Sy Bryant

Author: careermasteryacademy

  • Duality

    Duality

    Fatherless(22)
    Loved and rejected
    Synonymously interwoven
    Associate one with the other
    As if they are one in the same
    As I come to accept the real
    Pain
    Loving ones that rejects you
    Rejecting ghosts that love you

    Peace and pain
    Intertwined overtime
    Pretending I’m at peace
    With the the pain within me
    So comfortable in fact
    Life
    Is the peace I feel in pain
    The pain becomes my peace

    Accepted and deteriorated
    Building inescapable fate
    Witnessing my own demise
    Longing for an escape
    Accepting the amount of hate
    Existence
    accepting a deteriorating life
    Deteriorating accepting systemic defeat

    Hope and Hate
    Creating mystical obstacles
    Hoping for Love and Peace
    Hating the pain and rejection
    Deteriorating my acceptance
    Living
    Regardless of this past
    Independently I shall last

  • Even When You Cannot Believe

    Even When You Cannot Believe


    Even when you cannot believe
    Pray that peace will be there
    When you are in need
    As we all go through the trial
    We call this life
    Evidence stacked for you
    Evidence stacked against you
    And we are expected
    To act the same
    Regardless of how
    Individuals use our name

    Even when you cannot believe
    Know that there is still more
    There is more life to live
    There are more mistakes to make
    We often learn the most
    Based on those same mistakes
    The only difference is
    How much of an impact is in this
    Do we allow one mistake
    At a single point in time
    To end this

    Even when you cannot believe
    There is someone
    That is believing on your behalf
    Just the nature flow of energy
    We are all connect mystically
    Even when you cannot fathom
    Not even a miniscule possibility
    There is someone that is there
    Praying for you
    You are more than they claim
    You are everything you are made to be

  • I Cannot Blame You

    I Cannot Blame You


    I cannot blame you
    For who I was
    No more than I can blame you
    For who I am
    I am every choice
    That I MAKE
    So of those will good
    Most will be bad
    The only comfort
    Is that I am so focused
    On learning from my own mistakes

    I cannot blame you
    Although I spent so much time
    Doing exactly that
    That know that I know better
    Its hard to change a thing
    Because I cannot get
    Not one single second back
    So instead of blaming you
    Now, in reality I started hating you
    Using hate as a fuel
    I have become so cruel

    I cannot blame you
    But it is easier to blame you
    Than to blame myself
    Because if I blame myself
    That would mean I failed myself
    And I do not want to admit that
    To myself
    Yet I am stuck in this cycle
    Of a lack of accountability
    For every choice that I made
    Wasn’t always made for me

  • Talking Feels So Irrelevant

    Talking Feels So Irrelevant


    Talking feels so irrelevant
    When you know someone
    Is not listening
    But eyes cannot stop seeing
    You can show someone
    So much more
    Than you can ever tell them

    Talking feels so irrelevant
    When you know someone
    Does not hear you
    There is nothing more powerful
    Than a physical action
    As it gains traction
    Revolutionizing people into action

    Talking feels so irrelevant
    When you know someone
    Doesn’t even care
    At the heart of it all
    Is that final stand
    We will have to get it our all
    That final call

    Talking feels so irrelevant
    When you know someone
    Devalues who you are
    Ignoring natural bias
    This is more explicit
    Requiring something ruthless
    Leading to something senseless

  • Energy Gone

    Energy Gone

    Energy Gone
    Heart beating slower
    Mood much lower
    Struggling to consume
    No more room
    Emptiness vastness
    Prevailing blankness
    Captured by darkness
    Subtle tone
    Energy gone

    Looking deeply
    Nights mystery
    Reminding me
    Endless possibility
    Stars for me
    Shining brightly
    Stomach bonded tightly
    Swift anxiety
    Cannot move
    Life disapprove
    Flesh and bone
    Energy gone

    Cannot breathe
    Pain underneath
    Longing disbelief
    Driving passion
    Simple compassion
    Lack of focus
    Depressed diagnosis
    Opening conclusions
    Summarized illusion
    Unanswered phone
    Energy gone

  • Miss You

    Miss You

    Missing something about you
    Didn’t even get a chance to talk to you
    Felt so blessed just to see you
    What would I do without you
    Constant friendship
    Crying on your shoulder
    Your encouragement makes me bolder
    Inspirationally you move me
    Every morning you are my energy
    Miss you

    Missing just hanging out
    When I see you, holding in my shout
    It’s like I can relax and just be me
    Don’t have to worry about envy
    We just have this unique thing
    I don’t worry about a thing
    Don’t you ever change a thing
    Love that you don’t want something from me
    Your independent strength grooves me
    Miss you

    Missing just talking to you
    Waiting for months to physically talk to you
    And didn’t get a chance to speak with you
    Cause my mom loves you too
    Receiving the benefit of your honesty
    Setting the tone for my day with just a ☀️
    Thinking, wouldn’t even be writing this
    If it wasn’t for you enduring life challenges
    Thank you for being you
    Miss you

    Missing when I see you after long periods of time
    Nothing better than your warming arms
    Nothing more real than a real friend’s love
    Separated, the curse of a 1000 Miles
    Past decisions and circumstances
    Yet I’m not confused you are my muse
    Thoughts of you creating flow
    Through these flows my spirit flow
    Through that spiritual flow peace I know
    Miss you

  • Before the dawn

    Before the dawn

    Fatherless(21)
    Before the dawn
    Light has yet to pierce the sky
    Laying here waiting on the sunrise
    Darkness consumed my thoughts
    Couldn’t hide lonely thoughts
    Hoping with all I got
    Mutually you missing me

    Before the dawn
    Imagining I’m laying with you
    In my mind trying to find you
    Are you awake, can I FaceTime you
    Is there a teleporter near you
    Nothing else but to dream about you
    The birds singing about you
    Reminding me about you

    Before the dawn
    It is not pain, this is a new thing
    Never missed you so much
    Imagining what it felt like to touch
    Thankful we had time to be together
    Struggling, just waiting to see you
    Social media fueling me
    But I need you with me

    Before the dawn
    The birds song is gone
    Echo of nothingness
    Resounding in my emptiness
    Time lapsing feeling your presence
    Need the sun to rise
    Light the pathway
    Loving you, even virtually, today

    Copyright 2018 Sy Bryant. All rights reserved

  • Years of Tears

    Years of Tears

    Fatherless(9)
    Years of tears
    Letting every drop
    Build up
    Hold it in
    Containing it
    Letting evaporation
    Evaporate every sin
    Take away each pain

    Years of tears
    The dam is well maintained
    Always with
    A smile on the face
    Hiding every disgrace
    Left thinking
    How to hide everything
    As if I don’t feel a thing

    Years of tears
    In the pit of despair
    Feeling the void
    Lost energy
    Everything leaving me
    Any possibility to see
    Something new
    Old world view

    Years of tear
    And every few years
    I release these tears
    Flushing out everything
    Lost in this fantasy
    As if pain is temporary
    Pretending in this
    No end to this

  • You was right…

    You was right…

    I was using you
    Creating fantasy
    Trying to get through life
    Never asked if it was ok with you
    Pinged you
    Intent to make you feel good
    Just to make me feel good for helping you
    You was right

    I am focused on me
    Self abnegation fills me
    And I have no intent
    On anything less
    Must confess
    Sacrificed so much self
    Have no interest in anyone else
    You was right

    I do pass on
    What God passing through me
    That’s the full extent
    That’s all it will be
    Never met someone
    That was there for me
    Purely a lie
    You was right

    People that reach out to me
    I don’t reach back
    It’s like I’m looking
    Seeking something
    Not intended for me
    Instead of passing all God’s word
    Have to start keeping some for myself
    You was right

  • I Can See You

    I Can See You

    Fatherless(19)
    Just realized that I love you
    I can see you
    even if I’m not with you
    I can remember
    Every single picture of you
    Just the thought of you
    Drives me crazy
    When I realize
    You not with me

    Just walked in the door
    Seeing that I’m alone
    But for some reason
    This day felt different
    It’s like I walked through
    The same room
    That I always do
    But this one time
    Had this vision of you
    And I couldn’t figure out
    What was going on
    This strange understanding
    As if being alone is wrong
    Yet I know something missing in me
    And it stays driving me crazy

    Just realized that I love you
    I can see you
    even if I’m not with you
    I can remember
    Every single picture of you
    Just the thought of you
    Drives me crazy
    When I realize
    You not with me

    How can I make this right
    How can I see you every night
    What could I say
    Or even pretend to do
    Become a driver
    Just for an opportunity
    A single chance to see you
    Going places I’d never go
    Hoping for that moment
    Where I’m holding
    Holding you next to me
    So people see us
    And they insatiably become envious
    I stay plotting on you
    Loving to be devious

    Just realized that I love you
    I can see you
    even if I’m not with you
    I can remember
    Every single picture of you
    Just the thought of you
    Drives me crazy
    When I realize
    You not with me

  • Ever been alonE

    Ever been alonE

    Ever been alonE
    Alone in this room,
    Since yesterday around noon,
    If the law of attraction is real
    What does it mean when,
    When there’s no one to feel.

    Have you ever been alone,
    In that place by yourself, alone
    No one to call, alone
    No one to see, everyone is gone
    Only thing left is….being alone

    Thoughts flowing freely.
    Lot of people say they need me.
    But in the fell clutch of circumstances
    By myself, defiant
    With no more chances.

    Have you ever been alone,
    In that place by yourself, alone
    No one to call, alone
    No one to see, everyone is gone
    Only thing left is….being alone

    Every so often meet a new face,
    Dare not open up in this place.
    Cause I know what I bring
    But Always hesitant
    when I hear the same game

    Have you ever been alone,
    In that place by yourself, alone
    No one to call, alone
    No one to see, everyone is gone
    Only thing left is….being alone

    I know in the end I’ll be ok
    Cause time heals pain
    Need faith to hold straight, so Ima hold on
    This ain’t nothing new ima keep on

    Have you ever been alone,
    In that place by yourself, alone
    No one to call, alone
    No one to see, everyone is gone
    Only thing left is….being alone

    I don’t stay down for long
    I take a little time just to mourn
    Each day is something new
    But I know, I know, I will get through.

  • First Tear

    First Tear

    Fatherless(7)
    First tear gave way for another
    Wallowed within the mystery
    The deepest darkest scheme
    Started as just a dream
    Which enabled envy
    Thinking I’m more than another

    First tear washed away the fear
    Created new opportunities
    Opened every door I saw
    Didn’t realize this was all
    Recognizing hopes improbabilities
    The coldest day gripped in fear

    First tear washing the past
    Out the window staring
    Seeing the intricacies
    Peeping the mysteries
    No one even caring
    How long will it last

    First tear just a shadow of me
    Sun exaggerating the humidity
    Sweat filling each every pore
    With infinite dollars I’m still poor
    Slowly losing every bit of dignity
    Void of everything I claim to be

  • Let It Be


    Hard to let it be
    Seeing it control you
    Nothing I can do
    Even doing the classics
    Aligning it to a disaster
    These feelings are sinister
    Nothing left to pursue
    So let you be you
    And let me be me
    Let it be?

    Hard to let it be
    Feeling like
    Damn near grew up with you
    Learning about life
    Through the things you do
    Watching the paramount
    And every single low point
    Yet and still
    Seeing what I see
    Let it be?

    Hard to let it be
    Seen this all before
    The resentment
    The reflection
    The rejection
    The simplification
    The definitions
    The acceptance is deafening
    What else could it be?
    Let it be?

    Hard to let it be
    Seeing people you love
    Struggling with things
    Completely out of your control
    Yet they want you involved
    In other things
    While avoiding the real things
    We are all meant to pretend
    That everything is
    What it is
    The ask of me,
    Let it be?

    Hard to let it be
    But there is nothing left
    How much energy is left
    Watching those in peril
    Avoiding sage advice
    Avoiding different thinking
    Accepting a single way
    As the only way
    Time lost in difficulty
    Let it be?

    Hard to let it be
    Hearing over and over
    This is only one way
    And this must be the way
    Exhausted every way
    As if ways are finitely defined
    And this is just a part of time
    Challenging to accept honesty
    Covered in mediocrity
    Let it be….

  • I miss you

    I miss you

    Fatherless(13)
    Just need you to know
    I miss you.

    Sun setting through the trees
    Last of the summer breeze
    Lost in the future me
    The present too much for me
    Words cannot reach you
    Not tryna to preach to you

    Just need you to know
    I miss you.

    It’s only when the wind blows
    That I truly truly know
    The subtly of our existence
    We cannot hesitate on this
    Feel this season as the reason
    Finally seeing reality

    Just need you to know
    I miss you.

    Closed eyes to the moon light
    Feeling the star’s gaze
    Your energy moves me
    Even when I’m on empty
    And if the End of time is nearing me
    Just need you near me

    Just need you to know
    I miss you.

  • Peace

    Peace

    Peace (1)
    Peace
    Never ending pursuit
    Look up to the sky
    No obstacles
    No barriers
    Unlimited Opportunity
    Peace

    Peace
    Walk in the room
    Love in an embrace
    Warming fire place
    Satisfied desires
    Peace

    Peace
    Sanctuary of space
    Unowned last name
    Natural tongue
    Hands pocketed still live another day
    Equal chances
    Peace

    Peace
    Uncompromising Love
    Strengthened loving touch
    Embraced commitment
    Unyielding loyalty
    Unbridled support
    Peace

  • JUST dreaming

    JUST dreaming

    JUST dreaming
    Staring out this window
    Rolling down this runway
    All this power behind me
    Pushing me to higher ways
    Thinking about us
    Pushing each other
    This combined power
    Rolling through life
    Staring at our success

    JUST DREAMING

    Lifting off this ground
    Switching to flight mode
    Transitioning across the atmosphere
    Shooting through the sky
    Thinking about us
    Shooting for the stars
    Elevating through adversity
    Switching to phenomenal achievements
    Lifting as we climb

    JUST DREAMING

    Soaring over this land
    Anticipating weightlessness
    Gentle turns through spotted clouds
    Faster and faster to level off
    Thinking about us
    Faster paths to peace
    Gentle resolution of any insecurity
    Anticipating life
    Soaring indefinitely

    JUST DREAMING

  • Unwanted For So Long

    Unwanted For So Long

    Fatherless(5)
    I have been unwanted for so long
    Only want people
    that don’t want me
    Lovely feeling chasing
    fake memories
    Making beauty
    out of the worse things
    If I ain’t unwanted
    must be something wrong
    Cause why would someone
    Ever wanna want me
    Cause why would someone
    Ever want to stop
    putting pain on me
    Addicted to this pain
    It’s the only real thing

    I have been unwanted for so long
    Afraid to
    say my own name
    It must be the initiation
    of this innermost pain
    Magnetism embedded
    In the syllables
    Pulls negativity
    directly into me
    Sitting and waiting
    Waiting and thinking
    Thinking and listening
    Listening and believing
    Believing in pain
    Cause pain is what I know
    So I keep it close to me

    I have been unwanted for so long
    Rorschach said to me
    It makes me happy
    I don’t wanna even see
    that you stay hurting me
    It’s not you
    It’s me
    Situational silence
    Violent surprising
    Weight heavy for me
    World won’t wait for me
    Will you bring it to me
    That peaceful way
    Loving me everyday
    Thinking it’s a new way
    When it’s my only way

  • Thoughts

    Fatherless(27)Thoughts reverting feverishly

    Losing the complexity

    The sanity that holds me

    I know you’d tell me to hold on

    So I’m holding onto this

    This faith that I do not understand

    What happened to the time

    When you are old and gray

    When you need people

    To help you on your way

    Where we visit you

    Periodically we hear you are doing “OK”

    It’s like in an instant

    You were taken away

    Thoughts ravishing psychologically

    Stuck feeling desperately

    Guessing at how to feel

    When every positive feeling

    Has already abandoned me

    And my face stays scrunched up

    Holding in every tear

    Hasn’t even been a day

    But feels so subtly

    Like you’ve been gone for years

    Because it would take me years

    For me to express this

    This deepened feeling

    Lost in simple meaning

    Thoughts pressing deeply

    Anger erupting

    Screaming for the resurrection

    If it was done before

    Why won’t you do it now

    I know questioning is taboo

    I’m just not feeling

    Like I’m suppose to

    Each picture I see

    I can remember the exact feeling

    Selfishly I looked forward to seeing you

    Feeling that you were proud of me

    Holding on is so hard

    God please help me!

  • Invades Me

    Invades Me

    Fatherless(25)

    Doing what I can
    Encouraging every pain
    Every single pain
    All this pain within me
    Invoking it profusely
    Daring to convince it
    For only for an instant
    Pushing through it
    Forgetting all of it
    But every time
    I try to write it out of me
    It all leaves me
    Then I have peace
    Momentarily
    Before that pain
    It repeatedly invades me

    Counting it all joy
    That’s what I’m suppose to do
    Count it
    Count it
    Count it in every single finger
    Count it on all my toes
    Need to hold onto that belief
    But if I believe
    Shouldn’t I believe
    Everything was meant to be
    But then reality sets in
    Recognizing momentarily
    That unbridled belief
    Naturally believing
    That isn’t within me
    It invades me

    Going through the stages
    Psychologically
    I already know what it is
    The stages repeat historically
    You cannot skip any steps
    The only goal
    Is going as fast as possible
    Go through every step
    As fast as possible
    For whatever reason
    I know love is everything
    But when I stop and think
    The deniability stays with me
    That anger is growing
    Negotiating different feelings
    Simply depressed
    Avoiding acceptance
    Nothing in me will believe
    It invades me

  • Handle on me

    Handle on me

    Fatherless(4)
    Hurting for so long
    Self inflicted pain
    Rationalizing others effects on me
    I cannot remember anyone staying with me
    At some point everyone leaves
    De prioritized me
    So eventually I would leave
    Before they would leave me

    Do not share the inner you
    Having prescribed emotions
    Reading people before they read you
    Staying on the defense
    Only trust my own boundary
    Cause I know it’s just me
    The mirror looking at me
    And the only one it sees is me

    Living four lives on a constant basis
    The reality of the past
    Wondering how long pain will last
    The what if of the past
    As if I could avoid my past
    The fantasy of the future
    And presently As if the previous three
    Don’t already have a handle on me

  • Mind, Body, Soul

    Mind, Body, Soul

    Fatherless(24)
    Mind, Body, Soul
    From the very beginning
    I know
    And I have to believe
    Holistically that I am winning
    Willing to give everything I have left
    Body and Soul
    Only limited by my mind’s capability
    There is nothing I won’t do
    To maintain my serenity

    Mind, Body, Soul
    Knew it intently
    This life was too big for me
    Looking around aimlessly
    Paralyzed by the amount of possibility
    Become stagnant in reality
    Mind and Soul
    Only limited by my body’s capability
    There is nothing I won’t do
    To maintain my serenity

    Mind, Body, Soul
    Stay woke every single day
    Head remains on the swivel
    Anticipating every single enemy
    Longing for something
    That I have never seen
    Just knowing it would mean
    The very essence of life to me
    Mind and Body
    Only limited by my soul’s capability
    There is nothing I won’t do
    To maintain my serenity

  • Shouting for Peace

    Shouting for Peace

    Peace
    The world ever changing
    The core remains constant
    Illusion of human existence
    Peace and love non-existent
    Creating fantasies of peace
    Shouting for Peace

    Conflict after conflict
    Struggle upon struggle
    Fighting into fights
    Never an easy day
    Inappropriate desires
    Eluding to Peace

    Greedy motivation
    Fighting for peace
    Sheer irony of this peace
    Endless war from creation
    Violently taking everything
    Final blood shed, then claim peace

    Actors portraying peace
    Look into the mystery
    Accepting killing foreign lands
    Just not where I lay my head
    War is war, death is death
    Humans do not peace

  • Innocence Fleeing

    Innocence Fleeing

    Innocence fleeing
    Innocence fleeing
    Losing perspective
    Waiting for substance
    Addictive reminiscent
    Focused on free
    Just let me be me

    Dimmed light
    Shaded destiny
    Presently grieving
    Transposing seasons
    Cannot feel complete
    Your not with me

    Radioactive feeling
    Cemented to the ceiling
    Paralysis reaching
    Depths of infinity
    Pit of desperation
    Darkened me

    Resurrection
    Anticipating elevation
    Confused similarities
    Deepened sanctity
    Enlisted in fantasy
    Reminding me of me

  • Protect Me From Me

    Protect Me From Me

    Fatherless(3)
    What would I be without me
    Without the self hate and self doubt
    How would I make it without
    That negative energy that drives me
    I pray, Protect me from me

    Remember the tribulations
    Feeling anxiety from separation
    Avoiding the bullets final call
    Left with nothing positive in me
    I pray, protect me from me

    The challenge of the remedy
    Lack of belief that I can be better than me
    Nothing wrong with where I am at
    It’s ok if I never reach the potential of my being
    I pray, protect me from me.

  • True Power

    True Power

    BLM(1)
    True Power
    Is instigating two forces
    To intentionally collide violently
    And the only benefit is the violence
    Once it starts, that’s when the revelation starts
    The feeling, of how good it feels
    Finally having an outlet
    For every single bit of it
    Every time a tongue was held
    Every time a cheek was turned
    Every time it was encouraged
    That we remain meek
    Yet in some way
    We are still being controlled
    In some way

    True Power
    Is instigating people
    Creating an environment
    Where they have lost their consciousness
    Group them together
    And allow their collectiveness
    To dissolve any uniqueness
    More than a moth to a flame
    All you have to is light the flame
    And they were inadvertently
    Spread that flame proudly
    Yet in some way
    We are still being controlled
    In some way

    True Power
    Is instigating a revolution
    With the ideology
    That you will be on the winning side
    There will be sacrifices made
    Each side will lose something
    But in the end
    They’ll feel it was worth that something
    The endless battle for humanity
    When humanity is only a concept
    There isn’t a country on earth
    That has been humane
    Yet we claim we can achieve it
    And we believe it
    Yet in some way
    We are still being controlled
    In some way

    True Power
    Is instigating peace
    Accepting that we do not
    Have to compete
    The competition for food
    The competition for generations
    It is no longer needed
    Food is abundantly provided by the Earth
    Legacies are plentiful endlessly
    Yet we hold onto things differently
    Still living in an advance dichotomy
    Pretending that there is justice
    When there is none
    Because justice depends on who you are
    Therefore justice
    Is not for all of us
    Yet we still want people arrested
    And tried in a court of law
    Longing to believe in justice for all
    Yet in some way
    We are still being controlled
    In some way

  • We Are Not The Same

    We Are Not The Same

    NotTheSame
    The world will not change
    Until justice is the same
    That day when all criminals
    They are each treated the same
    When neither innocence nor guilt
    Removes our humanity
    Where the feeling of safety,
    Is not dependent on a demographic
    But for right now,
    We are not the same

    The world will not change
    Until beings become human
    And the collectivity of humanity
    It actually has meaning
    When economic growth
    Is not the goal of every person
    Where we seek to help someone
    That is less fortunate
    And Consistently help the unfortunate
    We are not the same

    The world will not change
    Until every parent has the same fear
    When your child leaves the house
    You can always have a tear
    At the sheer possibility
    That they will not return
    Thus mourning happens constantly
    As if they are already
    In an urn
    We are not the same

    The world will not change
    This is completely intentional
    The manifestation of the Magna Carter
    The evolution of a declaration
    We want to continually live
    Yet we were never really living
    As the fear of someone’s color
    Created and creates more fear
    Than a person with a loaded assault rifle
    I’m just stuck wondering
    How so many people
    Are afraid of skin color
    Cause if you look deeply
    We are all unique
    Those differences
    Are intended to contribute
    To our collective human race
    But instead we choose to cower
    In fear of a rebellion of the black race
    The sheer irony is,
    Have you ever heard a collective voice
    Even a demand for vengeance or reciprocity
    For the evil and immoral means
    Meant to cast people into desperation
    With so much God given ability?
    As we are expected to celebrate
    The same historical norms
    That enslaved black people for over 20 generations
    We are not the same

    The world will not change
    Until those flashing lights
    Creates the same anxiety with everyone
    Where back talking and disrespect
    Are the leading causes of arrest
    Where over inflated egos
    Leads to guns being drawn
    We forget those early days
    Telling children they are here
    To serve and protect
    At some point in a person of color’s life
    They become a threat
    We are not the same

    The world will not change
    The world will not change
    If we are unwilling
    If we are unable
    If we have no desire
    To change the current status quo
    Then I must believe
    That we believe
    This is the right approach
    If that is the case
    Apply the same case to everyone
    If justice is not blind
    Allow tyranny to be blind
    Cast the same pain
    Cast the same hurt
    Cast the same judgement
    On every single human being
    Regardless of their demographic
    Sadly, only at THAT point
    When we collectively feel THAT pain
    It would be considered tragic
    Suddenly, things would change
    But for right now,
    We are not the same

  • The Queen

    The Queen

    The Queen
    Out of the darkness of things
    The blackest shadows
    Blooms the endless pit
    Escape of the fortunate
    Lowest possible being
    At its deepest meaning
    The only solace
    The Queen

    Man will forsake you
    The hour of ratchet awakens
    Facial expression become vacant
    The Silo of despairs encampment
    Solo battling this entrapment
    Movement evolving into complication
    Vision of stimulation
    The Queen

    Power ensues with each desperate move
    The elegance radiating vision
    Fully committed birthing faith
    Atomically creating life in space
    Providing methodology for long waited escapes
    Protecting Love powerfully in her wake
    Striving higher with each step
    The Queen

    War games positions it as so
    Kings taste not the last victory
    The Queen power extreme
    Dictating the field of dream
    Anchoring the entire field of things
    Everything predetermined by the Queen
    If at last victory stays out of reach,
    The first battle must be to find
    The Queen

  • Hypothetically

    Hypothetically

    Hypothetically, Do you feel me
    Hypothetically, Come see me
    Hypothetically, Loving
    Hypothetically, Loving You

    Hypothetically I love you
    Cause what I’m feeling Can’t be true
    All the things we’ve been through
    This feeling can’t be love
    Cause we ain’t in love
    Hypothetically we’re together
    Coming just to see you
    Love it when I hug you
    Tell me, how was your day?
    Tell me, are you’re OK?
    Tell me what to do
    In case I need to love you.

    Hypothetically I can see you
    Even when you aren’t here
    I can feel you’re so near
    Beauty, illuminating through you
    So bad, need to see you
    Loving everything about you
    Hypothetically I woke up with you
    Quick good morning kiss
    Deep into your subtle fragrance
    Planning out our whole day
    Intertwined like you’re really mine
    Give you the whole world, as if it were mine

    Hypothetically, Do you feel me
    Hypothetically, Come see me
    Hypothetically, Loving indefinitely
    Hypothetically, Loving
    Hypothetically, Loving You

  • Me

    Me

    Fatherless(1)
    Not as strong as the shadow I cast
    Easy to spout off important things that last
    Pitching suggestions and allegations relentlessly
    But those soliloquies don’t inspire me

    Not as influential as the wake of success
    Trained in the art of war, only pursued the inevitable
    Encouraging every soul within my grasp
    But that inspiration doesn’t care for me.

    Not as thoughtful as gracious people say I am
    I’m avoiding regret and karma on the back end
    Making a difference in other people’s life
    But life is not the same for me

    Not as caring as I care to be
    Able to ignore desperate people in time of need
    Selfishly focused like that doesn’t impact me
    But it’s who I am. And that person is me.

  • Who Knows Me?

    Who Knows Me?

    Fatherless
    Who knows me?
    Walking this world with billions of people
    Yet I walk it alone.
    No one could say they know my dreams
    No one can say they love me
    No one knows me

    Who knows me?
    Cannot remember someone offered to help
    When is the last time I had a visit
    Have endless experiences but none momentous
    But I’m sure people have asked loving questions
    And I casually find a way to deflect them
    The wall that protects me is strong
    No one knows me

    Who knows me?
    There have been people seeking to find the entry
    But I let no one in.
    Blame everyone for the wrongdoing of a few and that was the end.
    There is no worth in loving unconditionally
    More misfortune than lies than any happy feeling
    Take the easy way out and stay alone
    At least I know who I’m with
    No one knows me

  • Strength

    Strength

    Strength (1)
    Give me strength
    To make it through this day
    Give me strength
    Find another way
    Give me strength
    To live another day

    Mountains don’t move me
    Gentle wind won’t soothed me
    Frustrated in this life I live
    Ain’t nothing more I can give
    So I’m just here tryna to Live
    Staring deep sitting in the dark
    Mentally out on a lark
    Stars shining, show me the way
    Paralyzed by all this deep misery

    Longing for consistent relief
    Facing nothing but disbelief
    Is this the life intended for me?
    Horrified by this inequity
    Hands intertwined begging
    Knees grounded pleading
    Heart hurting like it’s bleeding
    Pain always winning

    Would you save me if you could
    Stranded in this wilderness
    All of this I’ve created, just mess
    I know I’m physically able to move
    I know I could think about another groove
    But this anchor on my soul
    It really has a hold.
    Just not use to failing, falling or quitting
    But this pain is never ending

    Give me strength
    To make it through this day
    Give me strength
    Find another way
    Give me strength
    To live another day

  • Writing

    Writing

    Writing (1)
    Writing just to write
    Starving for peace
    Believing with everything
    Within me
    Releasing every word
    My mind could be at ease

    Writing just to communicate
    At times, my will suffocates
    Lost serenity
    If I could just empty
    All that was in me
    Finally be free

    Writing just to say
    If I had it my own way
    Life would take me
    Into such an elevation
    Filtering negative energy
    Believing in peace

    Writing it to be known
    Speaking into a new existence
    Just for instance
    If I could pursue happiness
    Finally have the realness
    Of the real dream

  • So Warming

    So Warming

    So Warming
    Sun piercing through
    Reminding me of you
    Glistening through the adversity
    Shining and flowing capability
    Struggling to articulate
    The amount of love, its fate
    Gentle sigh, so calming
    Your spirit, so warming

    Opened to the possibility
    That sun shining for me
    Like painters muse, not confused
    Familiar lane, cannot complain
    evaporated bagged emotions
    Shook without you, convulsions
    Deep inhale, so relaxing
    Your essence, so warming

    Burning away the moisture of tears
    Light shining on every fear
    The nights concealment
    Hiding mindless sentiment
    The what ifs, the if, ands and huhs
    Solace of uncertain pacts
    Exhaling relief, so pleasing
    Your aura, so warming

    The mystery of night, or so it seems
    Pleasure revealed encouraging your dreams
    Pride amplified with each supportive word
    Never forsake you, that’s my word
    Bonded in friendship, anchored in truth
    Strength unyielding, forged by our youth
    Gleaming excitement, so appeasing
    Your presence, so warming.