Sy Bryant

Category: LoveIs

  • This Talisman

    This Talisman

    Speak the words

    Like you know me

    Remind me of who I am

    Especially those solemn days

    That anticipation of death

    That keeps me lonely

    Allow me to let go of everything

    Except this Talisman

    Recite it clearly

    The words that are etched in

    Their intent pure of innate ability

    Suggesting momentarily

    I am more than what I am feeling

    I sigh in the deepest relief

    Although I can recite the words

    I am not whole without this Talisman

    Meditating abruptly

    Arms no longer reaching to the heavens

    Strength lacking in every breath

    Everyone amplifying you are now in heaven

    Yet I’m left here wondering

    Under the sounds of the thundering

    Rain hiding my emotion

    Losing faith in this Talisman

    Listening to sounds never uttered

    You are just stories

    Past down to me hereditary

    And I am meant to believe fully

    I dare not question not a single belief

    Enduring every mental illness while you forever sleep

    Praying for an eternity

    Through this Talisman

    Hearing moments of peace

    Everyone else down on their knees

    Reading the same words

    That I am meant to believe

    As if each word would restore you

    As if words would resuscitate you

    Contemplating living without you

    Laying this Talisman next to you

  • Left Empty

    Left Empty

  • Fuck …. Shit

    Fuck …. Shit

    Fuck

    Another throne

    Every time something pierces my flesh

    I start to remember every pain I have left

    If I could just give you every tear

    Would you take away every fear

    This pinprick does nothing

    But leave me empty

    Shit

    What do you want

    You laughing so subtly

    Like I’m suppose to give a shit

    Every rose has a throne

    You cannot have one without the other

    Yet you complaining to me

    This pinprick don’t need you

    And neither do I

    Fuck

    Not again

    Why in hell would you not clean up

    Who leaves thumb tacks on the ground

    I’m sitting here looking around

    Knowing someone is out for me

    This pinprick was intentional

    Meant to devastate me

    Shit

    Oh you a comedian

    I can play that game too

    Wait until you try to drive away

    So we can see how your tires play

    Lets see if they like pinprick

    When those nails start getting stuck

    You thought shit was funny

    Now, what da fuck?

  • Butta Fly Kiss You

    Butta Fly Kiss You

    Seeing you for the first time

    Damn near lost my mind

    Instantly I wanted to just

    Just Butta Fly Kiss you

    Names are just formality

    What does it even matter?

    Do I need to call you anything?

    Would it change how you feeling me?

    Knowing you looking at me, look at you, look at me

    Room key in hand

    You tryna see me?

    Without delay we in the elevator

    I’m already elevating

    Not trying to wait until later

    Pulling your butt to me

    You bending over naturally

    Ain’t nothing but a thong on

    It would be nothing to slide in

    Hit that stop button

    So I can just, slide in

    But we can’t even get into

    What we need to get into

    I’m saying

    Can I Butta Fly Kiss you?

    Before the door close all the way

    You already made your way

    Stepping out onto the balcony

    Clothes completely gone

    Faster than I can clearly see

    You just standing there

    Leaning on that glass door

    Waiting for me

    I just admire your body

    I’m trying to get in

    You asking me to slow down

    First I need to go down

    Without hesitation

    Letting this butterfly kiss you

    Begging logic to leave me

    So I can eat in peace

    Butterfly kissing it

    Eskimo kissing it

    French kissing it

    Gently licking it

    Honoring that clit precisely

    Feeling your reactions

    Subtle movements fucking with me

    Forgetting I was on a journey

    Forgot why I am even here

    Focused on getting you there

    As you quickly sit in that chair

    Legs starting to quiver

    Feeling your hands

    On the back on my head

    Pulling me in deeper

    You arching your back

    I’m totally off track

    Can’t even get a breath in

    Struggling to breathe

    Knowing you almost there

    You begging me

    While I gasping for air

    Out of breath I jumped up

    .

    .

    Realized I woke up

    .

    .

    Like What the Fuck!

  • Gave My All To You

    Gave My All To You

    I kept thinking if I gave my all to you

    You would give your all to me

    And no matter what happens

    We

    Would both be free

    Enjoying every bit of life

    Committed

    Forever

    You and me

    Met you on a hum

    Back in 2000 and summin

    Looking straight into your eyes

    Damn I was so surprised

    Saw you looking back at me

    Could this even be

    Possibility of eventuality

    Feeling my pulse pulsating

    Everything I’m contemplating

    Digging deep into my diction

    Recognition of what I’m missing

    Thinking about it deeply

    Hoping you can feel me

    Feel it sincerely

    Accepting every pain led to this

    This is the epitome of pure bliss

    I kept thinking if I gave my all to you

    you would give your all to me

    And no matter what happens

    We

    Would both be free

    Enjoying every bit of life

    Committed

    Forever

    You and me

    Now we enjoying this new love

    Like the things from up above

    Little nuisances fitting me

    Like a hand and glove

    Love similes and metaphors

    Everything I’ve hope for

    Waking up each morning

    In God we Trust

    That everything will always

    Always feel this way

    What did I ever do before you

    Cannot fathom being without you

    Seeing you so beautiful

    Even when I don’t understand every word

    Warmly caresses every nerve

    Feeling you as a part of my soul

    I kept thinking if I gave my all to you

    you would give your all to me

    And no matter what happens

    We

    would both be free

    Enjoying every bit of life

    Committed

    forever

    You and me

    Now you looking at me side eyed

    Looking right past my eyes

    And I’m struggling to figure this out

    Every conversation

    With screams and shouts

    Not sure what it’s about

    Things we use to do

    Now they annoy you

    Ain’t nothing cute no more

    You always slamming the door

    No longer understanding this

    What happened to that morning kiss

    It don’t feel like

    You ever meant it

    Staring at what we use to be

    Now I’m just a sad me

    I kept thinking

    If I gave my all to you

    There would Always be

    You and me

    I kept thinking

    If I gave my all to you

    There would Always be

    You and me

  • Whenever

    Whenever

    Whenever I can feel

    I can really feel you

    It’s like I go back in time

    To when I could

    Really feel you

    And I get lost in your skin tone

    And we get in this groove

    Like ain’t nobody home.

    Whenever I can feel

    It’s like all I have left

    Is the very air that we breathe

    Knowing that air is all connected

    I need to imagine this air

    It keeps us connected

    Holding in every breath of you

    Like I have nothing left

    Whenever I can feel you

    And I look in your eyes

    See that tongue out

    Or them lips poked out

    Makes me regret every time wasted

    Worried about who and the what

    All I need to know is the when to win

    Get excited just from your image

    Whenever I can feel you

    I Always remember the last interaction

    Even if the last interaction wasn’t perfection

    Just a moment in time

    As if it never existed

    But I still you walking down them steps

    I still feel that hug

    That’s all I have left

  • Rejected Being

    Rejected Being

  • Tryna Let You Go

    Tryna Let You Go

    Tryna let you go

    But I keep calling

    Still saying good morning

    Tryna let you go

    Tryna let you go

    But I keep calling

    Still saying good morning

    Tryna let you go

    All we ever do is argue

    About anything and everything we do

    We got so much negative energy

    When something is wrong

    Endlessly figuring out who’s wrong

    Now we pretending

    We’ll stay friends

    Just another lie

    That we’ll tell our friends

    Knowing its over completely over

    Tryna let you go

    But I keep calling

    Still saying good morning

    Tryna let you go

    Tryna let you go

    But I keep calling

    Still saying good morning

    Tryna let you go

    Right there

    In front of my face

    Yeah I love you

    But that don’t mean

    I’m here for you

    Just one more time

    We already did that

    One more phone call

    Not tryna hear that

    Talk to tone and I’m gone

    Tryna let you go

    But I keep calling

    Still saying good morning

    Tryna let you go

    Tryna let you go

    But I keep calling

    Still saying good morning

    Tryna let you go

  • It’s Like

    It’s Like

    It’s like everything ….went dark. 

    Whether my eyes are open or closed.

    Nothing I can feel. 

    It’s like nothing exist anymore.

    The miles never caused me this much distance. 

    Because I could always feel you in an instance. 

    It’s like ….life keeps moving on.  

    I am where I always was. 

    You are climbing the endless mountain of opportunity.

    I encourage every step,

    But this was the first day I realized my feet haven’t moved not one step.

    It’s like ….time and space were just a phone call away. 

    I can feel your peace and sure bliss. 

    But I’m not there enjoying that, and that’s a painful moment, cause we are bonded mentally, Although we are separated physically.

    It’s like ….I’m seeing other people and thinking about you.  

    Is that you under that shaded tree? 

    If I left right now, how long it take to get to you?

    When I arrive would it be you?

    Or, Is that my imagination taken over me?

  • There Is Power

    There Is Power

    There is power in acknowledging fault

    That doesn’t mean things are cool

    Far from that

    Just had that 6th sense moment

    Realizing that they are them

    And I want nothing to do with them

    That beast that was hiding

    Now he is released.

    There is power in honesty

    And honestly I thought it was something else

    Believing vehemently in something else

    Now that I know

    It won’t be an unknown

    Let the truth be known

    From now on I will treat you all

    Treat you all exactly the same

    There is power in letting go

    If I was that person

    I’d just let it go

    But that fever inside of me

    It won’t let that shit be

    You have no idea

    Just how dastardly I can be

    Let me show you the real me

  • Seeing

    Seeing

    Seeing shit differently

    Like I’m living in a

    Strange dream

    Cause this cannot be reality

    That you ain’t even next to me

    In some other state

    So hard to wait

    Seeing life strangely

    Cannot even see straight

    Counting every date

    Looking for another way

    To share every step with you

    Damn I miss you

    If I could just see you

    Seeing light in the dark

    Don’t know where to even start

    Wishing I could see you

    Even I quick pic that would do

    Deeply loving you

    Imaging that I see you

    Praying I could touch you

    Seeing darkness around me

    How many days can it be

    You’ve been gone

    It’s been so long

    It’s been an eternity

    Damn what did I just say

    It’s only been one day

  • At My Lowest

    At My Lowest

    At my lowest

    Looking up at you

    Somehow I know

    You feel this too

    This anguish

    It’s controlling me

    Don’t know what I do

    If you weren’t here with me

    At my lowest

    I depend on you

    Somehow I knew

    I could share with you

    And after it all

    Still have each other

    Whatever you need

    Give me a call

    At my lowest

    I know this

    You can’t count on me

    Barely making it

    Guilt is perplexing me

    Recognizing inevitability

    Knowing right, but

    Doing wrong eventually

    At my lowest

    You looking down on me

    Feeling of disappointment

    It’s crushing me

    Wondering through this

    As if there was a hope

    Doing anything

    Unable to cope

  • Thankfully

    Thankfully

    Thankfully

    I can just write and write

    And let every emotion out

    That is what peace is about

    Emotion creating expectations

    Expectations leads to disappointment

    Thankfully

    I can go from frowns to smiles

    Years ago

    That same thing

    It would take hundreds of miles

    Now peace comes with a smile

    Thankfully

    There is no serenity unity

    Unless there is peace individually

    Releasing the pleasure

    Looking toward the future

    Attention to the culture

    Thankfully

    The power of the pen

    It helps me lean

    All the way in

    Getting everything

    All the way out

    Thankfully

    Even with defeat

    I see the deceit

    Now that I see it

    There is nothing left to it

    But to release it

  • If I Could

    If I Could

    If I could express this excitement

    This discipline that I lack

    Cannot control the inapt feeling

    You sitting there talking

    I feel every single word

    And while you’re speaking

    I send you my word

    Mouthing my emotion

    Hoping that cameras capture energy

    And you feel this emotion

    If I could utter the phrase

    Without scaring you away

    Something to let you know

    I need you with me

    And since that first day

    When I knew you believed me

    I knew within me

    I’d never let you

    Hate to even conceive

    One day you’ll leave

    If I could speculate momentarily

    Do you have any feelings for me

    Is there anything you see

    That you truly long to see

    Is this just another imaginary thing

    I know my day dreams are a real thing

    I cannot create something

    Where there is nothing

    And believe in it fully

    Is that how you see me

    If I could share this with you

    Just need that good morning

    That hello text from you

    Fueling my burning desire

    Remember that song

    You light my entire fire

    There is something

    That belief you have in me

    That something that

    It gives me victory

  • To You

    To You

    Back and forth

    Wondering wildly

    Mind can’t imagine

    What you meant to me

    Truth be told

    Everything is different now

    Nothing really changed

    Just never knew

    Who I was to you?

    Night and day

    Pondering slowly

    Cannot even fathom

    This destined mystery

    Yet I see it in your face

    every move you make

    Not a single one with me

    Now I know you

    Who was I to you?

    Triumph and disaster

    Contemplating randomly

    Strange images filling me

    Releasing your positivity

    Every story told

    Your heart stay glowing

    True love you been showing

    Has this always been you

    Was I anything to you?

    Remember and forget

    Thinking briefly

    Doing my best to forget

    Every innocuous memory

    Sorely mistaken

    Recalling the past

    Opened too many doors

    Overly trusted you

    Was I ever like that to you?

  • Woke Up Differently

    Woke Up Differently

    There wasn’t a feeling of gratitude

    Lost that entire mood

    The comfort of kinship was missing

    Within a single instance

    It became about business

    For whatever reason it seems

    Woke Up Differently

    There wasn’t this oneness anymore

    The doubt was evidently plain

    There are future plans

    For now, everything is not the same

    Collaboration falls short

    Whenever there is different energy

    Woke up Differently

    There wasn’t this beautiful goal

    All those words that were said

    Suddenly they felt cold

    There is something missing in understanding

    I am the one left standing

    Speculating an innate legacy

    Woke Up Differently

    There wasn’t this aura of peace

    The cloud amongst this

    Left me in an awkward place

    Unable to understand the feeling on my face

    Watching this new life progress

    Lost of the sense connectivity

    Woke Up Differently

  • I See You …. Say Less

    I See You …. Say Less

    I see you
    And I must admit
    This is all some Ol’ selfish shit
    I have separation anxiety
    From people that I love
    Eventually abandoned me
    I’ve learned to never say goodbye
    Just allow time
    To work in time
    This was the first time
    I missed an opportunity I wanted
    To say good-bye
    Because I know In reality
    You were coaching and supporting me
    Appreciating every warm and gentle Hi
    And I will miss you
    As if I could give you a Good bye
    And if I could have said good-bye
    I would have shared
    That I am proud of you
    You spoke change into existence
    …..
    Now your are living in that blessing
    Say Less

    I see you
    Wanting the best for EVERYBODY
    The desire is SO HIGH
    It draws on your every emotion
    It is not confusion or an illusion
    The MDs may diagnose it differently
    Listen to me…
    You have that vision
    You can visibly feel
    What’s inside of every single body
    It is natural
    It is your God giving ability
    Putting your guard down
    Just so that we can feel more comfortable
    Your tears lead to my tears
    Even momentarily
    You want US
    To see in US
    What YOU
    already see in US
    ….
    You are a beautiful energy
    Say Less

    I see you
    When you speak
    I see your aura moving
    Fluctuating effortlessly
    Elating in natural movement
    Limited only by your own limitations
    The world will soon see a day
    Classically elevating
    Pirouetting simultaneously glowing
    Allowing everything in you
    To flow through you
    The confidence of a mountain in a storm
    The gentleness of a feather when it’s warm
    Strength gliding through unknown scenes
    …..
    It is the real you
    Say Less

    I see you
    I read all the accolades
    But didn’t realize who you were
    Creating environments out of ether
    Encapsulating what was once a whisper
    Inspiring different thoughts
    Welcoming silent pain
    Enabling strangers to release misguided beliefs
    I don’t know how you saw us
    I could never fathom this situation
    Magically maintaining our collective energy
    Strategically pausing to allow growth
    Intimately showing us our true worth
    We are blessed to have you in our life
    And When you said
    You pray for us
    …..
    I couldn’t hold the tears anymore
    Say Less

    I see you
    Barley knew you
    But I realized when you said hello
    We were suddenly family
    As your sheer essence is one of love
    Embracing each one of us
    Accepting, even from a physical distance
    Every bit of feedback you’ve accepted
    And even better
    You did something with it
    You are a protector instinctively
    You care intrinsically
    Giving of yourself limitlessly
    Yet I wonder what we can do
    If we could possibly feed into you
    Giving daily as you breathe
    …..
    Your energy is your generosity
    Say Less

    I see you
    Walking firmly, confidently with humility
    Understanding your history
    For better or worse
    You are destined for victory
    Seeing the lose in your eyes
    It comes as no surprise
    The talisman reminding you
    Of every struggle you’ve been through
    It’s still one day more
    Than he was allowed to endure
    I hope that you can walk
    More than just in the shadow of men
    …..
    You were created to be more
    Than just a son, brother, uncle and friend
    Say Less

    I see you
    The real you
    Filled with all kinds of energy
    Mirror reflecting more than imagery
    I can feel you
    Bursting out of me
    Yet I limit you
    It’s what I was told to do
    Get a good job
    And a family too
    Do what’s practical
    But remain sensible
    Suddenly
    I can no longer subdue
    …..
    The real you
    Say Less

  • Missing Something

    What’s wrong… nothing

    But I know you, it’s something

    And social media saying a lot

    Real or fake cannot tell the plot

    Just know I’m missing something.

    What’s on your mind…. nothing

    But on IG I see something

    Pics of words, pics worth a thousand words

    Could just be copied and pasted

    Just feels like I’m missing something

    What can I do to help… nothing

    But on FB you saying something

    Wishing for, praying for, asking for it

    But I ain’t a part of it.

    Just believe that I’m missing something.

    Cannot believe in your nothing.

    When my heart is telling me it’s something.

    Cannot read your mind that’s for sure

    Got me in a no win situation once more

    Just tired of missing something.

  • The Night

    The Night

    The night is my worst enemy,

    with its shadows of mystery

    trying to get me. 

    The darkness knows all that I am,

    seeing me strong and weak,

    always in constant watch

    tempting me

    with that wicked energy. 

    The night is the only way to the sun. 

    Yet hides the way

    for patience sake,

    nothing more could be done. 

    Waiting to wait. 

    Anticipating

    the suns rays,

    hoping light

    will show a new way

    away from this dark retreat.

    The night and me

    have nothing but contempt.

    We know each other’s moves,

    yet we never go further

    than distant associates.  

    A head nod is all that’s exchanged,

    as night hints it’s time

    for you to get out the way.

    The night stills the world. 

    To rest. 

    To become new. 

    The night moves suns shadows and focus

    causing me to lose focus. 

    The night

    The tranquility of the unseen,

    nothing is visible in its serene. 

  • This Is The Reality

    This Is The Reality

    This is the reality

    The majority of my time

    I spend on other’s lives

    Leveraging everything Family given

    And I give to others

    Freely and completely

    Give it, like I received it

    Without expectation of anything

    This is the reality

    raised with a different view

    Expectations were too high

    To ever be close to failure

    Now I struggle with anyone

    That intentionally wants failure

    Pushing feverishly

    Until others can see their own destiny

    This is the reality

    I don’t give a fuck about anything

    Literally could stand up

    And walk out, And never return

    Embedded from my legacy

    Selfishly I only think about me

    When it is no longer satisfying

    To help you see the truth… ✌🏾

  • I could Miss You

    I could Miss You

    I could miss you

    But I don’t

    Spent too many days

    Learning bout your ways

    And at the end of the day

    It didn’t even matter

    It was all just chatter

    What really hurt

    Is that my heart

    Didn’t even matter

    Listening to this same ol song

    You still asking me what is wrong

    The same thing that was wrong

    The very last time

    And I keep saying

    This will be the very last time

    But you already know

    That it’s not

    I guess that’s why

    There’s no thickness

    To this plot

    No matter what you do

    You know I’ll always

    Be right here for you

    But what you fail to see

    Is that each and every time

    You brought me to my knees

    You showed me

    You ain’t what I need

    You created an opportunity

    For me to see what I need

    So I’ll be here

    But only for them

    Cause that one calling out next

    They got me next

    And they are really into me

    Not just exaggerations in a text

    I could miss you

    But I don’t

    Spent too many days

    Learning bout your ways

    And at the end of the day

    It didn’t even matter

    It was all just chatter

    What really hurt

    Is that my heart

    Didn’t even matter

    My heart use to sink

    Remembering

    When I use to think

    This was something forever

    Knew in my heart

    This was meant to be forever

    Now when I sigh

    I cannot give you a reply

    There’s nothing to say

    I can bullshit if you need it

    Ok, how was your day

    You showed me over and over

    That if you was driving

    I would be

    Run right over

    Got strangers calling the spot

    I’m clean as a whistle

    So why it feel so hot

    Like do you have any love for me

    Do you even know what I need?

    Do you have any empathy?

    Of what it feels like

    When the one you love

    Never gives you love

    Cause love don’t feel like this

    Love don’t feel like this

    It don’t feel like this

    I’m so tired of this

    I could miss you

    But I don’t

    Spent too many days

    Learning bout your ways

    And at the end of the day

    It didn’t even matter

    It was all just chatter

    What really hurt

    Is that my heart

    Didn’t even matter

  • What It Seems

    What It Seems

    Not sure what to do with this emotion

    Wallo reminded me about expectation

    Here I am doing what I tell ME not to

    Thinking how’d I get to a place where it got to

    Feeling so unappreciative in all this

    Just that deep pondering that I miss

    Accepting envy from the TV

    Creating unrealistic moments of fantasy

    Mind repetitively reminding me

    All this was initiated by me

    Afraid to contemplate the true meaning

    Knowing the outcome is demeaning

    Avoiding every truth I see

    Instead of managing what could be

    Trying to ignore everything that could be

    Just trying to reach a state of peace

    If I could just stop thinking of the increase

    Know it ain’t right but I need to release

    The future is too far to be seen

    Focused on the past in what It should be

    Missing out on every present opportunity

    Then expecting peace when I’m sleepy

    The impossible creation of these dreams

    Closer than what it seems

  • Thinking And Thinking

    Thinking And Thinking

    Thinking and thinking (what am I missing)

    What am I missing

    Thinking and thinking (what am I missing)

    What am I missing

    Thinking and thinking (what am I missing)

    What am I missing

    One day you came home

    You hid your phone

    You a phone addict

    Now you’re hiding it

    We all hear it ringing

    Now just vibrating

    Something so wrong

    Where is your phone?

    Thinking and thinking (what am I missing)

    What am I missing

    Thinking and thinking (what am I missing)

    What am I missing

    Thinking and thinking (what am I missing)

    What am I missing

    Now you’re distant

    One word answers

    Something is different

    Cannot talk to you

    Nothing to listen to

    Trying to see you

    Too busy, too tired,

    So much to do

    Being too you

    Thinking and thinking (what am I missing)

    What am I missing

    Thinking and thinking (what am I missing)

    What am I missing

    Thinking and thinking (what am I missing)

    What am I missing

    My heart hurting

    Now know the reason

    Seen this post

    Heart just broke

    You in the background

    Something else holding you down

    My mouth wide open

    Now it’s for certain

    I knew. I knew Pain

    What to do?

    Thinking and thinking (what am I missing)

    What am I missing

    Thinking and thinking (what am I missing)

    What am I missing

    Thinking and thinking (what am I missing)

    What am I missing

    Just texted you

    Asking what ya doing

    Vague answer

    Respond with the post

    Now you calling

    I don’t answer

    Now your texting

    But I’m long gone

  • What Do You Do?

    What Do You Do?

    When it don’t even hurt no more

    Is there anything more

    Taken in all sorts of the word

    Taken for granite with every word

    What do you do

    When there’s nothing else to do

    When it don’t even hurt no more

    Every moment looking at the door

    Every minute a choice to leave

    Every second the guilt piled on me

    What do you do

    When all hope has left you

    When it don’t even hurt no more

    Counting of the score

    Of each and every no

    My how rejection grows

    What do you do

    When there is no more left in you

    When it don’t even hurt no more

    Disappointment is expected

    After each and every rejection

    Left in a state of awe

    What do you do

    When faith is done with you

  • So Warming

    So Warming

    Sun piercing through

    Reminding me of you

    Glistening through the adversity

    Shining and flowing capability

    Struggling to articulate

    The amount of love, it’s fate

    Gentle sigh, so calming

    Your spirit, so warming

    Opened to the possibility

    That sun shining for me

    Like painters muse, not confused

    Familiar lane, cannot complain

    Evaporated bagged emotions

    Shook without you, convulsions

    Deep inhale, so relaxing

    Your essence, so warming

    Burning away the moisture of tears

    Light shining on every fear

    The nights concealment

    Hiding mindless sentiment

    The what ifs, the if buts, ands and huhs

    Solace of uncertain pacts

    Exhaling relief, so pleasing

    Your aura, so warming

    The mystery of night, or so it seems

    Pleasure revealed encouraging your dreams

    Pride amplified with each supportive word

    Never forsake you, that’s my word

    Bonded in friendship, anchored in truth

    Strength unyielding, forged through pain

    Gleaming excitement, so appeasing

    Your presence, so warming.

  • Expecting

    Expecting

    Expecting an impossibility

    That’s so far away from me

    Thinking so briefly

    That you love me

    Expecting something small

    After I gave it my all

    But to you

    My all is nothing at all

    Expecting sincerity

    Perpetuating uncertainty

    Thinking I know your combination

    No where near the revelation

    Expecting just four lines of four

    Would get me in the door

    Once you understood

    It’d be love for evermore

  • You Can Interrupt

    You Can Interrupt

    You can interrupt my sleep

    After I’ve been awake for 24 hours

    I would still stay up

    Talking to you

    Until my final hour

    Deeply listening

    Every single word

    Feeling it’s meaning

    You explaining your day

    Each opportunity

    Each circumstance

    And I know I’m blessed

    Just having a chance

    In your presence

    Is my greatest peace

    You can interrupt my day

    In any given way

    I will be right here

    We can meet up anywhere

    Even just to walk

    Down to the ocean edge

    Enjoying that subtle breeze

    Caressing our intertwined hands

    Hearing the waves

    Approaching from foreign lands

    The sky glowing just for us

    Walking toward the setting sun

    For some the day is ending

    For us the day just begun

    Just rejoicing on this day

    You can interrupt my meetings

    I’ll exclaim feverishly

    There is some type of emergency

    Even if the only emergency

    Is you just need to talk to me

    We talking about anything

    Just random things

    Ain’t even about the conversation

    It’s the moods that we relate to

    It’s the frequency

    That got me into you

    Just vibe on different sounds

    Intently listening

    Cause I know your meaning

    Based on your sound

    You can interrupt it all

    Whether it’s a text or a call

    Nothing else takes precedent

    Aligned with your effervescence

    So when you feeling it

    I’m feeling it

    So when you happy

    I’m ecstatic

    When you frustrated

    I’m causing static

    Encouraging every move you make

    To me, You can make no mistake

    So I just keep pushing you

    Until I finally see

    That smile just for me

  • Without You

    Without You

    Lost

    I’m lost

    So lost today

    Woke up

    Realized

    I chased you away

    Heard what you needed

    But I never changed a thing

    I just kept complaining

    When I couldn’t get my way

    Now you’re gone

    I’m in pain

    At night, in the dark

    I’m crying out your name

    Can’t do it, without you

    Losing my composure, without you

    Can’t even breathe, without you

    Sitting here waiting, lonely without you

    What can I do, without you

    What can I do, I need you

    Contemplating

    Thinking deeply

    Every moment of the past

    Fresh in my mind

    Losing my mind

    Like damn!

    Was I out of my mind

    Crazy things I would say

    Selfishly, my own way

    What was I thinking

    Thought we would always be

    Minutes feel like hours

    Desperately

    Wish I had you with me

    Can’t do it, without you

    Losing my composure, without you

    Can’t even breathe, without you

    Sitting here waiting, lonely without you

    What can I do, without you

    What can I do, I need you

    Needing you

    Calling you

    Where’s my special ring

    Cause I’m not hearing you

    Sweetie hit that reply

    Tell me that you hate me

    Emoji me, that you done with me

    Anything

    Anything

    Just need to know

    You got any emotion

    I realize myself

    I’m sorry

    I apologize

    I recognize

    Let me make it right

    Can’t do it, without you

    Losing my composure, without you

    Can’t even breathe, without you

    Sitting here waiting, lonely without you

    What can I do, without you

    What can I do, I need you

  • Here For You

    Here For You

    I don’t care what you do

    But whatever you do

    Just be consistent

    Let me evolve to your consistency

    And let us intertwine perpetually

    I don’t care what you do

    But whatever you do

    Know that I’m consistently

    Consistently here for you

    Into ever word that comes out of you

    Whether it’s text or said I engulf

    Every single bit of it deep in my head

    Holding onto to every syllable you utter

    You words enter me smooth as butter

    Cannot help but smile

    Especially when we riding for miles

    And I see your head bopping to the beat

    Invaded by privacy as if you from those NY street

    Even when I can’t see you I stay feeling you

    Even riding past where we had those first dates

    Builds up memories that will always last

    And if I could paint this picture for you

    Started with me staring at you

    Mesmerized by the sight of you

    I reach out for your hand

    Intermingle every single digit

    Cause I never want to miss this

    We talking about everything

    As if we thinking the same thing

    It’s just a beautiful thing

    Even when that same song come on

    Together we still sing

    Every single duet that comes on

    I can feel this energy

    Like the culmination of euphoria 

    It’s all in me, even from a reflection of ya

    Closing my eyes won’t give it justice

    Sometimes it’s the solace of silence

    It provides the very best guidance

    Showing me everything I need to see

    And it always shows that you are with me

    And it is just heaven sent

    This feeling that is felt when you’re absent

    And there is nothing more pleasing

    And there is always a reason

    Loving you in every season

    Know that I’m consistently

    Consistently here for you

  • Give You My Heart

    Give You My Heart

    If I could give you my heart

    Not the four letters of a valentine

    Or the fake sensation created over time

    Deeply connected into the universe

    Consecutively built from nothingness

    Unselfishly living as the precedent.

    If I could give you my heart

    Irrelevant of your feelings in its essence

    Combined with unbridled energy

    Giving you everything from me

    Imposing a confidence I can only feel

    Creating a difference the ideal

    If I could give you my heart

    Each morning would be new

    Embracing every beauty within you

    Unshackled opportunity in view

    Driving constantly, the break through

    Shining in the darkest purview

    If I could give you my heart

    You’d feel every meaning of everything

    Arms outstretched nothing missing

    Elevating past idol levels

    Gravitating into every joy

    Transcending very sorrow

  • Remember

    Remember

    Remember our first real talk

    Grand illusions of the future

    Talking like this and that would happen

    Spent hours just rapping

    Learning, creating and growing dreams

    Saw those things every night in my sleep

    For some reason it never become reality

    Remember how we use to do everything

    Didn’t matter just took one ring

    Wherever you were it was like gravity

    I just needed you next to me

    We went on and on for months

    Didn’t always have to talk

    Loved you and me in the dark.

    Remember that first time

    Missing you so hard after that trip

    Was so hard with that first kiss

    Something happened and I knew

    I never ever wanted to be without you

    Everyday was something new

    Just cause it was with you

    Remember those crazy missions

    It was like complete submission

    Surprised we kept our occupations

    Cause we were always together

    There was nothing better than TV all day

    Chinese for lunch and dinner

    I’d do anything for you

  • I can’t Do It

    I can’t Do It

    I can’t do it

    Celebrating mediocrity

    Holding onto this vain belief

    I am expected to celebrate freedom

    I am expected to ignore to cost

    I dare not say how many lives it has cost

    If I start to imagine this differently

    It feels like, really deep in me

    We are still paying a cost

    Because I must celebrate

    Each and every time

    Someone with skin color like mine

    Is ALLOWED to do something for the first time

    I can’t do it

    I see the Queens accomplishments

    But historically we know

    It doesn’t mean the door is really open

    It doesn’t mean they let her all the way in

    It means they opened it just enough

    Just enough for her to squeak in

    As soon as she was in

    That door was shut

    Lights turned onto the highest lumens

    To pick apart every single fault

    As she checked and double checked

    Preventing any failure to be unchecked

    I can’t do it

    I know I am expected to

    Be proud of that common phrase

    From over a century ago

    The first person to do X with this skin tone

    The thing that is hard for me

    That skin tone never stopped anyone’s ability

    In reality they could always do what they did

    The only thing lacking was opportunity

    This weight that is really upon me

    Is indirectly we are celebrating one simple fact

    Celebrating a decision that someone somewhere

    Decided to give this skin tone a chance

    I can’t do it

    I want to celebrate progress

    I want to see life for what it is meant to be

    The most honorable gentleman said

    We should be judged by the content of our character

    He was eluding to the sheer possibility

    That the skin we wear doesn’t define anything

    You could have a dark hue and win

    You could have a light hue and always sun

    The celebratory part is when no ones hue matters

    And it doesn’t stop there

    It’s when our thoughts are the only equity

    How do we celebrate that victory?

  • Love Matters

    Love Matters

    Love matters

    On my selfish shit

    Saying insensitive things

    Telling me about your day

    I’m telling you how it impacts me

    Hear you getting frustrated

    I cannot understand

    Now you all silent

    Give me another chance

    Let me listen to what you have to say

    Texting you, constantly, no response

    Calling you, voicemail, don’t hear a thing

    See you’re online, your status got that green thing

    It’s been like 24 hours since we talked

    First time it’s been so long

    Since we first met

    Not sure what to do next

    Hoping in the car need to find you

    Need to figure out what’s going on

    You responding like this is the finale

    Those words entered me

    Constricted my heart

    So much pain… hating myself intensely

    Love matters

    Days and days feel like that past me

    But you told me

    You needed silence

    I could barely speak

    Words lost in this mood

    Couldn’t work

    Couldn’t move

    Then out of nowhere

    Got that text

    You still mad at me

    Feeling some type of way

    But you still accepted

    My love is here to stay

    I am here

    Right here for you

    Don’t you know

    Whether it’s a second

    Or a lifetime

    I love you

    Love matters