Sy Bryant

Tag: Poetry

  • Beginnings

    Beginnings

    Waking early each morning

    Struggling with this deep yearning

    Another day without you

    Repetitively I’m missing you

    Must be that sensuality

    Loving you completely

    Throughout every hour

    Derivatives of power

    Show you this flower

    Petals of seasonal life

    Inconsistent levels and strife

    Longing for your eternal life

    Day after day I’m feeling

    Time after time this feeling

    Building, emotions so high

    Sensitive to the shadow’s cry

    Discovering built up energy

    Kinetically growing exponentially

    Another night ending

    All I have is pretending

    Wishing for hope’s dreams

    Praying for grateful things

    Loving old endings

    Realizing new beginnings

  • On Everything

    On Everything

    On everything, on everything
    Put that on everything
    On everything, on everything
    Put that on everything
    On everything, on everything
    I would do anything
    To be your everything

    Phone ain’t ringing
    No kinda of notifications
    Phone just sitting in my hand
    And I stay staring at it
    As if there’s something
    Anything I could do
    If I could just reach you
    And I would Promise the heavens
    If I had a chance
    I would give my all to you
    Do what I gotta do
    But right now
    I cannot even feel you

    On everything, on everything
    Put that on everything
    On everything, on everything
    Put that on everything
    On everything, on everything
    I would do anything
    To be your everything

    I’m reaching out
    But ain’t nothing
    Reaching back
    I think I made it all up
    When I imagined
    You had my back
    Cause I just noticed
    When you need me I’m there
    Cause I just noticed
    When I need you
    You ain’t nowhere
    Nowhere to be found
    Nowhere to be seen

    On everything, on everything
    I would do anything
    To be your everything
    On everything, on everything
    I would do anything
    To be your everything
    On everything, on everything
    I would do anything
    To be your everything

  • Stressing

    Stressing

    Stressing…
    Watching that HR spike
    Troubling relaxing
    Anxiety counteracting
    Breathing kinda altered
    Manifestation of procrastination
    Fearfully fearing
    What blood test revealing

    Stressing…
    Walking every street alone
    And it gets worse
    As soon as I get home
    The emptiness
    Grabbing my very soul
    Yet I don’t know
    What life has yet to behold

    Stressing….
    For the sake of it all
    For everyone else
    I give my all
    Creating new things
    Out of no things
    For the chance
    For that championship ring

  • Love Is Pain

    Love Is Pain

    Opened the door
    And I walked in
    Not even a presence
    Felt like I loss
    My last friend
    Watching everything I did
    Lead to this wasteful state
    Wasting time redoing
    Wasting energy pursuing
    Trying reluctantly
    Trying to continue
    When nothing is in me
    Just need to get this out
    Eating me up inside
    Losing it all
    Tryna maintain my pride

    I keep thinking
    I keep dreaming
    Living this imaginary life
    Loving, pain and strife
    I keep going
    I keep knowing
    Love is pain
    Yet I
    Keep doing the same

    Thinking thoughts
    That I never thought
    The past keeps grabbing me
    Like it is the best of me
    Reliving every past thing
    Blinded in the present
    Lost every present
    Because I already know
    The future song wants me
    So I close my eyes
    Accepting the pain I despise
    Not a tear will fall
    Even after I give my all
    The world has nothing left to take
    Cause everything I am
    I have already forsaken
    There is no more
    That can be taken
    In my last breath
    Gave you
    All that I had left

    I keep thinking
    I keep feeling
    Love is pain
    Love is pain
    I keep thinking
    I keep feeling
    Love is pain
    Love is pain
    Yet I
    Keep doing the same

  • People Dying Everyday

    People Dying Everyday

    People dying everyday
    Immune to it
    The tune of it
    X numbered died
    In a fiery blaze
    Rescuers prevented access
    Too strong of a blaze
    It is nothing
    Not any emotion
    Human or celebrity
    Never bothered me
    In any way
    Until this day

    People dying everyday
    I’m watching it happen
    Bored with murder
    As if I was napping
    Experiencing it from a distant
    Every so often
    It’s something reminiscent
    That person so close to me
    We created a memory
    And when it hits you
    That last memory
    That’s all you got
    Slowly realizing
    With every breath of pain
    Not another moment of time
    No need to say what’s up
    Time is up

    People dying everyday
    It’s the only guarantee of life
    For every breath that breathes
    Eventually, they will stop
    Struggling to rationalize
    Why is this one new
    Didn’t even know you
    Only heard of you
    Friend of a friends friends friend
    Six degrees removed
    Only noticed through the news
    Something wasn’t right
    Just need another chance
    If you could just reverse this
    Please answer this prayer
    That somehow
    For my own children
    I’ll always be there

  • Comfort

    Comfort

    Comfort in repetition

    Signs of deeper trouble

    Repeating repetitively

    As if something easy

    Do not have to worry

    About things with new meaning

    Comfort in tradition

    Hides everything in everyone

    Doing the same things

    We are all accustomed from

    Pain is overshadowed

    Hidden in costumes

    Comfort in holidays

    Instead of the present

    Reminder of better days

    Evident in the daily ways

    Application of statistics

    Systemic anomalies

    Comfort in history

    Accepting the burdens of reality

    Recognizing you left

    As someone left you

    Yet you were unwilling to stop

    What was done to you

    Comfort in ignorance

    I do not even know you

    After circling the sun for decades

    Your name is an illusion

    Your existence embodies confusion

    Never understand why you created me

  • Can I Write You

    Can I Write You

    It’s like every single day I’m alone

    You been stopped answering your phone

    And now I know you blocked me

    For some shit that I don’t know about

    But I can see

    I can see in every memory

    That when we were together

    There was heaven at your feet

    At first I was frustrated by the whole thing

    I mean all I heard was the same thing

    Talking about buying cows and free milk

    No idea what that means

    Confused by all these things

    Trying to talk to you,

    And you ignoring everything I do

    Since we can’t talk, can I write you?

    DM ain’t reaching, can I write you?

    So much I need to tell you

    Holding it in, should I post it

    It maybe too serious for a comment

    Ink to paper, can I write you?

    Since we can’t talk, can I write you?

    DM ain’t reaching, can I write you?

    So much I need to tell you

    Holding it in, should I post it

    It maybe too serious for a comment

    Ink to paper, can I write you?

    Impatiently waiting

    All this time, busy contemplating

    Reviewing every scenario

    Trying my hardest to talk to you

    Yet you still being difficult

    Sending you bouquets

    Focused like its biblical

    Sweetie, please listen to me

    Never meant to hurt you or

    Make you feel some type of way

    I’m just being myself doing shit my own way

    Now I’m stuck in this feeling

    Feeling things I never felt

    Cannot do this thing all by myself

    Since we can’t talk, can I write you?

    DM ain’t reaching, can I write you?

    So much I need to tell you

    Holding it in, should I post it

    It maybe too serious for a comment

    Ink to paper, can I write you?

    Can I write you

    Can I see you

    Baby please

    Cause I need you

  • Misunderstanding

    Misunderstanding

    Never understood anything you did

    There are times I wanted to understand

    The education that you gave

    Conquering the body and emotion

    With fierce devotion

    Never heard a word of love

    Just a Hey periodically

    Never a call or even a visit

    Just now

    Trying to figure out what I was missing

    Definitely remember

    The few interactions

    Weighed heavy enough

    Never wanted to get any closer

    Extremely comfortable with closure

    Driving 80 miles per hour

    Sharp curves

    Gliding graciously

    Because no point in driving

    If you are doing it soberly

    Fairly ambiguous about many things

    There was so many times

    That your name didn’t mean a thing

    Just a joke of sorts

    As the pipe was lit

    All I really recall was that first hit

    It didn’t sting, it burned, lash of that belt

    Because of the effort you gave

    Just another bit of abuse

    From a man that knew me from the very beginning

    Even when I knew

    You were leaving the earth

    There was nothing left to experience

    Nothing new for us to review

    Just heard about it in passing

    Do not remember sheading a tear

    Ashes stored in a closet, like trash on a shelf

    Knowing that you would no longer be here

    It was in that moment that I truly learned

    The value of life on this earth

  • Someone

    Someone


    There is someone
    That the sight of
    Causes euphoria
    Heart is pounding
    Smiling uncontrollably
    First time feeling continually
    All is like it’s meant to be
    This is not that destiny
    Loving without being loved
    Just wasn’t meant to be

    There is someone
    When they see you
    Creates energy of caffeine
    cannot understand their energy
    Just walked in the door
    They on 100 From the door
    Generating all types of love
    Excited for your excitement
    That excitement ain’t mutual
    So you Keep it moving casual

    There is someone
    That in their presence
    Mutual satisfaction
    Intertwined lovingly
    Hating every departure
    Pain of every sadness
    Arrival creating every happiness
    Making this eternal bond
    The world doesn’t need me
    Found my destiny

    Someone you will love
    Someone you love, won’t love you
    Someone you love, will love you
    How long do you wait?
    Waiting until that mutual being
    Comes onto the scene
    How long will you look?
    Looking round the world
    Elevating the evolution
    Love unfurled

  • First

    First


    First month of the year
    Barely finished last year
    Just watched time tick away
    Pretending I’m new today
    Like I won’t go home the same way

    First day of the month
    Frost in every window
    Cold settled in
    Wind knocking on the door
    Every time the wind blows

    First hour of the day
    Trying to end yesterday
    Sleep keeps evading me
    Changing the past
    Into what if fantasies

    First minute of the hour
    Something about seeing those zeros
    Always gives me power
    Optimistically what does this mean to me
    Feeling so desperately

    First second of the minute
    What should I do
    Counting down to inevitability
    Why do we act so pleasantly
    Feeling pain leave slowly

  • You Are

    You Are


    You are
    Part of my existence
    You are
    Part of my persistence
    You are
    Every dream I create
    You are
    Everything I contemplate

    So we are here
    No fear
    Enjoying
    Another new year
    And we Are
    where we should be
    Feeling elevation
    Deep contemplation
    Enjoying
    Every Earth’s rotation

    Bringing clarity
    In this situation
    Because something is needed
    Avoiding hesitation
    But we need to reach
    Some type of conclusion
    Yet with every step
    Something don’t feel right.
    Some secret being help
    Tryna hold on tight.

    Screaming over to you
    Talking real loud
    Getting my point through
    Need this emotion
    To get closer to you
    So it can reach you
    And you can feel it
    All inside of you
    And suddenly, suddenly
    Every dream comes true

    You are
    Part of my existence
    You are
    Part of my persistence
    You are
    Every dream I create
    You are
    Everything I contemplate

  • Screaming

    Screaming

    Screaming for attention
    Asking if I desperately need it
    Just believe I’m suppose to have it
    Ain’t that what my life is after
    Doing different things
    At different times
    Expecting one day
    Everything will be fine

    Screaming for perspective
    Questioning why I cannot see it
    As if I’m suppose to have it
    Spinning on this circular plane
    Slowly aging yet the world is the same
    With each day I stay calling your name
    Do you even remember mine
    From the last time

    Screaming for sanity
    Wondering why people after me
    As if I’m not suppose to be happy
    Like every time I climb out
    Someone pushing me back over
    Hand extended for you to come closer
    Together is the only way it will work
    But you too busy with work

    Screaming for love
    Examining why things are like this
    Opening the window
    Enjoying how the wind blows
    Fresh air won’t correct this feeling
    Leaves moving so freely
    Feeling trapped in repeatedly
    Is this life for me

  • I’m Here…

    Eyes opening
    First light
    Swear I saw you
    From the sunlight
    You walked over
    And hugged me
    Tears falling
    What’s wrong baby?
    Can’t create
    Can’t destroy
    Energy giving
    Stolen joy
    I’m so sorry
    Lost my focus
    Misplaced my perspective
    Chasing goals
    Mistakes in retrospective
    You’re my priority
    Fixing everyone
    Ignored my destiny

    I’m here, for you
    I’m here, whatcha going through
    I’m here, for you
    Right here, for you
    I’m here, for you
    I’m here, whatcha going through
    I’m here, for you
    Right here, for you

    Saying nothing
    Is Wrong with you
    Just a headache
    Now it’s a cold
    But no tissues
    Just laying there
    Let me help you
    Speak to me
    Tell me what you need
    Talk to me
    I’m right here for you
    We can converse
    Find a way through this
    Together
    We can do this
    You struggling alone
    Avoiding the phone
    Nothing good will come
    Until we reach the outcome
    Together, you and me
    Together, it’s our destiny

    I’m here, for you
    I’m here, whatcha going through
    I’m here, for you
    Right here, for you
    I’m here, for you
    I’m here, whatcha going through
    I’m here, for you
    Right here, for you

  • Child Is Born

    Child Is Born

    Since I realized I was alone

    Since I realized he was never coming home

    Accepting the loss within me

    Learning everything independently

    There were always others around me

    But none of them looked like me

    Inherited love in a different feeling

    Embedded in the concept of creation

    Complicated in that new beginning

    Proudly smiling at the planted seed

    The proud excitement of something new

    Always had that with you

    Wrote down every promise

    Each and every action I pledged to keep

    Looking retrospectively

    Mirror gave me all that I need

    Every gap and hole in me

    Providing you every opportunity

    That day finally arrived

    Wish I could have captured

    That tear from my eye

    That love anew

    Never knew love

    Like I knew it with you

    Instantly the history

    Enabled to hold me down

    Released the negativity

    Witness this crown

    Life now sworn

    A child is born

  • Don’t Know

    Don’t know how you got here
    But I am so glad that you are here
    Just from a single opportunity
    You are helping me to see
    And now I see abundantly
    Like I was blind but now I see
    Watching God work through you
    Feels so good to me

    Don’t know why you are here
    But I don’t need to know
    Just need to maintain God’s loving grace
    Believing adamantly God has you in this space
    Closing each eye
    Following faithfully
    Approaching everything God has planned
    Triumphantly in this holy land

    Don’t know why you make time
    Grateful for every moment
    Thankful for every connection
    That connects me to that future place
    Don’t know what steps I need to take
    Removing every self created barrier
    Just at your request installed Tic Toc
    Releasing every blessing cannot be blocked

    Don’t know why you do what you do
    I am so thankful for you
    Whether you are busy or resting
    You still making time to help me
    Even your slightest encouragement
    Amplified by God’s will
    Creating traction on God’s plan
    Persevering with all my will

  • Writing This for You

    Writing This for You

    Keep refreshing the feed
    Wondering what you sent to me
    Unread count totally empty
    If I could tell you one thing
    Need you to feel this
    This ain’t flirtation
    Not a matter of lust
    Within you
    I lay my trust

    Believing with every breathe
    We enhance each other
    Bringing out the best
    Feeling this deeply
    With every pulse
    Feeling your energy
    Are you thinking about me
    Just need to know it’s mutual
    Need to hear you say it
    Every time you wake up
    Do you wonder what I’m doing

    I’m sitting here thinking bout you
    Contemplating past decisions
    Every single one that kept me from you
    What if this
    What if that
    What if our frequency
    Would actually cross paths
    Anxiety filling up in me
    The blessing of your proximity

  • Can’t Let You Go

    Can’t Let You Go


    Can’t let you go
    You stay growing in me
    Can’t let you go
    What’s happening to me
    Can’t let you go
    Even for a minute
    Can’t let you go
    So why even try

    Just saw you float by
    Not even a hi
    Straight into casual conversation
    And just like that
    We were relating
    Bonding over innocuous things
    Just a strange dream
    And I stayed wondering
    Is this a bad thing
    Randomly couldn’t have planned it
    Now I’m in it, there no satisfaction
    Mindfully feeling different
    Starting to feel distant

    Social media
    Staying cruel to me
    Had me thinking
    You was close to me
    Coulda swore
    You were somewhere near
    Would have bet my life
    Without a single fear
    Calling and texting
    Ain’t nothing working
    Just fooling myself
    Maybe you ain’t deserving
    Cause I know I’m hurting

    What should I do
    Cause I wanna hear you
    What should I do
    Cause I wanna see you
    What should I do
    There is nothing new
    It’s just strange
    Just with me and you
    Just with me and you
    I know dreams come true
    I know I can believe in you
    If you just believe in me
    We would love beautifully

    Can’t let you go
    You stay glowing in me
    Can’t let you go
    What’s happening to me
    Can’t let you go
    Even for a minute
    Can’t let you go
    So why even try

  • Self-Reflect

    Self-Reflect

    It’s hard not to self reflect

    Based on where I am today

    Deepened into curiosity

    Of each choice that I made

    Trying to alleviate myself

    The doubt and pain

    Consistently leveraged

    To bury myself

    Self reflection

    More than a mirror will ever show

    Rewinding for a moment

    Specific situations

    Even a few examinations

    Trying to fathom the impossible

    That I rewrite history

    Curse of an unconquerable soul

    Reflecting on my past self

    Circumventing each time

    I did the right thing

    In the right time

    Because I negatively

    Don’t want to be me

    So I constantly re-evaluate

    How I came to be

    Perpetrating my own reflection

    Applying filters readily

    Unknowingly maintaining

    That morbid view of reality

    Neglecting the higher calling

    Of why I am the way I am

    Ungrateful in my own satisfaction

    Just a passenger in the inception

    Reflection retrospectively

    The numerous assurance

    I offered in individuals pursuits

    Believing they are happy,

    Enjoying every bit of life and liberty

    Cause those fantasies ain’t for me

    Created realistic fantasies

    That conspired and paralyzed me

  • Growing Up

    Growing Up


    Growing up
    I thought love was forever
    Remembering every image
    It’s like, embedded in me
    Now I’m left wondering
    Feeling so empty
    Was it all an illusion
    Crazy ideology
    Cause I’ve never thought
    It was all within me

    Growing up
    I thought happiness was a place
    Everything we did had a place
    As time keeps moving
    Feel like I’m losing my place
    Stuck in a place
    Where I have lost my pace
    So I quietly assume
    That we in the same place
    So I already lost the race

    Growing up
    Consumed in things
    I could never really fathom
    Luxurious items
    Thought I needed to have them
    Ended those dreams
    Cause they weren’t worth a thing
    Striving for materialism
    But that don’t mean a thing
    Staying focused nothing

    Growing up
    Caused me all kind of grief
    Kept believing in people
    That could care less about me
    Reaching levels of anxiety
    Everything felt real
    But it was all just a dream
    Losing my insight
    Let the truth behold me
    Deepest energy

  • Trusted You

    Trusted You

    Realizing that people leave

    Counting the leavers

    Really surprising

    Unrecognizable arrivals

    Creating fake families

    Believing everyone

    Is loving everyone

    Latching onto

    Familiar surroundings

    Create environments

    Where trust is digested

    Completely accepted

    Realizing that people are cruel

    Animalistic natural evolves us

    Yet never leaves us

    We selfishly elate in individuality

    Seeing differences seems normal

    Watching individuals become immoral

    Enabling the self centered being

    Become the only thing that matters

    Ignoring the existence of other being

    Gratification The highest pursuit

    Hate everything about you

    Overtly enabling the deadly sins

    Pressed into silence

    Surprisingly ignored it

    Didn’t know the intricacy

    Challenging to explain things

    Just realized my explanation

    Didn’t really work

    I mean the realness wasn’t received

    How important is language

    Context changes every meaning

    Suddenly the loneliness

    The experience rebirth in me

    Seeking solace desperately

    Burden is heavily applied

    Tears from years of the same cry

    Built the foundation internally

    Most significant item

    The only thing I hold onto

    Holding this relentlessly

    Trust no one completely

  • Show You

    Show You


    Instead of saying it
    Can I just show you
    How much
    I really, really, love you
    Words don’t mean shit
    Actions make it true
    Instead of saying it
    Can I just show you

    All these languages
    People saying
    All types of things
    Promising everything
    Without any type
    of commitment
    Tired of it
    Cannot stand it
    Don’t even wanna hear
    Another word about it

    Instead of saying it
    Can I just show you
    How much
    I really, really, love you
    Words don’t mean shit
    Actions make it true
    Instead of saying it
    Can I just show you

    Keep hearing
    These outlandish request
    Asking for prayers
    When you could care less
    Asking for love me nots
    Just not impressed
    We can say anything
    At anytime
    But can you show me
    All the time

    Instead of saying it
    Can I just show you
    How much
    I really, really, love you
    Words don’t mean shit
    Actions make it true
    Instead of saying it
    Can I just show you

    Staring out the window
    So confused
    Trying to understand
    Each and every mood
    Am I the source of frustration
    Am I the cause of this
    Am I the one
    That started all of this
    Let me apologize
    Every time was a lie

    Instead of saying it
    Can I just show you
    How much
    I really, really, love you
    Words don’t mean shit
    Actions make it true
    Instead of saying it
    Can I just show you

  • Love of Pain

    Love of Pain

    The pain

    It is so routine

    When it flickers a bit

    Dissolved in an instant

    What does it mean?

    Held it closely

    Personally guarded secret

    Smiling easily

    Behind closed doors

    Feeding the beast

    Waking up in laughter

    Strangely irrelevant

    Searching for the pain

    I do readily accepted

    Now I’m left indebted

    Opening curtains

    Feeling the morning gaze

    Mind is unlimited

    Seeing the new day

    Anchors aweigh

    The shadow lures me

    The comfort of darkness

    No witnesses to witness

    The marvelous emotion

    That love of pain

  • Since

    Since


    Since the first one
    Because I loved you
    Before I even told you
    Elevated high
    You was my white line
    Needed to need you
    Fucked up all day
    Until I seen you

    Since that first day
    Eyeing you out
    Didn’t know your name
    Indirect acquaintance
    Looking at fingers
    Are you tied to anything?
    Nothing but the raw view
    Knew I had to see you

    Since that first meal
    Randomly rapping
    But it felt really real
    Like I knew the feelings
    You was speaking about
    Lost hesitancy
    Begging to see you
    Just knew it was you

    Since that first night
    My god til the sunlight
    Words you were speaking
    Reminisce every weekend
    From that one single day
    Loving in every kind of way
    Blessed with you
    Come home so I can see you

  • Then & Now

    Then & Now

    THEN…

    I would hold onto everything

    Analyze this until I paralyzed this

    Seeking a conclusion

    Before moving toward a solution

    Endless internal debate

    Stayed being late.

    NOW…

    I let it all go

    Let it flow right through me

    I don’t even filter a thing

    Let it all go through

    Now I’m hearing

    A new you

    THEN…

    I was trying to prove something

    Looking for a chance to do something

    Eagerly pursuing titles

    Climbing for a different caste

    Constantly reminded of reality

    Landed right on my ass

    NOW…

    I move like the wind blows

    Filling in where I needed

    I’m never impeded

    Riding out suggestions

    As if they are manifestations

    Relaxed in elevation

    THEN…

    I had an expectation of others

    Timely adhering to their word

    Keeping commitments sincere

    Holding onto everything I hold dear

    Disappointingly responses from me

    Toward someone not wanting to be me

    NOW…

    I don’t know you nor need to

    I stay focused on me

    And everything that I choose to be

    Believing in inevitably of serenity

    Avoiding happy and sad moments

    To remain peaceful in the moment

  • Smiling

    Smiling


    See you smiling
    Saw your tear
    Knew right then
    I’m suppose to be right here
    Ain’t nothing better in this world
    Then those happy tears
    All this love that we feeling
    We keep exchanging
    More love
    Is how I’m feeling
    And forever please know
    With everything I know
    I won’t stop this
    We will be endless
    Never be a last kiss
    Always Loving to love you

    Talking this emotion
    Unequivocal devotion
    Ending insanity
    Lifelong decision
    It has to be
    You and me
    Talking this emotion
    Unequivocal devotion
    Ending insanity
    Lifelong decision
    It has to be
    You and me

    See you smiling
    As the door opens wide
    Even after this long day
    Your arms stay open wide
    You seeing the stress in me
    But you stay there
    To reduce that anxiety
    It’s like I’m your
    Top priority
    Swear to god
    I Love that you love me
    Because I
    Love to love you
    Feeling like
    I’ve found a good thing
    Hear my heart, it sings

    Talking this emotion
    Unequivocal devotion
    Ending insanity
    Lifelong decision
    It has to be
    You and me
    Talking this emotion
    Unequivocal devotion
    Ending insanity
    Lifelong decision
    It has to be
    You and me

    See you smiling
    But it ain’t the same
    Know that your day
    It’s been challenging
    Come over here and relax
    Know that I got your back
    Let’s share this thing
    We gonna learn from it
    Everything is a lesson
    What can I do
    To see the smiling you
    I see that the kiss
    It just won’t do
    Know what I got to do
    …….
    There you go
    Smiling again

    Talking this emotion
    Unequivocal devotion
    Ending insanity
    Lifelong decision
    It has to be
    You and me
    Talking this emotion
    Unequivocal devotion
    Ending insanity
    Lifelong decision
    It has to be
    You and me

  • First Day I Knew

    First Day I Knew


    First day I knew
    Just didn’t know what to do
    You had acquaintances, I was dealing with my own thing
    What was I suppose to do?

    First day I knew
    When I saw you walking down that hallway
    Not a coincidence but the significance of that energy
    That kept me seeking you.

    First day I knew
    Just didn’t make no moves
    All the heartbreak and heartache
    I just didn’t want that from you.

    First day I knew
    Expecting nothing from this interaction
    Only have one satisfaction
    Everyday I will put a smile on you.

  • Reach.Ya

    Reach.Ya


    Using every letter I can find
    Putting them together
    Rearranging every line
    Creating articulate formulas
    To try to reach ya

    Got out the dictionary
    Looking deeply into
    Every word
    That thesaurus needed
    To try to reach ya

    First two didn’t reach you
    Added EMPHASIS
    So that you can FEEL THIS
    Maintaining this habit
    To try to reach ya

    I’m here and loving you
    Looking at the sky
    Nowhere near you
    Praying to the heaven
    To try to reach ya

  • Starts With Me

    Starts With Me


    Staring into this subtle breeze
    Continuous cloud blocking the burning sun
    Endless green filling up the remaining scene
    Left to wonder, and understand this new summer.

    Thinking through these constant obligations
    Payments, commitments, deadlines, no time
    Every single day, less than 24 hours left
    Each and everyday 48 hours of things left

    In this crazy phase, not focused on anything
    Somehow floating in this hazy daze of everything
    Feeling empty, peacefully, breathing evenly
    Something familiar within this space

    Watching the sky move, while the bugs biting
    Life’s little annoyances, keeping me attentive
    The daydreams of a fantasy of what-if realities
    Approaching closely serenity and it all starts with me

  • Stay Missing You

    Stay Missing You


    Alarm barely waking me
    Feeling this disbelief
    Another day without you
    Randomly staying occupied
    Stay missing you

    Seeing the last text
    nothing serious
    Just thoughts of you
    Hundreds of miles away
    Stay missing you

    Schedule packed all day
    Before the sun rise
    Millions of dreams of you
    Nerves driving me insane
    Stay missing you

    Doing the daily duties
    Reminders of the blessings
    Tested whenever I’m away from you
    Frustration in every direction
    Stay missing you

    Another victory, I could preach
    Day is gone, sleep within reach
    Praying diligently for you
    Future possibilities and tranquilities
    Stay missing you

  • Chaotic

    Chaotic


    Life’s simple phrases causes diluted faces
    Making crazy thoughts real, making me feel
    Can I feel free? Can I see something to feel?
    These crazy thoughts betraying my sanity
    Life’s pleasant season is my only reason
    For staying in this chaotic world.

    If things were real we would all see the same thing in the same way.
    This perceived world has so many fake pearls, in the beholders eyes, I behold more lies.
    And I seen my whole life in an unforeseen way just to make sure I can deal in this chaotic world.

    When I realized the sun never does rise.
    And I’m walking as a microorganism of an infinite wisdom.
    Talking through doors avoiding whores.
    Listening to the moons light as the world goes into deaths foyer.
    In this chaos, I see the chaotic chaos.

  • Remembering

    Remembering


    Remembering that kiss
    That sweet smile
    Before and after it
    Sometimes I literally forget
    Cause it’s rare
    When we do the things lovers do
    I appreciate this friendship
    This thing between me and you

    Remembering instances of intimacy
    Damn I miss when it was always
    Just you and me
    When the day was literally so empty
    The biggest commitment was
    Filled with TV
    No deadlines
    Just you and me

    Remembering each time
    Like the first time
    I be starving for you
    Grinding my heart away
    Just to stay away from you
    And I never know how it’ll go
    When I approach you
    Just tryna keep it, me and you

    Remembering this commitment is forever
    Hard to accept a minute
    Don’t make a world of difference
    Cause when I missing you
    I lose all other interest
    Only thing that matters
    This sincere sentiment
    Of you and me

    Remembering you just got here
    Now you gone again
    Deeply missing my lover friend
    Stuck wondering what it is
    What is it that I’m missing
    That level of comfort when I see you
    That satisfaction of life without a fear
    That eternity of me and you

  • Heart

    Heart


    Heart just weakened
    Watching you pull away
    I believe you coming back
    Pulling back in the driveway
    But with so many days
    Not knowing what would happen
    I’m always reminded
    God makes things happen

    Heart just slowed
    Water rolling down my face
    But it feels like
    Everything is in its place
    But my heart doesn’t feel the same
    Losing my sanity
    Missing you calling my name
    Facing reality

    Heart just quickened
    Thought you were returning
    But it wasn’t you at all
    I’m just imaging images
    Of you coming back to me
    What is this pain filling me
    But now my eyes failing me
    It’s hurting me

    Heart just beat
    Beating natural’s sound
    Peaceful sky moving around
    Knowing you’ll be up there soon
    Sometime before noon
    And with every distance increased
    Heart grows more heavy
    Missing my destiny

  • Grief

    Grief


    Midst of the grief
    Fighting the belief
    Everything has its place
    So must this pain
    In my face
    Pulling at me
    With every single breath
    Waking with tears
    My own dreams
    Perpetuating fears

    Deep into grief
    Asking questions rhetorically
    Only God can answer me
    Knees bend in pain
    Screaming to remain sane
    Replaying each scene
    Was it meant to be me
    Not accepting this destiny
    Fire keeps growing in me
    Afraid to sleep

    Alone in this grief
    Every grief opening
    Every single time
    I felt this pain
    Appreciating lessons
    Some told remain old
    Expecting something different
    Hard to bear this
    Praying for something
    Not even sure what yet

    Buried in grief
    Flowing through me
    Essence of everything
    Innocence was fleeting
    Unable to protect me
    Envied each day dream
    Thinking I’d be free
    I changed locations
    Escaped reality
    But it never left me