Chasing, endlessly pursuing
Wanting elusive things aloft beings
Experiences unmet
Energy spent wanting
Chasing, constantly waiting
Hoping for a different outcome
Feelings damaged
Faith diminished
Chasing, patiently seeing
Living a tumultuous fantasy
Life wasting
Laugh gone
Chasing, new reality
Looking, new paths revealed
Patiently waiting
Pleasing satisfaction
Beautiful feeling
Knowing someone that knows you
Completely open to everything you do
Support you even if it means they ain’t with you
Simple text just to know I’m thinking bout you
Year after year
We back again
Captivating feeling.
Beautiful feeling
Seeing that same face
The same way I saw you from back in the day
Remember those daytime rendezvous
Eventually nighttime engagements
No matter what it was
It was always in love
Lovely feeling
Beautiful feeling
Just takes 1 text
And smiles begin
Through every moment in time
Still having that same friend
Knowing how critical they are to me
Be that bottom jawn if need be
Grateful feeling
Calling a name I don’t know
To do some things I’ve never seen
Going to go places I’ve never been
Just to see your face
Be present in your space
That piece of serenity
Calling this peace into existence
Not even sure what I am missing
Persevering through every obstacle
The world is simple and cruel
Masked by this innocence
That piece of persistence
Calling and screaming to be heard
Fantasy controlling reality
Nothing decent within me
Aggressively deceitfully being me
Subtly orchestrating inevitably
That piece of hypocrisy
Calling for assistance
Realizing I cannot handle this
Monumentally too much for me
Devastated no one responded to me
The realization of independence
That piece of creative license
The Epiphany of Pain
Imaging the first devastation
Never imaging something so impactful
Powerful words rattling my psyche
Humbled by a chance opportunity
To be the chosen few
Nothing prepared us
for what lay ahead
Manhood, shining in the thunderous rain
The Epiphany of Pain
If we could yet awake from that dream
Could not fathom the reality of things
The physical challenges awaited us
Mentally we were barely off of empty
Linked in friendship kept our resiliency
Rolling one after another
Scholarship, massacred into our brain
The Epiphany of Pain
Illogically slowly accepting this fate
Engulfed with idealistic thoughts
Walking bridges others have taught
Pursuing obstacles with a dogmatic view
Listening to truths spoken by twisted knaves
Realizing the crystal stair ancestors had to bare
Perseverance, grinding to become insane
The Epiphany of Pain
Accepting the fallacy of all I hold dear
There was but six standing there
Climbing through the the darkest night
Shoulder to shoulder, days to night
Rebuilt in the shadow of KAOS hard ways
Souls combined into the Kaotix 6ix
Uplift, birthed in the hardest of ways
Releasing every thought
Each perspective
All ideas that contain
All the limitations I have every experienced
The thoughts that prevent progression
The idea that is now a nightmare
Releasing it all in the crisp cool air
Releasing every pain
Thorn of thoughts
Piercing the flesh of forgiveness
Debilitating fruits of labor
Void of thought, is what I savor
Enabling the strength to succeed
That’s all I really need
Releasing every history
Today is a new thing
Intentionally filling it with new dreams
Building ideas, concepts, pure energy
Interlocking joy with jeopardy
Risking it all on everything
Just to hear the birds sing
Releasing every goal
Built things on things that were old
Expecting something new seems bold
Sacrificing the intimate stories told
From now on, leave the past alone
Investing in what I can call my own
Free to be alone
Lost my mind
Saw your picture
Something bout
Those eyes
Drew me closer
Crush on you
Since school
Always excused
Why I wasn’t
With you
Lost my mind
Lost my mind
Every time
I see you
It’s like
The first time
We got this
Yo-Yo thing
We can go back
We go forth
But we never lose
What we endured
Lost my mind
Lost my mind
Thinking bout you
Keep thinking
Bout that
Dear thing born in you
Straight missing you
Distance guards us
But that love
It’s supernatural
It’s so powerful
Loving you
Lost my mind.
Confined in frustration
Institutionalized in speculation
Blinded justice
It’s not just us
Ingrained in the earth
Lost at birth
Intentionally marginalized
Don’t be surprised
Accepting the fact
Disarray is packed
Shocked to attacked
Frustrating circumstances
Void of chances
Rolling dice after dice
Avoiding random advice
Controlled by every vice
Digging into every chasm
Longing for every spasm
Anything to feel a feeling
Long past my last cause
Cause death seems appealing
I’ll never reach that glass ceiling
Circumventing regulation
Doing anything out of desperation
Grinding through exhilaration
Maintaining this station
Pretending every dream comes true
As if every prayer is for you
The dramatic scene is serene
Looking and looking, looking so mean
It’s the reality of what it seems
Knowing that you know
But what does it mean
Rejecting the endless fantasy
Avoiding life loans
Loving instead of dreaming
Doing over sleeping
Driving into the mystery
Seeking each void of humanity
Building an infinite memory
Ending each regret
Taking every bet
Leaving nothing to be desired
Fueling this fire
Still here
Thinking bout you
Can’t even feel
That connection with you
We were bonding
So I thought
Now we are wandering
Thinking…..
Don’t fully accept
Why you left
But learned from the past
Don’t hold on too long
More you hold on
Sooner and longer they’ll be gone
So I’m here
Thinking bout you
Thinking…
When you’re ready
Still here
Same number
Still here
Same DM
didn’t go anywhere
Still here, still here
Grateful for the time
Smiling when I think
About fast food lines
Chit chat, eat a snack
Things feel different
I don’t know
What am I missing
Friendship indeed
Praying…..
One day
You’ll need me again
I’ll be right there
Attentively listening
Doing anything I can do
Cause I’m at my best
When I’m with you
Heart pounding
Getting louder
Just heard your ring
It’s that power
Praying….
When you’re ready
Still here
Same number
Still here
Same DM
didn’t go anywhere
Still here, still here
I don’t want to be here
I don’t want to be anywhere
Anywhere that is required Of me
It never lets me just be me
Let me exist in the shadow
Periodically wanting me to interject
As if I’ve always been here
I don’t want to be here
Don’t want any sense of responsibility
Don’t want any bill to call upon me
Don’t want to be dependent upon
Just want to breathe every day until the sun is gone
Just want to breathe every day under moonlight
Seeing waves caress my blight
I don’t want to be here
Where people say hello before my name
Where there’s an expectation that I do the same
Where everyday is not really for me
Cause someone somewhere needs me
Wanting me to do what they wouldn’t do for me
I don’t want to be here
Staring in the air mindlessly
But always on call in a minute
Waiting a call, text some type of message
When my cycle of existence
Is based on someone else’s persistence
Working
Grinding
Pleading
Believing
Completing
Nothing
Pleasing
Agreeing
Working
Building
Driving
Striving
Growing
Knowing
Cooking
Showing
Working
Loving
Kissing
Hugging
Supporting
Speaking
Glowing
Uplifting
Working
Creating
Devastating
Bleeding
Healing
Smiling
Frowning
Teasing
Clowning
Pain is eating me
Like it’s feeding me
Becoming my only source
Calling it my energy
Absorbing it
Like I am a part of it
I am what I am
Pain is what it is
We are my mom’s only kids
Been riding it out
Shout it out
In the midst of misery
It’s just pain and me
There ain’t nothing real
It’s just how I feel
Between paper lines
Writing out each thought of mine
Hoping with expectation
One day there’ll be a celebration
The real issue
So close to desperation
Mind and body
Total separation
Slowly and surely everything
That’s happening
It’s just pain and me
What does it mean
When you look to stars
Nothing to be seen
No inspiration to gleam
Can’t see past the hand in front of you
Can’t get past
The first two steps
All you can do is that 1-2, 1-2
Accepting that this life in me
Breeds every misery
Incubating something new
Reminding me about me
It’s just pain and me
How does it feel
When the sun has no appeal
The moon’s light ain’t never right
Deeply inhaling but
Never getting fresh air
Taste buds ain’t tasting
Smelling something stale
Skin feeling itchy and pale
Closing down internally
To every external stimulus
The greed in me longing for peace
Yet reality only sees me
It’s just pain and me
Can I just say
Sitting here
With my head hung low
In a crazy mood
Feeling my hearts echo
Times like this
Really thinking
Was I ever happy
Is there a smile for me?
darkest day
What could I do
World pressing me
Tryna see it through
Forcing my imagination
For brighter days
Struggling to feel
Human again
New alert
On the phone
Smile from you
“How are you?”
You light my life
First ray of sunshine
You light my life
Every time I see you
You light my life
Light my life
Everything in life
You light my life
Making up things
Anything to talk
That energy
Grows on me
Indestructible feeling
When we meet
Those endorphins
High on life
Steady and ready
Accomplish anything
Just from your touch
Casually imagining
If it were done intentionally
How would it feel
For Yin to Yang
Diving deep into
This Love sick thing
Atomically cannot stop
Until we reach the end
Finally found
My best friend
You light my life
First ray of sunshine
You light my life
Every time I see you
You light my life
Light my life
Everything in life
You light my life
This is my last time
Saying that final goodbye
Let God wipe the tear from my eye
This is my last time
Never will I feel this way
Nothing else to say
Never been like this before
Thought I wanted something more and more
Now things are crazy
I don’t even exist
Just a shadow of me
Walking through the door
Not a care in this world
Thinking I’m not alone
That’s the biggest curse
Wanting to believe it must be me
Why else does guilt keep grabbing me
The more and More I push
The more and more I realize
And I still act surprised
When I finally see
And ain’t a us, just a me
This is my last time
Saying that final goodbye
Let God wipe the tear from my eye
This is my last time
Never will I feel this way
Nothing else to say
Leaving phones unanswered
Have no desire to speak
Becomes more and more difficult
Pretending I’m weak
As the wind blows
I can feel every bit of the past
Just never imagined that pain would last
As the river flows
Everything is washed away
Nothing else to even do
Just awaiting judgement day
Have no expectations of open gates
The subtlety of each and every crime
Beyond what they eye could see
But God always saw me
That wrath will be upon me
This is my last time
Saying that final goodbye
Let God wipe the tear from my eye
This is my last time
Never will I feel this way
Nothing else to say
Watching out for anything new
Happiness is just a myth
Just hard to be so serious
Holding onto this pain
It just reminds me of things
Not sure how I get through
Every 24th hour
Just brings me compounded pain
If I could really smile
Wonder what that would be like
Really laughing out of joy not spite
Really seeing something new
Having that anxiety of love anew
Something always happens
Manifested lies and behavior
Just Tired of being my own savior
This is my last time
Saying that final goodbye
Let God wipe the tear from my eye
This is my last time
Never will I feel this way
Nothing else to say
Last time I saw you
Was the first time
I ever saw you
didn’t even meet you
Just glad
I had the chance to see you
And ever since that day
Been hoping
You come my way
Next time
I promise you
I will be ready
Just a chase encounter
Waiting on the counter
You talking to them
But you looking at me
Sweetie……..
Just tell me what you see
You looking deep into me
And I am hoping slightly
That we will have chance
Maybe even a slow dance
How’s that mocha latte
That look on your face
When you took that taste
Hope I can give that to you
Damn I so wish
That I knew you
Last time I saw you
Was the first time
I ever saw you
didn’t even meet you
Just glad
I had the chance to see you
And ever since that day
Been hoping
You come my way
Next time
I promise you
I will be ready
Slowly you walk away
Accidently bump me
Gotta be honest
I was checking my pockets
Thinking you wasn’t honest
Your friend was talking to you
While you was looking at me
I wish you knew
That I am so friendly
You could have just said
A quick hi to me
Played it off subtly
So your co-worker would think
You already knew me
Now that time has past
Not even sure the memory will last
But I know one thing for certain
And two things for sure
If I ever see you again
I will never leave you again
Last time I saw you
Was the first time
I ever saw you
Next time
I promise you
I will be ready
I will be ready
I will be ready
I promise you
If I ever see you again
I promise you
I will be ready
I will be ready
Holding onto your voice
Like it’s my last
Thinking about everything
From our past
things I would do differently
Except you
Cause you mean the world to me
Every time we arrange to meet
Something comes up
Now I wondering is it me
Doing odd things to avoid me
And I’m patiently
Rescheduling everything
Cause I need you to see me
Need to see you…
Texting ain’t enough
Phone calls won’t do
Need to see you…
Tryna feel you
Feeling everything you do
And I need you…
If this is too much
Let me know how much
Cause I cannot do without you
But it’s hurting me intensely
That you’re far from me
I know it ain’t permanent but,
Come see me
Looking toward heaven’s stars
Wondering where you are
Where can I find you
What else can I do
Just trying to see you
Can I just be near you
Wishing I could love you
Need to see you…
Texting ain’t enough
Phone calls won’t do
Need to see you…
Tryna feel you
Feeling everything you do
And I need you…
Seeing you breathing
Like you deserve to be here
All I see is the pain
from you being here
What is it
That we’re trying to do
Looking at our years,
the dismal, the few
This ain’t what you promised to do
Holding on with my heart…
On this last nerve
just wont do….
Holding on with my heart…
On that last nerve
just wont do….
Just tired of you
What about
What you said it would be
Once believed in eternity
Wondering if pain is infinity
Mental lapse judging me
Stars in the distant
Giving me hope
in an instant
Something burning
for so long
Could it be so wrong
Holding on with my heart…
On this last nerve
just wont do….
Holding on with my heart…
On that last nerve
just wont do….
Just tired of you
Scratching my brow
In disbelief
Feeling like you just using me
Trying to recall everything
Cannot remember doing anything
That I wanted to do
Am I that laid back
Or just that whack
That I couldn’t see this coming true
Reminiscing through thoughts
Counting up all the hurt
Holding on with my heart…
On this last nerve
just wont do….
Holding on with my heart…
On that last nerve
just wont do….
Just tired of you
Keep looking around
Waiting on someone else
Need someone to step up
Can’t depend on anyone else
All these problems we facing
Where are the leaders
Where are the entertainers
Need someone to do something
Anyone…
Besides me
Keep looking around
Looking in disbelief
Especially riding through Philly
Old school barely a school
Even had a jail at the school
Reaching out to administration
Demanding explanations
They need someone to change this
Anyone…
Besides me
Keep looking around
Seeing the same problems
They the same they’ve always been
Derivatives of slave masters’ sins
Even with education and intellect
Still have their name
On my seeds neck
Someone must stand up
Anyone…
Besides me
Keep looking around
Wondering what this is about
Nothing is changed
It’s all the same with a different name
Watching the cycle like a re-run
Knowing if it gets too out of hand
Lil ol’ shotty bouncing on a man
This is just too much, someone help us
Anyone….
Besides me
The things you help me do
Keeps reminding me of you
Everyday in every way
Counting on you
I believe it’s true
Absolutely love you
Every time
I’m in a bind
I call on you
You right on time
Worry hath forsaken me
Cause in you I’m free
I believe in you
I believe in me
It’s why I believe in us
Who else
Can I really really trust
Trust in me
Like I trust in you
Together forever
Just You and Me
Thought about the last time
Remember when you saved me
I was out in the open
Destroyed, Feeling so weak
All it took was your presence
Just one minute it was like heaven
That sincerity
that only peace can bring
Discovering something new
Every time I see
Challenging me to get better
Pushing me up the ladder
But I’ll never leave you
Its cause I believe in you
I believe in you
I believe in me
It’s why I believe in us
Who else
Can I really really trust
Trust in me
Like I trust in you
Together forever
Just Me and You
Would you still believe
Just for a moment in time
If we could join in mind
At an impossible perspective
If things weren’t considered
So sacrilegious
What if it weren’t true
Would you change what you do?
Would you still believe
If although blood fall to the ground
If that torture rack didn’t end that life
If there were no EKGs to verify a thing
As soon as the crowd dispersed
Released those nails in victory
What if you can live after that
Would you change what you do?
Would you still believe
If at that time people were buried alive
And the reason for not “burying” is that
Breath still breathes under blood and grief
And that security wasn’t like today
No one really monitored the same way
What if it were already opened and victory escaped
Would you change what you do?
Would you still believe
If you knew he knew it too
And he would have to endure punishment
Endlessly and have faith to see it through
Lash, after lash, no man hath endured
Expecting salvation for generations yet to come
What if it were you
What it change what you do?
Would you still believe
If what hides in mystery
An entire city was built
To protect a single belief
That a person can transcend yet live eternally
Worship continually under an exaggerated belief
What if there was another way
What it change what you do?
Would you still believe
After seeing all the years past
Witnessed his name used out of context
To murder, ridicule, and prevent evolution
Slowing down the human progress
For a tithe, a prayer or less
What if you could speak to God directly
What it change what you do?
So do you love me
When we waste deep
Mortgage is due
We got no money
Are we In this together
Is this forever
So do you love me
I know I make mistakes
Not trying to hurt you
Just flowing with being free
Sometimes I don’t see so clearly
But don’t stop loving me
So do you love me
When you can’t see me
When we ain’t talking
When you need me
What can we do
Cause I love you
So do you love me
Just won the lottery
Lost it all
Now it’s a memory
Still love you
But do you still love me
Foundation is cracked
Repairs have been attempted
But like any infrastructure
Built on the wrong premise
Only way to fix it is destroy it
The impossibility of resurrection
Is the only thing that kept me
From just hitting reset
If I could just start all over again
The things I’d do differently
Or not even start at all
If I had a conscience at that point
Avoid that egg
Give it my all
Foundation wasn’t nurtured
Many a craftsman
Observing the damage
Understanding the weeds
Strangling the fruit
Until it’s unraveled
Planted and nurtured
But would without question
That craftsman would turn and walk away
Thinking at least the garden is clean
Unknowingly creating another crack
Nothing changed really
Just lost a bit of confidence actually
Knowing that look that is given
No time to correct it, just accept it
Foundation had some blemishes
Like having a beautiful painting
That leaves no image
Everyone creating in their own mind
The true meaning of it
Seeing obsolescence easily
Yet walking away so freely
As if they weren’t the architect
Not theirs to repair
Just as easy to neglect
Motherhood is a feeling
Fatherhood is a choice
Was never chosen for so long
Lost my voice
Foundation weakened
Bridge stay ready to collapse
Indeterminate frequency
Sent crashing to my knees
Could be the smallest of things
Child’s poor performance in school
Major catastrophes
Even a car accident
And I am releasing everything
I can no longer hold it in
And the crumbling
The holes open wider
Slowly without cessation
Causing morally degradation
Foundation strengthened
Through periodic episodes
When peers see me at my worst
They elicit in me the best in me
Purple skies we discuss
Until the early hours
When the golden rays
They light the way
Remembering I got this far
Battered torn and all
Fault lines that have made some fall
Still here aiding in the mission
No time to wallow in regret
Head high to the finish
Even when you’re upset
You know I’m here for you
All those cares of the world
Even if there is nothing in you
I will be here
Just to support you
Through it all
Give it my all
I promise you
We gonna stand tall
Even when I mess up
Apologies don’t fix it
Expectations, high
That bar of excellence so high
If I knew better
I should do better
When you cry
Sourcing my pain
Give me a chance
To stay in my lane
Life pressing down
People all around
Chaos and confusion
Managing the illusion
I’m here through it all
Regardless of love
Or even days that I hate
Here for it all
Even on the blessed days
Your face shows you’re angry
Tip toeing
Around all our issues
Avoiding me
Your eyes covered with tissues
But know that I miss you
I’m all in your face
Because I need to see you
No need to be alone
We together forever
Whatever it is
We’ll endure forever and ever
Life pressing down
People all around
Chaos and confusion
Managing the illusion
I’m here through it all
Regardless of love
Or even days that I hate
Here for it all
Retrospectively
No need for envy
I’m accepted by me
Use No like I breathe
On my own time
Spending my own dime
Eliminating debt as I breathe
Introspectively
Contemplated chasing money
And money attracts honey
And honey attracts envy
Pulling down your image
No longer fighting for life
Lawyers protecting your image
Unexpectedly
The human being made for simple things
Only one purpose to cultivate the land
Migrate endlessly regulating weaker things
Greed converted freedom into a commodity
We no longer wanted what we collectively had
Desired our own possession lost human lesson
Reality
Every being has its time
Earth is our god
In her, we will find our eternal peace
Eternal rest
The Human will be destroyed
By the very thing we were meant to protect
It ain’t easy….
Close enough to touch you
Cant even feel you
So distant….
Long memories
Just you and me
It ain’t easy…
Speaking life into this
Reality amiss
Nightmares of dreams
Nothing’s fair
Finite future
Instant history
That’s you and me
Slowly closed my eyes
Future can’t rise
Inevitable pain
Thunderous rain
Hiding every tear
Surrounded in fear
Desperate years
It ain’t easy….
Close enough to touch you
Cant even feel you
So distant….
Long memories
Just you and me
It ain’t easy…
Minimal breathing
heart still beating
Paranoid thoughts
Running blindly
Exhausting me
Where’s happiness for me?
It ain’t easy
Who’s there to please me
Giving everything within me
Striving desperately
And I am relentlessly
Running with all my heart
Exhausting all my energy
But it ain’t easy
It ain’t easy….
Close enough to touch you
Cant even feel you
So distant….
Long memories
Just you and me
It ain’t easy…
It’s something about this movie
I remember it from the movies
Filled me with emotion
As if I was in the movie, first person
I quote lines as if they are mine
Like I speak to people using the script
And if they don’t respond in kind
I walk away, like fuck this shit.
It’s something about this song
When it comes on I stop what I’m doing
Always need to close my eyes
Consistently I need to smile
As I count in that beat
And I start singing in harmony
Cannot remember a day without its memory
This song is a part of me
It’s something about this block
When things ain’t right it is my anchor
Don’t even know who’s there anymore
There are new trees and a breeze
But M-Block still feels like home
All that sweat I dripped on that street
All the blood from falling on that street
All the tears from taking a loss on that street
It’s something about being wrong
When it hits you with regret
And you ain’t even sad yet
And the feeling of “damn” is in you
Realizing pain will never miss you
And all you have is an apology to offer
And you’ve wronged for so long
An apology ain’t enough any longer
If I see you everyday
Or never again
My love for you
growing stronger
Each and Every day
Once upon a time
Knew you were mine
Never even knew
I could be without you
Now we talking different
Feeling some resistance
Don’t know if it’s me
Just in case I apologize to infinity
Please know this
Accept it as truth
Life is so so unbearable
Without you
So with every breath
Each blink of my eyes
Another beat of my heart
I’m loving you
If I see you everyday
Or never again
My love for you
growing stronger
Each and Every day
That bond that we share
Cannot disappear
It was meant to be
For all eternity
Just cause we have differences
Doesn’t mean we need distance
Loving until rapture
Loving in the here after
So I cannot stop now
I will never give up on us
Because all I have is us
And with everything in me
Longing your sweet serenity
If I see you everyday
Or never again
My love for you
growing stronger
Each and Every day
Out of nowhere
Emotion rushed me
Forgot where I am
Momentarily
Cause the world just became clear
Things feel out of place
Because we are out of place
Having doubts in this space
Been so very long
Since I
Did you so wrong
And although
I pleaded for forgiveness
There’s no way
We could have ever
Repaired this
So now I’m just listening
Reading every text
But I’m wondering
What’s next
Out of nowhere
Emotion rushed me
Forgot where I am
Momentarily
Cause the world just became clear
Things feel out of place
Because we out of place
Having doubts in this space
Random conversations
About nothing and everything
Did you forget we have this thing
Cause mine is very very visible
Not sure what this dialogue means
Is it friendship or curiosity
Just a strange strange feeling
As you are remembering
All the things I use to feel
Every pain that broke me
You was right there with me
Didn’t realize you was right there for me
Out of nowhere
Emotion rushed me
Forgot where I am
Momentarily
Cause the world just became clear
Things feel out of place
Because we out of place
Having doubts in this space
You living for you
I’m living for us
You claiming
There is no trust
Until you becomes we
This Love will never be
Learning to be grateful
For everything we had
Cause what we have
Has become fearful
Pins and needles
Our everyday
No one ever saying
What they need to say
Nothing I can do
I’m watching us
I’m watching you
Always on the go
Never want to be home
Wondering what’s wrong
Saying nothing, no longer works for me
Now it all just hurts to me
You living for you
I’m living for us
You claiming
There is no trust
Until you becomes we
This Love will never be
See you coming and going
No Love is flowing
Lost in the transmission
Watching you on your mission
Our family missing
Call it transition
Anticipating something different
This ain’t love this is paying rent
Going through the motions
That would be an exaggeration
Cannot even see anything
That you are doing
You just leave me here assuming
So I create my own reality
In reality its just me
Somethings are like yesterday
Somethings so far away
I can remember every crime
That I did
Even Past the statute of limitation
It’s still about discretion
Somethings are like yesterday
Somethings so far away
Still have strangers approaching me
Reminding me of things they seen
Couldn’t remember them
On my best day
But I apologized anyway
Somethings are like yesterday
Somethings so far away
I can remember every cry
Like an endless release
Only two were joy
Only with hindsight, still learning
To appreciate every pain
Somethings are like yesterday
Somethings so far away
Had a lot of lust
Seldom had love
Although I would say it
Didn’t always mean it
Depends on who was receiving it
Somethings are like yesterday
Somethings so far away
Have to slow down and really think
If there was one thing
That I would do again
Replace all that lust with real friends.
I got dreams of waking up with you
Reminded of our love when I see your picture
Everyone asking what’s wrong
Everything is perfect
But only cause I’m right next to you
And whenever we marinate
After a beautiful date
It’s like this euphoria comes over me
And it’s only you that I can see
I got dreams of living life with you
As we steadily encourage each other
It is simply hard to explain
The feeling that I feel
Even when a stranger calls your name
This is just how it is
And how I hope it will always be
When I open my eyes and get to see
All that beautiful magic just for me
I got dreams of raising seeds with you
Constantly praying for them
And won’t ever lower the love I got for them
Nurturing with a harsh word
Or building with a deep embrace
Everything they need I stand in this space
Helping them identify their dreams
Watching the stars rise is all I need
The thought brings a tear to my eye
I got dreams of steadily maturing with you
I know I ain’t perfect but I’ll always be with you
I know I have fallacies but I still believe
Believing in every single ideology
Every single ideology that strengthens your destiny
Your destiny that I am just a small piece of
A small piece of happiness but I know
I know I can be more than just a piece
Let me be your peace, that loves love.
Life just flowing by
The Earth is self healing
While the plague
Hides in quarantine
Afraid of what it means
Life just flowing by
And we all pretend
It wasn’t all organized
Natural selection
Isn’t this subjective
Life just flowing by
Yet I’m left wondering
What are we really missing
Hunters and gatherers
Far from their intended purpose
Life just flowing by
Never so much emptiness
With the vacant sky
Void of Human sounds
Peace is all around
Life just flowing by
It’s hard to understand why
Mentally limited
Without any external stimulant
Tired of being stuck so deep in it
If I say it enough
I keep thinking you’ll respond
Knowing it’s the exact definition
Of every bit of insanity
But I just cannot stop
Regardless of what I see
If I say it again
Maybe it will mean more
Compounding it with interest
Reinvesting all of it
Doubling down
Refuse to miss it
If I say it often
Perhaps there will be
A single opportunity
Some type of reciprocity
The way we are
You gotta be feeling me
If I say it frequently
Would that make it have more meaning
Amplify its intensity
Changing vocal tones
Even saying it
Slightly differently
If I say it repeatedly
Could I just by chance
Hear it back to me
Seeding this one thought
Holding you closely
For all eternity
Just now understood the 6th sense
Everything just started making sense
Seeing life with a fictional lens
Non-Fiction don’t always end driving the Ghost
Living in my fantasy life
Kept thinking happiness existed with a wife
Wanted to believe in mystical things
Thought prayer and hope led to beautiful things
The sense of the 6th degree
Woke me up to the reality
People going to be who they are
Don’t believe in people’s words shit don’t go far
It’s a blessing to wake up from the dream
Tired of the tears hiding the scream
Seeing life in a new direction a stronger focus
Knowing what’s important without emotion.
That 6th sense was the answer so it seems
Remembering the past as a stranger
Things I thought, I know I didn’t really see
I just imagined shit that would never be
Eyes wide open the truth hurt
No one to blame that’s the shit that really hurt
Looking in the mirror, like is you insane?
Purposely hurting yourself like you don’t know your own name.
Sy Bryant 