Sy Bryant

Tag: Poem

  • Child is Born

    Since I realized I was alone
    Since I realized he was never coming home
    Accepting the loss within me
    Learning everything independently
    There were always others around me
    But none of them looked like me

    Inherited love in a different feeling
    Embedded in the concept of creation
    Complicated in that new beginning
    Proudly smiling at the planted seed
    The proud excitement of something new
    Always had that with you

    Wrote down every promise
    Each and every action I pledged to keep
    Looking retrospectively
    Mirror gave me all that I need
    Every gap and hole in me
    Providing you every opportunity

    That day finally arrived
    Wish I could have captured
    That tear from my eye
    That love anew
    Never knew love
    Like I knew it with you

    Conception of history
    Realization of everything in me
    Damnation struck me down.
    Evolution couldn’t stop this now.
    Perpetuation of something renewed.
    Redemption of this crown.
    My life now sworn.
    My child is born.

    #FatherLess #Poem #PoetryCommunity #Poet

  • Ain’t Enough

    Ain’t Enough

    I know you can
    Say you love me
    But do you really
    Love me
    Can you show me
    That you love me
    Saying you love me
    Ain’t enough
    It just aint enough

    Time after time
    You got me waiting
    With all this stuff built up
    Anticipating
    Thinking this one time
    It will be different
    Maybe something will change
    And you’ll see in me
    What I see in you
    All your beauty
    Coming thru
    Still here loving you

    I know you can
    Say you love me
    But do you really
    Love me
    Can you show me
    That you love me
    Saying you love me
    Ain’t enough
    It just aint enough

    Why do we do this
    Keep pretending
    To get through this
    Acting one way
    Then we switch it up
    Talking about it
    Don’t ever work
    Feels like
    We going in circles
    You keep sayin the same thing
    Over and over
    Cant take another thing

    I know you can
    Say you love me
    But do you really
    Love me
    Can you show me
    That you love me
    Saying you love me
    Ain’t enough
    It just aint enough

    Looking to skies
    No surprise
    Last year from my eye
    Confused in complicated
    All this time I’ve waited
    Believing in the unseen
    Thinking life was Pristine
    Learning all that it means
    Down to my last green
    Contemplating every dream
    Ain’t what it seems
    Nightmarish schemes

    I know you can
    Say you love me
    But do you really
    Love me
    Can you show me
    That you love me
    Saying you love me
    Ain’t enough
    It just aint enough

  • Eternity

    Eternity

    Eternity of vengeance
    Lays beneath my skin
    Absorbing every pain
    Every situation I’m in
    Gently gliding fluidly
    Patiently feeling unity

    Eternity of envy
    Admiring possessive beings
    building their happiness
    Creatively framing this
    Projecting different opportunities
    Anxiety of empty dreams

    Eternity of forgiveness
    Voided understanding
    Impossibility treating you differently
    Imagining you weren’t damage
    Awoke inner savage
    Hardened into hatefulness

    Eternity of kindness
    Sweet summer breeze
    Surf rising below your knees
    Remembering the hatefulness
    Accepting gracefulness
    Rejecting the peace in this

  • Excites Me

    Even your 😍 excites me
    Doesn’t matter what it is, I love feeling your energy
    Looking deep into all that you are
    Creating realities when you are too far
    It’s all I can do to be with you
    I’d do anything just to be with you
    Creating foreign rendezvous
    Anticipation of seeing you

    Even your hello excites me
    I hear your hey, frustration melts away
    How are you feeling?
    How can I help you achieve success?
    How can I be there if you in that mess?
    Is there anything you need from me?
    How can I fulfill your desires?
    When can I light that fire?

    Even your aroma excites me
    Taking in a deep breath
    Exhaling everything I have left
    Do you believe in inevitability
    Or do you just know you were meant for me
    Hoping you can briefly understand
    I will continually be your greatest fan

    Even your melody excites me
    Hear your voice and I drop to one knee
    Gently proposing one thing
    That you’ll allow me to be your everything
    Your sunrise in the morning
    Your nourishment when you’re empty
    That everything fulfilling your destiny

  • Can I

    Can I

    Can I
    Touch your lips with mine
    Whatever it takes to unwind
    Building upon this bond
    While we stay being we
    Together collaboratively
    Growing into permanent existence
    Always with consistence

    Can I
    Touch your soul with mine
    Time irrelevantly existing
    Eternity reminding me
    Opportunities we are missing
    Slowly coherently
    Knowing we coexist
    Spiritually lovingly
    Always with consistence

    Can I
    Touch your left thigh with my right
    Knowing it’s going be alright
    If we could just have one night
    Embracing differently
    Exhaling gently
    Engaging every reality
    Always with consistence

    Can I
    Touch your inner being
    Explaining what I’m seeing
    Third eye righteousness
    True being of truthfulness
    Hanging onto this
    Last bit of strength in this
    Always with consistence

  • Blessing for Me

    Everyday is a new blessing for me
    Not talking about waking up or what I see
    Talking about that new energy
    That new passion, pushing through life’s uncertainty
    It’s about that new idea seeded inside of me

    The conversations are a blessing for me
    Encouraging the moves and flexibility
    Being open to a new possibility
    I thought I was the shit, but that was the old me
    This is a new grind, a way of life to see
    Everything about this fills me abundantly

    The excitement is a blessing for me
    I don’t get up I race up like the Grand Prix
    I’m screaming, I’m yelling, sacrificing everything
    Gotta make use of this blessing’s bounty
    Got my strategy delivering objectives daily
    I’m grinding, persevering, relentlessly

    Wait to you see, what God has for me!

  • Heart Brings

    Heart Brings

    Deepened in curiosity
    I started to wonder
    What does the heart bring
    There is a sense of misery
    Monuments imprisoned
    Every negative thing
    That could be a thing
    Solidified in every memory
    It is what the heart brings

    Shadowed in mystery
    I began to ponder
    What does the heart bring
    Beauty, simplicity
    Eye of the beholder
    See things with more reverence
    Each day I grow older
    And I marvel in sheer delight
    Blessed by a commoner’s sight
    It is what the heart brings

    Opened in secrecy
    I commenced to consider
    What does the heart bring
    Disappointment in droves
    Experienced betrayal and loss
    Receiving lies, the highest cost
    Noticing nuisances of individuals
    As perception changes, it’s subliminal
    Hardened to protect the spiritual
    It is what the heart brings

    Conceived in reciprocity
    I arose to contemplate
    What does the heart bring
    That unequivocal bond of wholeness
    Recognizing every light that shines
    Releasing the power of the mind
    Cultivating the inner being of self
    Loving unconditionally oneself
    Loving love above all love
    It is what the heart brings

  • Life Ain’t Easy

    Life ain’t easy.
    But it wasn’t meant to be this hard
    It isn’t right for a father to leave
    Only those that have seen that door close
    We are the only ones that know
    No matter what words
    Or vain explanations are given
    There is a void created
    When the man that made you
    Abandons you.

    Life ain’t easy.
    Just a lot of attempts to try different things
    In principle, we have that guiding force
    That intentional opportunity
    Our predecessor making the road easy
    Fatherhood is by choice, not bonded in pregnancy
    We can be a father to anyone
    Including someone else’s seed
    It also means
    It can be turned off, quickly.

    Life ain’t easy
    When you have your own seeds
    The purpose of life becomes clearer
    The love we have for our children
    Oft times too much to even fathom
    Then that hurt grows deeper
    Asking, Why doesn’t he love me,
    Like I love them?
    No one knows God’s plan
    Please believe we are still in God’s hands.

    Life ain’t easy
    But we want the easier road
    Every pain and tear had a reason
    And after enduringly long seasons
    We are stronger than our father will ever know
    The lesson is this….
    When you give your own
    That heartfelt forehead kiss
    Make that your daily promise
    That you will never give them the pain
    That was given to you.

  • Justice Ain’t Blind

    Justice ain’t blind
    Because it keeps picking me
    Without a hint of mercy
    In anything I see
    What is the hesitancy to start over
    If you can shut down and restart a team
    If you can shut down and reorganize a business
    What does it mean
    When people hold onto something
    That intentionally harms others
    But let some real shit go down
    And my own humbleness saves you
    Now we brothers

    Justice ain’t blind
    Just closes its eyes
    Can no longer be surprised
    By the filth and lies
    Which public office,
    Is not for sell
    You selling something
    If the basis of your decisions
    Are not based in right and wrong
    And morally, the kind of people
    We should be electing
    Should only be
    Those of the highest morale character
    If you’ve never given your last
    To a complete stranger in need
    You are not the leader
    That I will follow after

    Justice ain’t blind
    It is blatantly discriminate
    Not sure if I’m angered about how it treats me
    Or that we aren’t treated the same
    And if we can’t be treated equally
    at a higher level
    Should we be treated the same
    At a Lower level
    Let that baton beat everyone
    Right or wrong isn’t needed
    Just the terror that must be maintained
    To keep down the insurgents
    Through the free press
    They decided that enemy was foreign
    But the greatest threat is always internal
    The only issue is really about circumstances
    The reluctance to protect this land
    From all enemies foreign and domestic

    Justice ain’t blind
    This 20/20 vision
    Is literally what those original architects
    Wrote down and what they envisioned
    The plan was laid out clearly
    Leverage religious context
    Kill everyone freely
    Destroy everything in sight
    Until everything avails itself
    To everything that’s right
    They never imagined
    In their wildest dreams
    That their sons and grandsons
    Would let anyone else be free
    And to be honest
    That was never the real intent
    It was only to create a greater tax base
    It wasn’t about humanity
    But about the economy
    Whoever produces the most products
    Controls every product
    Thus controls the economy
    Sadly
    The Justice and Economy
    They were both for sale

  • Is

    Is

    Is my heart still beating
    Is my mind still thinking
    Something is so unreal
    Can not describe how it feels
    Consuming my inner being
    More than what you are seeing
    That perception, not my reality
    Tired of being me

    Is life worth living
    Is air worth breathing
    The end looking tempting
    Cannot release this feeling
    Failed so miserably
    Every effort into meaningless things
    Stifled into mediocrity
    What happened to me

    Is this my past
    Is this my future
    Lost every present I have
    Counting sand in the hourglass
    Pain don’t last
    Enduring horrid’s mystery
    Life and me

    Is life fair
    Is life hard
    Really don’t care
    Can not fathom being free
    Guessing that feeling
    Feels like endless opportunity
    Unfulfilled destiny

  • Following sunshine

    Following sunshine

    Following sunshine
    Early morning stretch
    Reaching to the depths
    haven’t even started yet
    So I take a deep breath
    Not sure what I have left
    Nothing short of miraculous
    Heart so gracious

    Following sunshine
    Everything on my mind is mine
    Thankful for everything in me
    Now I’m wondering why me
    So I take a deep breath
    Accepting the world as I see it
    Not sure if I believe it
    Mind full of intent

    Following sunshine
    Not a cloud in the sky
    Seeing the full horizon
    Life is not surprising
    So I take a deep breath
    Knowing that clouds come and go
    Regardless of the sky
    I gotta keep moving by

    Following sunshine
    Sun approaching the end
    Darkest shadow creeps in
    Doing my best to object
    With endless energy
    I’m begging for synergy
    Integrating light and death
    Believing in faith and opportunity

  • Branded

    Branded

    Branded in mystery
    Providing the illusion of a victory
    The principles cultivated
    Every feeling exaggerated
    Pound by pound of flesh
    Broken until nothing is left
    Archaically molded in historic ways

    Shining through the darkest night
    Single star guided sight
    Drudging step by tedious step
    Unbridled agony at a missed step
    Blinded through the fear of defeat
    Enthusiastically reaching every peak
    Worthy of every hand in the land

    Stages changing, exponentially aging
    Counting days like years have past me
    Excruciating torment turning me into we
    Eyes closing whenever possible
    Just a moment of silence to escape
    The extracted punishment of being late
    Yet the end has no date

    Branded for eternity
    The infinity of friendship’s tranquility
    Digesting the past experiences as memories
    Not a spit of complaint for everything endured
    Accepting every reason for that season
    Completely vested without a bit of control
    Friendship is Essential to the Soul

  • CHANGE

    CHANGE

    Saying we are going to CHANGE
    And actually CHANGING
    Those are two different things
    We get so hype
    We get so excited
    Just talking about change
    We get so comfortable
    We get so relaxed
    Just accepting the same
    We all naturally revert back
    To the same Ol’ thing
    If we talk
    But we don’t act
    What will really CHANGE?

    Saying we are going to CHANGE
    And actually CHANGING
    Variations with different meaning
    Planing out something different
    But never actually moving
    Just Discussing freedom
    We’ve come to realize
    Most people don’t want to be free
    They want someone to tell them
    YOU ARE FREE
    They want someone to treat them as
    YOU ARE FREE
    But what are we willing to sacrifice
    TO BE FREE

    Saying we are going to CHANGE
    And actually CHANGING
    That will never be the same
    Faith without works is dead
    Without the willingness to die
    For the cause we hold dear
    We will always be imprisoned
    It is all rooted in fear
    Yet we mobilize forces
    Globally to maintain
    What we call free
    But when we leave the house
    At the beginning of the day
    It’s only by chance we return
    The same way

    Saying we are going to CHANGE
    And actually CHANGING
    It’s a mental barrier
    Equivalent to asking
    Could you use your left hand,
    Instead of your right?
    Whenever you write
    Or even better yet
    We all become Ambidextrous
    We cannot even fathom
    The focus to switch hands
    When we write
    But we want strangers,
    To start treating us RIGHT?

    Saying we are going to CHANGE
    And actually CHANGING
    Big Eb told me
    We have to start working
    So it can start working
    And if we want change to exist
    We don’t have to look
    Any further than our own self
    It starts with simple things
    Like just getting in good health
    It continues with supporting those
    That support us
    It maintains with owning the things
    That are dear to us

    Saying we are going to CHANGE
    And actually CHANGING
    If we could just make it really plain
    We commercialized every holiday
    Independent from who?
    Independent from what?
    We can still are murdered
    If it were sincere, instead of fireworks
    We could physically make sure on this day
    That every single intent
    On that Declaration of Independence
    Applied to the least of us on this exact day
    And if it cannot be
    Then We The People
    Need to Declare a New Independence
    That applies to all of us

  • Lose my mind

    Lose my mind

    If I lose my mind
    A thousand times
    It still won’t replace
    Anything about you
    Need you right here
    Eternally graceful
    If I lose my mind
    It still won’t replace you
    Stay loving you

    Keep having these random thoughts
    Strange places, never seen before
    We not even together
    But I can see you clearly
    Looking right at me
    Flirtatious grinning
    Already feel like I’m winning
    Casual hellos hope this grows
    Into a night cap
    Phone ringing who’s that
    Alarm just woke me
    Damn I was feeling that
    Damn need to get there
    Pricing out airfare

    If I lose my mind
    A thousand times
    It still won’t replace
    Anything about you
    Need you right here
    Eternally graceful
    If I lose my mind
    It still won’t replace you
    Stay loving you

    Plotting out this rendezvous
    Excitedly blood flows
    Damn near killing me
    The pressure just too much for me
    Popping prescriptions
    Need to quiet this anxiety
    But I love you
    So I get so excited
    Ego keep me fighting it
    Now you right here
    Right in front of me
    Loving this scene
    Sun just rising
    Red eye keeping things surprising

    If I lose my mind
    A thousand times
    It still won’t replace
    Anything about you
    Need you right here
    Eternally graceful
    If I lose my mind
    It still won’t replace you
    Stay loving you

    Been a long week
    Just you and me
    Planning our eternal destiny
    Evidently we need to leave
    Leaving does not interest me
    Too many distractions
    In the real world
    Let’s just stay on Fantasy island
    Embracing this love swirl
    Slowly you believe me
    Knowing ain’t no reason
    For us to lose this
    Feeling oceans breeze
    Enjoying every kiss

    If I lose my mind
    A thousand times
    It still won’t replace
    Anything about you
    Need you right here
    Eternal grace
    If I lose my mind
    It still won’t replace you
    Stay loving you

  • Trying with all my will

    Trying with all my will

    Trying with all my will
    Hoping to maintain this deal
    For far too long
    It’s been hard to stay strong
    Overly dependable and suitable
    Going through travesty
    Like I was a your majesty

    Trying with all my will
    Accepting life’s deal
    With all its joy and pain
    Some of it left me
    With everlasting stains
    Yet I hold it all in
    Only way to win

    Trying with all my will
    Avoiding every drug, every pill
    Non-alcoholic drinks
    Just naturally sit and think
    Every decision made
    Imagining a different reality
    No matter what, it’s still me

    Trying with all my will
    Watching clouds traverse
    Seeking into hip hops classic verse
    Trying not to lose my head
    Some mornings I wake up dead
    Piecing this life like weather
    Each revolution forever

  • Cycle of Peace

    CyclePeace
    The shocking engagement of combat
    No reprisal or even a wince
    Stuck in this stance with other common men
    Creating a bond stronger than ballistic steel

    The mind games cause laughter decades later
    In the midst, the pain of uncertainty, anxiety
    Initial excitement diffused by reality of darkness
    Paralyzed in this life, struck by blinding blows

    The crucible of the royal road’s tolls
    Forcing friendship in a cauldron of strangers
    Survive together, destroyed apart, eternally connected six moving parts
    Accepting gods fate without complaint

    Infinite cycle of fury, doing all that was done
    Causing endless perseverance for endless generations
    Abandoned curiosity in hope of symmetry
    Final realization of the cycle of peace.

  • How Can I Explain This?

    Explain This
    How can I explain this to you
    If I don’t see you
    I don’t know what to do
    I’m lost without you
    please don’t ever do anything
    To keep me away from you

    How can I explain this to you
    Even staring at you
    Through the rear view
    Desperately holding
    Each and every image
    That is of you

    How can I explain this to you
    Eagerly tryna share
    The day aint complete
    Unless I see
    That beautiful face
    Drift off to sleep

    How can I explain this to you
    The deepest throws of insanity
    They lay in wait of me
    Yet I’d risk it all
    Just for an opportunity
    To feel you

  • After Dark

    COCO (1)
    It was an explosion
    of sudden furry
    As contemplation
    It engulfed me
    My imagination
    created desperation
    I could not see,
    senses left me,
    All that was left
    was a shadow of me

    That special tone
    on my phone
    familiar scene of elegance
    makes souls sing
    Instant connection,
    mutual attraction,
    eternal bond
    what is going on
    Can barely talk,
    Loving after dark

    Moaning that melody,
    frequency inspires me
    stay on mission,
    need that piece,
    no submission
    That powerful essence,
    It lured me,
    To endless fantasy.
    Fiending.
    Begging.

  • Fist Raised High

    Fist Raised High
    Fist raised high
    The current solidarity
    Beyond anything
    I have ever seen
    People that look like me
    People that don’t
    Standing for a remedy
    There is so much
    That I want for us
    But on this Juneteenth
    I just need opportunity

    I just need opportunity
    One day to walk free
    Void of the anticipation
    That law enforcement
    Will execute my death penalty
    While I’m just jogging home
    While I’m just sleeping in a car
    While I’m just tryna to relax
    While I’m playing in a park
    While I’m just leaving a store
    While I’m just earning a living
    Expecting me to be of peace
    While you have consistently
    And constantly
    Badger me

    Badger me
    Since I was but a youth
    Catch and release
    Was such a common truth
    Maintaining superiority
    Every step was planned
    Generational perpetuating
    The psychology of slavery
    Within a walk of fence in sight
    Trapped
    Each and every night

    Each and every night
    The fury yet builds
    No longer have anxiety
    An expectation of being killed
    Watching you intently
    Following in the rear view
    Maintaining my speed succinctly
    I know how you do

    I know how you do
    Lights start to flash
    No siren is needed
    I seen you on my ass
    Turn on the blinkers
    Turn on every car light
    Keyfob on the dashboard
    All windows rolled down
    Only answered what is asked
    Respond to every command
    Speak clear and concisely
    Avoid all ambiguity
    Gun still drawn
    Approaching my blind spot
    Any movement
    And I’m shot
    Pressure is immense
    However the saddest part
    It’s routine
    Accepting the bullshit citation
    I know I’m clean

    I know I’m clean
    Still treated instantly
    Like I’m actively
    Committing a crime
    With all these years of school
    With all this knowledge I was given
    I’m more insulted
    That if I did a crime
    You think that you’d catch me
    I’m on a different type of power move
    Influence the influencers
    Controlling their next moves
    All done openly at midday
    Standing tall
    With the world before me
    Freedom is coming
    One day, finally
    Fist raised high

  • Give Me Free

    GiveMeFree
    Give me free
    No other people
    Have seen such travesty
    Experienced
    Every single layer of slavery
    Even
    Being hunted
    While we are free

    Give me free
    Could I have but one guarantee
    Just want to know
    What it’s like
    To walk and live free
    To have every opportunity
    Where skin color is not a crime

    Give me free
    Without a single chain
    No fences in sight
    I was still your slave
    Now that I want to be free
    Already proven
    Commitment to humanity
    Why do you desire superiority?

    Give me free
    Allow love to propagate
    Seeing every eventuality
    Recognizing our destined fate
    Socially acceptable to destroy me
    You’ll keep pushing
    Until you are no longer free!

  • Prayers for me

    Prayers for me
    William G Bryant
    Grandfather of 7 birds, in his own words
    The king led us to one vision Family for life
    But when he lost his life we lost vision
    What meant more to me
    There was always a prayer for me

    Land is all you got in this world
    You have to defend it til the end
    But in the end we squabbled over who would make the decisions
    couldn’t managed, land abandoned, that was the end
    There was always a prayer for me

    Always have somewhere to lay your head
    Make sure there was a woman to keep you fed
    Wasn’t until I was years in, I understood the wisdom of sin
    There was always a prayer for me

    Strong heralding voice reaching the heavens
    The whole house could hear
    Praying the sacrifices of predecessors would guide me through the years
    Building in me such a worldly view
    There was always a prayer for me

    The lesson I learned is the lesson I give
    Speaking abundant life into my own kids
    Describing the Picasso of their life
    Enshrining in their soul that we only have one life
    There was always a prayer for me

    There were no more powerful words as these “I am proud of you grandson” before and after every single greeting. Each talk. Each walk. Each ride. Each day at the beach. There was nothing stronger than King Bryant, so blessed he put that strength in me.
    There was always a prayer for me.

    Copyright 2018 Sy Bryant. All rights reserved

  • Complexity

    Complexity
    Wishes and dreams
    Count for nothing
    It is the work
    That generates esteem
    Yet we feverishly
    Try word for word
    Reaching toward
    Endless goals

    Prayers and Ideas
    Count for nothing
    Expecting a magic spell
    It is like expecting life
    At the gates of Hell
    Yet we eagerly
    Seek gifts
    Striving for more

    Concepts and Nightmares
    They will consume us
    As we slowly thrust
    Through adversity
    Yet you don’t feel me
    So we constantly debate
    New ways
    Expecting a different fate

    Desire and Peace
    Ideology never achieved
    The complexity
    We call humanity
    Preventing reality
    From ever being seen
    Yet we dig deeper
    Hoping to get richer

  • Feeling Free

    Feeling Free
    Feeling, Feeling free
    Feeling, Feeling free
    Feeling, Feeling free
    Feeling, Feeling free

    Peace encapsulates me
    Mind clear and free
    You are there For everything
    Everything so dear to me
    Helping me to be free
    Owe this all to you
    Releasing it all into you…
    Seeing life From a different view
    God blessed me with you
    Now life feels free

    Intimately we bonding
    Our Hearts stay pounding
    Love, feel it surrounding us
    Reaching Height’s understanding
    Living freedom calling
    Imaging common destiny
    Believing in you and me
    Feeling love in everything
    Blessed that you are with me
    Loving our eternity

    Loving to love everything we do
    Eyes opening beautiful view
    Laying here just looking at you
    One tear from my eye
    Feeling the emotion of loving you
    Happiness is filling me
    Because I am feeling that we are we
    During the most impossible of days
    I turned, you were there, just loving me

    Feeling, Feeling free
    Feeling, Feeling free
    Feeling, Feeling free
    Feeling, Feeling free

  • Left Me Hollow

    Left Hollow
    Each day feels more draining
    That negativity holding onto me
    Is easier to release
    Whenever it is raining
    Staring into a cloudy sky
    Life graciously passing me by
    The nerve of me
    Introducing children to this
    My only sanity
    I know they will see a future
    My eyes will never see
    All of the uncertainty
    Difficult to follow
    Left me hollow

    Keeping the same song on repeat
    Not for entertainment
    Just need it for consistency
    That nagging feeling
    Seeing everything come to reality
    That I have always been feeling
    Although I have seen people
    Hurrying about
    Until those shots rang out
    Dead bodies falling
    Unbraced to the ground
    Seen people struggling
    Just to get free
    In all those other deaths
    I never saw me
    What happened to that man
    Somehow became an Apollo
    Left me hollow

    Frozen in this fraction of time
    Lack the capacity and the tools
    To just unwind
    To just empty everything in me
    To just breathe in a succinct fashion
    Ironically traumatized with each breath
    Yet I am the one still able to breathe
    Yet leaving in a state of desperate misery
    Yet knowing it ain’t all about me
    Being supportive of the seeds development
    Watching with pride without any hesitation
    Doing my best not to interfere
    Cause the reality is very clear
    I couldn’t fix not one bit of it
    I can say I tried, but did I really
    Claim to be willing to do a lot things
    But I still have that slave name
    Still haven’t given every sacrifice
    Still here waiting for someone else
    This emptiness is hard to swallow
    Left me hollow

    Then I look up to my surprise
    The eldest seed is leading things
    Barely old enough to drive
    But easily enters situations
    Without a fear for himself
    The constant protector
    With a gentle touch
    Without those seeds
    I would be lost in this world
    The guilt leaving me
    That I brought them into this world
    Knowing that their achievements
    Will far surpass my own
    I will be able to leave this Earth in peace
    With the gratitude
    That I will leave completely empty
    As they take over and excel
    Where I had no remedy
    Their galvanizing aptitudes
    So easy to follow
    Left me hollow

  • Missing you…

    Missing You
    Missing you
    To the point of tears
    Even after all these years
    There’s nothing more dear
    Get lost in you
    Thinking of you
    Missing you

    Missing you
    Feeling of loss
    It consumes me
    Losing all my energy
    Trying to forget you
    Nothing I can do
    Missing you

    Missing you
    Frowned up face
    Feelings misplaced
    Emptiness within me
    Cause I’m filled with envy
    Knowing someone is with you
    Missing you

    Missing you
    Pacifying words use to work
    Now, even those hurt
    Words doing nothing for me
    Cause you ain’t here with me
    It’s cause I love you
    Missing you

    Copyright 2018 Sy Bryant. All rights reserved

  • Defeat

    Defeat
    Lightest struggles
    Weighing heaviest
    On my mind
    All the time
    I’m feeling invincible
    Then I felt destructible
    Following the last line.

    Heaviest motivation
    Leading lightly
    Heard this politely
    Everything that was real
    It was really out of place
    Thinking of the possibilities
    To get back on pace.

    Smoothest mountains
    Creating illusions
    Had me believing
    In global evolution
    Eradicated from hate
    Perfect air and water quality
    Worlds greed ended me

    Roughest roads
    Things never told
    Focused on the outcome
    Never a smile
    With feet bare
    Bleeding to the meat
    Lost in shear defeat

  • The Hypocrisy

    The Hypocrisy

    I see things differently
    The Past
    The Present
    The Future
    They are all the same to me
    Feeling them simultaneously
    Living three lives with each breath
    And I can’t Breathe

    Remembering everything that was done
    Seeing the travesty
    So much travesty
    We were devastated
    Yet claiming victory
    Left in udder defeat
    I wasn’t a witness
    But the pictures
    The pictures
    Pictures
    Conveyed something deep to me
    Skin color matters to everyone
    It’s the only way you know
    Who to isolate
    How else would you investigate
    Violence is not randomly distributed
    Targeted specifically
    Perpetuating stereotypes
    Those claiming superiority
    Those maintaining democracy
    That same democracy
    Picture of hypocrisy

    I see things differently
    The Past
    The Present
    The Future
    They are all the same to me
    Feeling them simultaneously
    Living three lives with each breath
    And I can’t Breathe

    Looking deep into this mirror
    Surrounding shadows
    Keeping things in perspective
    I am all that I am
    It is only because of the history
    That was embedded within me
    Living today
    Thinking repeatedly
    Remembering those pictures
    Haunting images
    Blackened body blackened
    Smoldering upon that cross
    Name, wisdom, love
    Were all lost
    Yet these men stood above
    Showing exactly who they were
    Keep thinking presently
    Is that any different
    Because the executions
    They keep happening
    Tearful eyes
    Attempting to wash my sight
    Even blurred so many concerns
    Not even permitted to fight
    Riding down darken roads
    Lighted up, intermittent siren
    Recognizing that blinding light
    Right at my rear view mirrors
    Intentionally to disorientate me
    Protect and to Serve
    The Hypocrisy

    I see things differently
    The Past
    The Present
    The Future
    They are all the same to me
    Feeling them simultaneously
    Living three lives with each breath
    And I can’t Breathe

    Don’t even need to close my eyes
    Dreaming openly
    Allowing the future to imagine me
    Witnessing things I never see
    Walking past people innocently
    No one clutching valuables
    Doors remain unlocked
    People ordering pizza
    Instead of calling cops
    Looking blindly
    With all kinds of disbelief
    This single opportunity
    allowed to be free
    Jails resurrected as schools
    Not a single child hungry
    Overwhelmed with quality food
    Encouraged to pursue
    All walks of life
    Concentrated and Focused
    Planning a full life
    Walking in stores
    Looking over my shoulder
    No one looking back at me
    Rising to a higher plain
    Nothing feels the same
    Even believed I was free
    Thought I could end slavery
    Thought I could change my last name
    Freedom ain’t free
    The hypocrisy

  • Silent Night 2

    Silent Night
    Silent night,
    I close my eyes and imagine sights.
    Insanely seeing things that ain’t real.
    Frustratingly trying to figure out how you feel.
    Losing my mind in make believe,
    wishing you were here with me.

    Silent night,
    drizzle slowly falls,
    wondering what’s happening across the infinity.
    Thinking am I even missed.
    Contemplating that magical spell,
    that would lose serenity, selfishly, it’s all about me

    Silent night,
    I hate you the most.
    For whatever reason you remind me of time,
    distance and circumstances that remove all my chances of seeing…
    seeing….
    seeing,
    seeing me love all that could be.

    Silent night,
    give me strength,
    you are a passing mood that has my mind confused.
    Giving me this wicked fantasy,
    this crazy feeling of what could be.
    Silent night, go away,
    I cannot. With this pain, not one more day.

    Copyright 2018 Sy Bryant. All rights reserved

  • Sheer Irony

    Sheer Irony
    It’s the sheer irony
    People conceive of what they see
    Still awaiting the next step
    Not sure what’s next
    We all pause
    Symbolically
    Take a knee
    Throughout history
    Used to memorialize
    Or demonstrate a submissive nature
    And it’s less important
    The action of kneeling
    Rather the action executed
    When you stand up
    When you know
    You finally had enough

    It’s the sheer irony
    That every generation has experienced this
    Called it different things
    Everyone remembers it differently
    The pain of it all
    With some pacification
    Ends a little bit better
    Yet we still down trodden
    Frustrated with accepting
    Every modern application of freedom
    We submitting forms
    We submitting video evidence
    We submitting testimonials
    These truths are self evident
    We were created equal
    Not treated equally
    Still asking to be free
    Yet wondering why we are not free

    It’s the sheer irony
    Praying for peace
    While teaching our children defense
    How to maneuver this systematic racism
    While still being friends
    Messages from 40 years ago
    Still relevant today
    Speaking life into Black Lives
    Remains the only way
    Makes you question the humanity
    Of those that do not see
    But that is the privileged that skin allows
    They do not concern themselves with trivial things
    Your skin is your skin
    It is who you are intended to be
    But when your skin is treated as sin
    It is a marginalized existence
    Constantly striving for a better view
    Even with health, wealth and class
    We stay lost
    Anchored to our past

  • Silently Speak

    Silently Speak
    Explaining it slowly
    To a developing mind
    As if saying the words slower
    Will make the pain
    Less painful
    As if I contain my anger
    The pain will be
    Just a little more manageable
    The reality of anger
    Lives within me
    Now I have to share
    The fuel of these
    Viral videos
    Replaying scenarios
    Over and over again
    You will be asked to
    Silently Speak

    That feeling of injustice
    That humanity you feel
    That passion we scream to you
    When you are on a game field
    That commitment
    From the classroom
    And we are asking
    Everything of you
    Now all of a sudden
    Society places limits on you
    You are allowed to do
    Only certain things
    Expecting Protection and Service
    But that’s only by some
    For some
    And I know all you can do is
    Silently Speak

    Life is hard
    Yet I cannot tell you
    It will ever be fair
    With all the pride I have
    In you taking a stand
    The parent in me
    Wants that better for you
    That better opportunity
    That better life
    That better everything
    Enabling an equity
    Speaking life into you
    Because the reality
    Today is the closest day
    America has ever been
    To freedom for you
    Every step is painful
    The anticipation, the speculation
    Wondering if their collective
    Will allow humanity
    Or constant Police Brutality
    We are
    All that we have left
    Even when you have
    Nothing left
    Silently speak

  • A new day

    New Day
    Dawn is beckoning
    Sun approaching the horizon
    Beautiful glimpse
    The illusion of a rising sun
    Day is just begun
    Anxiety feeding my emotions
    Will I do enough day?
    Will another life be taken away?
    Will I prevent a senseless murder?
    The day is heavy upon me
    And I haven’t even washed my face

    Sun rising
    To a higher climb
    And already I feel
    Like I’ve been left behind
    There is so much frustration
    Every step is questioned
    Will those sirens follow me?
    Will they capture my last breathe?
    What does this world have left for me?
    Doubtful predicament
    Misguided sentiments
    Holding onto just one hope
    Faith will heal
    With this latest appeal

    Sun blazing down
    Hands raised up high
    Voicing a thunderous sound
    Speaking into existence
    The very possibility
    Imagining Justice & Equity
    Will they allow it to happen?
    What will America Need to Be?
    So that we the people can be free
    Lost in the knowledge of the truth
    I learned about your hate
    Read about your conquered existence
    Felt first hand the power of your vengeance
    But I can not fathom
    After you gained your independence
    Why you would rather hate
    Hate at your core
    Evil at your door
    This is no cure

    The sunset
    Approaching curfew
    Thanking God
    For everything I’ve been through
    Just thinking about today
    Did I do enough in the right way
    Was my voice heard?
    Was the mission clear
    Was I able to turn
    One listening ear
    Would God be proud of me today
    So many emotions
    In just one day.

  • Crushing on you

    Crushing on you
    Looking for you
    Like you still here
    Can still see you sitting there
    Just having a meal together
    Bonded in forever
    Every time we talk
    Feel like I forgot something
    It’s cause when we talk
    I’m leaving out something
    I don’t tell you enough
    How I love you so so much
    Thinking about your walk
    Only thing sexier than your talk
    Love that attitude
    Even when it’s really rude
    Need to know everything about you
    Even if it hurts
    tell me the truth
    Something about voice
    It infuses my soul
    Forgetting my reality
    Becoming stronger
    Lasting longer
    Feeling your energy

    Copyright 2018 Sy Bryant. All rights reserved

  • My Eyes


    That look in your eye
    Causes a tear in mine
    Knowing at any moment
    We could be eliminated
    Becoming a name on a Post
    Shutter to realized
    Every evil materialized
    Right in front of my eyes

    That look in your eye
    Straight away I knew
    Silence wouldn’t be found
    Speaking with conviction
    These travesties
    Will no longer happen
    Right in front of my eyes

    That look in your eye
    Filled with tension
    Wanting to solve this infliction
    That only brown hues feel
    Yet people stay arguing
    I know how you feel
    Claiming it’s about all of us
    But you never had to see you
    Shot, Choked, Strangled, Battered
    Right in front of your eyes

    That look in your eyes
    Outlining the mission
    Eradicating the hypocrisy
    Calling out the mediocrity
    Acquaintances pretend to be social friends
    When it time to stand up
    They disappeared
    They have no support to share
    Right in front of my eyes

    That look in your eyes
    Deepened my resolve
    Accepting the reality
    This will not be over quickly
    Knowing Gods grace will keep us
    The time is now to work with us
    Tell me what we about to do
    Because no longer
    Will we allow this behavior from you
    Right in front of my eyes