more than just a piece

    Let me be your peace, that loves love.

  • If I Say It

    If I Say It

    If I say it enough

    I keep thinking you’ll respond

    Knowing it’s the exact definition

    Of every bit of insanity

    But I just cannot stop

    Regardless of what I see

    If I say it again

    Maybe it will mean more

    Compounding it with interest

    Reinvesting all of it

    Doubling down

    Refuse to miss it

    If I say it often

    Perhaps there will be

    A single opportunity

    Some type of reciprocity

    The way we are

    You gotta be feeling me

    If I say it frequently

    Would that make it have more meaning

    Amplify its intensity

    Changing vocal tones

    Even saying it

    Slightly differently

    If I say it repeatedly

    Could I just by chance

    Hear it back to me

    Seeding this one thought

    Holding you closely

    For all eternity

  • See You In That Blue

    See You In That Blue

    See you in that blue

    My God baby I need to see you

    Would run millions of miles

    Thinking about that smile

    Thinking about that chance

    Excited at your stance

    Feel you in that blue

    Can you dig that I want to caress you

    Cannot even remember when last I saw you

    But I know soon I will see you

    See you in that blue

    See you in that blue

    It’s like, my heart bangs my chest

    So uncomfortable until I accept is that thought of you that won’t let me rest.

    It’s like reaching for a star.

    Right in front of me, yet too far

    But I will never stop until I do…

    See you in that blue

  • Frequency

    Frequency

    Frequency

    Out of range

    Feeling mad strange

    Static talking to me

    Not sure of its intent

    Sounding differently

    Scanning up and down

    Wondering

    If it’s being broadcast

    Differently

    Frequency

    Frequency

    The purest sound

    Whenever its around

    Internally the vibe

    Feeling the pulse

    Accepting each beat

    Aligning energetically

    Feeling you rhythmically

    Subtle sounds

    Deep in me

    Frequency

    Frequency

    Fluctuating indiscriminately

    Reaching out

    Missed opportunity

    Illusions absorbing reality

    Dazed incoherently

    Praying through adversity

    Speaking life into this

    Arms outstretched

    Reaching randomly

    Frequency

    Frequency

    Feeling thoughts motion

    Realness of dreams suffocation

    Preaching into resurrection

    Faith as my rock

    Anchored by these waves

    Digesting the volume

    Engaged perpetually

    Conscience proximity

    Engulfing me

    Frequency

  • I Love You

    I Love You

    Waking up

    I realized

    I love you

    Something deep

    I know

    I love you

    Changing my whole life

    Just because

    I love you

    Early in the morning,

    I popped up

    You were in my dreams

    Now you’re on my mind

    This vision won’t stop

    We are together at a sunrise

    All night talking

    Deep bond

    New day sunshine

    Waking up

    I realized

    I love you

    Something deep

    I know

    I love you

    Changing my whole life

    Just because

    I love you

    Late afternoon

    In this meeting

    Cannot focus

    Just thinking

    Nodding my head

    Don’t know what was said

    Is this that love thing

    Cause seeing you is all I can think of

    Waking up

    I realized

    I love you

    Something deep

    I know

    I love you

    Changing my whole life

    Just because

    I love you

    It’s been a goodnight

    Really late

    Finished our date

    Just been 2 minutes

    And we texting

    Chatting about sexing.

    This desire

    It’s too strong

    Need to tell you

    That I need you

    Now it’s morning

    Another sunrise

    So happy

    To be staring in your eyes

  • Hey Crush

    Hey Crush

    Hey crush

    You just cannot feel it

    The way I feel when you say it

    Invigorating as if I could hear it

    And I know that you meant it

    Cause you that real shit

    Never about them games

    It’s always the same

    Even when we disagree, I’ll still beg your name

    Hey crush

    How are you doing

    Hoping for all of them dreams you pursuing

    Believing in you from day one

    From the beginning of time I’ve been your day one

    Stay proud of you every moment

    My heart hurts for you

    Every time you have a moment

    Know I’m always here for you

    Hey crush

    How can I express this

    Even with your tired eyes

    I always knew you was mine

    Always knew if I needed you

    You be there for me

    Knowing that the bond will stand through time

    It ain’t no effort to love you

    Knowing with all my heart I can trust you

    Hey crush

    You got me on that shit

    Breathing sighs of regret

    Just looking at all your pics

    Wondering what it would have been like

    If I knew you from the dawn of time

    Experiencing this whole life with you

    It ain’t enough to hear that you love me

    Peace only exist when I see that you love me

  • Looking At You

    Looking At You

    Looking at you

    Looking so deeply

    Knowing deep down

    You ain’t feeling me

    Yet I keep moving

    Moving so easily

    Because I know one day

    You’ll be with me

    Walked into the room

    Was hoping to see you real soon

    You all dressed up

    I’m just watching you

    As you stand up

    Professionally looking

    So good to me

    Encouraging you with a smile

    Knowing I’ll be here a while

    Seeing you closely from a distance

    Watching you slowly with persistence

    Knowing you will get through this

    So smoothly

    Seeing that you know

    What you are doing

    Watching you

    Watching me

    I’m just smiley

    Because you’re heavenly

    Just within a minute

    Everything felt differently

    Thought you’d be here everyday

    But I only see you sporadically

    Not even sure what to do

    I don’t know how to tell you

    That every time I see you walk away

    I immediately start missing you

    Last time you walked in

    If I can remember

    You entered with a wave

    Tried my best to behave

    Looked at you

    Something deep in you

    Its like I never seen you

    Happiness when I saw you

    Standing right next to you

    Had to hug you

    Needed to feel you

    Wish I could describe to you

    How much I missed you

    So entwined with you

    Still I gotta leave you

    Looking at you

    Looking so deeply

    Knowing deep down

    You ain’t feeling me

    Yet I keep moving

    Moving so easily

    Because I know one day

    You’ll be with me

  • Can’t Afford You

    Can’t Afford You

    Knowing I can’t afford you

    Always stay at a distance

    Admiring through the case

    Wondering for an instance

    But no one will help me

    Because I don’t look the part

    All I get is a “May I help you”

    Knowing I can’t afford you

    Even if it feels like

    No one is caring for you

    And you are only “Ok”

    On that sparkling display

    Yet the price for entry

    It is well beyond me

    Knowing I can’t afford you

    Creates this uneasiness

    Walking by everyday

    Almost bowing down

    To your highness

    Staring with a sigh

    All I can do is wave bye

    Knowing I can’t afford you

    I let this hesitancy

    Build within me

    Never saying what’s needed

    Just keeping it all buried

    This truth won’t set me free

    You are my destiny

  • On Everything

    On Everything

    On everything, on everything
    Put that on everything
    On everything, on everything
    Put that on everything
    On everything, on everything
    I would do anything
    To be your everything

    Phone ain’t ringing
    No kinda of notifications
    Phone just sitting in my hand
    And I stay staring at it
    As if there’s something
    Anything I could do
    If I could just reach you
    And I would Promise the heavens
    If I had a chance
    I would give my all to you
    Do what I gotta do
    But right now
    I cannot even feel you

    On everything, on everything
    Put that on everything
    On everything, on everything
    Put that on everything
    On everything, on everything
    I would do anything
    To be your everything

    I’m reaching out
    But ain’t nothing
    Reaching back
    I think I made it all up
    When I imagined
    You had my back
    Cause I just noticed
    When you need me I’m there
    Cause I just noticed
    When I need you
    You ain’t nowhere
    Nowhere to be found
    Nowhere to be seen

    On everything, on everything
    I would do anything
    To be your everything
    On everything, on everything
    I would do anything
    To be your everything
    On everything, on everything
    I would do anything
    To be your everything

  • Love Is Pain

    Love Is Pain

    Opened the door
    And I walked in
    Not even a presence
    Felt like I loss
    My last friend
    Watching everything I did
    Lead to this wasteful state
    Wasting time redoing
    Wasting energy pursuing
    Trying reluctantly
    Trying to continue
    When nothing is in me
    Just need to get this out
    Eating me up inside
    Losing it all
    Tryna maintain my pride

    I keep thinking
    I keep dreaming
    Living this imaginary life
    Loving, pain and strife
    I keep going
    I keep knowing
    Love is pain
    Yet I
    Keep doing the same

    Thinking thoughts
    That I never thought
    The past keeps grabbing me
    Like it is the best of me
    Reliving every past thing
    Blinded in the present
    Lost every present
    Because I already know
    The future song wants me
    So I close my eyes
    Accepting the pain I despise
    Not a tear will fall
    Even after I give my all
    The world has nothing left to take
    Cause everything I am
    I have already forsaken
    There is no more
    That can be taken
    In my last breath
    Gave you
    All that I had left

    I keep thinking
    I keep feeling
    Love is pain
    Love is pain
    I keep thinking
    I keep feeling
    Love is pain
    Love is pain
    Yet I
    Keep doing the same

  • Can I Write You

    Can I Write You

    It’s like every single day I’m alone

    You been stopped answering your phone

    And now I know you blocked me

    For some shit that I don’t know about

    But I can see

    I can see in every memory

    That when we were together

    There was heaven at your feet

    At first I was frustrated by the whole thing

    I mean all I heard was the same thing

    Talking about buying cows and free milk

    No idea what that means

    Confused by all these things

    Trying to talk to you,

    And you ignoring everything I do

    Since we can’t talk, can I write you?

    DM ain’t reaching, can I write you?

    So much I need to tell you

    Holding it in, should I post it

    It maybe too serious for a comment

    Ink to paper, can I write you?

    Since we can’t talk, can I write you?

    DM ain’t reaching, can I write you?

    So much I need to tell you

    Holding it in, should I post it

    It maybe too serious for a comment

    Ink to paper, can I write you?

    Impatiently waiting

    All this time, busy contemplating

    Reviewing every scenario

    Trying my hardest to talk to you

    Yet you still being difficult

    Sending you bouquets

    Focused like its biblical

    Sweetie, please listen to me

    Never meant to hurt you or

    Make you feel some type of way

    I’m just being myself doing shit my own way

    Now I’m stuck in this feeling

    Feeling things I never felt

    Cannot do this thing all by myself

    Since we can’t talk, can I write you?

    DM ain’t reaching, can I write you?

    So much I need to tell you

    Holding it in, should I post it

    It maybe too serious for a comment

    Ink to paper, can I write you?

    Can I write you

    Can I see you

    Baby please

    Cause I need you

  • Someone

    Someone


    There is someone
    That the sight of
    Causes euphoria
    Heart is pounding
    Smiling uncontrollably
    First time feeling continually
    All is like it’s meant to be
    This is not that destiny
    Loving without being loved
    Just wasn’t meant to be

    There is someone
    When they see you
    Creates energy of caffeine
    cannot understand their energy
    Just walked in the door
    They on 100 From the door
    Generating all types of love
    Excited for your excitement
    That excitement ain’t mutual
    So you Keep it moving casual

    There is someone
    That in their presence
    Mutual satisfaction
    Intertwined lovingly
    Hating every departure
    Pain of every sadness
    Arrival creating every happiness
    Making this eternal bond
    The world doesn’t need me
    Found my destiny

    Someone you will love
    Someone you love, won’t love you
    Someone you love, will love you
    How long do you wait?
    Waiting until that mutual being
    Comes onto the scene
    How long will you look?
    Looking round the world
    Elevating the evolution
    Love unfurled

  • You Are

    You Are


    You are
    Part of my existence
    You are
    Part of my persistence
    You are
    Every dream I create
    You are
    Everything I contemplate

    So we are here
    No fear
    Enjoying
    Another new year
    And we Are
    where we should be
    Feeling elevation
    Deep contemplation
    Enjoying
    Every Earth’s rotation

    Bringing clarity
    In this situation
    Because something is needed
    Avoiding hesitation
    But we need to reach
    Some type of conclusion
    Yet with every step
    Something don’t feel right.
    Some secret being help
    Tryna hold on tight.

    Screaming over to you
    Talking real loud
    Getting my point through
    Need this emotion
    To get closer to you
    So it can reach you
    And you can feel it
    All inside of you
    And suddenly, suddenly
    Every dream comes true

    You are
    Part of my existence
    You are
    Part of my persistence
    You are
    Every dream I create
    You are
    Everything I contemplate

  • I’m Here…

    Eyes opening
    First light
    Swear I saw you
    From the sunlight
    You walked over
    And hugged me
    Tears falling
    What’s wrong baby?
    Can’t create
    Can’t destroy
    Energy giving
    Stolen joy
    I’m so sorry
    Lost my focus
    Misplaced my perspective
    Chasing goals
    Mistakes in retrospective
    You’re my priority
    Fixing everyone
    Ignored my destiny

    I’m here, for you
    I’m here, whatcha going through
    I’m here, for you
    Right here, for you
    I’m here, for you
    I’m here, whatcha going through
    I’m here, for you
    Right here, for you

    Saying nothing
    Is Wrong with you
    Just a headache
    Now it’s a cold
    But no tissues
    Just laying there
    Let me help you
    Speak to me
    Tell me what you need
    Talk to me
    I’m right here for you
    We can converse
    Find a way through this
    Together
    We can do this
    You struggling alone
    Avoiding the phone
    Nothing good will come
    Until we reach the outcome
    Together, you and me
    Together, it’s our destiny

    I’m here, for you
    I’m here, whatcha going through
    I’m here, for you
    Right here, for you
    I’m here, for you
    I’m here, whatcha going through
    I’m here, for you
    Right here, for you

  • Don’t Know

    Don’t know how you got here
    But I am so glad that you are here
    Just from a single opportunity
    You are helping me to see
    And now I see abundantly
    Like I was blind but now I see
    Watching God work through you
    Feels so good to me

    Don’t know why you are here
    But I don’t need to know
    Just need to maintain God’s loving grace
    Believing adamantly God has you in this space
    Closing each eye
    Following faithfully
    Approaching everything God has planned
    Triumphantly in this holy land

    Don’t know why you make time
    Grateful for every moment
    Thankful for every connection
    That connects me to that future place
    Don’t know what steps I need to take
    Removing every self created barrier
    Just at your request installed Tic Toc
    Releasing every blessing cannot be blocked

    Don’t know why you do what you do
    I am so thankful for you
    Whether you are busy or resting
    You still making time to help me
    Even your slightest encouragement
    Amplified by God’s will
    Creating traction on God’s plan
    Persevering with all my will

  • Writing This for You

    Writing This for You

    Keep refreshing the feed
    Wondering what you sent to me
    Unread count totally empty
    If I could tell you one thing
    Need you to feel this
    This ain’t flirtation
    Not a matter of lust
    Within you
    I lay my trust

    Believing with every breathe
    We enhance each other
    Bringing out the best
    Feeling this deeply
    With every pulse
    Feeling your energy
    Are you thinking about me
    Just need to know it’s mutual
    Need to hear you say it
    Every time you wake up
    Do you wonder what I’m doing

    I’m sitting here thinking bout you
    Contemplating past decisions
    Every single one that kept me from you
    What if this
    What if that
    What if our frequency
    Would actually cross paths
    Anxiety filling up in me
    The blessing of your proximity

  • Can’t Let You Go

    Can’t Let You Go


    Can’t let you go
    You stay growing in me
    Can’t let you go
    What’s happening to me
    Can’t let you go
    Even for a minute
    Can’t let you go
    So why even try

    Just saw you float by
    Not even a hi
    Straight into casual conversation
    And just like that
    We were relating
    Bonding over innocuous things
    Just a strange dream
    And I stayed wondering
    Is this a bad thing
    Randomly couldn’t have planned it
    Now I’m in it, there no satisfaction
    Mindfully feeling different
    Starting to feel distant

    Social media
    Staying cruel to me
    Had me thinking
    You was close to me
    Coulda swore
    You were somewhere near
    Would have bet my life
    Without a single fear
    Calling and texting
    Ain’t nothing working
    Just fooling myself
    Maybe you ain’t deserving
    Cause I know I’m hurting

    What should I do
    Cause I wanna hear you
    What should I do
    Cause I wanna see you
    What should I do
    There is nothing new
    It’s just strange
    Just with me and you
    Just with me and you
    I know dreams come true
    I know I can believe in you
    If you just believe in me
    We would love beautifully

    Can’t let you go
    You stay glowing in me
    Can’t let you go
    What’s happening to me
    Can’t let you go
    Even for a minute
    Can’t let you go
    So why even try

  • Show You

    Show You


    Instead of saying it
    Can I just show you
    How much
    I really, really, love you
    Words don’t mean shit
    Actions make it true
    Instead of saying it
    Can I just show you

    All these languages
    People saying
    All types of things
    Promising everything
    Without any type
    of commitment
    Tired of it
    Cannot stand it
    Don’t even wanna hear
    Another word about it

    Instead of saying it
    Can I just show you
    How much
    I really, really, love you
    Words don’t mean shit
    Actions make it true
    Instead of saying it
    Can I just show you

    Keep hearing
    These outlandish request
    Asking for prayers
    When you could care less
    Asking for love me nots
    Just not impressed
    We can say anything
    At anytime
    But can you show me
    All the time

    Instead of saying it
    Can I just show you
    How much
    I really, really, love you
    Words don’t mean shit
    Actions make it true
    Instead of saying it
    Can I just show you

    Staring out the window
    So confused
    Trying to understand
    Each and every mood
    Am I the source of frustration
    Am I the cause of this
    Am I the one
    That started all of this
    Let me apologize
    Every time was a lie

    Instead of saying it
    Can I just show you
    How much
    I really, really, love you
    Words don’t mean shit
    Actions make it true
    Instead of saying it
    Can I just show you

  • Since

    Since


    Since the first one
    Because I loved you
    Before I even told you
    Elevated high
    You was my white line
    Needed to need you
    Fucked up all day
    Until I seen you

    Since that first day
    Eyeing you out
    Didn’t know your name
    Indirect acquaintance
    Looking at fingers
    Are you tied to anything?
    Nothing but the raw view
    Knew I had to see you

    Since that first meal
    Randomly rapping
    But it felt really real
    Like I knew the feelings
    You was speaking about
    Lost hesitancy
    Begging to see you
    Just knew it was you

    Since that first night
    My god til the sunlight
    Words you were speaking
    Reminisce every weekend
    From that one single day
    Loving in every kind of way
    Blessed with you
    Come home so I can see you

  • Smiling

    Smiling


    See you smiling
    Saw your tear
    Knew right then
    I’m suppose to be right here
    Ain’t nothing better in this world
    Then those happy tears
    All this love that we feeling
    We keep exchanging
    More love
    Is how I’m feeling
    And forever please know
    With everything I know
    I won’t stop this
    We will be endless
    Never be a last kiss
    Always Loving to love you

    Talking this emotion
    Unequivocal devotion
    Ending insanity
    Lifelong decision
    It has to be
    You and me
    Talking this emotion
    Unequivocal devotion
    Ending insanity
    Lifelong decision
    It has to be
    You and me

    See you smiling
    As the door opens wide
    Even after this long day
    Your arms stay open wide
    You seeing the stress in me
    But you stay there
    To reduce that anxiety
    It’s like I’m your
    Top priority
    Swear to god
    I Love that you love me
    Because I
    Love to love you
    Feeling like
    I’ve found a good thing
    Hear my heart, it sings

    Talking this emotion
    Unequivocal devotion
    Ending insanity
    Lifelong decision
    It has to be
    You and me
    Talking this emotion
    Unequivocal devotion
    Ending insanity
    Lifelong decision
    It has to be
    You and me

    See you smiling
    But it ain’t the same
    Know that your day
    It’s been challenging
    Come over here and relax
    Know that I got your back
    Let’s share this thing
    We gonna learn from it
    Everything is a lesson
    What can I do
    To see the smiling you
    I see that the kiss
    It just won’t do
    Know what I got to do
    …….
    There you go
    Smiling again

    Talking this emotion
    Unequivocal devotion
    Ending insanity
    Lifelong decision
    It has to be
    You and me
    Talking this emotion
    Unequivocal devotion
    Ending insanity
    Lifelong decision
    It has to be
    You and me

  • First Day I Knew

    First Day I Knew


    First day I knew
    Just didn’t know what to do
    You had acquaintances, I was dealing with my own thing
    What was I suppose to do?

    First day I knew
    When I saw you walking down that hallway
    Not a coincidence but the significance of that energy
    That kept me seeking you.

    First day I knew
    Just didn’t make no moves
    All the heartbreak and heartache
    I just didn’t want that from you.

    First day I knew
    Expecting nothing from this interaction
    Only have one satisfaction
    Everyday I will put a smile on you.

  • Reach.Ya

    Reach.Ya


    Using every letter I can find
    Putting them together
    Rearranging every line
    Creating articulate formulas
    To try to reach ya

    Got out the dictionary
    Looking deeply into
    Every word
    That thesaurus needed
    To try to reach ya

    First two didn’t reach you
    Added EMPHASIS
    So that you can FEEL THIS
    Maintaining this habit
    To try to reach ya

    I’m here and loving you
    Looking at the sky
    Nowhere near you
    Praying to the heaven
    To try to reach ya

  • Starts With Me

    Starts With Me


    Staring into this subtle breeze
    Continuous cloud blocking the burning sun
    Endless green filling up the remaining scene
    Left to wonder, and understand this new summer.

    Thinking through these constant obligations
    Payments, commitments, deadlines, no time
    Every single day, less than 24 hours left
    Each and everyday 48 hours of things left

    In this crazy phase, not focused on anything
    Somehow floating in this hazy daze of everything
    Feeling empty, peacefully, breathing evenly
    Something familiar within this space

    Watching the sky move, while the bugs biting
    Life’s little annoyances, keeping me attentive
    The daydreams of a fantasy of what-if realities
    Approaching closely serenity and it all starts with me

  • Stay Missing You

    Stay Missing You


    Alarm barely waking me
    Feeling this disbelief
    Another day without you
    Randomly staying occupied
    Stay missing you

    Seeing the last text
    nothing serious
    Just thoughts of you
    Hundreds of miles away
    Stay missing you

    Schedule packed all day
    Before the sun rise
    Millions of dreams of you
    Nerves driving me insane
    Stay missing you

    Doing the daily duties
    Reminders of the blessings
    Tested whenever I’m away from you
    Frustration in every direction
    Stay missing you

    Another victory, I could preach
    Day is gone, sleep within reach
    Praying diligently for you
    Future possibilities and tranquilities
    Stay missing you

  • Remembering

    Remembering


    Remembering that kiss
    That sweet smile
    Before and after it
    Sometimes I literally forget
    Cause it’s rare
    When we do the things lovers do
    I appreciate this friendship
    This thing between me and you

    Remembering instances of intimacy
    Damn I miss when it was always
    Just you and me
    When the day was literally so empty
    The biggest commitment was
    Filled with TV
    No deadlines
    Just you and me

    Remembering each time
    Like the first time
    I be starving for you
    Grinding my heart away
    Just to stay away from you
    And I never know how it’ll go
    When I approach you
    Just tryna keep it, me and you

    Remembering this commitment is forever
    Hard to accept a minute
    Don’t make a world of difference
    Cause when I missing you
    I lose all other interest
    Only thing that matters
    This sincere sentiment
    Of you and me

    Remembering you just got here
    Now you gone again
    Deeply missing my lover friend
    Stuck wondering what it is
    What is it that I’m missing
    That level of comfort when I see you
    That satisfaction of life without a fear
    That eternity of me and you

  • Heart

    Heart


    Heart just weakened
    Watching you pull away
    I believe you coming back
    Pulling back in the driveway
    But with so many days
    Not knowing what would happen
    I’m always reminded
    God makes things happen

    Heart just slowed
    Water rolling down my face
    But it feels like
    Everything is in its place
    But my heart doesn’t feel the same
    Losing my sanity
    Missing you calling my name
    Facing reality

    Heart just quickened
    Thought you were returning
    But it wasn’t you at all
    I’m just imaging images
    Of you coming back to me
    What is this pain filling me
    But now my eyes failing me
    It’s hurting me

    Heart just beat
    Beating natural’s sound
    Peaceful sky moving around
    Knowing you’ll be up there soon
    Sometime before noon
    And with every distance increased
    Heart grows more heavy
    Missing my destiny

  • Releasing This Pain

    Releasing This Pain


    Releasing this pain
    The shadow of insanity
    It’s staring back at me
    Deciphering the past
    After action reviews
    Fishbones and 5-Whys
    Nothing comes through

    Releasing this pain
    But how’d I get here
    Could not predict this
    Feeling like a sickness
    Prevailing inside of me
    Ain’t no medicine
    No form of therapy

    Releasing this pain
    At the next sun rise
    Just tired of sinking inside
    Shoulders too worn out
    Can no longer hold out
    World pressing me
    Down on both knees

    Releasing this pain
    Shedding the deadness
    Tortured and bruised
    Need perseverance
    Time to stand up
    Got to get up
    Fulfill this destiny
    Let shine that God in me

  • Soul Rejoice

    Soul Rejoice


    Don’t even need to sex you
    Long as I’m next to you
    That energy
    So real to me
    Delaying my
    Innermost fantasy
    this endless dream
    I can hear you voice
    Soul rejoice

    Don’t even need to speak
    In your proximity
    Soul is weak
    Latching to everything
    That even resembles you
    Always reminded of you
    Someone told me
    I was your choice
    Soul rejoice

    Don’t even need to see you
    It wont stop me
    From feeling you
    Eyes closed tightly
    Where might you be
    You are nowhere near me
    Longing for something
    Make your choice
    Soul rejoice

    Don’t even need to touch you
    At peace right next to you
    End of it all
    I wait for your call
    I can sense your intent
    Just let me in
    Wondering what’s left
    Gave me love’s invoice
    Soul rejoice

  • That Night Breeze

    That Night Breeze


    The night breeze
    Speaking to me
    And I’m feeling a different energy
    Not the normal freakness it’s meekness
    Something controlling every bit of me
    Need to recover and get back to being me
    But I can’t stop this weakness

    That night breeze
    Whispering to me
    Telling me about this fantasy
    From the roof of the high rise
    Down to the white sandy beach
    Suppose to be you and me

    The night breeze
    Singing to me
    With every wave I feel pain strangling me
    I cannot figure out what to do
    When the sun is out it’s a love spree
    But the moonlights my worst enemy
    What is happening, this pain I’m going through

    The night breeze
    Opening my soul
    Trying to fight it, need to console
    Watching the moonlight
    Wondering how it conquered my soul
    Why aren’t we together, need that goal
    Need something to make this alright

    The night breeze
    Providing love
    Finally feeling like heaven above
    Loving all of this, especially that soft kiss
    Dreaming about everything I’m proud of
    And I can feel your warm soft love
    I’d do anything for you to keep this bliss

  • Loving Love

    Loving Love


    Not sure when that feeling hit
    Can’t remember how I got in this shit
    That longing of the endless dreams
    Chasing everything it seems
    Anticipating that want of bliss
    Right before the first kiss
    From the stars above
    Loving love

    Immaterial though it maybe
    I believe with everything that’s in me
    Love is the purest purity of the darkest night
    Love is that victory in a midst of plight
    Selfishly it is a punishing reminder
    Human tendencies can’t find her
    The duality of pain and defeat
    That void of feeling underneath
    From the night above
    Loving love

    Yet infrequent openings of the heart
    Lead forgetful minds to the same damning start
    If only love were love without a love
    Then maybe, loves pain we’d never hear of
    But that loving love we seek,
    It’s only promise is to make us weak
    Somehow we forget who we are
    Somewhere we lose what has brought us this far
    If only. If we could.
    If loving love were the cure

  • Muse me

    Muse me


    Muse me
    Move me
    With one word I’m absurdly moved
    Start writing randomly tied things
    Writing and writing damn if I could sing

    Move me
    Groove me
    Now that thought is thinking
    Imaging differences those individualities
    Thinking. I’m thinking. Elevating

    Groove me
    Muse me
    Be that that, that always does its thing
    That thing making my mind an infinite thing
    That that, that makes me love over and over again

  • EVERY Time I See You

    EVERY Time I See You


    EVERY time i see you,
    i want to interact with you,
    touch you,
    hear your voice.
    i just need to remain an intricate cog in your life.
    a symbiotic part of your soul.
    yet when i see you,
    i feel this invisible shield,
    that keeps me from taking hold.

    EVERY time i see you,
    i lose focus on places i should be,
    commitments i have made.
    i just want and need to know we are in the same place,
    mentally focused in our respective areas,
    working toward the same goal.
    a critical part of each others thoughts. destined for increase.

    EVERY time i see you,
    i long for your touch…
    yesterday I had memories of YOU cutting my hair,
    of YOU giving me pedicures,
    of YOU just exposing my thoughts to new visions and positions.
    yet i know we are not who we were,
    we are who we are,
    but the feeling i long for is the same…
    that touch of you.

    EVERY time i see you,
    i think of those moments of the past,
    of unsolicited affection in my direction aimed for ego to behold.
    I remember the first hug at PHL,
    when you held me as if you needed me….
    and I have been on a high ever since…
    never felt love like that from anyone….
    and i love feeling that of love from you.

    EVERY time i see you, i want YOU.
    EVERY time i see you, i love YOU.
    EVERY time i see you, i need YOU.