Sy Bryant

Tag: Poem

  • I’ll Be Ready

    I’ll Be Ready

    Last time I saw you

    Was the first time

    I ever saw you

    didn’t even meet you

    Just glad

    I had the chance to see you

    And ever since that day

    Been hoping

    You come my way

    Next time

    I promise you

    I will be ready

    Just a chase encounter

    Waiting on the counter

    You talking to them

    But you looking at me

    Sweetie……..

    Just tell me what you see

    You looking deep into me

    And I am hoping slightly

    That we will have chance

    Maybe even a slow dance

    How’s that mocha latte

    That look on your face

    When you took that taste

    Hope I can give that to you

    Damn I so wish

    That I knew you

    Last time I saw you

    Was the first time

    I ever saw you

    didn’t even meet you

    Just glad

    I had the chance to see you

    And ever since that day

    Been hoping

    You come my way

    Next time

    I promise you

    I will be ready

    Slowly you walk away

    Accidently bump me

    Gotta be honest

    I was checking my pockets

    Thinking you wasn’t honest

    Your friend was talking to you

    While you was looking at me

    I wish you knew

    That I am so friendly

    You could have just said

    A quick hi to me

    Played it off subtly

    So your co-worker would think

    You already knew me

    Now that time has past

    Not even sure the memory will last

    But I know one thing for certain

    And two things for sure

    If I ever see you again

    I will never leave you again

    Last time I saw you

    Was the first time

    I ever saw you

    Next time

    I promise you

    I will be ready

    I will be ready

    I will be ready

    I promise you

    If I ever see you again

    I promise you

    I will be ready

    I will be ready

  • Need To See You

    Need To See You

    Holding onto your voice

    Like it’s my last

    Thinking about everything

    From our past

    things I would do differently

    Except you

    Cause you mean the world to me

    Every time we arrange to meet

    Something comes up

    Now I wondering is it me

    Doing odd things to avoid me

    And I’m patiently

    Rescheduling everything

    Cause I need you to see me

    Need to see you…

    Texting ain’t enough

    Phone calls won’t do

    Need to see you…

    Tryna feel you

    Feeling everything you do

    And I need you…

    If this is too much

    Let me know how much

    Cause I cannot do without you

    But it’s hurting me intensely

    That you’re far from me

    I know it ain’t permanent but,

    Come see me

    Looking toward heaven’s stars

    Wondering where you are

    Where can I find you

    What else can I do

    Just trying to see you

    Can I just be near you

    Wishing I could love you

    Need to see you…

    Texting ain’t enough

    Phone calls won’t do

    Need to see you…

    Tryna feel you

    Feeling everything you do

    And I need you…

  • Tired

    Tired

    Seeing you breathing

    Like you deserve to be here

    All I see is the pain

    from you being here

    What is it

    That we’re trying to do

    Looking at our years,

    the dismal, the few

    This ain’t what you promised to do

    Holding on with my heart…

    On this last nerve

    just wont do….

    Holding on with my heart…

    On that last nerve

    just wont do….

    Just tired of you

    What about

    What you said it would be

    Once believed in eternity

    Wondering if pain is infinity

    Mental lapse judging me

    Stars in the distant

    Giving me hope

    in an instant

    Something burning

    for so long

    Could it be so wrong

    Holding on with my heart…

    On this last nerve

    just wont do….

    Holding on with my heart…

    On that last nerve

    just wont do….

    Just tired of you

    Scratching my brow

    In disbelief

    Feeling like you just using me

    Trying to recall everything

    Cannot remember doing anything

    That I wanted to do

    Am I that laid back

    Or just that whack

    That I couldn’t see this coming true

    Reminiscing through thoughts

    Counting up all the hurt

    Holding on with my heart…

    On this last nerve

    just wont do….

    Holding on with my heart…

    On that last nerve

    just wont do….

    Just tired of you

  • Anyone … Besides Me

    Anyone … Besides Me

    Keep looking around

    Waiting on someone else

    Need someone to step up

    Can’t depend on anyone else

    All these problems we facing

    Where are the leaders

    Where are the entertainers

    Need someone to do something

    Anyone…

    Besides me

    Keep looking around

    Looking in disbelief

    Especially riding through Philly

    Old school barely a school

    Even had a jail at the school

    Reaching out to administration

    Demanding explanations

    They need someone to change this

    Anyone…

    Besides me

    Keep looking around

    Seeing the same problems

    They the same they’ve always been

    Derivatives of slave masters’ sins

    Even with education and intellect

    Still have their name

    On my seeds neck

    Someone must stand up

    Anyone…

    Besides me

    Keep looking around

    Wondering what this is about

    Nothing is changed

    It’s all the same with a different name

    Watching the cycle like a re-run

    Knowing if it gets too out of hand

    Lil ol’ shotty bouncing on a man

    This is just too much, someone help us

    Anyone….

    Besides me

  • Just You And Me

    Just You And Me

    The things you help me do

    Keeps reminding me of you

    Everyday in every way

    Counting on you

    I believe it’s true

    Absolutely love you

    Every time

    I’m in a bind

    I call on you

    You right on time

    Worry hath forsaken me

    Cause in you I’m free

    I believe in you

    I believe in me

    It’s why I believe in us

    Who else

    Can I really really trust

    Trust in me

    Like I trust in you

    Together forever

    Just You and Me

    Thought about the last time

    Remember when you saved me

    I was out in the open

    Destroyed, Feeling so weak

    All it took was your presence

    Just one minute it was like heaven

    That sincerity

    that only peace can bring

    Discovering something new

    Every time I see

    Challenging me to get better

    Pushing me up the ladder

    But I’ll never leave you

    Its cause I believe in you

    I believe in you

    I believe in me

    It’s why I believe in us

    Who else

    Can I really really trust

    Trust in me

    Like I trust in you

    Together forever

    Just Me and You

  • Would You Still Believe?

    Would You Still Believe?

    Would you still believe

    Just for a moment in time

    If we could join in mind

    At an impossible perspective

    If things weren’t considered

    So sacrilegious

    What if it weren’t true

    Would you change what you do?

    Would you still believe

    If although blood fall to the ground

    If that torture rack didn’t end that life

    If there were no EKGs to verify a thing

    As soon as the crowd dispersed

    Released those nails in victory

    What if you can live after that

    Would you change what you do?

    Would you still believe

    If at that time people were buried alive

    And the reason for not “burying” is that

    Breath still breathes under blood and grief

    And that security wasn’t like today

    No one really monitored the same way

    What if it were already opened and victory escaped

    Would you change what you do?

    Would you still believe

    If you knew he knew it too

    And he would have to endure punishment

    Endlessly and have faith to see it through

    Lash, after lash, no man hath endured

    Expecting salvation for generations yet to come

    What if it were you

    What it change what you do?

    Would you still believe

    If what hides in mystery

    An entire city was built

    To protect a single belief

    That a person can transcend yet live eternally

    Worship continually under an exaggerated belief

    What if there was another way

    What it change what you do?

    Would you still believe

    After seeing all the years past

    Witnessed his name used out of context

    To murder, ridicule, and prevent evolution

    Slowing down the human progress

    For a tithe, a prayer or less

    What if you could speak to God directly

    What it change what you do?

  • Do You Love Me?

    Do You Love Me?

    So do you love me

    When we waste deep

    Mortgage is due

    We got no money

    Are we In this together

    Is this forever

    So do you love me

    I know I make mistakes

    Not trying to hurt you

    Just flowing with being free

    Sometimes I don’t see so clearly

    But don’t stop loving me

    So do you love me

    When you can’t see me

    When we ain’t talking

    When you need me

    What can we do

    Cause I love you

    So do you love me

    Just won the lottery

    Lost it all

    Now it’s a memory

    Still love you

    But do you still love me

  • Foundation

    Foundation

    Foundation is cracked

    Repairs have been attempted

    But like any infrastructure

    Built on the wrong premise

    Only way to fix it is destroy it

    The impossibility of resurrection

    Is the only thing that kept me

    From just hitting reset

    If I could just start all over again

    The things I’d do differently

    Or not even start at all

    If I had a conscience at that point

    Avoid that egg

    Give it my all

    Foundation wasn’t nurtured

    Many a craftsman

    Observing the damage

    Understanding the weeds

    Strangling the fruit

    Until it’s unraveled

    Planted and nurtured

    But would without question

    That craftsman would turn and walk away

    Thinking at least the garden is clean

    Unknowingly creating another crack

    Nothing changed really

    Just lost a bit of confidence actually

    Knowing that look that is given

    No time to correct it, just accept it

    Foundation had some blemishes

    Like having a beautiful painting

    That leaves no image

    Everyone creating in their own mind

    The true meaning of it

    Seeing obsolescence easily

    Yet walking away so freely

    As if they weren’t the architect

    Not theirs to repair

    Just as easy to neglect

    Motherhood is a feeling

    Fatherhood is a choice

    Was never chosen for so long

    Lost my voice

    Foundation weakened

    Bridge stay ready to collapse

    Indeterminate frequency

    Sent crashing to my knees

    Could be the smallest of things

    Child’s poor performance in school

    Major catastrophes

    Even a car accident

    And I am releasing everything

    I can no longer hold it in

    And the crumbling

    The holes open wider

    Slowly without cessation

    Causing morally degradation

    Foundation strengthened

    Through periodic episodes

    When peers see me at my worst

    They elicit in me the best in me

    Purple skies we discuss

    Until the early hours

    When the golden rays

    They light the way

    Remembering I got this far

    Battered torn and all

    Fault lines that have made some fall

    Still here aiding in the mission

    No time to wallow in regret

    Head high to the finish

  • Through It All

    Through It All

    Even when you’re upset

    You know I’m here for you

    All those cares of the world

    Even if there is nothing in you

    I will be here

    Just to support you

    Through it all

    Give it my all

    I promise you

    We gonna stand tall

    Even when I mess up

    Apologies don’t fix it

    Expectations, high

    That bar of excellence so high

    If I knew better

    I should do better

    When you cry

    Sourcing my pain

    Give me a chance

    To stay in my lane

    Life pressing down

    People all around

    Chaos and confusion

    Managing the illusion

    I’m here through it all

    Regardless of love

    Or even days that I hate

    Here for it all

    Even on the blessed days

    Your face shows you’re angry

    Tip toeing

    Around all our issues

    Avoiding me

    Your eyes covered with tissues

    But know that I miss you

    I’m all in your face

    Because I need to see you

    No need to be alone

    We together forever

    Whatever it is

    We’ll endure forever and ever

    Life pressing down

    People all around

    Chaos and confusion

    Managing the illusion

    I’m here through it all

    Regardless of love

    Or even days that I hate

    Here for it all

  • Philosophically

    Philosophically

    Retrospectively

    No need for envy

    I’m accepted by me

    Use No like I breathe

    On my own time

    Spending my own dime

    Eliminating debt as I breathe

    Introspectively

    Contemplated chasing money

    And money attracts honey

    And honey attracts envy

    Pulling down your image

    No longer fighting for life

    Lawyers protecting your image

    Unexpectedly

    The human being made for simple things

    Only one purpose to cultivate the land

    Migrate endlessly regulating weaker things

    Greed converted freedom into a commodity

    We no longer wanted what we collectively had

    Desired our own possession lost human lesson

    Reality

    Every being has its time

    Earth is our god

    In her, we will find our eternal peace

    Eternal rest

    The Human will be destroyed

    By the very thing we were meant to protect

  • It Ain’t Easy

    It Ain’t Easy

    It ain’t easy….

    Close enough to touch you

    Cant even feel you

    So distant….

    Long memories

    Just you and me

    It ain’t easy…

    Speaking life into this

    Reality amiss

    Nightmares of dreams

    Nothing’s fair

    Finite future

    Instant history

    That’s you and me

    Slowly closed my eyes

    Future can’t rise

    Inevitable pain

    Thunderous rain

    Hiding every tear

    Surrounded in fear

    Desperate years

    It ain’t easy….

    Close enough to touch you

    Cant even feel you

    So distant….

    Long memories

    Just you and me

    It ain’t easy…

    Minimal breathing

    heart still beating

    Paranoid thoughts

    Running blindly

    Exhausting me

    Where’s happiness for me?

    It ain’t easy

    Who’s there to please me

    Giving everything within me

    Striving desperately

    And I am relentlessly

    Running with all my heart

    Exhausting all my energy

    But it ain’t easy

    It ain’t easy….

    Close enough to touch you

    Cant even feel you

    So distant….

    Long memories

    Just you and me

    It ain’t easy…

  • It’s Something

    It’s Something

    It’s something about this movie

    I remember it from the movies

    Filled me with emotion

    As if I was in the movie, first person

    I quote lines as if they are mine

    Like I speak to people using the script

    And if they don’t respond in kind

    I walk away, like fuck this shit.

    It’s something about this song

    When it comes on I stop what I’m doing

    Always need to close my eyes

    Consistently I need to smile

    As I count in that beat

    And I start singing in harmony

    Cannot remember a day without its memory

    This song is a part of me

    It’s something about this block

    When things ain’t right it is my anchor

    Don’t even know who’s there anymore

    There are new trees and a breeze

    But M-Block still feels like home

    All that sweat I dripped on that street

    All the blood from falling on that street

    All the tears from taking a loss on that street

    It’s something about being wrong

    When it hits you with regret

    And you ain’t even sad yet

    And the feeling of “damn” is in you

    Realizing pain will never miss you

    And all you have is an apology to offer

    And you’ve wronged for so long

    An apology ain’t enough any longer

  • Growing Stronger

    Growing Stronger

    If I see you everyday

    Or never again

    My love for you

    growing stronger

    Each and Every day

     

    Once upon a time

    Knew you were mine

    Never even knew

    I could be without you

    Now we talking different

    Feeling some resistance

    Don’t know if it’s me

    Just in case I apologize to infinity

    Please know this

    Accept it as truth

    Life is so so unbearable

    Without you

    So with every breath

    Each blink of my eyes

    Another beat of my heart

    I’m loving you

     

    If I see you everyday

    Or never again

    My love for you

    growing stronger

    Each and Every day

     

    That bond that we share

    Cannot disappear

    It was meant to be

    For all eternity

    Just cause we have differences

    Doesn’t mean we need distance

    Loving until rapture

    Loving in the here after

    So I cannot stop now

    I will never give up on us

    Because all I have is us

    And with everything in me

    Longing your sweet serenity

     

    If I see you everyday

    Or never again

    My love for you

    growing stronger

    Each and Every day

  • Out of Nowhere

    Out of Nowhere

    Out of nowhere

    Emotion rushed me

    Forgot where I am

    Momentarily

    Cause the world just became clear

    Things feel out of place

    Because we are out of place

    Having doubts in this space

    Been so very long

    Since I

    Did you so wrong

    And although

    I pleaded for forgiveness

    There’s no way

    We could have ever

    Repaired this

    So now I’m just listening

    Reading every text

    But I’m wondering

    What’s next

    Out of nowhere

    Emotion rushed me

    Forgot where I am

    Momentarily

    Cause the world just became clear

    Things feel out of place

    Because we out of place

    Having doubts in this space

    Random conversations

    About nothing and everything

    Did you forget we have this thing

    Cause mine is very very visible

    Not sure what this dialogue means

    Is it friendship or curiosity

    Just a strange strange feeling

    As you are remembering

    All the things I use to feel

    Every pain that broke me

    You was right there with me

    Didn’t realize you was right there for me

    Out of nowhere

    Emotion rushed me

    Forgot where I am

    Momentarily

    Cause the world just became clear

    Things feel out of place

    Because we out of place

    Having doubts in this space

  • Love Will Never Be

    Love Will Never Be

    You living for you

    I’m living for us

    You claiming

    There is no trust

    Until you becomes we

    This Love will never be

    Learning to be grateful

    For everything we had

    Cause what we have

    Has become fearful

    Pins and needles

    Our everyday

    No one ever saying

    What they need to say

    Nothing I can do

    I’m watching us

    I’m watching you

    Always on the go

    Never want to be home

    Wondering what’s wrong

    Saying nothing, no longer works for me

    Now it all just hurts to me

    You living for you

    I’m living for us

    You claiming

    There is no trust

    Until you becomes we

    This Love will never be

    See you coming and going

    No Love is flowing

    Lost in the transmission

    Watching you on your mission

    Our family missing

    Call it transition

    Anticipating something different

    This ain’t love this is paying rent

    Going through the motions

    That would be an exaggeration

    Cannot even see anything

    That you are doing

    You just leave me here assuming

    So I create my own reality

    In reality its just me

  • Somethings

    Somethings

    Somethings are like yesterday

    Somethings so far away

    I can remember every crime

    That I did

    Even Past the statute of limitation

    It’s still about discretion

     

    Somethings are like yesterday

    Somethings so far away

    Still have strangers approaching me

    Reminding me of things they seen

    Couldn’t remember them

    On my best day

    But I apologized anyway

     

    Somethings are like yesterday

    Somethings so far away

    I can remember every cry

    Like an endless release

    Only two were joy

    Only with hindsight, still learning

    To appreciate every pain

     

    Somethings are like yesterday

    Somethings so far away

    Had a lot of lust

    Seldom had love

    Although I would say it

    Didn’t always mean it

    Depends on who was receiving it

     

    Somethings are like yesterday

    Somethings so far away

    Have to slow down and really think

    If there was one thing

    That I would do again

    Replace all that lust with real friends.

  • I Got Dreams

    I Got Dreams

    I got dreams of waking up with you

    Reminded of our love when I see your picture

    Everyone asking what’s wrong

    Everything is perfect

    But only cause I’m right next to you

    And whenever we marinate

    After a beautiful date

    It’s like this euphoria comes over me

    And it’s only you that I can see

    I got dreams of living life with you

    As we steadily encourage each other

    It is simply hard to explain

    The feeling that I feel

    Even when a stranger calls your name

    This is just how it is

    And how I hope it will always be

    When I open my eyes and get to see

    All that beautiful magic just for me

    I got dreams of raising seeds with you

    Constantly praying for them

    And won’t ever lower the love I got for them

    Nurturing with a harsh word

    Or building with a deep embrace

    Everything they need I stand in this space

    Helping them identify their dreams

    Watching the stars rise is all I need

    The thought brings a tear to my eye

    I got dreams of steadily maturing with you

    I know I ain’t perfect but I’ll always be with you

    I know I have fallacies but I still believe

    Believing in every single ideology

    Every single ideology that strengthens your destiny

    Your destiny that I am just a small piece of

    A small piece of happiness but I know

    I know I can be more than just a piece

    Let me be your peace, that loves love.

  • Life … Just Flowing By

    Life … Just Flowing By

    Life just flowing by

    The Earth is self healing

    While the plague

    Hides in quarantine

    Afraid of what it means

     

    Life just flowing by

    And we all pretend

    It wasn’t all organized

    Natural selection

    Isn’t this subjective

     

    Life just flowing by

    Yet I’m left wondering

    What are we really missing

    Hunters and gatherers

    Far from their intended purpose

     

    Life just flowing by

    Never so much emptiness

    With the vacant sky

    Void of Human sounds

    Peace is all around

     

    Life just flowing by

    It’s hard to understand why

    Mentally limited

    Without any external stimulant

    Tired of being stuck so deep in it

  • If I Say It

    If I Say It

    If I say it enough

    I keep thinking you’ll respond

    Knowing it’s the exact definition

    Of every bit of insanity

    But I just cannot stop

    Regardless of what I see

    If I say it again

    Maybe it will mean more

    Compounding it with interest

    Reinvesting all of it

    Doubling down

    Refuse to miss it

    If I say it often

    Perhaps there will be

    A single opportunity

    Some type of reciprocity

    The way we are

    You gotta be feeling me

    If I say it frequently

    Would that make it have more meaning

    Amplify its intensity

    Changing vocal tones

    Even saying it

    Slightly differently

    If I say it repeatedly

    Could I just by chance

    Hear it back to me

    Seeding this one thought

    Holding you closely

    For all eternity

  • 6th Sense

    6th Sense

    Just now understood the 6th sense

    Everything just started making sense

    Seeing life with a fictional lens

    Non-Fiction don’t always end driving the Ghost

    Living in my fantasy life

    Kept thinking happiness existed with a wife

    Wanted to believe in mystical things

    Thought prayer and hope led to beautiful things

    The sense of the 6th degree

    Woke me up to the reality

    People going to be who they are

    Don’t believe in people’s words shit don’t go far

    It’s a blessing to wake up from the dream

    Tired of the tears hiding the scream

    Seeing life in a new direction a stronger focus

    Knowing what’s important without emotion.

    That 6th sense was the answer so it seems

    Remembering the past as a stranger

    Things I thought, I know I didn’t really see

    I just imagined shit that would never be

    Eyes wide open the truth hurt

    No one to blame that’s the shit that really hurt

    Looking in the mirror, like is you insane?

    Purposely hurting yourself like you don’t know your own name. 

  • See You In That Blue

    See You In That Blue

    See you in that blue

    My God baby I need to see you

    Would run millions of miles

    Thinking about that smile

    Thinking about that chance

    Excited at your stance

    Feel you in that blue

    Can you dig that I want to caress you

    Cannot even remember when last I saw you

    But I know soon I will see you

    See you in that blue

    See you in that blue

    It’s like, my heart bangs my chest

    So uncomfortable until I accept is that thought of you that won’t let me rest.

    It’s like reaching for a star.

    Right in front of me, yet too far

    But I will never stop until I do…

    See you in that blue

  • All Wrong

    All Wrong

    Expecting the wrong things

    Going down the wrong roads

    Wondering wrong thoughts

    Lost on wrong paths

    Or So it seems




    Seeing wrong visions

    Having the wrong dreams

    Absorbing the wrong nourishment.

    Believing in the wrong light

    Or So it seems




    Hoping for the wrong future

    Knowing the wrong individuals

    Hearing the wrong songs

    Driving to the wrong destinations

    Or So it seems




    Choosing the wrong interactions

    Focused on the wrong goals

    Rejuvenating in the wrong fuel

    Dumping in the wrong pool

    Or so it seems




    Grinding on the wrong work

    Saving the wrong people

    Sacrificing the wrong time

    Believed in the wrong soul

    Or So it seems
  • Frequency

    Frequency

    Frequency

    Out of range

    Feeling mad strange

    Static talking to me

    Not sure of its intent

    Sounding differently

    Scanning up and down

    Wondering

    If it’s being broadcast

    Differently

    Frequency

    Frequency

    The purest sound

    Whenever its around

    Internally the vibe

    Feeling the pulse

    Accepting each beat

    Aligning energetically

    Feeling you rhythmically

    Subtle sounds

    Deep in me

    Frequency

    Frequency

    Fluctuating indiscriminately

    Reaching out

    Missed opportunity

    Illusions absorbing reality

    Dazed incoherently

    Praying through adversity

    Speaking life into this

    Arms outstretched

    Reaching randomly

    Frequency

    Frequency

    Feeling thoughts motion

    Realness of dreams suffocation

    Preaching into resurrection

    Faith as my rock

    Anchored by these waves

    Digesting the volume

    Engaged perpetually

    Conscience proximity

    Engulfing me

    Frequency

  • That Is Life

    That Is Life

    Eyes are focused on the door

    Expecting to hear footsteps

    Left in a dismal space

    Never know what’s next

    Endlessly expecting

    Something different

    Imagination controlling

    Every breath

    Ears focused on the meaning

    Each and every sound

    Believing what is said

    Keeps me above ground

    Words differing

    From action’s reactions

    Left with nothing

    Life’s satisfaction

    Nose controlled by that aroma

    Breathing deeply

    Not willing to admit

    What’s wrong with me

    Revolution of imperfection

    Paralyzed by reflections

    What’s left in me

    These sins are deadly

    Mind racing to end this

    No one would ever

    Even believe this

    Captivated desires

    Prioritized evil fires

    Climbing into abyss

    Looking back

    Damn I missed

  • I Love You

    I Love You

    Waking up

    I realized

    I love you

    Something deep

    I know

    I love you

    Changing my whole life

    Just because

    I love you

    Early in the morning,

    I popped up

    You were in my dreams

    Now you’re on my mind

    This vision won’t stop

    We are together at a sunrise

    All night talking

    Deep bond

    New day sunshine

    Waking up

    I realized

    I love you

    Something deep

    I know

    I love you

    Changing my whole life

    Just because

    I love you

    Late afternoon

    In this meeting

    Cannot focus

    Just thinking

    Nodding my head

    Don’t know what was said

    Is this that love thing

    Cause seeing you is all I can think of

    Waking up

    I realized

    I love you

    Something deep

    I know

    I love you

    Changing my whole life

    Just because

    I love you

    It’s been a goodnight

    Really late

    Finished our date

    Just been 2 minutes

    And we texting

    Chatting about sexing.

    This desire

    It’s too strong

    Need to tell you

    That I need you

    Now it’s morning

    Another sunrise

    So happy

    To be staring in your eyes

  • Hey Crush

    Hey Crush

    Hey crush

    You just cannot feel it

    The way I feel when you say it

    Invigorating as if I could hear it

    And I know that you meant it

    Cause you that real shit

    Never about them games

    It’s always the same

    Even when we disagree, I’ll still beg your name

    Hey crush

    How are you doing

    Hoping for all of them dreams you pursuing

    Believing in you from day one

    From the beginning of time I’ve been your day one

    Stay proud of you every moment

    My heart hurts for you

    Every time you have a moment

    Know I’m always here for you

    Hey crush

    How can I express this

    Even with your tired eyes

    I always knew you was mine

    Always knew if I needed you

    You be there for me

    Knowing that the bond will stand through time

    It ain’t no effort to love you

    Knowing with all my heart I can trust you

    Hey crush

    You got me on that shit

    Breathing sighs of regret

    Just looking at all your pics

    Wondering what it would have been like

    If I knew you from the dawn of time

    Experiencing this whole life with you

    It ain’t enough to hear that you love me

    Peace only exist when I see that you love me

  • All This Pain

    All This Pain

    All this pain

    Stirring in me

    People everywhere

    Feeling So Empty

    Joy please find me

    Wide awake

    New day’s sun

    through this window

    Barely touching me

    laying here in misery

    Trying not to move

    Somber mood

    everything is ok

    What I’ve learned to say

    Tired of talking

    Been thinking

    Yeah I know what’s wrong

    Love got me blinded

    Can’t you see, It’s me

    All this pain

    Stirring in me

    People everywhere

    Feeling So Empty

    Joy please find me

    Phone vibrating

    Been turned the ringer off

    Know who it is

    know what they want

    Ain’t even worth the effort

    To pick up the phone

    just want to be alone

    Everyone think they can fix me

    But I know they can’t fix it

    Cause I’m that one

    That fix their shit

    Counting out each day

    That I’ve felt this way

    Deepened hopeless mood

    Yeah been kinda rude

    Just not in the mood

    All this pain

    Stirring in me

    People everywhere

    Feeling So Empty

    Joy please find me

    Knocks at my door

    Yelling who is it

    Delivery especially for me

    Probably another bill

    Too many to count

    To know for sure

    Special box for me

    Opened with energy

    Just a note for me

    Tears for my eyeS

    Old notes from

    My Father

    Miss him everyday

    Since he past

    Reading the proudness

    Giving me hopefulness

    All this pain

    Stirring in me

    People everywhere

    Feeling So Empty

    Joy please find me

    Need my ladder out

    Climbing out of here

    Breaking down

    Walls of emotion

    Initiating devotion

    New plan developing

    Open up this window

    Fresh air welcoming

    Getting new point of view

    Pain in the rear view

    Eyes focused on the future

    Wounds finally closing

    faith is a suture

    Optimistically looking

    The joy life caused me

    Strength resurrected within me

    All this pain

    It is me

    All this joy

    It is me

    All this pain

    All this joy

    This pain

    This joy

  • Looking At You

    Looking At You

    Looking at you

    Looking so deeply

    Knowing deep down

    You ain’t feeling me

    Yet I keep moving

    Moving so easily

    Because I know one day

    You’ll be with me

    Walked into the room

    Was hoping to see you real soon

    You all dressed up

    I’m just watching you

    As you stand up

    Professionally looking

    So good to me

    Encouraging you with a smile

    Knowing I’ll be here a while

    Seeing you closely from a distance

    Watching you slowly with persistence

    Knowing you will get through this

    So smoothly

    Seeing that you know

    What you are doing

    Watching you

    Watching me

    I’m just smiley

    Because you’re heavenly

    Just within a minute

    Everything felt differently

    Thought you’d be here everyday

    But I only see you sporadically

    Not even sure what to do

    I don’t know how to tell you

    That every time I see you walk away

    I immediately start missing you

    Last time you walked in

    If I can remember

    You entered with a wave

    Tried my best to behave

    Looked at you

    Something deep in you

    Its like I never seen you

    Happiness when I saw you

    Standing right next to you

    Had to hug you

    Needed to feel you

    Wish I could describe to you

    How much I missed you

    So entwined with you

    Still I gotta leave you

    Looking at you

    Looking so deeply

    Knowing deep down

    You ain’t feeling me

    Yet I keep moving

    Moving so easily

    Because I know one day

    You’ll be with me

  • To me

    To me

    Swear God be talking to me

    Showing me little things

    Seeing it in big ways

    Every single opportunity

    I know it’s all God’s way

    Humbly I ask constantly

    For more strength

    When I know

    There is nothing in me

    And I become hesitant

    Swear God be talking to me

    Just in everything I do

    Feeling outside energy

    Straight through me

    Gaining spiritual

    Remnant of the beginning

    First humans just being

    Accepting every learning

    As if I’m their meaning

    And all those lives was for a meaning

    Swear God be talking to me

    Granting every dream

    Before I even wish for it

    Answer each prayer

    As if I deserve any of it

    Gratefully accepting it

    I stopped asking why me

    Learning to let God do for me

    And I’m believing in

    Every bit of God’s energy

    Swear God be talking to me

    Left foot, right foot

    Keep walking steady

    As long as I follow orders

    I’ll have heaven for an eternity

    Patiently walking circumstantially

    Never doubting the path

    Laid out right before me

    Everything is left for me

    Bowing to that God in me

  • Can’t Afford You

    Can’t Afford You

    Knowing I can’t afford you

    Always stay at a distance

    Admiring through the case

    Wondering for an instance

    But no one will help me

    Because I don’t look the part

    All I get is a “May I help you”

    Knowing I can’t afford you

    Even if it feels like

    No one is caring for you

    And you are only “Ok”

    On that sparkling display

    Yet the price for entry

    It is well beyond me

    Knowing I can’t afford you

    Creates this uneasiness

    Walking by everyday

    Almost bowing down

    To your highness

    Staring with a sigh

    All I can do is wave bye

    Knowing I can’t afford you

    I let this hesitancy

    Build within me

    Never saying what’s needed

    Just keeping it all buried

    This truth won’t set me free

    You are my destiny

  • This New Day

    This New Day

    Opening my eyes to this new day

    Same ol dark ways

    See life from a different view

    Based on the things I been through

    Was never taught

    To worship Santa Clause

    I was taught to be Chris Kringle

    Be the Peace and the Joy

    That everyone is into

    Opening the curtains to this new day

    Everything still in its own way

    Beauty of every single thing

    The greenness of life

    The blooming flowers

    Right in front of me

    Humbled by every mercy

    Even when I’m down on my knees

    The spirit swells inside of me

    Opening the door to this new day

    Songs repetitively repeating for me

    Warmth warming  me

    Brightness shining for me

    Invisible feeling passed by me

    Hard to be egotistical

    Hard to stay humble

    When all this opportunity

    Right in front of me

    Realizing the realness of this new day

    It never has to end

    It’s meant to exist perpetually

    Without hesitation

    Counting down to the last

    Aggressively pursuing

    Each and every moment

    Cause at any moment

    It’ll be th…..

  • Continually

    Continually

    Continually

    Continually

    Down on one knee …. Continually

    Keeping you close to me …. Continually

    Nothing else I’d rather do …. Continually

    Than to be close to you …. Continually

    It was a huge surprise

    The first time that you caught my eye

    Wasn’t focused on where I should be

    Cause I couldn’t see what I thought I could see

    And you stood there

    You were so nonchalant

    You were so defiant

    And after I was doing

    What I was suppose to be doing

    I just started out in your direction

    Surprised me when you gave no objection

    Can we just continue to walk briefly

    Noticing you leaving here discretely

    Cause I would like an opportunity

    If I could let you know

    What you mean to me

    Just meeting you, I know

    But my soul is feeling how you flow

    If I could hear your voice

    Then I would know

    If our futures are intertwined

    Let me know if you wit dat slow wind

    Continually

    Continually

    Down on one knee …. Continually

    Keeping you close to me …. Continually

    Nothing else I’d rather do …. Continually

    Than to be close to you …. Continually

    Adjourning to the open air

    Completely alone in the moon’s stare

    Pleasantries don’t feel appropriate

    But I’m not even sure how to start this

    It’s like God just spoke to me

    Pulled my eyes up out of the abyss

    And showed me this beautiful being

    I don’t even want to know your past

    It’s so irrelevant to what we bout to do

    Bout to have an entire lifetime

    An entire Lifetime of loving you

    Right from the beginning

    Let’s just start planning

    Can we start with your dreams

    What are your goals

    Cause I’m here for all them

    And you looking at me in shock

    Expecting me to talk you out them clothes

    I could, but we need those

    We got people to meet

    We got business to do

    I’m tryna love everything that you wanna do

    Continually

    Continually

    Down on one knee  …. Continually

    Keeping you close to me  …. Continually

    Nothing else I’d rather do  …. Continually

    Than to be close to you  …. Continually

  • One Day

    One Day

    One day, there will be a day for me. 

    This day, I won’t be subject to false totality.

    This day, time is created for my own selfish pleasures.

    This day, I will be so high no one can see.

    This day, surrounded by beautiful warm waters of the sea.

    One day, there will be a day for me.

    This day, no one will ask me for a thing.

    This day, the world will be at my beckoning.

    This day, time will have no bound

    This day, I can only hear beautiful sound

    One day, there will be a day for me.

    This day, I could walk on beaches endlessly.

    This day, my appetite is quenched

    This day, my mind is free

    This day, is just for me.