Sy Bryant

Author: careermasteryacademy

  • Make It Last

    Make It Last

    Fatherless(15)
    Sitting here thinking bout the past,
    I’m always surprised
    I was able to make it last.
    It ain’t an anchor
    But a lot of lessons learned,
    Now I’m just tryna
    Heed my own words.

    Just never knew I’d end up here.
    Filled with all kinds of shit
    I don’t wanna hear.
    Thinking of the present future
    With the past right here.
    If only you knew,
    If only I could bear.

    Walking this street
    With the rain falling.
    Screaming out loud
    And it’s God I’m calling.
    I need to understand
    Why I’m being punished.
    Who did I hurt?
    What did I do?
    Feeling like I’m finished.

    Just never knew
    I’d end up here.
    Filled with all kinds of shit
    I don’t wanna hear.
    Thinking of the present future
    With the past right here.
    If only you knew,
    If only I could bear.

    Think I’m scared
    To know the truth.
    What would be revealed
    If I knew the truth.
    Contemplating shit
    That ain’t even real.
    Caught up in past decisions
    Like it’s my final deal.
    What am I suppose to do?

    Just never knew I’d end up here.
    Filled with all kinds of shit
    I don’t wanna hear.
    Thinking of the present future
    with the past right here.
    If only you knew,
    If only I could bear.

  • Can I just

    Can I just

    Can I just hold you forever one time
    Feeling your heart
    Beating into mine
    Pulsing emotions
    That fortify our devotion
    Greatest love of all time

    Can I just hold you forever one time
    Creating this promise
    Eternally within me
    That we will forever be
    In a beautiful state
    Call it matrimony

    Can I just hold you forever one time
    And we just close our eyes
    Opening this existence
    Embedding our persistence
    That intimacy got me
    Floating high

    Can I just hold you forever one time
    Won’t ever let you go
    Even if our bodies depart
    Souls will intermingle
    Attaching to time
    Loving to the end of time

    Can I just hold you forever one time
    Appreciating every second of the minute
    Thanking god I call you mine
    Slowly breathing never imagined
    Such a time like this
    Filled with just one kiss

  • Thinking, Thinking, Thinking

    Thinking, Thinking, Thinking

    Fatherless(16)
    Thinking
    Thinking
    Thinking

    As if saying it repeatedly
    Somehow
    That would make it happen easily
    Thinking through options
    As if we have every option
    There is nothing more troubling
    Then considering an impossibility
    Yet we do it religiously
    Almost becoming paralyzed
    As if Medusa was in our sights
    We remain statuesque
    Allowing everyone to admire us
    While we stand there resembling
    Nothingness

    Thinking
    Thinking
    Thinking

    Flowing through our psyche
    We are more that what we seem
    Yet we become the essence of nothing
    We only resemble that hardened rock
    Only value is providing shadow
    As those traveling the path are weary
    We want to believe that thinking is tiring
    Just to validate our ability
    That we can take up space
    While not adding value to anything
    Nothing is changed by our inability
    Yet we claim victory

    Thinking
    Thinking
    Thinking

    When do we plan?
    When do we do?
    How long should we plan?
    How long should we do?
    Where should we go?
    When should we get there?
    What should we expect?
    What obstacles will we face?
    Where is the end?
    Where is the beginning?
    When do we start?
    Endless questions of nothing
    Will only lead to nothing

    Thinking
    Thinking
    Thinking

    Time passes by us
    Whether we are in motion
    Even if we are standing still
    That unforgivable second
    Doesn’t care about our will
    The intent of our thought
    Is only realized through our action
    That second we just lost
    Is just but a fraction
    But if all we do
    Is waste every fraction
    The derivative of that second
    Lost like subtraction

    Thinking
    Thinking
    Thinking

    We have thought enough
    To last a million life times
    Industrial revolution
    Outright crimes against humanity
    They have removed us
    From what we are naturally meant to be
    Doing all kinds of things
    Consuming discretionary consumables
    Endlessly forsaken our God given responsibilities
    Then claiming salvation for a resurrection
    Without changing any aspect of humanity
    The sheer revelation of blasphemy
    Living a life filled with thinking

  • Wish I Could

    Wish I Could

    wish I could give you hope
    Hope to see
    Beyond your limitations
    To believe in
    Outlandish destinations
    Knowing that all you need
    Is hope

    wish I could give you grace
    Grace to appreciate
    Every single blessing
    Each opportunity
    With endless appreciation
    Knowing that all you need
    Is grace

    wish I could give you energy
    Energy to reach your goals
    Your wildest fantasy
    Every possible thing
    You could ever need
    Knowing that all you need
    Is energy

    wish I could give you everything
    Everything that you need
    Filling every single dream
    Close your eyes
    Make thought the Reality
    Knowing that all you need
    Is everything

  • Through You

    Through You

    Doing all these things
    I don’t want to do
    I don’t know if I’m trying to
    prove my love to you
    or prove I love through you

    Seeing life through a different lens
    All these people in proximity
    But very few are friends
    I always know who to go to
    When I need it, it’s through you

    Blindly going in directions
    Paralyzed by my own reflections
    Am I what I thought I be
    What else could I do
    Accepting peace through you

    Wishing for new a possibility
    Not sure about this reality
    Creating beliefs out of the abyss
    Contemplating me and you
    Can do all things through you

    Seeing the pessimist
    As the last optimist
    Spoke this into existence
    Nothing else will be true
    Until I live through you

  • Essence of Life

    Essence of Life

    Fatherless(17)
    Peacefulness
    Through midnight dreams
    Creating images
    Never will I see
    Striving toward euphoria
    Without smoke, powders or liquids
    Naturally believing
    Still it’s deceiving

    Hopefulness
    Through the storied past
    Lessons learned
    Uncountable bodies burned
    Humiliating history
    Yet we claim the source a mystery
    No one sacrificing to be free
    Because freedom is a commodity

    Faithfulness
    Through words in historic text
    Paralyzed thinking how history
    Can ever tell you what’s next
    Avoiding past behavior
    Expecting a clandestine savior
    Yet every hero is battered
    Until the thought of the next

    Lovingness
    Through two pair of arms
    Bodies intertwined
    Weathering every storm
    Intimacy so diligently
    Somehow inspires desires
    Knowing one entity
    Still loves me

  • Heard It

    Heard it said
    A few times
    That it was better
    Without a father
    No one to disappoint you
    No one to live up to
    Started to believe it
    It was a way through it
    But this hole in me
    It says something different

    Heard it mentioned
    I have a good life
    Not associated with
    Any negative statistics
    Fluid opportunities
    To be whatever I wanna be
    Travel endlessly
    It’s like saying I am filled
    But never had anything to eat
    Things are different for me

    Heard it discussed
    I am blessed
    God’s valiant of soldiers
    Endured hardships
    Never would have imagine this
    If I acted on the hate would I remiss
    Just imagined thoughts
    Trying to end these feelings
    Like imagining what you see of me
    Means that I am happy

    Heard it trivialized
    Do you need a specific gender in your life?
    Isn’t love enough to conquer bounds?
    Is happiness only culminated by opposites?
    Individually we can achieve anything.
    Success is only a plateau to the beginning.
    I readily get all that theory
    But only two people created ME
    One I know and love
    The other left me empty

  • Deeply

    Deeply

    Thinking this deeply
    Lay my hand upon my beating heart
    Praying softly that this pain won’t start
    Slowly panting through misery
    Upbeat thoughts Closed inwardly

    Speaking this deeply
    Lay my mind upon this thought
    Believe wholeheartedly I was taught
    Closed eyes contemplating visions
    Distracted by multiple missions

    Giving this deeply
    Lay my words upon this earth
    Resurrected God from the birth
    Tear moistened lips
    Releasing each painful bit

    Receiving this deeply
    Lay my faith upon this word
    Praying this joy is not deferred
    Anticipating new life surrendered
    Sewing until I have no more thoughts

  • The Fantasy / The Reality

    The Fantasy / The Reality

    The fantasy encapsulated me
    The reality questioned me
    Have no idea where I am
    Knowing everyday I am what I am
    Intrinsically it’s heavenly
    Inevitably it’s just me

    The fantasy enraged me
    The reality related me
    Created an unreal world
    Completed with unbridled perils
    False expectations
    Sitting here just waiting

    The fantasy ain’t the only means
    The reality looking good in them jeans
    Admiring from my side view
    My O My, wide eye
    Lusting for continuations
    Lost in situations

    The fantasy ain’t what it seems
    The reality murdering my dreams
    Nocturnally embattled
    Striking forward Unraveled
    Loosen within confinement
    Realized I’m dormant

  • Just Watching

    Just Watching

    Just Watching,
    Just staring…
    Seeing your confidence,
    Seeing your perseverance,
    Just seeing you is inspirational.

    Just Watching,
    Just noticing….
    The love in your heart
    For a complete stranger
    That is at the beginning
    Of a journey that you are already conquering,
    The reassurance that you provide to everyone that they are “going to be ok.”

    Just Watching,
    Just something about you….
    That draws me to you,
    That pulls me to you,
    That makes my body long to touch you,
    Makes my ears want to hear your voice…
    Makes my mouth want to speak your name,

    Just Watching,
    But I’m loving on a level
    I have never felt.
    And I want to share
    That love with you,
    In you … forever.

  • Rejected Being

    Woke up crying
    Mom asked why
    I cannot remember the dream
    I remember
    Not wanting to be alive
    Why did he leave
    I just never knew
    Mom said
    This is what I will do for you
    I will reach out to him
    Because he owes you this
    She ended with a kiss

    The time was arranged
    The phone did ring
    “hello”….
    Tears was all I could bear
    He waiting for a while
    With a lisp he asked
    “are you there”
    From his point of view
    I didn’t need anything
    My mom would provide it all
    Thus the burden was past to me
    Would I leave my children, like he left me

    Children arrived one at a time
    After a while I started to understand
    It isn’t easy to be a father, to be a man
    I reached out again
    Just one more time
    Arranged a visit sporadically
    Ended up in his home for the night
    Not necessarily comfortable
    But just something I needed to do
    Even saw pictures of my “nephews”
    With the same dimples that my two have
    Regardless of individual feelings
    Genetics are still passed

    That was the end of that chapter
    We connected a few more times
    Nothing significant
    Just no longer had any interest
    But somehow that one scene
    It still gets to me
    On the Fresh Prince of Bel Aire
    In one of the final scenes
    Will asking Uncle Phil
    “Why he don’t want me?”

  • PURE

    PURE

    Pure,
    It’s the melody
    Of the 5th symphony
    Feeling it’s sudden impact
    That 4th movement
    So soothing
    It’s uplifting
    Precision
    Tunes my
    Purity

    Pure,
    That frequency
    Feels me euphorically
    In C minor
    It’s kinder
    But nothing eases
    That harmony
    So pleasing
    The break
    Wakes me
    Need that energy

    Pure,
    Hear that
    Consortium of strings
    Triumphantly pounding
    Pushing through
    Brass banging
    At me
    Percussion gently
    Against my soul
    Moving
    Moving like waves
    in a still sea
    Timing precision
    That 5th symphony

    Pure,
    Don’t end so soon
    Repeat that chord
    Conduct my mood
    Give me that sense
    Unity of harmony
    Strangers gathered
    Uniquely combining
    The sharp C
    Swear it knows me
    Elegantly moves
    Through bars
    No word
    Can replace you
    No thought but you
    Thank you
    5th symphony

  • Feel your Voice

    Feel your Voice

    Feel your voice around me
    Looking around with curiosity
    Sweetness in the air
    Melody everywhere
    Cannot locate you
    Needing to see you

    Feel your voice in my dreams
    Am I desperate, am I mean
    Torturing my own self
    Creating fantasy
    Anxiety of mystery

    Feel your voice on this phone
    Damn, I wish you were home
    Struggling waiting patiently
    Nothing is real so it seems
    Wondering what it means

    Feel your voice subconsciously
    If this universe were paralleled
    I know we’d always be together
    Destiny’s cruelty
    Only have you in my dreams

  • Rhythms & Blues

    Rhythms & Blues



    Want these rhythms
    Not these blues
    All that pain
    That be on the news
    Want these rhythms
    Not these blues
    Primal fear
    Entirety of a society
    Tryna Kill Me

    Can’t walk in the store
    No longer welcome
    Hoodie covering my eyes
    Still handsome
    Just being low key
    Not tryna steal yo keys
    Just need a snack or two
    All of a sudden
    You shouting
    You screaming
    What did I even do
    Why I gotta get out
    Ain’t my money green too
    You keep yelling
    And let out that HULK MEAN
    You thinking I’m playing with you
    You pulling out on me
    Now you bout to see
    All this anger in me

    Want these rhythms
    Not these blues
    All that pain
    That be on the news
    Want these rhythms
    Not these blues
    Primal fear
    Entirety of a society
    Tryna Kill Me

    Innocent traffic stop
    Know I gotta stop
    Pull over nice and easy
    No need to be greasy
    Giving up the credentials
    On point is essential
    Now the dialogue begin
    I know we ain’t friends
    But I swear to God
    You tryna move me
    Make me something I’m not
    All kind of profanity
    Officer you need to stop
    Screaming so loudly
    Spit flying out your mouth
    I respond loudly
    Now your hands on me
    Like I did something wrong
    My demise in front of my own eyes

    Want these rhythms
    Not these blues
    All that pain
    That be on the news
    Want these rhythms
    Not these blues
    Primal fear
    Entirety of a society
    Tryna Kill Me

    The same song
    Stop resisting
    I’m not resisting
    Stop resisting
    I’m not resisting
    Stop moving
    You’re hurting me
    Stop moving
    You already got cuffs on me
    Shut your mouth
    You yelling at me
    He’s got a gun
    Never in my life
    Stay still
    Please, Somebody!
    Save me!
    From this murderous envy
    On my last breath
    Exhaled to my death

    Want these rhythms
    Not these blues
    All that pain
    That be on the news
    Want these rhythms
    Not these blues
    Primal fear
    Entirety of a society
    Tryna Kill Me

    #BlackLivesMatter #StopPoliceBrutality

  • Confusion

    Confusion

    Confusion building me
    Hearing intricacies so clearly
    Imagination over powering me
    Distilling the real of reality
    Mirror persecuting me

    Confusion breathing me
    Hesitating with each thought
    Rethinking everything about me
    Normally blaming what I was taught
    Mirror persecuting me

    Confusion becoming me
    Focusing on intangibilities
    Praying they avoid me
    Believing in new realities
    Mirror persecuting me

    Confusion bewildering me
    Devastating ideology of eternity
    Expecting life infinitely
    Ignoring the death of lividity
    Mirror persecuting me

    Confusion breaking me
    Contemplating life’s desires
    Morbid reality of destiny
    Entirely mortified fire
    Mirror persecuting me

  • Praying That

    Praying That
    Every single memory
    Will be cherished
    For an entire eternity
    That somehow
    That love and joy
    Sustains you
    Forever more.

    Praying that
    When things go wrong
    The wisdom they shared keeps you going
    That special memory
    That you remember
    Continues, holding your dreams forever
    That your sadness finds comfort
    Knowing joy will come after.

    Praying that
    The accomplishments you’ll make
    That you never underestimate
    Know that they are so proud
    And that they’ll always be around
    Saying I’m so proud
    Accept that change is inevitable
    But life is perpetual.

    Praying that
    You will always say their name
    Even when no one else can
    Believe in life, like life believes in you
    Allow your heart to heal
    No One will ever know how you feel
    May comfort stay by your side
    And the strength of God’s will.

  • Waiting

    Waiting on the steps
    From the dawn of light
    Anticipating the excitement
    From last night
    Plans was made
    Times agreed
    Made sure I was washed up
    Eat up
    Ready for anything

    Dawn turned to day
    Way before pagers and cell phones
    Ringing the house
    No one was home
    Patiently waiting
    Mom tryna convince me
    It’s better to wait inside
    So afraid to miss my ride
    Just counted the cars go by

    Day turned to evening
    Friends coming back
    Full day of sweating and playing
    Asking if I’ll go for round 2
    Nah, I said I was waiting for you
    Continued to wait
    Excitement in me
    Every-time I saw
    Car lights slow down momentarily

    Evening gave way to night
    Crickets starting
    Lighting bugs now visible
    Steps my anchor
    Misery my crucible
    Mom says you just called
    That you apologize
    You’ll make it up
    First time I no longer gave a fuck

    Night turned into a new day
    Kept tryna to think
    What did I do
    Why didn’t you come get me
    I was good all week
    Got all my work done
    You promised to be there
    I didn’t know lying was acceptable
    Maybe I was just gullible

    New day turned into New Years
    Same little promise
    But now I know
    As plain as I can see
    Your words and actions
    don’t mean the same thing
    We was never the same
    Always saw you differently
    Never again wanted that pain

  • Child is Born

    Since I realized I was alone
    Since I realized he was never coming home
    Accepting the loss within me
    Learning everything independently
    There were always others around me
    But none of them looked like me

    Inherited love in a different feeling
    Embedded in the concept of creation
    Complicated in that new beginning
    Proudly smiling at the planted seed
    The proud excitement of something new
    Always had that with you

    Wrote down every promise
    Each and every action I pledged to keep
    Looking retrospectively
    Mirror gave me all that I need
    Every gap and hole in me
    Providing you every opportunity

    That day finally arrived
    Wish I could have captured
    That tear from my eye
    That love anew
    Never knew love
    Like I knew it with you

    Conception of history
    Realization of everything in me
    Damnation struck me down.
    Evolution couldn’t stop this now.
    Perpetuation of something renewed.
    Redemption of this crown.
    My life now sworn.
    My child is born.

    #FatherLess #Poem #PoetryCommunity #Poet

  • Ain’t Enough

    Ain’t Enough

    I know you can
    Say you love me
    But do you really
    Love me
    Can you show me
    That you love me
    Saying you love me
    Ain’t enough
    It just aint enough

    Time after time
    You got me waiting
    With all this stuff built up
    Anticipating
    Thinking this one time
    It will be different
    Maybe something will change
    And you’ll see in me
    What I see in you
    All your beauty
    Coming thru
    Still here loving you

    I know you can
    Say you love me
    But do you really
    Love me
    Can you show me
    That you love me
    Saying you love me
    Ain’t enough
    It just aint enough

    Why do we do this
    Keep pretending
    To get through this
    Acting one way
    Then we switch it up
    Talking about it
    Don’t ever work
    Feels like
    We going in circles
    You keep sayin the same thing
    Over and over
    Cant take another thing

    I know you can
    Say you love me
    But do you really
    Love me
    Can you show me
    That you love me
    Saying you love me
    Ain’t enough
    It just aint enough

    Looking to skies
    No surprise
    Last year from my eye
    Confused in complicated
    All this time I’ve waited
    Believing in the unseen
    Thinking life was Pristine
    Learning all that it means
    Down to my last green
    Contemplating every dream
    Ain’t what it seems
    Nightmarish schemes

    I know you can
    Say you love me
    But do you really
    Love me
    Can you show me
    That you love me
    Saying you love me
    Ain’t enough
    It just aint enough

  • Eternity

    Eternity

    Eternity of vengeance
    Lays beneath my skin
    Absorbing every pain
    Every situation I’m in
    Gently gliding fluidly
    Patiently feeling unity

    Eternity of envy
    Admiring possessive beings
    building their happiness
    Creatively framing this
    Projecting different opportunities
    Anxiety of empty dreams

    Eternity of forgiveness
    Voided understanding
    Impossibility treating you differently
    Imagining you weren’t damage
    Awoke inner savage
    Hardened into hatefulness

    Eternity of kindness
    Sweet summer breeze
    Surf rising below your knees
    Remembering the hatefulness
    Accepting gracefulness
    Rejecting the peace in this

  • Excites Me

    Even your 😍 excites me
    Doesn’t matter what it is, I love feeling your energy
    Looking deep into all that you are
    Creating realities when you are too far
    It’s all I can do to be with you
    I’d do anything just to be with you
    Creating foreign rendezvous
    Anticipation of seeing you

    Even your hello excites me
    I hear your hey, frustration melts away
    How are you feeling?
    How can I help you achieve success?
    How can I be there if you in that mess?
    Is there anything you need from me?
    How can I fulfill your desires?
    When can I light that fire?

    Even your aroma excites me
    Taking in a deep breath
    Exhaling everything I have left
    Do you believe in inevitability
    Or do you just know you were meant for me
    Hoping you can briefly understand
    I will continually be your greatest fan

    Even your melody excites me
    Hear your voice and I drop to one knee
    Gently proposing one thing
    That you’ll allow me to be your everything
    Your sunrise in the morning
    Your nourishment when you’re empty
    That everything fulfilling your destiny

  • Can I

    Can I

    Can I
    Touch your lips with mine
    Whatever it takes to unwind
    Building upon this bond
    While we stay being we
    Together collaboratively
    Growing into permanent existence
    Always with consistence

    Can I
    Touch your soul with mine
    Time irrelevantly existing
    Eternity reminding me
    Opportunities we are missing
    Slowly coherently
    Knowing we coexist
    Spiritually lovingly
    Always with consistence

    Can I
    Touch your left thigh with my right
    Knowing it’s going be alright
    If we could just have one night
    Embracing differently
    Exhaling gently
    Engaging every reality
    Always with consistence

    Can I
    Touch your inner being
    Explaining what I’m seeing
    Third eye righteousness
    True being of truthfulness
    Hanging onto this
    Last bit of strength in this
    Always with consistence

  • Blessing for Me

    Everyday is a new blessing for me
    Not talking about waking up or what I see
    Talking about that new energy
    That new passion, pushing through life’s uncertainty
    It’s about that new idea seeded inside of me

    The conversations are a blessing for me
    Encouraging the moves and flexibility
    Being open to a new possibility
    I thought I was the shit, but that was the old me
    This is a new grind, a way of life to see
    Everything about this fills me abundantly

    The excitement is a blessing for me
    I don’t get up I race up like the Grand Prix
    I’m screaming, I’m yelling, sacrificing everything
    Gotta make use of this blessing’s bounty
    Got my strategy delivering objectives daily
    I’m grinding, persevering, relentlessly

    Wait to you see, what God has for me!

  • Heart Brings

    Heart Brings

    Deepened in curiosity
    I started to wonder
    What does the heart bring
    There is a sense of misery
    Monuments imprisoned
    Every negative thing
    That could be a thing
    Solidified in every memory
    It is what the heart brings

    Shadowed in mystery
    I began to ponder
    What does the heart bring
    Beauty, simplicity
    Eye of the beholder
    See things with more reverence
    Each day I grow older
    And I marvel in sheer delight
    Blessed by a commoner’s sight
    It is what the heart brings

    Opened in secrecy
    I commenced to consider
    What does the heart bring
    Disappointment in droves
    Experienced betrayal and loss
    Receiving lies, the highest cost
    Noticing nuisances of individuals
    As perception changes, it’s subliminal
    Hardened to protect the spiritual
    It is what the heart brings

    Conceived in reciprocity
    I arose to contemplate
    What does the heart bring
    That unequivocal bond of wholeness
    Recognizing every light that shines
    Releasing the power of the mind
    Cultivating the inner being of self
    Loving unconditionally oneself
    Loving love above all love
    It is what the heart brings

  • Life Ain’t Easy

    Life ain’t easy.
    But it wasn’t meant to be this hard
    It isn’t right for a father to leave
    Only those that have seen that door close
    We are the only ones that know
    No matter what words
    Or vain explanations are given
    There is a void created
    When the man that made you
    Abandons you.

    Life ain’t easy.
    Just a lot of attempts to try different things
    In principle, we have that guiding force
    That intentional opportunity
    Our predecessor making the road easy
    Fatherhood is by choice, not bonded in pregnancy
    We can be a father to anyone
    Including someone else’s seed
    It also means
    It can be turned off, quickly.

    Life ain’t easy
    When you have your own seeds
    The purpose of life becomes clearer
    The love we have for our children
    Oft times too much to even fathom
    Then that hurt grows deeper
    Asking, Why doesn’t he love me,
    Like I love them?
    No one knows God’s plan
    Please believe we are still in God’s hands.

    Life ain’t easy
    But we want the easier road
    Every pain and tear had a reason
    And after enduringly long seasons
    We are stronger than our father will ever know
    The lesson is this….
    When you give your own
    That heartfelt forehead kiss
    Make that your daily promise
    That you will never give them the pain
    That was given to you.

  • Justice Ain’t Blind

    Justice ain’t blind
    Because it keeps picking me
    Without a hint of mercy
    In anything I see
    What is the hesitancy to start over
    If you can shut down and restart a team
    If you can shut down and reorganize a business
    What does it mean
    When people hold onto something
    That intentionally harms others
    But let some real shit go down
    And my own humbleness saves you
    Now we brothers

    Justice ain’t blind
    Just closes its eyes
    Can no longer be surprised
    By the filth and lies
    Which public office,
    Is not for sell
    You selling something
    If the basis of your decisions
    Are not based in right and wrong
    And morally, the kind of people
    We should be electing
    Should only be
    Those of the highest morale character
    If you’ve never given your last
    To a complete stranger in need
    You are not the leader
    That I will follow after

    Justice ain’t blind
    It is blatantly discriminate
    Not sure if I’m angered about how it treats me
    Or that we aren’t treated the same
    And if we can’t be treated equally
    at a higher level
    Should we be treated the same
    At a Lower level
    Let that baton beat everyone
    Right or wrong isn’t needed
    Just the terror that must be maintained
    To keep down the insurgents
    Through the free press
    They decided that enemy was foreign
    But the greatest threat is always internal
    The only issue is really about circumstances
    The reluctance to protect this land
    From all enemies foreign and domestic

    Justice ain’t blind
    This 20/20 vision
    Is literally what those original architects
    Wrote down and what they envisioned
    The plan was laid out clearly
    Leverage religious context
    Kill everyone freely
    Destroy everything in sight
    Until everything avails itself
    To everything that’s right
    They never imagined
    In their wildest dreams
    That their sons and grandsons
    Would let anyone else be free
    And to be honest
    That was never the real intent
    It was only to create a greater tax base
    It wasn’t about humanity
    But about the economy
    Whoever produces the most products
    Controls every product
    Thus controls the economy
    Sadly
    The Justice and Economy
    They were both for sale

  • Is

    Is

    Is my heart still beating
    Is my mind still thinking
    Something is so unreal
    Can not describe how it feels
    Consuming my inner being
    More than what you are seeing
    That perception, not my reality
    Tired of being me

    Is life worth living
    Is air worth breathing
    The end looking tempting
    Cannot release this feeling
    Failed so miserably
    Every effort into meaningless things
    Stifled into mediocrity
    What happened to me

    Is this my past
    Is this my future
    Lost every present I have
    Counting sand in the hourglass
    Pain don’t last
    Enduring horrid’s mystery
    Life and me

    Is life fair
    Is life hard
    Really don’t care
    Can not fathom being free
    Guessing that feeling
    Feels like endless opportunity
    Unfulfilled destiny

  • Following sunshine

    Following sunshine

    Following sunshine
    Early morning stretch
    Reaching to the depths
    haven’t even started yet
    So I take a deep breath
    Not sure what I have left
    Nothing short of miraculous
    Heart so gracious

    Following sunshine
    Everything on my mind is mine
    Thankful for everything in me
    Now I’m wondering why me
    So I take a deep breath
    Accepting the world as I see it
    Not sure if I believe it
    Mind full of intent

    Following sunshine
    Not a cloud in the sky
    Seeing the full horizon
    Life is not surprising
    So I take a deep breath
    Knowing that clouds come and go
    Regardless of the sky
    I gotta keep moving by

    Following sunshine
    Sun approaching the end
    Darkest shadow creeps in
    Doing my best to object
    With endless energy
    I’m begging for synergy
    Integrating light and death
    Believing in faith and opportunity

  • Branded

    Branded

    Branded in mystery
    Providing the illusion of a victory
    The principles cultivated
    Every feeling exaggerated
    Pound by pound of flesh
    Broken until nothing is left
    Archaically molded in historic ways

    Shining through the darkest night
    Single star guided sight
    Drudging step by tedious step
    Unbridled agony at a missed step
    Blinded through the fear of defeat
    Enthusiastically reaching every peak
    Worthy of every hand in the land

    Stages changing, exponentially aging
    Counting days like years have past me
    Excruciating torment turning me into we
    Eyes closing whenever possible
    Just a moment of silence to escape
    The extracted punishment of being late
    Yet the end has no date

    Branded for eternity
    The infinity of friendship’s tranquility
    Digesting the past experiences as memories
    Not a spit of complaint for everything endured
    Accepting every reason for that season
    Completely vested without a bit of control
    Friendship is Essential to the Soul

  • CHANGE

    CHANGE

    Saying we are going to CHANGE
    And actually CHANGING
    Those are two different things
    We get so hype
    We get so excited
    Just talking about change
    We get so comfortable
    We get so relaxed
    Just accepting the same
    We all naturally revert back
    To the same Ol’ thing
    If we talk
    But we don’t act
    What will really CHANGE?

    Saying we are going to CHANGE
    And actually CHANGING
    Variations with different meaning
    Planing out something different
    But never actually moving
    Just Discussing freedom
    We’ve come to realize
    Most people don’t want to be free
    They want someone to tell them
    YOU ARE FREE
    They want someone to treat them as
    YOU ARE FREE
    But what are we willing to sacrifice
    TO BE FREE

    Saying we are going to CHANGE
    And actually CHANGING
    That will never be the same
    Faith without works is dead
    Without the willingness to die
    For the cause we hold dear
    We will always be imprisoned
    It is all rooted in fear
    Yet we mobilize forces
    Globally to maintain
    What we call free
    But when we leave the house
    At the beginning of the day
    It’s only by chance we return
    The same way

    Saying we are going to CHANGE
    And actually CHANGING
    It’s a mental barrier
    Equivalent to asking
    Could you use your left hand,
    Instead of your right?
    Whenever you write
    Or even better yet
    We all become Ambidextrous
    We cannot even fathom
    The focus to switch hands
    When we write
    But we want strangers,
    To start treating us RIGHT?

    Saying we are going to CHANGE
    And actually CHANGING
    Big Eb told me
    We have to start working
    So it can start working
    And if we want change to exist
    We don’t have to look
    Any further than our own self
    It starts with simple things
    Like just getting in good health
    It continues with supporting those
    That support us
    It maintains with owning the things
    That are dear to us

    Saying we are going to CHANGE
    And actually CHANGING
    If we could just make it really plain
    We commercialized every holiday
    Independent from who?
    Independent from what?
    We can still are murdered
    If it were sincere, instead of fireworks
    We could physically make sure on this day
    That every single intent
    On that Declaration of Independence
    Applied to the least of us on this exact day
    And if it cannot be
    Then We The People
    Need to Declare a New Independence
    That applies to all of us

  • Lose my mind

    Lose my mind

    If I lose my mind
    A thousand times
    It still won’t replace
    Anything about you
    Need you right here
    Eternally graceful
    If I lose my mind
    It still won’t replace you
    Stay loving you

    Keep having these random thoughts
    Strange places, never seen before
    We not even together
    But I can see you clearly
    Looking right at me
    Flirtatious grinning
    Already feel like I’m winning
    Casual hellos hope this grows
    Into a night cap
    Phone ringing who’s that
    Alarm just woke me
    Damn I was feeling that
    Damn need to get there
    Pricing out airfare

    If I lose my mind
    A thousand times
    It still won’t replace
    Anything about you
    Need you right here
    Eternally graceful
    If I lose my mind
    It still won’t replace you
    Stay loving you

    Plotting out this rendezvous
    Excitedly blood flows
    Damn near killing me
    The pressure just too much for me
    Popping prescriptions
    Need to quiet this anxiety
    But I love you
    So I get so excited
    Ego keep me fighting it
    Now you right here
    Right in front of me
    Loving this scene
    Sun just rising
    Red eye keeping things surprising

    If I lose my mind
    A thousand times
    It still won’t replace
    Anything about you
    Need you right here
    Eternally graceful
    If I lose my mind
    It still won’t replace you
    Stay loving you

    Been a long week
    Just you and me
    Planning our eternal destiny
    Evidently we need to leave
    Leaving does not interest me
    Too many distractions
    In the real world
    Let’s just stay on Fantasy island
    Embracing this love swirl
    Slowly you believe me
    Knowing ain’t no reason
    For us to lose this
    Feeling oceans breeze
    Enjoying every kiss

    If I lose my mind
    A thousand times
    It still won’t replace
    Anything about you
    Need you right here
    Eternal grace
    If I lose my mind
    It still won’t replace you
    Stay loving you

  • Trying with all my will

    Trying with all my will

    Trying with all my will
    Hoping to maintain this deal
    For far too long
    It’s been hard to stay strong
    Overly dependable and suitable
    Going through travesty
    Like I was a your majesty

    Trying with all my will
    Accepting life’s deal
    With all its joy and pain
    Some of it left me
    With everlasting stains
    Yet I hold it all in
    Only way to win

    Trying with all my will
    Avoiding every drug, every pill
    Non-alcoholic drinks
    Just naturally sit and think
    Every decision made
    Imagining a different reality
    No matter what, it’s still me

    Trying with all my will
    Watching clouds traverse
    Seeking into hip hops classic verse
    Trying not to lose my head
    Some mornings I wake up dead
    Piecing this life like weather
    Each revolution forever

  • Cycle of Peace

    CyclePeace
    The shocking engagement of combat
    No reprisal or even a wince
    Stuck in this stance with other common men
    Creating a bond stronger than ballistic steel

    The mind games cause laughter decades later
    In the midst, the pain of uncertainty, anxiety
    Initial excitement diffused by reality of darkness
    Paralyzed in this life, struck by blinding blows

    The crucible of the royal road’s tolls
    Forcing friendship in a cauldron of strangers
    Survive together, destroyed apart, eternally connected six moving parts
    Accepting gods fate without complaint

    Infinite cycle of fury, doing all that was done
    Causing endless perseverance for endless generations
    Abandoned curiosity in hope of symmetry
    Final realization of the cycle of peace.