Sy Bryant

Author: careermasteryacademy

  • See You In That Blue

    See You In That Blue

    See you in that blue

    My God baby I need to see you

    Would run millions of miles

    Thinking about that smile

    Thinking about that chance

    Excited at your stance

    Feel you in that blue

    Can you dig that I want to caress you

    Cannot even remember when last I saw you

    But I know soon I will see you

    See you in that blue

    See you in that blue

    It’s like, my heart bangs my chest

    So uncomfortable until I accept is that thought of you that won’t let me rest.

    It’s like reaching for a star.

    Right in front of me, yet too far

    But I will never stop until I do…

    See you in that blue

  • All Wrong

    All Wrong

    Expecting the wrong things

    Going down the wrong roads

    Wondering wrong thoughts

    Lost on wrong paths

    Or So it seems




    Seeing wrong visions

    Having the wrong dreams

    Absorbing the wrong nourishment.

    Believing in the wrong light

    Or So it seems




    Hoping for the wrong future

    Knowing the wrong individuals

    Hearing the wrong songs

    Driving to the wrong destinations

    Or So it seems




    Choosing the wrong interactions

    Focused on the wrong goals

    Rejuvenating in the wrong fuel

    Dumping in the wrong pool

    Or so it seems




    Grinding on the wrong work

    Saving the wrong people

    Sacrificing the wrong time

    Believed in the wrong soul

    Or So it seems
  • Frequency

    Frequency

    Frequency

    Out of range

    Feeling mad strange

    Static talking to me

    Not sure of its intent

    Sounding differently

    Scanning up and down

    Wondering

    If it’s being broadcast

    Differently

    Frequency

    Frequency

    The purest sound

    Whenever its around

    Internally the vibe

    Feeling the pulse

    Accepting each beat

    Aligning energetically

    Feeling you rhythmically

    Subtle sounds

    Deep in me

    Frequency

    Frequency

    Fluctuating indiscriminately

    Reaching out

    Missed opportunity

    Illusions absorbing reality

    Dazed incoherently

    Praying through adversity

    Speaking life into this

    Arms outstretched

    Reaching randomly

    Frequency

    Frequency

    Feeling thoughts motion

    Realness of dreams suffocation

    Preaching into resurrection

    Faith as my rock

    Anchored by these waves

    Digesting the volume

    Engaged perpetually

    Conscience proximity

    Engulfing me

    Frequency

  • That Is Life

    That Is Life

    Eyes are focused on the door

    Expecting to hear footsteps

    Left in a dismal space

    Never know what’s next

    Endlessly expecting

    Something different

    Imagination controlling

    Every breath

    Ears focused on the meaning

    Each and every sound

    Believing what is said

    Keeps me above ground

    Words differing

    From action’s reactions

    Left with nothing

    Life’s satisfaction

    Nose controlled by that aroma

    Breathing deeply

    Not willing to admit

    What’s wrong with me

    Revolution of imperfection

    Paralyzed by reflections

    What’s left in me

    These sins are deadly

    Mind racing to end this

    No one would ever

    Even believe this

    Captivated desires

    Prioritized evil fires

    Climbing into abyss

    Looking back

    Damn I missed

  • I Love You

    I Love You

    Waking up

    I realized

    I love you

    Something deep

    I know

    I love you

    Changing my whole life

    Just because

    I love you

    Early in the morning,

    I popped up

    You were in my dreams

    Now you’re on my mind

    This vision won’t stop

    We are together at a sunrise

    All night talking

    Deep bond

    New day sunshine

    Waking up

    I realized

    I love you

    Something deep

    I know

    I love you

    Changing my whole life

    Just because

    I love you

    Late afternoon

    In this meeting

    Cannot focus

    Just thinking

    Nodding my head

    Don’t know what was said

    Is this that love thing

    Cause seeing you is all I can think of

    Waking up

    I realized

    I love you

    Something deep

    I know

    I love you

    Changing my whole life

    Just because

    I love you

    It’s been a goodnight

    Really late

    Finished our date

    Just been 2 minutes

    And we texting

    Chatting about sexing.

    This desire

    It’s too strong

    Need to tell you

    That I need you

    Now it’s morning

    Another sunrise

    So happy

    To be staring in your eyes

  • Hey Crush

    Hey Crush

    Hey crush

    You just cannot feel it

    The way I feel when you say it

    Invigorating as if I could hear it

    And I know that you meant it

    Cause you that real shit

    Never about them games

    It’s always the same

    Even when we disagree, I’ll still beg your name

    Hey crush

    How are you doing

    Hoping for all of them dreams you pursuing

    Believing in you from day one

    From the beginning of time I’ve been your day one

    Stay proud of you every moment

    My heart hurts for you

    Every time you have a moment

    Know I’m always here for you

    Hey crush

    How can I express this

    Even with your tired eyes

    I always knew you was mine

    Always knew if I needed you

    You be there for me

    Knowing that the bond will stand through time

    It ain’t no effort to love you

    Knowing with all my heart I can trust you

    Hey crush

    You got me on that shit

    Breathing sighs of regret

    Just looking at all your pics

    Wondering what it would have been like

    If I knew you from the dawn of time

    Experiencing this whole life with you

    It ain’t enough to hear that you love me

    Peace only exist when I see that you love me

  • All This Pain

    All This Pain

    All this pain

    Stirring in me

    People everywhere

    Feeling So Empty

    Joy please find me

    Wide awake

    New day’s sun

    through this window

    Barely touching me

    laying here in misery

    Trying not to move

    Somber mood

    everything is ok

    What I’ve learned to say

    Tired of talking

    Been thinking

    Yeah I know what’s wrong

    Love got me blinded

    Can’t you see, It’s me

    All this pain

    Stirring in me

    People everywhere

    Feeling So Empty

    Joy please find me

    Phone vibrating

    Been turned the ringer off

    Know who it is

    know what they want

    Ain’t even worth the effort

    To pick up the phone

    just want to be alone

    Everyone think they can fix me

    But I know they can’t fix it

    Cause I’m that one

    That fix their shit

    Counting out each day

    That I’ve felt this way

    Deepened hopeless mood

    Yeah been kinda rude

    Just not in the mood

    All this pain

    Stirring in me

    People everywhere

    Feeling So Empty

    Joy please find me

    Knocks at my door

    Yelling who is it

    Delivery especially for me

    Probably another bill

    Too many to count

    To know for sure

    Special box for me

    Opened with energy

    Just a note for me

    Tears for my eyeS

    Old notes from

    My Father

    Miss him everyday

    Since he past

    Reading the proudness

    Giving me hopefulness

    All this pain

    Stirring in me

    People everywhere

    Feeling So Empty

    Joy please find me

    Need my ladder out

    Climbing out of here

    Breaking down

    Walls of emotion

    Initiating devotion

    New plan developing

    Open up this window

    Fresh air welcoming

    Getting new point of view

    Pain in the rear view

    Eyes focused on the future

    Wounds finally closing

    faith is a suture

    Optimistically looking

    The joy life caused me

    Strength resurrected within me

    All this pain

    It is me

    All this joy

    It is me

    All this pain

    All this joy

    This pain

    This joy

  • Looking At You

    Looking At You

    Looking at you

    Looking so deeply

    Knowing deep down

    You ain’t feeling me

    Yet I keep moving

    Moving so easily

    Because I know one day

    You’ll be with me

    Walked into the room

    Was hoping to see you real soon

    You all dressed up

    I’m just watching you

    As you stand up

    Professionally looking

    So good to me

    Encouraging you with a smile

    Knowing I’ll be here a while

    Seeing you closely from a distance

    Watching you slowly with persistence

    Knowing you will get through this

    So smoothly

    Seeing that you know

    What you are doing

    Watching you

    Watching me

    I’m just smiley

    Because you’re heavenly

    Just within a minute

    Everything felt differently

    Thought you’d be here everyday

    But I only see you sporadically

    Not even sure what to do

    I don’t know how to tell you

    That every time I see you walk away

    I immediately start missing you

    Last time you walked in

    If I can remember

    You entered with a wave

    Tried my best to behave

    Looked at you

    Something deep in you

    Its like I never seen you

    Happiness when I saw you

    Standing right next to you

    Had to hug you

    Needed to feel you

    Wish I could describe to you

    How much I missed you

    So entwined with you

    Still I gotta leave you

    Looking at you

    Looking so deeply

    Knowing deep down

    You ain’t feeling me

    Yet I keep moving

    Moving so easily

    Because I know one day

    You’ll be with me

  • To me

    To me

    Swear God be talking to me

    Showing me little things

    Seeing it in big ways

    Every single opportunity

    I know it’s all God’s way

    Humbly I ask constantly

    For more strength

    When I know

    There is nothing in me

    And I become hesitant

    Swear God be talking to me

    Just in everything I do

    Feeling outside energy

    Straight through me

    Gaining spiritual

    Remnant of the beginning

    First humans just being

    Accepting every learning

    As if I’m their meaning

    And all those lives was for a meaning

    Swear God be talking to me

    Granting every dream

    Before I even wish for it

    Answer each prayer

    As if I deserve any of it

    Gratefully accepting it

    I stopped asking why me

    Learning to let God do for me

    And I’m believing in

    Every bit of God’s energy

    Swear God be talking to me

    Left foot, right foot

    Keep walking steady

    As long as I follow orders

    I’ll have heaven for an eternity

    Patiently walking circumstantially

    Never doubting the path

    Laid out right before me

    Everything is left for me

    Bowing to that God in me

  • Can’t Afford You

    Can’t Afford You

    Knowing I can’t afford you

    Always stay at a distance

    Admiring through the case

    Wondering for an instance

    But no one will help me

    Because I don’t look the part

    All I get is a “May I help you”

    Knowing I can’t afford you

    Even if it feels like

    No one is caring for you

    And you are only “Ok”

    On that sparkling display

    Yet the price for entry

    It is well beyond me

    Knowing I can’t afford you

    Creates this uneasiness

    Walking by everyday

    Almost bowing down

    To your highness

    Staring with a sigh

    All I can do is wave bye

    Knowing I can’t afford you

    I let this hesitancy

    Build within me

    Never saying what’s needed

    Just keeping it all buried

    This truth won’t set me free

    You are my destiny

  • This New Day

    This New Day

    Opening my eyes to this new day

    Same ol dark ways

    See life from a different view

    Based on the things I been through

    Was never taught

    To worship Santa Clause

    I was taught to be Chris Kringle

    Be the Peace and the Joy

    That everyone is into

    Opening the curtains to this new day

    Everything still in its own way

    Beauty of every single thing

    The greenness of life

    The blooming flowers

    Right in front of me

    Humbled by every mercy

    Even when I’m down on my knees

    The spirit swells inside of me

    Opening the door to this new day

    Songs repetitively repeating for me

    Warmth warming  me

    Brightness shining for me

    Invisible feeling passed by me

    Hard to be egotistical

    Hard to stay humble

    When all this opportunity

    Right in front of me

    Realizing the realness of this new day

    It never has to end

    It’s meant to exist perpetually

    Without hesitation

    Counting down to the last

    Aggressively pursuing

    Each and every moment

    Cause at any moment

    It’ll be th…..

  • Continually

    Continually

    Continually

    Continually

    Down on one knee …. Continually

    Keeping you close to me …. Continually

    Nothing else I’d rather do …. Continually

    Than to be close to you …. Continually

    It was a huge surprise

    The first time that you caught my eye

    Wasn’t focused on where I should be

    Cause I couldn’t see what I thought I could see

    And you stood there

    You were so nonchalant

    You were so defiant

    And after I was doing

    What I was suppose to be doing

    I just started out in your direction

    Surprised me when you gave no objection

    Can we just continue to walk briefly

    Noticing you leaving here discretely

    Cause I would like an opportunity

    If I could let you know

    What you mean to me

    Just meeting you, I know

    But my soul is feeling how you flow

    If I could hear your voice

    Then I would know

    If our futures are intertwined

    Let me know if you wit dat slow wind

    Continually

    Continually

    Down on one knee …. Continually

    Keeping you close to me …. Continually

    Nothing else I’d rather do …. Continually

    Than to be close to you …. Continually

    Adjourning to the open air

    Completely alone in the moon’s stare

    Pleasantries don’t feel appropriate

    But I’m not even sure how to start this

    It’s like God just spoke to me

    Pulled my eyes up out of the abyss

    And showed me this beautiful being

    I don’t even want to know your past

    It’s so irrelevant to what we bout to do

    Bout to have an entire lifetime

    An entire Lifetime of loving you

    Right from the beginning

    Let’s just start planning

    Can we start with your dreams

    What are your goals

    Cause I’m here for all them

    And you looking at me in shock

    Expecting me to talk you out them clothes

    I could, but we need those

    We got people to meet

    We got business to do

    I’m tryna love everything that you wanna do

    Continually

    Continually

    Down on one knee  …. Continually

    Keeping you close to me  …. Continually

    Nothing else I’d rather do  …. Continually

    Than to be close to you  …. Continually

  • One Day

    One Day

    One day, there will be a day for me. 

    This day, I won’t be subject to false totality.

    This day, time is created for my own selfish pleasures.

    This day, I will be so high no one can see.

    This day, surrounded by beautiful warm waters of the sea.

    One day, there will be a day for me.

    This day, no one will ask me for a thing.

    This day, the world will be at my beckoning.

    This day, time will have no bound

    This day, I can only hear beautiful sound

    One day, there will be a day for me.

    This day, I could walk on beaches endlessly.

    This day, my appetite is quenched

    This day, my mind is free

    This day, is just for me.

  • Beginnings

    Beginnings

    Waking early each morning

    Struggling with this deep yearning

    Another day without you

    Repetitively I’m missing you

    Must be that sensuality

    Loving you completely

    Throughout every hour

    Derivatives of power

    Show you this flower

    Petals of seasonal life

    Inconsistent levels and strife

    Longing for your eternal life

    Day after day I’m feeling

    Time after time this feeling

    Building, emotions so high

    Sensitive to the shadow’s cry

    Discovering built up energy

    Kinetically growing exponentially

    Another night ending

    All I have is pretending

    Wishing for hope’s dreams

    Praying for grateful things

    Loving old endings

    Realizing new beginnings

  • On Everything

    On Everything

    On everything, on everything
    Put that on everything
    On everything, on everything
    Put that on everything
    On everything, on everything
    I would do anything
    To be your everything

    Phone ain’t ringing
    No kinda of notifications
    Phone just sitting in my hand
    And I stay staring at it
    As if there’s something
    Anything I could do
    If I could just reach you
    And I would Promise the heavens
    If I had a chance
    I would give my all to you
    Do what I gotta do
    But right now
    I cannot even feel you

    On everything, on everything
    Put that on everything
    On everything, on everything
    Put that on everything
    On everything, on everything
    I would do anything
    To be your everything

    I’m reaching out
    But ain’t nothing
    Reaching back
    I think I made it all up
    When I imagined
    You had my back
    Cause I just noticed
    When you need me I’m there
    Cause I just noticed
    When I need you
    You ain’t nowhere
    Nowhere to be found
    Nowhere to be seen

    On everything, on everything
    I would do anything
    To be your everything
    On everything, on everything
    I would do anything
    To be your everything
    On everything, on everything
    I would do anything
    To be your everything

  • Stressing

    Stressing

    Stressing…
    Watching that HR spike
    Troubling relaxing
    Anxiety counteracting
    Breathing kinda altered
    Manifestation of procrastination
    Fearfully fearing
    What blood test revealing

    Stressing…
    Walking every street alone
    And it gets worse
    As soon as I get home
    The emptiness
    Grabbing my very soul
    Yet I don’t know
    What life has yet to behold

    Stressing….
    For the sake of it all
    For everyone else
    I give my all
    Creating new things
    Out of no things
    For the chance
    For that championship ring

  • Love Is Pain

    Love Is Pain

    Opened the door
    And I walked in
    Not even a presence
    Felt like I loss
    My last friend
    Watching everything I did
    Lead to this wasteful state
    Wasting time redoing
    Wasting energy pursuing
    Trying reluctantly
    Trying to continue
    When nothing is in me
    Just need to get this out
    Eating me up inside
    Losing it all
    Tryna maintain my pride

    I keep thinking
    I keep dreaming
    Living this imaginary life
    Loving, pain and strife
    I keep going
    I keep knowing
    Love is pain
    Yet I
    Keep doing the same

    Thinking thoughts
    That I never thought
    The past keeps grabbing me
    Like it is the best of me
    Reliving every past thing
    Blinded in the present
    Lost every present
    Because I already know
    The future song wants me
    So I close my eyes
    Accepting the pain I despise
    Not a tear will fall
    Even after I give my all
    The world has nothing left to take
    Cause everything I am
    I have already forsaken
    There is no more
    That can be taken
    In my last breath
    Gave you
    All that I had left

    I keep thinking
    I keep feeling
    Love is pain
    Love is pain
    I keep thinking
    I keep feeling
    Love is pain
    Love is pain
    Yet I
    Keep doing the same

  • People Dying Everyday

    People Dying Everyday

    People dying everyday
    Immune to it
    The tune of it
    X numbered died
    In a fiery blaze
    Rescuers prevented access
    Too strong of a blaze
    It is nothing
    Not any emotion
    Human or celebrity
    Never bothered me
    In any way
    Until this day

    People dying everyday
    I’m watching it happen
    Bored with murder
    As if I was napping
    Experiencing it from a distant
    Every so often
    It’s something reminiscent
    That person so close to me
    We created a memory
    And when it hits you
    That last memory
    That’s all you got
    Slowly realizing
    With every breath of pain
    Not another moment of time
    No need to say what’s up
    Time is up

    People dying everyday
    It’s the only guarantee of life
    For every breath that breathes
    Eventually, they will stop
    Struggling to rationalize
    Why is this one new
    Didn’t even know you
    Only heard of you
    Friend of a friends friends friend
    Six degrees removed
    Only noticed through the news
    Something wasn’t right
    Just need another chance
    If you could just reverse this
    Please answer this prayer
    That somehow
    For my own children
    I’ll always be there

  • Comfort

    Comfort

    Comfort in repetition

    Signs of deeper trouble

    Repeating repetitively

    As if something easy

    Do not have to worry

    About things with new meaning

    Comfort in tradition

    Hides everything in everyone

    Doing the same things

    We are all accustomed from

    Pain is overshadowed

    Hidden in costumes

    Comfort in holidays

    Instead of the present

    Reminder of better days

    Evident in the daily ways

    Application of statistics

    Systemic anomalies

    Comfort in history

    Accepting the burdens of reality

    Recognizing you left

    As someone left you

    Yet you were unwilling to stop

    What was done to you

    Comfort in ignorance

    I do not even know you

    After circling the sun for decades

    Your name is an illusion

    Your existence embodies confusion

    Never understand why you created me

  • Can I Write You

    Can I Write You

    It’s like every single day I’m alone

    You been stopped answering your phone

    And now I know you blocked me

    For some shit that I don’t know about

    But I can see

    I can see in every memory

    That when we were together

    There was heaven at your feet

    At first I was frustrated by the whole thing

    I mean all I heard was the same thing

    Talking about buying cows and free milk

    No idea what that means

    Confused by all these things

    Trying to talk to you,

    And you ignoring everything I do

    Since we can’t talk, can I write you?

    DM ain’t reaching, can I write you?

    So much I need to tell you

    Holding it in, should I post it

    It maybe too serious for a comment

    Ink to paper, can I write you?

    Since we can’t talk, can I write you?

    DM ain’t reaching, can I write you?

    So much I need to tell you

    Holding it in, should I post it

    It maybe too serious for a comment

    Ink to paper, can I write you?

    Impatiently waiting

    All this time, busy contemplating

    Reviewing every scenario

    Trying my hardest to talk to you

    Yet you still being difficult

    Sending you bouquets

    Focused like its biblical

    Sweetie, please listen to me

    Never meant to hurt you or

    Make you feel some type of way

    I’m just being myself doing shit my own way

    Now I’m stuck in this feeling

    Feeling things I never felt

    Cannot do this thing all by myself

    Since we can’t talk, can I write you?

    DM ain’t reaching, can I write you?

    So much I need to tell you

    Holding it in, should I post it

    It maybe too serious for a comment

    Ink to paper, can I write you?

    Can I write you

    Can I see you

    Baby please

    Cause I need you

  • Misunderstanding

    Misunderstanding

    Never understood anything you did

    There are times I wanted to understand

    The education that you gave

    Conquering the body and emotion

    With fierce devotion

    Never heard a word of love

    Just a Hey periodically

    Never a call or even a visit

    Just now

    Trying to figure out what I was missing

    Definitely remember

    The few interactions

    Weighed heavy enough

    Never wanted to get any closer

    Extremely comfortable with closure

    Driving 80 miles per hour

    Sharp curves

    Gliding graciously

    Because no point in driving

    If you are doing it soberly

    Fairly ambiguous about many things

    There was so many times

    That your name didn’t mean a thing

    Just a joke of sorts

    As the pipe was lit

    All I really recall was that first hit

    It didn’t sting, it burned, lash of that belt

    Because of the effort you gave

    Just another bit of abuse

    From a man that knew me from the very beginning

    Even when I knew

    You were leaving the earth

    There was nothing left to experience

    Nothing new for us to review

    Just heard about it in passing

    Do not remember sheading a tear

    Ashes stored in a closet, like trash on a shelf

    Knowing that you would no longer be here

    It was in that moment that I truly learned

    The value of life on this earth

  • Someone

    Someone


    There is someone
    That the sight of
    Causes euphoria
    Heart is pounding
    Smiling uncontrollably
    First time feeling continually
    All is like it’s meant to be
    This is not that destiny
    Loving without being loved
    Just wasn’t meant to be

    There is someone
    When they see you
    Creates energy of caffeine
    cannot understand their energy
    Just walked in the door
    They on 100 From the door
    Generating all types of love
    Excited for your excitement
    That excitement ain’t mutual
    So you Keep it moving casual

    There is someone
    That in their presence
    Mutual satisfaction
    Intertwined lovingly
    Hating every departure
    Pain of every sadness
    Arrival creating every happiness
    Making this eternal bond
    The world doesn’t need me
    Found my destiny

    Someone you will love
    Someone you love, won’t love you
    Someone you love, will love you
    How long do you wait?
    Waiting until that mutual being
    Comes onto the scene
    How long will you look?
    Looking round the world
    Elevating the evolution
    Love unfurled

  • First

    First


    First month of the year
    Barely finished last year
    Just watched time tick away
    Pretending I’m new today
    Like I won’t go home the same way

    First day of the month
    Frost in every window
    Cold settled in
    Wind knocking on the door
    Every time the wind blows

    First hour of the day
    Trying to end yesterday
    Sleep keeps evading me
    Changing the past
    Into what if fantasies

    First minute of the hour
    Something about seeing those zeros
    Always gives me power
    Optimistically what does this mean to me
    Feeling so desperately

    First second of the minute
    What should I do
    Counting down to inevitability
    Why do we act so pleasantly
    Feeling pain leave slowly

  • You Are

    You Are


    You are
    Part of my existence
    You are
    Part of my persistence
    You are
    Every dream I create
    You are
    Everything I contemplate

    So we are here
    No fear
    Enjoying
    Another new year
    And we Are
    where we should be
    Feeling elevation
    Deep contemplation
    Enjoying
    Every Earth’s rotation

    Bringing clarity
    In this situation
    Because something is needed
    Avoiding hesitation
    But we need to reach
    Some type of conclusion
    Yet with every step
    Something don’t feel right.
    Some secret being help
    Tryna hold on tight.

    Screaming over to you
    Talking real loud
    Getting my point through
    Need this emotion
    To get closer to you
    So it can reach you
    And you can feel it
    All inside of you
    And suddenly, suddenly
    Every dream comes true

    You are
    Part of my existence
    You are
    Part of my persistence
    You are
    Every dream I create
    You are
    Everything I contemplate

  • Screaming

    Screaming

    Screaming for attention
    Asking if I desperately need it
    Just believe I’m suppose to have it
    Ain’t that what my life is after
    Doing different things
    At different times
    Expecting one day
    Everything will be fine

    Screaming for perspective
    Questioning why I cannot see it
    As if I’m suppose to have it
    Spinning on this circular plane
    Slowly aging yet the world is the same
    With each day I stay calling your name
    Do you even remember mine
    From the last time

    Screaming for sanity
    Wondering why people after me
    As if I’m not suppose to be happy
    Like every time I climb out
    Someone pushing me back over
    Hand extended for you to come closer
    Together is the only way it will work
    But you too busy with work

    Screaming for love
    Examining why things are like this
    Opening the window
    Enjoying how the wind blows
    Fresh air won’t correct this feeling
    Leaves moving so freely
    Feeling trapped in repeatedly
    Is this life for me

  • I’m Here…

    Eyes opening
    First light
    Swear I saw you
    From the sunlight
    You walked over
    And hugged me
    Tears falling
    What’s wrong baby?
    Can’t create
    Can’t destroy
    Energy giving
    Stolen joy
    I’m so sorry
    Lost my focus
    Misplaced my perspective
    Chasing goals
    Mistakes in retrospective
    You’re my priority
    Fixing everyone
    Ignored my destiny

    I’m here, for you
    I’m here, whatcha going through
    I’m here, for you
    Right here, for you
    I’m here, for you
    I’m here, whatcha going through
    I’m here, for you
    Right here, for you

    Saying nothing
    Is Wrong with you
    Just a headache
    Now it’s a cold
    But no tissues
    Just laying there
    Let me help you
    Speak to me
    Tell me what you need
    Talk to me
    I’m right here for you
    We can converse
    Find a way through this
    Together
    We can do this
    You struggling alone
    Avoiding the phone
    Nothing good will come
    Until we reach the outcome
    Together, you and me
    Together, it’s our destiny

    I’m here, for you
    I’m here, whatcha going through
    I’m here, for you
    Right here, for you
    I’m here, for you
    I’m here, whatcha going through
    I’m here, for you
    Right here, for you

  • Child Is Born

    Child Is Born

    Since I realized I was alone

    Since I realized he was never coming home

    Accepting the loss within me

    Learning everything independently

    There were always others around me

    But none of them looked like me

    Inherited love in a different feeling

    Embedded in the concept of creation

    Complicated in that new beginning

    Proudly smiling at the planted seed

    The proud excitement of something new

    Always had that with you

    Wrote down every promise

    Each and every action I pledged to keep

    Looking retrospectively

    Mirror gave me all that I need

    Every gap and hole in me

    Providing you every opportunity

    That day finally arrived

    Wish I could have captured

    That tear from my eye

    That love anew

    Never knew love

    Like I knew it with you

    Instantly the history

    Enabled to hold me down

    Released the negativity

    Witness this crown

    Life now sworn

    A child is born

  • Don’t Know

    Don’t know how you got here
    But I am so glad that you are here
    Just from a single opportunity
    You are helping me to see
    And now I see abundantly
    Like I was blind but now I see
    Watching God work through you
    Feels so good to me

    Don’t know why you are here
    But I don’t need to know
    Just need to maintain God’s loving grace
    Believing adamantly God has you in this space
    Closing each eye
    Following faithfully
    Approaching everything God has planned
    Triumphantly in this holy land

    Don’t know why you make time
    Grateful for every moment
    Thankful for every connection
    That connects me to that future place
    Don’t know what steps I need to take
    Removing every self created barrier
    Just at your request installed Tic Toc
    Releasing every blessing cannot be blocked

    Don’t know why you do what you do
    I am so thankful for you
    Whether you are busy or resting
    You still making time to help me
    Even your slightest encouragement
    Amplified by God’s will
    Creating traction on God’s plan
    Persevering with all my will

  • Writing This for You

    Writing This for You

    Keep refreshing the feed
    Wondering what you sent to me
    Unread count totally empty
    If I could tell you one thing
    Need you to feel this
    This ain’t flirtation
    Not a matter of lust
    Within you
    I lay my trust

    Believing with every breathe
    We enhance each other
    Bringing out the best
    Feeling this deeply
    With every pulse
    Feeling your energy
    Are you thinking about me
    Just need to know it’s mutual
    Need to hear you say it
    Every time you wake up
    Do you wonder what I’m doing

    I’m sitting here thinking bout you
    Contemplating past decisions
    Every single one that kept me from you
    What if this
    What if that
    What if our frequency
    Would actually cross paths
    Anxiety filling up in me
    The blessing of your proximity

  • Can’t Let You Go

    Can’t Let You Go


    Can’t let you go
    You stay growing in me
    Can’t let you go
    What’s happening to me
    Can’t let you go
    Even for a minute
    Can’t let you go
    So why even try

    Just saw you float by
    Not even a hi
    Straight into casual conversation
    And just like that
    We were relating
    Bonding over innocuous things
    Just a strange dream
    And I stayed wondering
    Is this a bad thing
    Randomly couldn’t have planned it
    Now I’m in it, there no satisfaction
    Mindfully feeling different
    Starting to feel distant

    Social media
    Staying cruel to me
    Had me thinking
    You was close to me
    Coulda swore
    You were somewhere near
    Would have bet my life
    Without a single fear
    Calling and texting
    Ain’t nothing working
    Just fooling myself
    Maybe you ain’t deserving
    Cause I know I’m hurting

    What should I do
    Cause I wanna hear you
    What should I do
    Cause I wanna see you
    What should I do
    There is nothing new
    It’s just strange
    Just with me and you
    Just with me and you
    I know dreams come true
    I know I can believe in you
    If you just believe in me
    We would love beautifully

    Can’t let you go
    You stay glowing in me
    Can’t let you go
    What’s happening to me
    Can’t let you go
    Even for a minute
    Can’t let you go
    So why even try

  • Self-Reflect

    Self-Reflect

    It’s hard not to self reflect

    Based on where I am today

    Deepened into curiosity

    Of each choice that I made

    Trying to alleviate myself

    The doubt and pain

    Consistently leveraged

    To bury myself

    Self reflection

    More than a mirror will ever show

    Rewinding for a moment

    Specific situations

    Even a few examinations

    Trying to fathom the impossible

    That I rewrite history

    Curse of an unconquerable soul

    Reflecting on my past self

    Circumventing each time

    I did the right thing

    In the right time

    Because I negatively

    Don’t want to be me

    So I constantly re-evaluate

    How I came to be

    Perpetrating my own reflection

    Applying filters readily

    Unknowingly maintaining

    That morbid view of reality

    Neglecting the higher calling

    Of why I am the way I am

    Ungrateful in my own satisfaction

    Just a passenger in the inception

    Reflection retrospectively

    The numerous assurance

    I offered in individuals pursuits

    Believing they are happy,

    Enjoying every bit of life and liberty

    Cause those fantasies ain’t for me

    Created realistic fantasies

    That conspired and paralyzed me

  • Growing Up

    Growing Up


    Growing up
    I thought love was forever
    Remembering every image
    It’s like, embedded in me
    Now I’m left wondering
    Feeling so empty
    Was it all an illusion
    Crazy ideology
    Cause I’ve never thought
    It was all within me

    Growing up
    I thought happiness was a place
    Everything we did had a place
    As time keeps moving
    Feel like I’m losing my place
    Stuck in a place
    Where I have lost my pace
    So I quietly assume
    That we in the same place
    So I already lost the race

    Growing up
    Consumed in things
    I could never really fathom
    Luxurious items
    Thought I needed to have them
    Ended those dreams
    Cause they weren’t worth a thing
    Striving for materialism
    But that don’t mean a thing
    Staying focused nothing

    Growing up
    Caused me all kind of grief
    Kept believing in people
    That could care less about me
    Reaching levels of anxiety
    Everything felt real
    But it was all just a dream
    Losing my insight
    Let the truth behold me
    Deepest energy

  • Trusted You

    Trusted You

    Realizing that people leave

    Counting the leavers

    Really surprising

    Unrecognizable arrivals

    Creating fake families

    Believing everyone

    Is loving everyone

    Latching onto

    Familiar surroundings

    Create environments

    Where trust is digested

    Completely accepted

    Realizing that people are cruel

    Animalistic natural evolves us

    Yet never leaves us

    We selfishly elate in individuality

    Seeing differences seems normal

    Watching individuals become immoral

    Enabling the self centered being

    Become the only thing that matters

    Ignoring the existence of other being

    Gratification The highest pursuit

    Hate everything about you

    Overtly enabling the deadly sins

    Pressed into silence

    Surprisingly ignored it

    Didn’t know the intricacy

    Challenging to explain things

    Just realized my explanation

    Didn’t really work

    I mean the realness wasn’t received

    How important is language

    Context changes every meaning

    Suddenly the loneliness

    The experience rebirth in me

    Seeking solace desperately

    Burden is heavily applied

    Tears from years of the same cry

    Built the foundation internally

    Most significant item

    The only thing I hold onto

    Holding this relentlessly

    Trust no one completely