Keep writing
Just to get it all out
Anything I can do
Cannot scream
Dear not shout
But the frustration
It’s confusing
Peace
It’s elusive
Keep writing
Speaking life into me
Somehow gaining energy
Constant serenity
Searching for more
Bless me with more
Always looking for
That gentle peace
Keep writing
Doing all I can
Letting it slip through
The anger, the fascination
Everything in me
Causing the hysteria
Rain drenching
Thunder rattling
I’m tired
Heard you say it
a thousand times
And I thought it was physical
All the time
Now I see, now I feel
That deep rooted appeal
People talking happy days
All the joy they have
Even on a sad day
I cannot feel it
Is it real?
Never had it, never will
Tired of this day
Being the last
Impatiently waiting
Exhausted anticipating
Tired, so tired, tired
Of everything
On everything
Tired of this day
Being the last
Impatiently waiting
Exhausted anticipating
Tired, so tired, tired
Of everything
On everything
Life is spent giving
Making sure others are living
Give it my all
But what’s left
Just the grand fall
So, so, tired
Doing everything that I can
Nothing left but sand
Pairs of footprints in back of me
Been here the whole time
Striving with all I got
But tired, is all I got
Tired of this day
Being the last
Impatiently waiting
Exhausted anticipating
Tired, so tired, tired
Of everything
On everything
Tired of this day
Being the last
Impatiently waiting
Exhausted anticipating
Tired, so tired, tired
Of everything
On everything
Show strength
Through every weakness
Accepting that I am
Everything that I have done
Molded through hardship
Into what I’ve become
Show strength
Through every tear
Releasing all I fear
Uncontrollable circumstances
Finding fake comfort
loving fake romances
Show strength
Through the Earth’s rotation
Defensively approaching situations
The past me, has gripped me
Presently not focused on me
Praying seeds are blessed irrespectively
Show strength
Through every heartbreak
Accepting quickly it’s for my sake
Holding onto a finite being
Prevents realization of the dream
Reaching toward that infinite being
So long a part of me,
that now I find energy from misery.
It’s a daily affirmation making and checking
the gates and walls keeping that hidden pain hidden.
Muscle memory is stronger,
I can fight not much longer.
People impressed at the rudimentary shit I do
cause they don’t know I’m never letting go.
Brick and mortar use to be torture
as I had to modify techniques to remain unique,
so common enemies could go right past
without a thought of the hidden vulture.
Death constantly looming,
watching my moves
wondering why I spent so many hours
protecting mental heirlooms.
Death didn’t know I’m never letting go.
People keep mentioning this place that’s free.
Speaking of earth
like it’s really heaven if I could only see.
Each day that triumph and disaster
I see completely changing destinies.
Wondering….
where is their fortress,
where is their shield
how can they exist not knowing
how to manage life’s unexpected tendencies.
What would they be
if they really knew that I’m never letting go.
The past is the only teacher we have.
There is an illusion that there is good and bad.
The response to that which is gone is the changing fad.
A culture of social dictatorship
enforcing how you must feel
and what you must do.
But what if,
the answer is just in you.
Picking and choosing what to include and exclude
not the solution,
the mastery of managing the response is the revolution.
Letting Go.
Experiencing things Differently
As if different choices were made
Imaging the differences as reality
Now I’m stuck on this fantasy
What if’s. And If that’s….
None of it means a thing
In reality it’s not better or worse
It’s just a different path to the same thing
Going deep into the emotion of different things
Plotting out new courses with a different ring
The difference of this emotion is only
That I’m trying to make it different
Like trying to only carve out the best
Like this fantasy wont let me rest
Repeating my past with different decisions
Precisely laid out like an incision
It’s just a different way but the same pain
Looking at money differently
Don’t need different banks to exchange pennies
I am the hedge fund, creating wealth differently
Money watching money make money
Different life sure to be
That different life, different expenses surely
And in an instant still broke as could be
But at least I made the money differently
Pain is soothed by different thoughts
As if I weren’t in control the first time around
The different things I would have done
If and only if I knew what I know now
Same intelligence doesn’t lead to a different result
This is the life I have, I could start living or be lost
Focusing on where I am
versus where I thought I should be
The only difference, is the difference I am imagining.
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Loved and rejected
Synonymously interwoven
Associate one with the other
As if they are one in the same
As I come to accept the real
Pain
Loving ones that rejects you
Rejecting ghosts that love you
Peace and pain
Intertwined overtime
Pretending I’m at peace
With the the pain within me
So comfortable in fact
Life
Is the peace I feel in pain
The pain becomes my peace
Accepted and deteriorated
Building inescapable fate
Witnessing my own demise
Longing for an escape
Accepting the amount of hate
Existence
accepting a deteriorating life
Deteriorating accepting systemic defeat
Hope and Hate
Creating mystical obstacles
Hoping for Love and Peace
Hating the pain and rejection
Deteriorating my acceptance
Living
Regardless of this past
Independently I shall last
I cannot blame you
For who I was
No more than I can blame you
For who I am
I am every choice
That I MAKE
So of those will good
Most will be bad
The only comfort
Is that I am so focused
On learning from my own mistakes
I cannot blame you
Although I spent so much time
Doing exactly that
That know that I know better
Its hard to change a thing
Because I cannot get
Not one single second back
So instead of blaming you
Now, in reality I started hating you
Using hate as a fuel
I have become so cruel
I cannot blame you
But it is easier to blame you
Than to blame myself
Because if I blame myself
That would mean I failed myself
And I do not want to admit that
To myself
Yet I am stuck in this cycle
Of a lack of accountability
For every choice that I made
Wasn’t always made for me
Heart beating slower
Mood much lower
Struggling to consume
No more room
Emptiness vastness
Prevailing blankness
Captured by darkness
Subtle tone
Energy gone
Looking deeply
Nights mystery
Reminding me
Endless possibility
Stars for me
Shining brightly
Stomach bonded tightly
Swift anxiety
Cannot move
Life disapprove
Flesh and bone
Energy gone
Cannot breathe
Pain underneath
Longing disbelief
Driving passion
Simple compassion
Lack of focus
Depressed diagnosis
Opening conclusions
Summarized illusion
Unanswered phone
Energy gone
Years of tears
Letting every drop
Build up
Hold it in
Containing it
Letting evaporation
Evaporate every sin
Take away each pain
Years of tears
The dam is well maintained
Always with
A smile on the face
Hiding every disgrace
Left thinking
How to hide everything
As if I don’t feel a thing
Years of tears
In the pit of despair
Feeling the void
Lost energy
Everything leaving me
Any possibility to see
Something new
Old world view
Years of tear
And every few years
I release these tears
Flushing out everything
Lost in this fantasy
As if pain is temporary
Pretending in this
No end to this
Alone in this room,
Since yesterday around noon,
If the law of attraction is real
What does it mean when,
When there’s no one to feel.
Have you ever been alone,
In that place by yourself, alone
No one to call, alone
No one to see, everyone is gone
Only thing left is….being alone
Thoughts flowing freely.
Lot of people say they need me.
But in the fell clutch of circumstances
By myself, defiant
With no more chances.
Have you ever been alone,
In that place by yourself, alone
No one to call, alone
No one to see, everyone is gone
Only thing left is….being alone
Every so often meet a new face,
Dare not open up in this place.
Cause I know what I bring
But Always hesitant
when I hear the same game
Have you ever been alone,
In that place by yourself, alone
No one to call, alone
No one to see, everyone is gone
Only thing left is….being alone
I know in the end I’ll be ok
Cause time heals pain
Need faith to hold straight, so Ima hold on
This ain’t nothing new ima keep on
Have you ever been alone,
In that place by yourself, alone
No one to call, alone
No one to see, everyone is gone
Only thing left is….being alone
I don’t stay down for long
I take a little time just to mourn
Each day is something new
But I know, I know, I will get through.
First tear gave way for another
Wallowed within the mystery
The deepest darkest scheme
Started as just a dream
Which enabled envy
Thinking I’m more than another
First tear washed away the fear
Created new opportunities
Opened every door I saw
Didn’t realize this was all
Recognizing hopes improbabilities
The coldest day gripped in fear
First tear washing the past
Out the window staring
Seeing the intricacies
Peeping the mysteries
No one even caring
How long will it last
First tear just a shadow of me
Sun exaggerating the humidity
Sweat filling each every pore
With infinite dollars I’m still poor
Slowly losing every bit of dignity
Void of everything I claim to be
Hard to let it be
Seeing it control you
Nothing I can do
Even doing the classics
Aligning it to a disaster
These feelings are sinister
Nothing left to pursue
So let you be you
And let me be me
Let it be?
Hard to let it be
Feeling like
Damn near grew up with you
Learning about life
Through the things you do
Watching the paramount
And every single low point
Yet and still
Seeing what I see
Let it be?
Hard to let it be
Seen this all before
The resentment
The reflection
The rejection
The simplification
The definitions
The acceptance is deafening
What else could it be?
Let it be?
Hard to let it be
Seeing people you love
Struggling with things
Completely out of your control
Yet they want you involved
In other things
While avoiding the real things
We are all meant to pretend
That everything is
What it is
The ask of me,
Let it be?
Hard to let it be
But there is nothing left
How much energy is left
Watching those in peril
Avoiding sage advice
Avoiding different thinking
Accepting a single way
As the only way
Time lost in difficulty
Let it be?
Hard to let it be
Hearing over and over
This is only one way
And this must be the way
Exhausted every way
As if ways are finitely defined
And this is just a part of time
Challenging to accept honesty
Covered in mediocrity
Let it be….
I have been unwanted for so long
Only want people
that don’t want me
Lovely feeling chasing
fake memories
Making beauty
out of the worse things
If I ain’t unwanted
must be something wrong
Cause why would someone
Ever wanna want me
Cause why would someone
Ever want to stop
putting pain on me
Addicted to this pain
It’s the only real thing
I have been unwanted for so long
Afraid to
say my own name
It must be the initiation
of this innermost pain
Magnetism embedded
In the syllables
Pulls negativity
directly into me
Sitting and waiting
Waiting and thinking
Thinking and listening
Listening and believing
Believing in pain
Cause pain is what I know
So I keep it close to me
I have been unwanted for so long
Rorschach said to me
It makes me happy
I don’t wanna even see
that you stay hurting me
It’s not you
It’s me
Situational silence
Violent surprising
Weight heavy for me
World won’t wait for me
Will you bring it to me
That peaceful way
Loving me everyday
Thinking it’s a new way
When it’s my only way
Thoughts reverting feverishly
Losing the complexity
The sanity that holds me
I know you’d tell me to hold on
So I’m holding onto this
This faith that I do not understand
What happened to the time
When you are old and gray
When you need people
To help you on your way
Where we visit you
Periodically we hear you are doing “OK”
It’s like in an instant
You were taken away
Thoughts ravishing psychologically
Stuck feeling desperately
Guessing at how to feel
When every positive feeling
Has already abandoned me
And my face stays scrunched up
Holding in every tear
Hasn’t even been a day
But feels so subtly
Like you’ve been gone for years
Because it would take me years
For me to express this
This deepened feeling
Lost in simple meaning
Thoughts pressing deeply
Anger erupting
Screaming for the resurrection
If it was done before
Why won’t you do it now
I know questioning is taboo
I’m just not feeling
Like I’m suppose to
Each picture I see
I can remember the exact feeling
Selfishly I looked forward to seeing you
Feeling that you were proud of me
Holding on is so hard
God please help me!
Doing what I can
Encouraging every pain
Every single pain
All this pain within me
Invoking it profusely
Daring to convince it
For only for an instant
Pushing through it
Forgetting all of it
But every time
I try to write it out of me
It all leaves me
Then I have peace
Momentarily
Before that pain
It repeatedly invades me
Counting it all joy
That’s what I’m suppose to do
Count it
Count it
Count it in every single finger
Count it on all my toes
Need to hold onto that belief
But if I believe
Shouldn’t I believe
Everything was meant to be
But then reality sets in
Recognizing momentarily
That unbridled belief
Naturally believing
That isn’t within me
It invades me
Going through the stages
Psychologically
I already know what it is
The stages repeat historically
You cannot skip any steps
The only goal
Is going as fast as possible
Go through every step
As fast as possible
For whatever reason
I know love is everything
But when I stop and think
The deniability stays with me
That anger is growing
Negotiating different feelings
Simply depressed
Avoiding acceptance
Nothing in me will believe
It invades me
Hurting for so long
Self inflicted pain
Rationalizing others effects on me
I cannot remember anyone staying with me
At some point everyone leaves
De prioritized me
So eventually I would leave
Before they would leave me
Do not share the inner you
Having prescribed emotions
Reading people before they read you
Staying on the defense
Only trust my own boundary
Cause I know it’s just me
The mirror looking at me
And the only one it sees is me
Living four lives on a constant basis
The reality of the past
Wondering how long pain will last
The what if of the past
As if I could avoid my past
The fantasy of the future
And presently As if the previous three
Don’t already have a handle on me
Innocence fleeing
Losing perspective
Waiting for substance
Addictive reminiscent
Focused on free
Just let me be me
Dimmed light
Shaded destiny
Presently grieving
Transposing seasons
Cannot feel complete
Your not with me
Radioactive feeling
Cemented to the ceiling
Paralysis reaching
Depths of infinity
Pit of desperation
Darkened me
Resurrection
Anticipating elevation
Confused similarities
Deepened sanctity
Enlisted in fantasy
Reminding me of me
What would I be without me
Without the self hate and self doubt
How would I make it without
That negative energy that drives me
I pray, Protect me from me
Remember the tribulations
Feeling anxiety from separation
Avoiding the bullets final call
Left with nothing positive in me
I pray, protect me from me
The challenge of the remedy
Lack of belief that I can be better than me
Nothing wrong with where I am at
It’s ok if I never reach the potential of my being
I pray, protect me from me.
Not as strong as the shadow I cast
Easy to spout off important things that last
Pitching suggestions and allegations relentlessly
But those soliloquies don’t inspire me
Not as influential as the wake of success
Trained in the art of war, only pursued the inevitable
Encouraging every soul within my grasp
But that inspiration doesn’t care for me.
Not as thoughtful as gracious people say I am
I’m avoiding regret and karma on the back end
Making a difference in other people’s life
But life is not the same for me
Not as caring as I care to be
Able to ignore desperate people in time of need
Selfishly focused like that doesn’t impact me
But it’s who I am. And that person is me.
Who knows me?
Walking this world with billions of people
Yet I walk it alone.
No one could say they know my dreams
No one can say they love me
No one knows me
Who knows me?
Cannot remember someone offered to help
When is the last time I had a visit
Have endless experiences but none momentous
But I’m sure people have asked loving questions
And I casually find a way to deflect them
The wall that protects me is strong
No one knows me
Who knows me?
There have been people seeking to find the entry
But I let no one in.
Blame everyone for the wrongdoing of a few and that was the end.
There is no worth in loving unconditionally
More misfortune than lies than any happy feeling
Take the easy way out and stay alone
At least I know who I’m with
No one knows me
Sitting here thinking bout the past,
I’m always surprised
I was able to make it last.
It ain’t an anchor
But a lot of lessons learned,
Now I’m just tryna
Heed my own words.
Just never knew I’d end up here.
Filled with all kinds of shit
I don’t wanna hear.
Thinking of the present future
With the past right here.
If only you knew,
If only I could bear.
Walking this street
With the rain falling.
Screaming out loud
And it’s God I’m calling.
I need to understand
Why I’m being punished.
Who did I hurt?
What did I do?
Feeling like I’m finished.
Just never knew
I’d end up here.
Filled with all kinds of shit
I don’t wanna hear.
Thinking of the present future
With the past right here.
If only you knew,
If only I could bear.
Think I’m scared
To know the truth.
What would be revealed
If I knew the truth.
Contemplating shit
That ain’t even real.
Caught up in past decisions
Like it’s my final deal.
What am I suppose to do?
Just never knew I’d end up here.
Filled with all kinds of shit
I don’t wanna hear.
Thinking of the present future
with the past right here.
If only you knew,
If only I could bear.
wish I could give you hope
Hope to see
Beyond your limitations
To believe in
Outlandish destinations
Knowing that all you need
Is hope
wish I could give you grace
Grace to appreciate
Every single blessing
Each opportunity
With endless appreciation
Knowing that all you need
Is grace
wish I could give you energy
Energy to reach your goals
Your wildest fantasy
Every possible thing
You could ever need
Knowing that all you need
Is energy
wish I could give you everything
Everything that you need
Filling every single dream
Close your eyes
Make thought the Reality
Knowing that all you need
Is everything
Peacefulness
Through midnight dreams
Creating images
Never will I see
Striving toward euphoria
Without smoke, powders or liquids
Naturally believing
Still it’s deceiving
Hopefulness
Through the storied past
Lessons learned
Uncountable bodies burned
Humiliating history
Yet we claim the source a mystery
No one sacrificing to be free
Because freedom is a commodity
Faithfulness
Through words in historic text
Paralyzed thinking how history
Can ever tell you what’s next
Avoiding past behavior
Expecting a clandestine savior
Yet every hero is battered
Until the thought of the next
Lovingness
Through two pair of arms
Bodies intertwined
Weathering every storm
Intimacy so diligently
Somehow inspires desires
Knowing one entity
Still loves me
Woke up crying
Mom asked why
I cannot remember the dream
I remember
Not wanting to be alive
Why did he leave
I just never knew
Mom said
This is what I will do for you
I will reach out to him
Because he owes you this
She ended with a kiss
The time was arranged
The phone did ring
“hello”….
Tears was all I could bear
He waiting for a while
With a lisp he asked
“are you there”
From his point of view
I didn’t need anything
My mom would provide it all
Thus the burden was past to me
Would I leave my children, like he left me
Children arrived one at a time
After a while I started to understand
It isn’t easy to be a father, to be a man
I reached out again
Just one more time
Arranged a visit sporadically
Ended up in his home for the night
Not necessarily comfortable
But just something I needed to do
Even saw pictures of my “nephews”
With the same dimples that my two have
Regardless of individual feelings
Genetics are still passed
That was the end of that chapter
We connected a few more times
Nothing significant
Just no longer had any interest
But somehow that one scene
It still gets to me
On the Fresh Prince of Bel Aire
In one of the final scenes
Will asking Uncle Phil
“Why he don’t want me?”
Praying That
Every single memory
Will be cherished
For an entire eternity
That somehow
That love and joy
Sustains you
Forever more.
Praying that
When things go wrong
The wisdom they shared keeps you going
That special memory
That you remember
Continues, holding your dreams forever
That your sadness finds comfort
Knowing joy will come after.
Praying that
The accomplishments you’ll make
That you never underestimate
Know that they are so proud
And that they’ll always be around
Saying I’m so proud
Accept that change is inevitable
But life is perpetual.
Praying that
You will always say their name
Even when no one else can
Believe in life, like life believes in you
Allow your heart to heal
No One will ever know how you feel
May comfort stay by your side
And the strength of God’s will.
Waiting on the steps
From the dawn of light
Anticipating the excitement
From last night
Plans was made
Times agreed
Made sure I was washed up
Eat up
Ready for anything
Dawn turned to day
Way before pagers and cell phones
Ringing the house
No one was home
Patiently waiting
Mom tryna convince me
It’s better to wait inside
So afraid to miss my ride
Just counted the cars go by
Day turned to evening
Friends coming back
Full day of sweating and playing
Asking if I’ll go for round 2
Nah, I said I was waiting for you
Continued to wait
Excitement in me
Every-time I saw
Car lights slow down momentarily
Evening gave way to night
Crickets starting
Lighting bugs now visible
Steps my anchor
Misery my crucible
Mom says you just called
That you apologize
You’ll make it up
First time I no longer gave a fuck
Night turned into a new day
Kept tryna to think
What did I do
Why didn’t you come get me
I was good all week
Got all my work done
You promised to be there
I didn’t know lying was acceptable
Maybe I was just gullible
New day turned into New Years
Same little promise
But now I know
As plain as I can see
Your words and actions
don’t mean the same thing
We was never the same
Always saw you differently
Never again wanted that pain
Since I realized I was alone
Since I realized he was never coming home
Accepting the loss within me
Learning everything independently
There were always others around me
But none of them looked like me
Inherited love in a different feeling
Embedded in the concept of creation
Complicated in that new beginning
Proudly smiling at the planted seed
The proud excitement of something new
Always had that with you
Wrote down every promise
Each and every action I pledged to keep
Looking retrospectively
Mirror gave me all that I need
Every gap and hole in me
Providing you every opportunity
That day finally arrived
Wish I could have captured
That tear from my eye
That love anew
Never knew love
Like I knew it with you
Conception of history
Realization of everything in me
Damnation struck me down.
Evolution couldn’t stop this now.
Perpetuation of something renewed.
Redemption of this crown.
My life now sworn.
My child is born.
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Eternity of vengeance
Lays beneath my skin
Absorbing every pain
Every situation I’m in
Gently gliding fluidly
Patiently feeling unity
Eternity of envy
Admiring possessive beings
building their happiness
Creatively framing this
Projecting different opportunities
Anxiety of empty dreams
Eternity of forgiveness
Voided understanding
Impossibility treating you differently
Imagining you weren’t damage
Awoke inner savage
Hardened into hatefulness
Eternity of kindness
Sweet summer breeze
Surf rising below your knees
Remembering the hatefulness
Accepting gracefulness
Rejecting the peace in this
Everyday is a new blessing for me
Not talking about waking up or what I see
Talking about that new energy
That new passion, pushing through life’s uncertainty
It’s about that new idea seeded inside of me
The conversations are a blessing for me
Encouraging the moves and flexibility
Being open to a new possibility
I thought I was the shit, but that was the old me
This is a new grind, a way of life to see
Everything about this fills me abundantly
The excitement is a blessing for me
I don’t get up I race up like the Grand Prix
I’m screaming, I’m yelling, sacrificing everything
Gotta make use of this blessing’s bounty
Got my strategy delivering objectives daily
I’m grinding, persevering, relentlessly
Wait to you see, what God has for me!
Life ain’t easy.
But it wasn’t meant to be this hard
It isn’t right for a father to leave
Only those that have seen that door close
We are the only ones that know
No matter what words
Or vain explanations are given
There is a void created
When the man that made you
Abandons you.
Life ain’t easy.
Just a lot of attempts to try different things
In principle, we have that guiding force
That intentional opportunity
Our predecessor making the road easy
Fatherhood is by choice, not bonded in pregnancy
We can be a father to anyone
Including someone else’s seed
It also means
It can be turned off, quickly.
Life ain’t easy
When you have your own seeds
The purpose of life becomes clearer
The love we have for our children
Oft times too much to even fathom
Then that hurt grows deeper
Asking, Why doesn’t he love me,
Like I love them?
No one knows God’s plan
Please believe we are still in God’s hands.
Life ain’t easy
But we want the easier road
Every pain and tear had a reason
And after enduringly long seasons
We are stronger than our father will ever know
The lesson is this….
When you give your own
That heartfelt forehead kiss
Make that your daily promise
That you will never give them the pain
That was given to you.
Is my heart still beating
Is my mind still thinking
Something is so unreal
Can not describe how it feels
Consuming my inner being
More than what you are seeing
That perception, not my reality
Tired of being me
Is life worth living
Is air worth breathing
The end looking tempting
Cannot release this feeling
Failed so miserably
Every effort into meaningless things
Stifled into mediocrity
What happened to me
Is this my past
Is this my future
Lost every present I have
Counting sand in the hourglass
Pain don’t last
Enduring horrid’s mystery
Life and me
Is life fair
Is life hard
Really don’t care
Can not fathom being free
Guessing that feeling
Feels like endless opportunity
Unfulfilled destiny
Following sunshine
Early morning stretch
Reaching to the depths
haven’t even started yet
So I take a deep breath
Not sure what I have left
Nothing short of miraculous
Heart so gracious
Following sunshine
Everything on my mind is mine
Thankful for everything in me
Now I’m wondering why me
So I take a deep breath
Accepting the world as I see it
Not sure if I believe it
Mind full of intent
Following sunshine
Not a cloud in the sky
Seeing the full horizon
Life is not surprising
So I take a deep breath
Knowing that clouds come and go
Regardless of the sky
I gotta keep moving by
Following sunshine
Sun approaching the end
Darkest shadow creeps in
Doing my best to object
With endless energy
I’m begging for synergy
Integrating light and death
Believing in faith and opportunity
Trying with all my will
Hoping to maintain this deal
For far too long
It’s been hard to stay strong
Overly dependable and suitable
Going through travesty
Like I was a your majesty
Trying with all my will
Accepting life’s deal
With all its joy and pain
Some of it left me
With everlasting stains
Yet I hold it all in
Only way to win
Trying with all my will
Avoiding every drug, every pill
Non-alcoholic drinks
Just naturally sit and think
Every decision made
Imagining a different reality
No matter what, it’s still me
Trying with all my will
Watching clouds traverse
Seeking into hip hops classic verse
Trying not to lose my head
Some mornings I wake up dead
Piecing this life like weather
Each revolution forever
Sy Bryant 